Say it

Drunk under a bridge listening to Mischief Brew. I want to take a train out of here right now

Why we're you pushing me away? Why can't you tell me? You know why, you tell me you know! Fucking tell me! I think you're too afraid to tell the truth. That's why I crossed the line and came to your place Tuesday. I think you wanted me to be the bad guy because you're too much of a fucking coward to actually say it yourself.

Fuck you! We were together for 7 months! I thought you were better than that.

>>16461873
I wish I had less expensive taste in weaponry

You're stupid just leave me

Why did you push all of my buttons yesterday in front of all your friends?

I get that I was in a shit mood and you drank me under the table as usual. But shit, you had me fucking crying at the end when you blew that one private story way out of proportion. I felt like a complete joke and lost it.

Of course, as the good friend you are, you fixed it by forcing my drunk ass to crash on your bed while you and the others took off happily.

I'm getting mixed signals here. I think I can't have a friend who bragged once about manipulation skills.

Fucking ugly spic, we do not live in our apartment for free. Quit making dumbass assumptions or fuck off to your shithole country.

It was a random craigslist hookup, and I'll never see you again. But that was so awkward and I'm sorry for disappointing you, I know it wasn't what you were looking for.

I wish I could talk about it to someone, but I promised to be discreet.

I just know I'll die as a kissless virgin without accomplishing much in my life, all that after spending years having anxiety and a shitty health because of stress (thank you so much college) and bad genes. I should just give up and play video games all day long instead of trying to have good grades and a "normal" life.

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Sometimes I feel bad, but I don't think I could be with anyone that large. I love your personality, and who you are, but I don't think I could be with someone who doesn't want to take care of their body. It's never going to work between us and I'll most likely find somebody who atleast puts in the effort, but I can't tell you this right now.

>>16461893
7 months is nothing, if they want you to leave them alone then leave them the fuck alone. 7 months meant nothing to them most likely.

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>>16461873
Do I want to fuck you? Yes.. But I really want to talk about something. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently so..

Stardust Crusaders > Diamond is Unbreakable

I think about killing myself every day, because of you.
I wish you would understand how hard i'm trying.
I wish you could comprehend the horror you've made me

>>16462271
the struggle is real

>>16461873
i wish i could get my ass up, get out to fucking do stuff like socialising, meet new people, looking for a new job...
i wish i had the courage and willpower to push myself out of my comfort zone

I have reason to believe my girlfriend is currently doing heroin in my car with some other dude.

I've almost caught her doing it a few times but she makes up these crazy stories to get out of it.

If I walk outside I might catch her in the act, but I'm really nervous to do so.

What do I do?

I cried in front of my friend in a cafe... talking about him. She says that sometimes we need to express about our troubles or worries, there's nothing wrong of doing that but and I really, really appreciate her support to me... but I've felt really pathetic for doing that. Crying in a public place because I was talking about him.

Months have passed yet and it seems that I can't overcome this yet. That's why I've felt pathetic.

>>16462358
when i have learned something over the last years, im 24yo male btw, then that it doesnt matter if you do something that makes you feel bad in the first place but makes you see things clearer or gets smth off your chest,--> if you can see even the slightest brink of a positive thought or a new idea that makes you think in a new perspective, then its worth it

>your friend is right, noone can swallow ones feelings forever
>let them out, you'll be fine

>>16462381
(cont)

you're not pathetic, you are just a human beeing

I've been trying really hard to deal with my boyfriends issues, I've been as supportive as I possibly could be, I haven't been burdening him with my own, up until recently when my own issues began interfering with how much support I could offer him. I told him everything when he asked, fairly serious things like the likelihood of ending up literally homeless at any given time and his response was to read my message and pretend that I don't exist and currently still is.
It hurts and I can't see that things will ever change, but if I leave him I'm breaking the promise that I made to emotionally support him and help him through the shitty time he is going through.

I've always detested hypocrites and I've finally become one by tolerating something in a relationship that I used to mock people for. Feels bad.

>>16462443
Lose the zero and get with the hero

Actually make a decision, if you're actually apprehensive just say no already.

God damn.

>>16462159

How about building a healthy relationship with them by trying to help them get better, anon?
my ex helped me lose 50 lbs and I'm still going strong.

I'm just too goddamn tired of seeing so many bad things happen. Humanity, please stop. We suck.

Don't really have anything to say TO somebody but just feel like venting about people.
>have friend as driving instructor
>ANOTHER man with power ego issues about women
>seems to have some kind of pleasure yelling at me to do EXACTLY what he tells me to do
>lessons are stalled at parallel parking because instead of letting me learn how to adapt his tactics to myself he only allows me to do things exactly the way HE does it
>no questions, no deviations
>gets upset when I don't know wtf to do when he's not micromanaging
>one day decide to ignore his screaming and park my way but still using his advice
>finally do it right and he's still pissed
>WHY DIDN'T YOU LISTEN TO WHAT I SAID
>tell him i wanted to try a different way
>THERE IS NO DIFFERENT WAY. YOU HAVE TO ABSOLUTELY DO IT MY WAY OR YOU'RE GOING TO FAIL YOUR DRIVING TEST
>keep ignoring his screaming
>he finally stfu after parking perfectly several times
>decides that we're going to stop and do something else
>starts yelling at me about small things like signalling too late/soon and not stopping EXACTLY on/at stop signs
>end of lesson
>compliments me on FINALLY learning how to park but goes on to say he thinks our lessons are taking too long and he doesn't know what to say to make me learn faster
>says it's probably him and his old fashioned way of doing things

>>16462815
>driving instructor
>ANOTHER man with power ego issues about women

So what you're saying is that a man doing his job is sexist?

Because driving instructors do that to everyone.
Nerves get to people on the tests, that's what makes them fail.

So driving instructors have to create an equally or even moreso stressful environment in order for you to learn to drive well even under pressure.

Seriously, my driving instructor was the same way. Passed first time because the damn test was so damned relaxing compared to a lesson.

It meant he was doing his job.

It isn't about "me man, you woman, caveman want cave-sex ugh - be little bitch", like all you fuckin' women seem to think.

Fucks sake, how come everytime anything you don't fuckin' like happens, your only go to move it to stick your nose up at men.

Seriously, the fuckin' hypocracy of it, seein' as you lot complain about sexism more.

Seriously, why you even learning to drive, why not just start a tumblr campaign about how women shouldn't need liscenses because you're all so much smart than us fuckin' cavemen.

Bitch.

>>16461873

It's my fault but I still fucking enjoyed it. I don't give a fuck, I loved every fucking minute of it and I would do it again in a heartbeat. I don't give a fuck about him and even less about you.

>>16462857
Not the same poster, but fuck this guy. You don't have to scare someone to teach them. That's fucking bullshit.

>>16462161
I highly doubt that? If it meant nothing, why waste that much time? Why would you waste all that time knowing you weren't going anywhere with it?

>>16462864

Didn't scare me, but did put the pressure on.

People seem to forget that, while cars all might be a routine part of our daily lives, they also can easily kill people.

They big, heavy and fast, and if you're incapable of being in control of the car under any sort of pressure, then you're a danger to yourself and others.

Quite frankly, they need to know you can handle yourself - otherwise what's gonna happen when there not in that car with you and you're having a bad day?

How do you think a driving instructor would feel, if someone they taught ran over some kid? They'd feel responsible too. They need to be certain.

I wish I could take myself less seriously. It'd probably be easier to form relationships that way. But I also don't want to embrace the butt-monkey status that many people seem to imbue in me.

my girlfriend is mad at me, what should i do?

>>16462447
I love the fuck out of this post.

I'm lonely as fuck (I'm not one of those depressive teens that's dealing with a break up) but well I have barely anymore friends and all my current friends want to leave me too and my family doesnt really care either I tell everyone I'm fine with being alone but deep down I hate it Im also shy as fuck and I have a low self esteem So I barely try to approach others to make friends with mostly they always just pick on me if I ask anyways I just really really really hate being lonely to the point of where I can't take it anymore

A charity/organisation have tried to contact me and hopefully it's because they want me to volunteer for them. Ideally, I don't want to be in a charity shop and I would love to actually interact with people with disabilities rather than just *work* with them if you get what I mean?

The last time I volunteered, I unknowingly signed up to work on days when those with special needs would be working and one volunteer wasn't really capable of working and would often flip out and start screaming and it was just generally a high-stress environment that would put me on edge. I'm tolerant and understanding but I'm also capable of realising that this individual isn't suitable for the type of work they were being asked to do due to their limitations.

