how the FUCK do I stop having nostalgia over periods that weren't that good?
case in point, in summer 2014 I was doing an internship that was TOTAL SHIT and I recal hating it.
Yet when I think back about this period there is part of me thinking that it was nice because I was in a nice city and it was summer, so my feeling is to feel like it wasnt' that bad. Yet I know I felt like shit when I was experiencing it
why such a disconnect? how can I fix this?
Our minds lie to us. I suffer from severe depression, there have been many times where I am talking to someone close about missing a certain point in my life and they recall to me that I was actually still depressed at that time.
If you have an already existing mental disorder take that into consideration. Our minds are extremely complicated and I would say most of the problems humanity faces are caused by lack of self-awareness and of the sub-conscious.
As I am approaching 25 now and my frontal cortex is almost fully developed it is becoming much easier for my autistic beta-ass to rationalize with myself.