Everyone in my family hates me and wants me to kill myself and

>>16616904
stop being such a whiny bitch and do something about it instead of just giving up. spite for your enemies will motivate you to succeed

>>16616912
Thats what i was thinking when they were being cruel to me. Like they want me dead, but them being that cruel gives me a reason to live if only to spite them. Inheritance wise they would benefit from my death a lot, I do try to change my life, but I also mainly feel hopeless. I hate even leaving the house because becauseI have panic attacks and im fucking ugly and awkward as shit, so it makes it hard to change or keep changed. Like I said ive been through a lot and this is just one more thing cutting me down and keeping me broken. Stuff like this kills me inside