Hopefully I've been contacted to do something new and interesting but there's also a chance that I was recommended to this organisation because I was the MVP of the previous charity that I volunteered for. I was so good at what I did, I was often let off early because I would do a day's work in about 3 hours whilst everyone complained about the boss.

I don't understand why everyone that volunteers seems to have such a shit work ethic? Do your tasks or fuck off.

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It's raining outside. I can't even hear the rain no more.
I'm in deep travel within my thoughts. My journey takes me through my past, the girls I had been dating, the people that I have fought and the things that I did wrong.
I have done so many things wrong.

I need to let that feel go. This is not the end. But I don't understand why I keep seeing flashbacks. I'm confussed and scared. I don't know what's happening to me right now.
I miss having a gf. I don't feel good when I'm alone.

Feeling genuine emotion makes me tired. My infant son is in pain due to digestive issues, nothing I've tried is helping, it's getting worse. Seeing him hurting and being unable to help despite my best efforts is making me feel sick. He's screamed in pain more than a few times in the past few days, and the screams seem to get more intense every time. The pediatrician won't even be in tomorrow to advise me on more steps to take. I'm so sad and frustrated.

>>16462815
Guess I was supposed to say he was wrong and it's not him, it's me, whatever obligatory bullshit people usually say but instead I told him that while I am listening to his advice, which is all great and useful, that he needs to give me a chance to figure out what I did wrong and fix my mistake. During lessons, he wouldn't give me a chance to figure out where and how I went wrong. Instead, he'd just scream, "STOP, GO BACK AND START OVER" or stand next to the car telling me to turn here, there, back up, go forward, which only made me good at following directions and not actually learning how to park since he wouldn't allow me to even look anywhere but where he wanted me to look. I only learned when I was able to freely look around and see where I went wrong.
>"So you're saying I'm giving bad advice?"
>tell him that I'm keeping his advice in mind since it's solid advice but I need him to step back a little and let me fix my mistakes
>says ok and schedules our next lesson
>next lesson
>"Well, since you know every fucking thing now, we're going to do things differently"
>wut I never said that
>OH YES YOU DID I WISH I HAD A TAPE RECORDER. You said you didn't need me giving you advice!
>no, i said--
>I KNOW WHAT YOU SAID. Women always act as if they know everything but they need US men to fix everything for them.
>What does me being a woman have to do with anything
>OH NO! You women always know better than us men so since you know so fucking much you're not allowed to make ANY mistakes today or our lessons are done!

I'd take you back in a heart beat. I miss you and cuddling you. I want to talk to you, but I know if I try I'd be pushing you farther away. I really want you to talk to me again. I know shit went stale when I stopped working but I want to try again with you. I know the areas in which I fucked up on and can be better.

I wish there were places people went to hookup that didn't involve getting shitfaced.

Being stuck here for so long with all these shitty people has finally gotten to me. Idfk

>>16462857
>>16462857
Read above. There's also some backstory I didn't include because I didn't think anyone was reading but his wife is the breadwinner in their family and she treats him like a little bitch as a result. He has no control or opinion in his household so he takes his frustration about it out on me during our lessons. He will micromanage everything I'm doing and say it's because he has "the natural stick shift" and I naturally don't know what the fuck I'm doing or if he had a particularly bad day with his wife, he will find something to nitpick about for hours while interjecting shit about women and his wife. For example, we've had one lesson where he decided to chew me out for an hour because I parked the car slightly off center (like 2 inches) and decided to mention that it's because women are "terrible drivers who don't know shit and they don't know how to listen to men who know what they're doing". I've had him complain to me about how men are more valuable in the workforce because his wife had a FT job with benefits while he's unable to find anything better than PT for some reason.

More recently, I guess he and his wife have straightened things out so he's been a lot better but seriously our lessons were suffering for awhile because of his attitude.

As for the stress factor, I understand the need to put pressure on me while I'm driving. And I welcome it. In recent lessons he's been pressuring me in a healthy manner by noting things to be on the lookout for or quizzing me while driving or surprising me or saying silly things to test my reactions. I'm not afraid of pressure. I just don't like this man venting his frustrations out on me when I've done nothing to deserve it.

You made me an asshole. You hurt me so bad and then worst part is you got to move on and be happy with your ex while I cried fucking cried floor for the first time in 8 years. I can't connect emotionally with women anymore because I don't trust them. I've fucked every gender/age there is and I don't feel shit. And I leave women broken and worthless when I'm done with them. The worst part is that none of it makes me feel better. I would kill you if I could get away with it you selfish bitch!

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I'm not sure I want to keep going.

>>16462931
Uh, there are.

>>16462910
Lady, I feel your problems right now. There's a guy in my calc class who hates women right now because his wife is leaving him for another man, and I totally get it, but because I was the only female in our study group he just dumped on me all the time. I get that my presence may have gotten on his nerves, and he did apologize and try not to bitch at me, but I just wanted to scream "oh get the fuck over it, I'm not the one leaving you!"

I'm really missing you, 2 years is hard to forget, I've made mistakes and I get it but him? He was my best friend and you two were the only people I could talk to, I had noone but you two, but now you two are the ones I have to avoid most, I miss your kisses, I miss your smile, I miss your laugh and I miss your quirks and personality, you made me so happy. I was clinically depressed before I met you, you were the only thing that kept me from thinking of suicide, now your the biggest reason I fear il do it, I'm so different and so strange, my likes and dislikes, my ideas and thoughts they are all so unheard of but only you with your cute smile and dimples, your big brown eyes and your so cute voice, understood and comforted me, and I did the same for you, because I loved you, now you want nothing to do with me, all because I wanted to spend time with you, you felt locked in with me and felt guilty when you weren't with me, I didn't want you to feel that, you were just the only person I could say anything too, I could be me to, now I have nobody, and the one thing that had given me happiness in my whole life, is gone. Now I'm home alone, sitting in my room thinking of our anniversary, with a knife 2 feet from me, I will always love you, and will never forget you, I miss that nickname I used to call you, Potonug, I'm really hurting, and have been for a while, now that I'm alone, I fear and feel like I know the hurt will control me and I'm sorry if I let it, I can't take it anymore. Ever since you left I've kept a knife under my bed, but I've never felt this close to just ending it until now. I'm scared, I'm hopeless, I'm alone, please come back, I need you

>>16462910
What an asshole. Then again, he might have a small dick. Hey, you'd be pissed too if you were a guy and had a small dick.

I am a horrible person, I feel guilty whenever anything good happens to me.

>>16462910
>explain to him that I am listening to his advice but I need him to give me a chance to implement it
>Oh don't go back on what you said now
>the fuck
>start the lesson and he's literally screaming in my ear the entire time about how i am ignoring his advice because i'm a know it all arrogant woman
>in the meantime i fuck up of course
>he finally feels some sense of accomplishment so he decides to teach normally after that
>next lesson
>not feeling confident (big surprise) or motivated
>end lesson myself
>he asks me why
>tell him i'm a fuck up who doesn't know shit so there's no point
>next lesson
>must have felt guilty or had a change of heart
>tells me that he now understands i know what to do and i'm a great driver when he's not breathing down my neck
>orly
>finally get out on the road
>alternates between getting pissed that i'm too "arrogant" or confident or i'm too nervous or hesitant
Can't win with him.
>few weeks ago
>be driving so well he fell asleep after making some phone calls
>tell him that i can't wait to take the test
>woah, don't get too cocky now. you're not ready yet.
>ask him what i need to work on to be ready
>"Well, you just need more practice and lessons."
>he calls me up yesterday
>tells me that we need to get my license ASAP. when do I think I will be ready
>tell him I was ready three weeks ago
>WELL WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING
>...because you said I wasn't
>is mad at me for being a know-it-all again

I'm really getting tired of him and his ego getting bruised for being a little confident. It would be one thing if I was unreasonably reckless but he seriously doesn't like me for have any kind of will unless it's with his permission. While he is a good instructor, he's a shitty person overall and I can't wait until I don't have to deal with his gender and emotional issues.

>>16462993
Men do this a lot with women. Especially the ones with relationship issues where woman A does something to offend him but he can't do anything about it so he gets mad at woman G and see it as some kind of victory for the sleight he suffered from woman A. They do this more often than they realize and then they wonder why some women are bitches.

>>16463012
He told me he was 6 inches so maybe. Seems like a trend with small dick tall men to be pissy at women. My ex was like that and so was one of my previous bosses (who was going around taking male coworkers out for drinks and telling them his dick size for some reason).

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I've been catfishing a Muslim girl from the UK (I'm American) and I don't know how to not hurt her feelings. It was just for fun at first. My SO and I always catfish people for fun. We usually catfish guys for free pizza, but this is the first time we catfished a girl. My SO thinks we stopped but I still talk to her in private. I've developed feelings for this girl, and she thinks I'm coming to see her in a year to marry her. I honestly can't tell anyone that I don't want to do that, but at the same time I know if I tell her the truth, she wouldn't want me anymore and would probably be broken for life. She's showed me pictures of her entire family and has told her Mother about me. I don't know what to do.

>>16461873

Armchair psychologists and projection addicts in these threads sure do not know anything about who or what they're talking about. Reminds me of a guy named blue and his blue cohorts from effiel 65. Yes it was a catchy song but it also covered depression and projection as well. Over all I would recommend this song to armchair psychologists and projection addicts worldwide.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc

"Psychological projection, also known as blame shifting, is a theory in psychology in which humans defend themselves against their own unpleasant impulses by denying their existence while attributing them to others. For example, a person who is rude may constantly accuse other people of being rude."

>>16461873

A+C+N +$ -$ xO =0

I finally told someone about my constant suicidal thoughts.

It felt kind of liberating to get it off my chest.

>>16462159
Do you find them attractive aside from there body? Also, why cant you tell them about your feelings? I'm intrigued.

>>16461873
You are a manipulative person. This probably stems from your insecurity (narcissism) or your evil and enjoy my pain (psychopathy, either way I have to say now or never for MY good. I fear my own decisiveness, but if I say I'm gonna do something, I follow through. I hate you for me typing this out for everyone to see because YOU are too weak and insecure to be normal and communicate like an adult. People think I'm crazy, let them. I'm probably healthier than 99%+ out there. I just see what they don't. So be it. I fear my own decisiveness, but a part of me likes. It protects me when my instinct tells me something is quite off. I feel less than, this means I'm being covertly emotionally manipulated by YOU LS. YOU have issues. YOU have to change. And yes, I have issues too. Yes, many issues. But in this context, it is mostly being sucked into your shit.

>>16463164

>projection

They never learn.

>>16463190
Who is they? I hold up a mirror to your face, but you can't see what I see. Oh well.

>>16461873

"The difference between a professional victim and an empowered person is NOT what has happened to them, but the way in which they REACT to what has happened to them."

>>16463203

Just calling you out, that's all. Also stop projecting.

>>16462355
drop her, get a bitch who is not into doing heroin. actually, this is your only option if care about your sanity.

>>16463213
Stop gaslighting me. It is you who is projecting. Why are you still pretending to care? Stop talking, and start acting. Wait, you never act, you're a fake.

>>16463205

This

>>16463226

What are you even on about. Your crazy is showing. Also everything you say about whoever it is is a projection from you. Just calling you out paranoid anon.

>>16463245
I'm talking about a girl who keeps posting here on 4chan. You could be her. Of course I can't verify that, which is exactly what she wants.

>>16463249

You accuse others of all this crap then you say you can't communicate etc. etc. It's you that's the problem. I always notice this on these threads.

>>16463255
If you're the girl I'm talking about, I'm going for a walk. If I see you, we can talk. If not, so be it. If you're not her. Don't mind my posts. She is unwilling to chat like a normal person on facebook, so I talk to her on 4chan. I thought, hey, she must be really shy and insecure, let's give her a chance and try to communicate with her on this board. But I'm aware of the fact that I look like a major fool and crazy person at this point. That's one of the reasons I'm going to stop doing this. It's unbecoming, to say the least.

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I like you a lot

>>16463273
In about 30 minutes that won't matter, because we will be done. Your decision to be quite clear. Whatever this was. Some chatting on a forum to be precise.

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Yesterday, I broke up with the guy I was seeing casually. He took it really hard; he was clearly more invested in the relationship than I was. He cried as though someone in his family had died. I felt really bad; I didn't want him to be in so much pain! I didn't even realize he cared that much about the relationship.
But... I need time to myself. I feel like I can't commit to a relationship right now. I'm leaving the country next year...

But the more important reason I can't have a relationship right now is because I'm getting over a long-term relationship that ended at the beginning of September. N was a really nice guy and we had an amazing relationship, but when he moved away, we couldn't make the long distance work. We tried for over a year to make it work while he lived 8+ hours away, but I fell out of love with him. Now I wonder if I'll ever have a relationship like ours was in the beginning. I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I had tried harder to make it work. What if I'd try to see him more often? What if I made plans to move with him? I'm ambitious, and not the type to sacrifice my career for anyone else's, and I knew that following him would mean limiting my options. But what if I should have sacrificed more to save the relationship? But no, I fell out of love with him, and our break up was the right thing to do at that point. I hope he is happy.

I hope I will be happy.

>>16462063
God, I had a manipulative friend like this when I was in high school. Always seemed like a nice guy but then he would make comments that made me question my social skills and intelligence. Dump this "friend" on his/her ass.

>>16463273

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=MswLG_iimsk

You don't need to worry, no more.

How am I supposed to meet people when I go out Fridays and Saturdays when I go into it resenting the fact that I obligate myself to go out just so that I'm not being pathetic at home alone, I'm just being pathetic and alone while I'm out.

>>16462884
Why is she mad?

>>16463319

You have a negative view of yourself.

I'm married. I gave another guy a blow-job because I wanted to about a day ago. I feel fucking terrible and fucking relieved and I don't know why. I want to leave my husband and I love him. I don't give a shit about this other guy. I don't know why I did it. I just want to die and I want to grow old with my husband and do whatever and then I can't stand to look at his face. And I know I'm going fucking crazy but goddammit why did I do this? I don't even like this other guy. All he wanted was a blowjob, and I knew I was being a worthless slut and I still wanted to do it and I don't care if he never talks to me again. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? Why didn't this guy leave me alone? He knew I was having relationship problems and I know he's not just to blame and GODDAMMIT WHY DID I DO THIS AND WHY DON'T I FEEL WORSE?

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My sister's a tourguide and she's working in europe right now. But, right now I don't know where. I don't keep tabs because she is constantly traveling with her job. She hasn't texted me or posted anything on facebook in about a week (which isn't unusual). But I don't know if she was in Paris yesterday and I'm starting to worry there is a slight chance she may have been shot or something.

I'm tired of trying with people. I was so fucking weird and depressed in the past. I was fat and unattractive.

I'm 18 and now in college. I've lost weight, gained muscle, and people like me. I've had sex with five different people and have had three relationships. Every relationship was shit because of how my girlfriends treated me.

I'm approaching people at community college, I've gotten girls numbers. I've been making some friends.

I strive to create relationships, I overthink all the fucking time.

I'm angry with people because they don't try. The girls I got the numbers from don't put in the effort into talking. I don't know why I'm so angry, I'm not the kind of person to get mad.

It's hard to explain... Just, how people don't care. I was led on by a girl at college. The effort I put in, I don't get back. I imagine future relationships with people, either romantic or friendly. But, it's so hard to find people who want to try.

I wish you actually cared like you did when we met, or rather, like you do most of the time. You took me away from an abusive situation, and just put me back into another type of one with you. Why put me through that? You tell me horrible things that just make you ugly. My sin is that I believe them, and that I have constant faith you'll change one day because I'm 'important to you'. Honestly, I'm just an idiot. If I was that important to you, you would've changed long ago when your attitude warped so much. None of your behavior is my fault, no matter how hard you try to make it that way it won't ever be. All I've ever been is there for you from start to finish through your entire career.
Honestly I feel like such a fraud when my parents speak about you so adoringly. They have zero idea of what you call me, or say to me sometimes. I know I'm a bit of a failure, and disappointment maybe, and I could probably afford to pay more attention, but do you have to call me those things, and call me useless? Maybe I'm a bit of an idiot, but I thought you were at least supposed to attempt to build your partner up, not bring them back down into the trenches. Just because I avoid you when you get like this, and because I hang up when we fight and you start going down hill verbally, doesn't make me a bad person. It's self preserving. I don't think I can take much more of being called useless, a bad fiance, or worthless. It's starting to make me feel suicidal, and depressed. but you know that though..and it just continues. You're just making me feel trapped.
Is something wrong with me, or am I not good enough? All I want is to be happy, C. All I ever wanted was to make you happy, and give you the family and life I felt like you deserved and should've gotten from the beginning. Is it too much to ask for respect in return?

- D

>>16463329
How do I fix that? I'm never going to be good enough to make me like myself, so I should just off myself and stop wasting my and everybody else's time?

>>16463387
It's not about making yourself like you, it's about liking what you already are, and striving to be better. I know people who are amazing but they hate themselves, that's just the way it is. So, you could be great, you don't know, and obviously your POV is skewed by your self-hatred. First off, figure out why exactly you hate yourself, and then figure out your good qualities. It's not an easy process to love yourself, or even just accept yourself, but you can do it and it's worth it. And, don't kill yourself. Another thing that might seem like the only option, but it's actually the worst option.

im a very, very easily frustrated person because i have no tolerance for people being horrible to others

it's kind of become my "thing" that people associate me with, since im the first one to stand up to someone and probably a bit too honest with them about how i feel

everyone sees me as this person to be afraid of and some have told me (even my closest friends) they have to manually think about what they say and how they say it in order for me not to get mad at them

i fucking hate this because i feel no one wants to get close to me and tell him personal stuff and make that bond or whatever

when i do get angered, it does sort of overcome all my thoughts and sometimes makes it hard for me to think straight, and it physically shows

i just wish that others would see me for who i am really am instead the hulk or something

>>16463411
That sounds like reasonably solid advice, but at the same time, slightly disheartening, seeing as I have ANOTHER step now before I'm even allowed to start failing at making friends properly.

>>16463387

The problem with you is yourself and how you view yourself. How you view yourself will affect how you treat yourself which in turn will make others treat you a certain manner which makes you treat others in a manner in relation to how you were treated. See where I'm going here?

Now you can blab about others and assume things about yourself but the problem with like you is you never just do it. See I feel like sitting here chilling with friends but we respect that. We let people be. Center yourself and others will never affect you if you don't want them to. Create boundaries, what you want to do now and be in the moment.

>>16463290
Beautiful story. I'm sure he agrees and hopes you're happy too.

>>16463432
It's an easy and worthwhile step, though. Turn on some music and just think about your life. Think about why you hate yourself, figure out if you actually should hate yourself for these things, then think about all of the positive things about yourself, then think of how you're gonna change so that you can accept yourself. I've had to do this. I used to hate myself, but after a few nights of thinking over the summer, I've been slowly learning to accept myself. I'm out of shape, I used to hate how lazy I am but now I've accepted it as a fact AND of course try to be a bit more active, and have goals for my future, and I actually think before I eat, all of that. It's a process, it can be really sad and dark at first, but hopefully you'll come out the other side happy and ready to accept and even love yourself. An unexamined life is not worth living, so figure yourself out and soon you'll start on the right path to accepting yourself and your life, both the good and the bad stuff. Plus, once you get there, everything will be a bit easier. It's easier to maintain relationships and make new friends when you like yourself. Good luck!

*sighs* seriously? alright, whatever. just lie. in the midst of everything that's happening right now, lie.

ridiculous.

why is it so hard for some people? is it because of the people around them? it is. in this case at least, I know it's because of the people around them. not my problem. good to know, but not my problem

There's a fucking girl in my class who I think is really fucking gorgeous. I sit at the other end of the class and never have the chance to speak to her.

WHAT
DO

The doctors took you off saline today. I hope you're as out of it as it seems like you are. For your sake I wish you would just go already.
Who's idea was it to not allow assisted suicide?

>>16463542
TALK
TO
HER

But seriously, bud, just go for it. Worst case you guys won't get along and you'll just go back to not talking to her, assuming you don't make a jackass of yourself. Just go in slow and be friendly. Compliment her randomly some day, just say her jacket is nice or her hair looks good or something, and assuming she doesn't tell you to fuck off after you do that, the next time you see try to her spark up a conversation. Introduce yourself, talk about the class you're both in, your classes, her classes, what she's studying, shit like that. If that school related conversation goes well, the next time you talk it can be less school related and more life related, get to know her, and that'd probably be the time to see if she wants to grab lunch with you or see a movie or some shit.

>>16463556
>compliment her

This seems like my only option here. She's usually always speaking to the professor right after class or something like that. Shits tough.

>>16463564
Yeah, it can be hard to figure out the right time to talk to her, but if you can, that's really all you have to do. If she always talks to the professor, at least you know where she'll be after class, right? If she's waiting to talk to the prof, just walk by her and compliment her. Or wait til she's done talking to the prof, either one.

>>16463578
yeah, guess so. I'm fucking terrified of fucking it up desu, but this happens every other semester and I hate myself for missing the opportunity.

>>16463579
It's scary, but it'll be worth it. Regardless of the outcome. You might end up with her, you might end up getting to know her and becoming friends, you might never get anywhere but oh well. Honestly, assuming you don't compliment her tits or throw up on her or something, she's not gonna recoil in horror and she won't hate you or anything. So it's worth a shot, worst case you'll have tried so you can't regret not taking action.

you are so fucking insane. could you just not be in any way near my life? I literally don't have any less fucks to give about you. you are so far removed from my thoughts until you do something to try to fuck up my life that you aren't worth the time or effort required to fuck your life up. just go away. I'm not doing anything, don't make it worth my time. seriously. go fuck off in the hole you keep digging for yourself and just let any and all connection between our lives die.

fuck you are one tiresome cunt.

I'm lucky and grateful for what's about to come to me and everyone in my life. The greatest part about it is I won't have to worry about drama anymore, I cut it out of my life. I won't have to deal with negative people everyone in my life is positive and don't start anything for some insecure pecking order. Time and distance is good, it always is, people will take it negatively but they were like that to begin with. No healing or progress will take place until you let it. Goodbye.

I have enough love for her, my family and friends.

>>16463615
mmmm, I don't think you are what you present here.

that's just the feeling i get. i get a cult leader feeling from this shit right here. just creepy and weird.

>>16463626
>avoiding trashy or toxic people
>trying to minimize drama
>having hopes for the future

How is this cult like and not perfectly sane?

>>16463626

It's called "catharsis", a writing style. What I don't understand are those people who come into these threads and take everything to heart then be surprised when people leave them because they were toxic.

>cult

Yeah, I've seen what MLMs can do to people.

>>16463643

Don't worry about it, it's one of those scammers who has a problem with C's. You see them in letter threads and here projecting as usual.

I guess I'm gonna let him come over tomorrow. I know all he wants is an easy lay, and fine, I need laid too, to make sure I'm not broken.

But I am so damn hung up on waiter, and now manager, that I'm fucking myself up and it looks like panic attacks are gonna start being regular. Love this life. I want to get out of here.

>>16463611
this is so relatable to me, Anon are you me?

>>16463671
Idk, do you have a schizo person that you cut out but that has feelings so they want to be in your life. all the while thinking you're after them so they start rumors and lie to the people important to you trying to make your life difficult... though failing and overestimating how important they are and the effects they can have? also not actually realizing that this is what is happening?

if so, I may just be. I may just be you.

Part of me wants to just fap life away and on the other hand I want to do something about this shit

>>16463671

I relate to it too, except for the part where the author omits the part where they were actually the asshole in the situation. Everyone wants to look good. Even in a text based board like this.

It's entertaining and a tragic spectacle to say the least but good way of harvesting drama for work.


(Don't be a prick IRL)

>>16463685

This. Had terrible friends with mental illnesses like that.

I cut them off real well and life is better they still linger around though. But that's just the way they are.

>>16463694
>except for the part where the author omits the part where they were actually the asshole in the situation
because you know me so well. after a year of being treated like shit and being lashed out at whenever I tried to help, going, 'fuck this shit" must mean I'm a massive asshole.

even if you did know, you should know and listen to that fact that you were supremely shitty for a long time.

I'm gonna go do something more important than playing with trolls and shitty people. like watch archer. infinitely more important.

>>16463746

Yes spending your time in front of the idiot box after posting here is quite a life for you isn't it. Have fun.

>>16462446

Thanks for the advice, I know that the most logical way to move forward is to leave him, but it's just so hard to leave him when he's already pretty messed up.

I fucked him just because I knew it would kill ya if you'd ever found out.

Don't care, you fucked everyone as far as I'm concerned. Homewrecker.

I am nothing and there's no point to my pathetic worthless life. I'm so alone and everyone hates me. I'm an unlovable piece of shit. I should never have been born; I'm a mistake. The only way to make things better for everyone is to die. That's the only way the people I love and care about will be happy. I bring nothing but misery and hurt. The guilt of just being alive is overwhelming me. Everyone will be better off without me. Everyone will finally be happy without me. I'm a disappointing failure and I deserve every bad trauma that's ever happened to me. The only thing I deserve is to be dead.
I'm nothing.

at this point, I'm just feeling completely over guys and this whole "love" thing. It's not worth it, and I'm tired of all of this anxiety, wondering if this one will cheat on me too or if they like someone else..
I want to be over all of this because it only ends up disappointing me. How can it not when I was cheated after 7 years together? And then the next guy is just ambiguous about our status? It's such shit.
I want to be over all of this...but then, I hang out with my friends and they all have their longterm boyfriends or husbands, and I watch them awkwardly as the third or fifth wheel while they flirt, cuddle, and kiss. I remember when I had that look in my eyes too, and it hurts. I get so jealous watching them that I have to excuse myself and leave because I can't stand watching two people be so in love and happy. I want that so badly again but then I don't. I hate all of it.
I want to not feel anything

>>16463880

Everyone feels like shit, you have probably gone through hell and back. No one can make you feel bad unless you allow them to. You probably allowed yourself to make yourself feel bad for too long. Lool loneliness isn't there because you're alone, you're lonely because you probably don't like yourself. You can be your own best friend or your own worst enemy. A hero in your story or a villain. You can empower people with your personal struggles and how you overcame them or you can take the easy way out. You're not the only one who wants to see the other side. A lot have died that way and even taken lives. I'm not justifying what you are saying but you are human. People are allowed to feel but you have to take responsibility for your actions and words.

You have to wake up, you're on the internet. Look up what's bothering you, how to better your life, how to live and how to love. You can die and kill others like a coward or live to your potential as a human being.

You are what you feel like and it takes time. It takes time to roll with the punches, to use whatever positive or negative energy is thrown at you and channel it into something. Doing anything is better than nothing and feeling dead.

Just remember what goes around comes around.

I was sitting at a coffee shop Friday. They had their usual open mic night and I like to go to either people watch, or if enough people ask, play. I was sitting near the front of the room in a flannel shirt I got from my step brother. It's easily one of my best shirts, since he dresses like he's trying to impress someone. I wore it mainly because I don't own many long sleeve shirts and it was cold outside. The guy running the show had set up the sound equipment. Like I said I was sitting in the front. I've kinda picked up a bit of a look since November started. I got a scruff going that's starting to drive me crazy. My hair is curly but not jewfro curly. That night it was kinda wavy and flipped upward. In hindsight I know feel like a tool. But then again, I coulda been the heavy set woman with the tattoo of what looked like vines on the side of her face. Or the guy who could've been in his 30's wearing a shirt that he'd been wearing for months at a time. He played these doom metal songs on a bass ran through some harsh distortions. I bobbed my head and cheered him on. Was the only one to do so. I thought it was cool that he did something different. I got to looking around the room. One of my favorite parts of open mic is people watching. I saw this girl in the back of the room I thought was pretty cute. We locked eyes for a couple of seconds. She was cute. I mean, she didn't have a lot of competition that night. Not all that into big girls with scary ass facial tattoos. I really am turning into my dad as judgmental as I sound. While I'm looking at the girl in the back of the room, I noticed the guy sitting next to her that was also locking eyes with me. So I acted like I was stretching my neck. Though as the night went on I got more and more sure that the guy was just a boyish looking girl. Now I can think of all kinds of reasons to not try and pick up anymore girls at coffee houses. It has yet to bear any fruit that wasn't crazy.

Got officially 'dumped' tonight.
I don't see why I'm letting it affect me seeing as I knew it would go nowhere.

>>16463934
Cheers.

I was a NEET and felt like shit.
I got back into school and felt like shit.
I got an internship and felt like shit.
I got a little bit of a social life again and felt like shit.
I graduated and felt like shit.
I didn't have anything to do and felt like shit.
I just started a job and I feel like shit.

There was a brief period of time after getting back into school when I thought that I was over this, but now I think I have a real problem. No matter what I'm doing with my life, I don't feel good about it. I'm anxious, sometimes to the point of being terrified about going out and facing my daily responsibilities, and I'm feeling more reclusive and lonely than ever, like how I did when I was a NEET.

I don't know what to do about it. Every day the urge to just walk out on my job and everything else gets stronger.

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>unsociable
>zero friends
>somehow find a gf
>move with her to another country
>2 years together
>breaking up right now
>nowhere to go
>don't know what to do
Wish I could kill myself, but my pride can't make me look this week for some reason.
How do I get to live again?

>>16463934

What went wrong?

>>16463944
Where are you living now? If you have a place to live, find a job.
Trace a routine for your life. Survive. You're not the only one in this situation.

At weekends, force yourself to go out and have a drink.

>>16461873

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=R7yfISlGLNU

Just said it

>>16463949
I guess she just decided to get back with her ex.
She was in Cali at the time, said she'd have no reception for a month (which is believable cause trimming weed). Then after a week I saw her active on Facebook again. I never got a message or reply. Then suddenly she's back in town. I didn't even know. I was at the bar and thought "Hm, that girl looks like femanon..." Then she waved and I realized it was her. and she said she didn't message me because she prefers to do these things in person which I respect.
That's good for her though that she's happy. I like making people happy.

I graduated in an engineering course in a known engineering institution, passed licensure exams all in its due time. Still, I don't feel like bat shit about what I accomplished. I feel very inferior compared to other people. I feel so alone and incompetent, that I think every decision I make is just going to be a disappointment to others.

I don't wanna die. I just want to disappear. I'm so down AF.

Nothing is going according to plan. I'm deathly afraid of failing my class, I haven't really made any friends, and I just feel like despair.

A little while ago I saw agirl on the bus I haven't seen since we went to school together 10 years ago, she hits me up on facebook and does all the talking. Seems keen on me and quickly things turn sexual and she starts telling me she wants me to be part of a threesome with her and her girlfriend fuck buddy. Starts telling me about her fetishes and how she likes humiliation and rape play ect. Start getting nudes from her then stop hearing from her as much. Texts go unanswered about arranging to meet up but She's updated her snapchat story and facebook status saying she's been on tinder and matched with a dog that looks like hers. I waited patiently for her to decide to text me back then after 2 days text her asking what she was doing that day and get a text back saying "Hey sorry I've been so busy! I'm at work today and kindah seeing my ex again so I won't be able to meet up for a while sorry :( what're you up to today? I so want to go back to bed :(" I responded with "look I dunno what seeing your ex means but I don't wnna deal with that sorta shit so hit me up when you're free" She's obviously not girlfriend material but do I keep her number? incase things don't work out and she changes her mind about her ex? What does for a while mean? Or do I delete her number and move on. I hate the feeling that I was being messed with I feel like I could accept it if I knew there was some interest there but now I'm not so sure. I feel like a big joke. I've posted this in a few other threads but no replies. Just want to make sense of it all. I just want to know if she was making a fool of me or not.

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reminder that no matter what they say at the time, you're never secure. 2 years into a relationship. a year before they ended it. A year and a half ago. He did develop a sudden dislike for me.
I'm over it, but I just found this on my second pc and for some reason it's just hitting me. I haven't felt these feels in a while. It hurts. I miss love.

>>16462185
Yeah... fuckin no

I met this guy on tinder. We met up 4 times, sometimes at a quiet bar, sometimes in a coffee shop. We'd talk for hours about script writing and by the 5th meet up had completed our script. He never indicated any interest in me, but I realised I was started to have feelings for him. That 5th meet up we ended up in bed... I figured I wouldn't hear from him again. Surprisingly though he met up with me a couple days later in a coffee shop. This time it was shorter, and hour and half. We just talked about the script. He was kinda sick. It's been almost 2 weeks now. He messages me now and then. Really sort messages "see you sometimes" sometimes attached. Does he like me or not? Seriously, I'm really confused. (he's Japanese, I don't know if I'm missing something culturally here)

>>16464248
Culturally yes Japanese guys will wait for you to make the move

>>16464250
We already screwed, I'm usually the first to message. He replies sometimes the same day, sometimes the next day... usually terse. Guess he's not that interested...?

>>16464255
Ask him out and straight up ask what he thinks

>>16462989
Such as...?

I had dropped off the radar with a group of friends recently due to being really busy with study and some other stuff. I caught up with one of my friends a few days ago which was good. I reactivated my fb for a bit (deactivated earlier in the year when I got pretty busy) and noticed he made a post on fb 'lunch with anon (he's alive)'

Is that a rude thing for him to have said or is it just a joke and I'm being paranoid? I just feel like it may be a bit rude but if I called him out for it, it would be an overeaction. thoughts?

Holy hell. I'm still reeling from how we went from chatting every chance you got to only wan smiles when you pass by. I guess you must not like me anymore. Or, two longshots- the managers intervened. You have run out of things to say.

I should just move on. Stop coming in. I know what you drive, I can avoid you. But you'll still say hi every other time I come in, especially if I'm alone.

Goddammit, I relied on you to tell me about upcoming beers. And I like listening to you talk. Why, man, why?!

>>16464313
It's a joke and you're being paranoid. What do you expect? You disappeared for half a year. Try not to take it so seriously. They probably all miss you.

I wish the theatrical version of Amadeus was on DVD.

Fuck the Director's Cut.

don't do it. you'll start a war. just let it be. I don't want this, I don't want to do this. stop pushing.

I was falling in love through secretive looks and small doses of conversations. I was, once again, hoping for something that would never come. It was your job, and you performed it so well.

Now, I'm suffering at my own hand. I'm causing all of my own problems and my own stress, and letting these feelings for you live on. I want to disappear, but my old habits won't die. And I've lost my self control yet again.

I used to be so much better than I am. Now, I feel like a shell. Unlovable, hard to even look at. I know it isn't true, because sometimes, your face still lights up like Christmas when you see me and you're too shocked to cover it. It doesn't change how I feel. I wish I could fold into myself and shut up for six long months.

I haven't been drinking as much, but soon I'm sure I will be back where I was two months ago. Passing out drunk every Saturday at seven. And I will start drinking as soon as I get home to cope with today. And yesterday. And all of these panic attacks.

I don't even want help anymore. I just want to be alone.

you had the chance, I was down. now the general is back. don't mess with me. everything is amicable, it's not yours to be upset about. you need to mind your own.

Why are you avoiding me?

we had such a good time a few nights ago, did something change? I know you're busy, but you can't possibly be THAT busy. 3 days and you can't even return a text? What's going on?

>>16464313
it's good, anon, they missed you.

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I need to stop apologizing so much, it really bothers people whenever I do, but I'm not sure how to stop it.

I'm such a failure that I'm fine with the idea of dying as a kissless virgin after accomplishing nothing in my life. It's already a miracle that I've managed to have friends and stay several years in college.

>>16464704

The Nazi is back from the grave with shit hanging out of it's mouth and all that. It's gonna make threats and cry like a baby until it gets its bottle.

>>16463114

Blue is at it again.

I miss you very much and realized i was an idiot....

I still love you....

Idk anymore

I made up my mind last month
I started having doubts this past week.
But nah this is how I wanna do it, if I can

everyone else gets a free pass to act like cunts and gets the benefit of the doubt. then when I stand up and go "fuck off" I'm immediately persecuted and made to be the massive asshole.

fuck all that noise. look around you objectively. this is what I tried to warn you about. be careful, they'll do this to you too.

and you, I'm merely responding. you're the one starting shit. let. it. be. it's not yours to be upset about.

>>16465014
About what? Come on, man, you've made me curious.

>>16464025

SENPAI LOOK AT ME
WOOAH OH

>>16465049

You can play victim all you want after all the nonsense you started or you can change as a person and move on. Up to you Blue.

>>16465005
go tell them

you have nothing to lose

>>16464025

ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE

>>16465051
Family stuff is all. Just anxious about it

I want to die

>>16465092

>anxiety

relax

>>16465099

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kzLafMPjryE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axI5d56KWY8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9OfBcjyxKY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lpckcYoNju0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXRviuL6vMY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6k8es2BNloE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCQfTNOC5aE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=217JOBWTolg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpqOWO6ctsg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2SeFnvs73A

there's a letter in your jar. I wanted you to read it. why I was bummed you didn't come by like you said.

>>16464025

EH YEAH YEAH

>>16465060
I'm not blue. never been called by that name. blue is not a color strongly associated with me, dunno who you're talking to.

>>16465186

Look up the blue post.

you're not a psychologist. you have no cert. you didn't major or minor in it.

just saying.

>>16465207
the bar?
the other many bars and resturaunts?
a post made by a blizzard employee?

>>16465217
post blue, the song by placebo?

>>16465220
the whole blue dress controversy?

"the blue post" pulls up many things in google

>>16465225
or the post in this thread about eiffel 65 and projection and depression. if so, I'd say that post applies to you just as well.

and the circle of bullshit continues.

what a clusterfuck of communication. you realize you try to blame me for literally everydamnthing right?

if it's you. dunno why you'd be wasting time here though.

No girl had ever liked me, and it feels like no girl ever will. This makes me feel worthless. Life doesn't feel like there is anything for me anymore

I need to break up with my bitch GF. I dream of being single everyday, yet I can't grow a pair and tell her it is over.

I suck at relationships...

I'm a disgusting faggot lesbian woman that looks completely straight and normal and has a boyfriend, god knows I only want to eat pussy all day. My gayness is very concealed and women never look at me that way. I will never live the life I truly want. Because I'm afraid so fuck you all

you've told so many people exactly what you do to people, then blame them for their reactions to it. then do it again, blame them and call them assholes and shitty people. fess up to it, then still maintain that they're bad people.

get out of here with your armchair psychology. you aren't knowledgable enough to be throwing that around just like you do diagnosis of schizophrenia and narcissism. btw I happen to know of your actual diagnosis by an actual, certified, psychologist.

at least I don't throw that type of shit around at people. thats ridiculous.

beginning to seriously piss me off. thanks for the energy. damn I'm gonna go grab a drink with a buddy.

I'm out, not coming back here.

I've never known what to do with my life, no goals, no aspirations, just kind of floated through it. I know now more than ever what i want to do.

You're not ready and it kills me, I don't know what to do. i want to see you so bad, but you're off in your own head and you won't reply .
i'm not sure if i love you, but i care so much

since this started ive smoked a quarter, drank some and blown through more cigarettes than i ever have.
i just don't know what to do

>>16465267
did you actual send the message?

>>16465249

As usual projecting your own paranoid illnesses onto others. Admit what you are and stop playing victim after you attacked others.

I know we didn't talk for all that long, but I thought that we were at least compatible as friends. When you said you were moving to Texas I was disappointed that we couldn't at least try, but I figured that it was for the best that we didn't and I understood. When you asked if I hated you I said that I didn't and that we were cool, but I guess I should have asked you if you thought we were cool.

But I suppose we aren't because even though all I want to do is keep playing Xbox with you because you're a cool girl, you keep ignoring me when I ask if you want to play and your parties always go on invite only as soon as I get on. Whenever I play with a common friend and you join with your other friend, you go into private chat and I can't help but think it's because you don't want to talk at all. When I ask if we can just talk like a couple of adults and fix what's wrong, you just ignore it.

Maybe nothing is wrong and you just need time and I'm being paranoid. Maybe there is something wrong and you think it's worth fixing. Either way, I'm letting you know that I'm leaving you alone. I'm tired of trying to be your friend and getting nothing but stress out of it, so I'm done. If you want to be my friend then you know where to find me and if you don't want to be my friend again, then Im sorry you feel that way and good bye. You're a cool chick and I wish you the best.

>>16465293
It's not worth fixing is what I meant in that last paragraph.

>>16465235

Your mental illness unleashed as usual. Just making you see what you truly are.

Truth hurts Blue.

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>>16461873
Bye N bye! Haha, and you thought I was different! I did it again, I'm so awesome! pls respond haha bitchboy I hope you'll die too.

Kan du bara snälla svara nu?

>>16461873

Autism combined with heavy drinking and drug abuse seems to have taken its toll on you mentally. The cult like nature of your MLM doesn't help neither. Don't project.

Is the rat infestation over Jesus?

No idea what to do, where to begin. Feels like I'm losing my mind.

I miss talking to you so bad but I'm too clingy and you don't want me.

>>16465365

IN THE END IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER

I'm pretty sure that I'm gay, and just in the closet.
People talk about something I did or said while I was black-out drunk, I get intrusive thoughts saying that a dude is attractive when I'm talking to that dude, and I even have to fight smiling when I see an attractive dude.
I've also never had a gf, I can only talk to and attempt to flirt with girls when drunk, and no girl has found me attractive.

It only sucks because I the idea of gay sex is kind of gross and off-putting, I want a qt girl to cuddle with, and I'm black and my family/friends are homophobic as shit.

Why the more I try to be social, the shittier I feel? Shouldn't it be the other way around?

I don't even know what the fuck I did wrong this time, I met this girl and she seemed pretty into it, we were going to play games together and then just stopped replying

I don't feel this energy other people feel when doing shit like this, whenever this happens I just feel like giving up on people and living life on my own like I always did

I can't cope with the fact that my own mother is absolutely fucking terribly stupid.

appeal to the stone
ad hominem
-both abusive and poisoning the well
false attribution
false authority
ignorato elenchi
high ground
proof by assertion

anyone with even a smattering of intelligence can see you're just trying to be manipulative rather than have any sort of constructive argument.

just a shitty person.

>>16465486

Never stop projecting. You have been trying your whole life. It's alright to be mad at yourself for once. Go on do it.

>>16465486

>manipulative

The irony of this post is delicious. It's trying so hard.

>>16465517
except you tell people you do just that to literally everyone and have no loyalty, and thats facts rather than whatever fallacies you keep putting forward. not really ironic. you've disclosed what you are too many times to actually try to push your flaws and actions on me. too many people know. you're proud of your actions. its disgusting.

outta be a quarantine for people like you.

at any rate. goodbye. probably not you, but that needed to be said somewhere.

>>16465486
>any sort of constructive argument.
>implying an argument has to be constructive

you know nothing John Snow

>>16465541

How many times can this anon call you out on your projection? You should know that but you keep resisting.

>>16465541

Yo Blue stop wrecking yourself online. Change your life bro.

>>16465517

Top Kek

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I can't live in this world. No matter how much I tried in the past it was never enough, I don't see why the future would be any different.

I don't want to fall in love anymore, the pain overwhelms the temporary good feelings once it all comes crashing down and the good memories instantly become terrible memories.

I've never fit in. I've never been good enough, I guess my genes just weren't destined to make it to the next generation. Another pointless pawn in nature's trial-and-error game to produce socially fit humans.

>>16465560

Blue can't help it because its blue so everyone must be blue and hopeless like blue.

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>>16465610

You are extremely afraid of any kind of initial contact aren’t you? Are you that afraid of other people? I know that by keeping others at a distance you avoid a betrayal of your trust, for while you may not be hurt that way, you mustn’t forget that you must endure the loneliness. Man cannot erase this sadness, because all men are fundamentally alone.

>>16465653

This shook me to my very core.

>>16465653
That's deep, anon. And very true. People terrify me because of the hurt they can cause if you let them get close. I'll learn to deal with it.

Thanks Kaworu-kun <3

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>>16465672
>>16465662

Humans constantly feel pain in their hearts. Because the heart is so sensitive to pain, humans also feel that to live is to suffer. You're so delicate, like glass, especially your heart.

In other words, I love you.

>>16461873
I feel like a stranger. I find myself disgusted with my own image and those around me. There's not a single thing I can do right and I ruin any good relationships I could possibly foster. The reason no one loves me is that I'm truly ugly, inside and out. I'm just living to die at this point.

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>>16465690
You hate yourself, don't you? That's why you hurt others. Deep down you know you suffer more when you cause someone else pain... than if you just let yourself get hurt. But Anon, that was your decision, so it makes it a valid choice. That's what you wanted. So, that makes it worthwhile. Stop lying to yourself and realize that you *do* have options. Then... accept the choices you've made.

>>16465653
Are women fundamentally alone too?

>>16465730
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJ0doO3VFjc

>>16461873
I messed up once before and I'm withholding myself from any other form of succes by thinking I'll mess up again.

I'm not ready to settle down

>>16465708
I do hate myself. No one knows it or seems to care. I don't want to hurt anyone.

>>16465685

Y-you too

>>16462931
same. where the fuck is it acceptable to talk and flirt with people when youre not drunk as fuck listening to shit music.

>>16465763

anywhere your heart desires

>>16463056
lol dude

break it the hell off. i was talking to this girl from australia (im in the uk) for about two years. i eventually said id be down to meet her and she was like 'no itll be depressing when you go'. so i said goodbye, she lost her shit and im happier not spending so much time wishing i was with someone so far away.

the sooner you rid your life of this ghost from your life the happier youll be in the long run. you dont know her, you havent met her, stop wasting your time.

and dont catfish people (how on earth do you get free pizza out of it?)

>>16465738
Oh, and I forgot hte most important part

When I'm around others I'm carefree and optimistic.
But when I'm alone I'm anxious, depressed and pessimistic.

>>16463114
for some reason i always tried to understand what projection meant by myself, never googling it. thanks lol

>>16463164
get rid of them. block em, delete their number, whatever. give a week and youll be wondering why you wasted your time with someone that made you feel like this

there is nothing noble about sticking around a cunt because you like em

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>>16461873
You can't fix someone- you can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. You know, how goddamn uncomfortable you having a previous lover, a friend you have had for 10 years, still talk to you. I have tried to be the best that I can. Last night when I yelled at you, accusing you of things you hadn't done, telling you about my insecurities.. about how easily it would for you to dispose of me, hurt you. It hurt me too, shit it hurts every fucking time, when my imagination gets the best of me. You want her, but you can't have her- she's not here to fucking comfort you, no she's serving in the military. When I met you, I told you I wanted to serve, and what happened with that? You fucking told me you didn't want that to happen. You couldn't see us even trying to work things out, because you would feel lonely... I feel like I'm just a catalyst for what's missing in your life- I feel you looked for someone to replace her with. It's been 7 months... 7 beautifully disastrous months. I want to leave you, again... but you're not scared. You know I'll come back. I always do. That's what makes me weak.

>>16465690

You give off a depressive aura. Souls go into the light not into the dark. Gotta illuminate yourself, become illuminati.

We out chea senpai.

>>16463290
you wont give a fuck about your career when youre old and retired.

>>16463334
ask yourself how you felt with that other guy in that moment. does you husband make you feel like that? obviously turned you on. think about how to ask your husband to make you feel this way.

>>16465807
>>16461873

Birdman no, don't reveal the secrets to the uninitiated! They are slaves to their own conditioning, let them escape on their own. KFC.

>>16463432
go to the gym and scream fuck you (internally) to the dark thoughts in your head while you go ham as fuck

or go for a cycle or run or whatever

>>16463578
>just walk by her and compliment her

do people really do this? i mean, i suppose its a way in but.. really?

>>16463662
>letting someone fuck you when you know they give 0 fucks about you

hmmmm, good or bad decisison, i wonder

dont be stupid

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You said, I was a piece of shit. YOURE worst than I could ever be. You stole from your loved ones, lied to your loved ones and only ever really cared for yourself. All you needed to do was tell me this was only temporary, I could of lived with that. Regardless of it all, I love ya. I hope you can find peace within yourself. I really enjoyed our time together, when you weren't sour as fuck. Enjoy, life.
Bon voyage.

>>16465806

Some people fix themselves by "fixing" others. Be careful with mistaking narcissism with actual love. Love is unconditional, brave, honest, caring and supportive. Fear always comes with agreements, contracts, clauses and general mistrust.

You are who you will attract.

>>16462985
I feel ya

>>16464191
just leave it. dont delete her number but just dont bother anymore. shes a hoe who wanted a threesome with you. who knows she may contact you one day about it. probably not, though.

>>16465859

Loving someone after you tried and "change" them. That's not love that's control. People change on their own, you're either on the same path or you are not. Be grateful for your lessons from others. And you will be happy.

>>16461873
so i got my first job out of uni, its boring as fuck, everyone in the office is 10 years older than me and i barely ever see my friends anymore

is this adulthood, then?

>>16465862
Can you elaborate on the fear?

>>16465907

you should be happy you have a job.

>>16465911

Fear of loss

>>16465862
i attract nobody.

>>16465926

Mind over matter

>>16465932
meaning what?

Lately I'm having this urge of having sex with other girls, of course the problem is that I'm in a relationship with a great girl that I love but because of work we barely see each other during the month (2 weekends each month)

So far I've turned down 2 really attractive girls, but there is this friend of my, a chubby girl that is really hitting on me and is getting harder and harder to hold this will to bang her

I'm feeling like shit and I haven't even done anything, its a fucking terrible feel to have

>>16465913
>having a job in the field you studied in is a luxury
>muh bad economy
>muh job market

Dude, a degree doesn't get you a job, it just knocks down one of the more common barriers to getting a fair number of jobs. Way too many people leave uni these days feeling like they're instantly owed a job. I know because I constantly see them complaining about it online.

>>16465934

you are what you think you are. this is why its important to spend time with yourself.

>>16465937

Yeah, just putting it into perspective in comparison to others. Others see it as an opportunity some see it as a burden.

>>16465920
Yeah, I am in constant fear of being alone. My mother and father could give less than two shits about me... I have abandonment issues and that weighs heavily on my personal relationships.

>>16465936
try to sort a different job or living situation or whatever it is thats holding you from seeing her more

when you fuck this fatty and it all goes to shit, you will find yourself hating that you were ever so fucking retarded

>>16465939
i spent plenty of time alone, thinking about myself and i have no idea who i am. i find myself having more of an identity around people, because thats when i can be the funny retard that i am, and make people laugh.

>>16465955

"Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones."

>>16465961

>making people laugh

Good, people are too uptight and care too much about what others think even in a friendly environment. Some just grew up toxic and are too critical of others as a form of self defense against judgement themselves.

>calling yourself a retard

Well you're a lost cause, back into the scammer trash bin you go.

People hang around people for survival means. Whatever dependency it is. Once that runs dry is where you will see if you are hanging around the right people.

You are what you think you are.

>>16461873
Help me. What have I done?

We found each other and now I feel like I'm losing you even though you promised you wouldn't disappear. But you never text me...and text everyone else. I always have to text you first. Seems like if you were interested you would be trying to talk to me

I feel sad for existing when I'm supposed to be a capable competent human being but I behave like no more than a dog. I have separation anxiety when I'm away from my partner and I feel like all I want to do is sit by the door waiting for them to come home but it will be another two weeks before I can see them and I don't know how to cope even though I know I'm not a dog and I can think this through but it feels damned impossible.

Don't ever have children. You'd make a horrible mother. And I mean that.

Being attracted to you makes me feel stupid, not only because you have a girlfriend, but because I also know that it gives you some strange sort of power over me. You'll never admit it, but I know you love it. You love that I'm just like every girl that meets you, smiling and blushing at all your compliments, getting tongue tied and talking too much around you. And I know you're just waiting for the day I blurt it out, so you can reject me in the most beautiful way possible.

Despite knowing all this, I still think of you everyday, and think of you whenever I think of home. I can't wait for January to fall for you all over again.

(yeah, sorry for the sappy post, I'm just a hormonal mess right now)

>>16466083
I know it's not for me, but I'll say one thing:
I know and that's why I don't want to.

>>16466120
you think far too much of this dude

i sincerely doubt 'every other girl that meets [him]' is head over heels

if they are, its because he's blessed with insanely good looks (and has nothing to do with his character) and he's probably fucked in the head because of it

>>16465242
>No girl had ever liked me, and it feels like no girl ever will.
Same here, but with guys. I've given up, to be honest.

I also feel like I can't do anything right and that I'm just a waste of time.

Day after day, I'm only feeling more and more insecure...

I thought you were better than my mother. Turns out you're way worse. Jokes on me, I guess.

>>16466136
procreation isnt your sole purpose

do other worthwhile things, improve yourself, have fun, make your friends / family / strangers happy

>>16466166
Thanks, but it's not really about procreation; I don't even want to have kids, to be honest. I just want to have someone to hold hands with me and stay by my side until we're old, but it ain't gonna happen.

Also, I try all of these, but I feel like I'm screwing it up more than helping. I hate being insecure.

How to avoid that feeling of constant insecurity? I really want to help people smile, but I can't if I don't smile myself, right?

>>16466132
Ugh, I know. Although it is true what I wrote about other girls---almost every female friend we have in common has said they were attracted to him. The dude *IS* handsome. My sister used to work with him and even said she had a crush on him. I guess even though I know he's a bit of a playboy (not even sure if that's the right word), I still find ways to look past it. I feel like I let it slide because he's been really nice to me, even if it's not genuine.
Part of me wants to be an absolute bitch to him when I return home (I'm studying abroad) the other part wants to know him more and see if there's something else behind all this. I have a feeling he's actually really insecure. but then again, like you said, i think way too much about him.

think I know where this string came from. that's unfortunate.

>>16466202
looks like a collar.

>>16466180
your desire for a romantic partner and someone to fuck stems from your sexuality. humans pair bond and have kids, its in your genes, wired into your brain, and you wouldnt want it otherwise.

and no, you cant if you dont smile. so smile. it really isnt that hard. you can choose to approach someone straight faced, or you can choose to smile.

>>16466181
and all because he's handsome. lol

recognise this and occupy your time with other things. if he wants to hang out or whatever the fuck when you get back, im sure he'll make it known.

if anything does happen, dont fall into bed with him too quickly for his looks, because then you certainly will be just another characterless girl in his eyes.

There's this qt3.14 coworker that waits for me if I'm trying to finish something before leaving the building together. We're on friendly terms and she laughs at my stupid jokes and comments. How do I turn this into a gf?

>>16466250
by asking her out somewhere, and if she says yes, by flirting with her and asking her out again. rinse and repeat.

Anything for you

Great, those faggots blew what was just a word of advice into a huge deal. She wasn't even being hostile, she was just saying so to maintain order. You want to do whatever, fuck off to some other place.

>>16466261
Also, I'm friends with two other girls at work. (one has a bf) Would dating another girl in the office be damaging to our relationship? I work with these people all the time, so it would suck ruining that....

LOVE ME

I'm losing confidence in the way I dress desu. I dress well/normally but the only time I've tried a specific look was when I dressed like a skinhead but I don't feel as if that look is appropriate at the moment. I might just ask one of my female friends to come clothes shopping with me so they can help me pick out clothes that the ladies will like and that are more fashionable than what I'm wearing now.

It's silly because I remember talking to a girl and she would tell me how she wants a new look and now I'm in exactly the same position as her. I could actually ask her if she'll be willing to help out but whether or not she will is up in the air.

I'll throw this dilemma through an "ask the opposite gender" thread since I don't really know where I'm going.

>>16461873
I thought you were a ride or die kinda chick. Guess you're just an unreliable cunt.

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I think this dry spell is driving me a little crazy. Some positive feedback from the opposite gender would be appreciated recently. It's a good thing I have other things going really well for me in life right now; otherwise I might feel worse about it.

>>16466180
Insecurity stems (at least for me) from not having any redeemable qualities.

If you have some, that's a start and a good incentive to get some more.

>>16461873
i've totally fucked up my life and should just get used to working in this dead end job till i retire or die

I have gender issues. Not enough to wear I have a complete visceral urge to transition but enough to where it's slightly annoying.

>>16466272

How professionally inclined are they? Does their work come before their social life at work? Are they friends with the girl? You should probably be able to glean what you're looking for with the answers to these questions.

>>16466668
Well, I consider myself to not have any redeeming qualities. People say I'm intelligent, nice, and someone who can draw and write, but to me, they're either lying to make me feel better or haven't seen the truly good ones.

It's not for lack of trying, though. I just suck at existing, I guess.

I think I'm beating off too much.
I think it's due to my intimacy issues.
I'm doing it at a minimum of once every couple of days and at most 3 times a day.
Is this bad?

>>16466283
HOW CAN I LOVE YOU IF I CAN'T EVEN LOVE MYSELF?

why is having a conversation with you seem so hard at times? I want to talk to you but i do not want to make it seem like meaningless dribble because just talking to you makes me happy but it also worries me because sometimes I feel like it is really one sided. We have really good talks at times though and that one week was great when we were sexting but now it seems like we are just friends. I've never met anyone who makes me feel as happy and as stressed as you....

There was this girl in collage that I had a crush on,but she didn't like me back, so I stopped talking to her. She kept coming back and I made it clear it will not work out. I didn't have a problem with being her friend. The thing is she wasn't vulnerable with me. She kept secret, didn't invite me to hang out or at least present me with other friends. She just always came back to text me, because I was funny and interesting. I did manage to stop texting her and just concentrate on me. 2 year later, she found me on a anonymous app. I know is her, but she will not tell me. When I confront her, she just make a new account and start talking to me again assuming she's from another country. I want to stop and just delete the app (did 2 times and I came back), but before I leave I want her to admit it's her. Should I keep playing her game or just move on?

Note: I know that the obvious respond will be to leave the psico and just get on with my life. But I just need to see all the options.

>>16466768
>Having Middle School crushes after College
laff

why can't I do everything I want to do, why do I have to always get so distracted. I hate it. it is so frustrating. Its like there are two of me, the in the moment "oh look thats cool" and the "oh fuck its been two hours". I'm not stupid i know im not, fuck you grades its not that im stupid its just that i can't get stuff done. Why is it so hard to do the things that other people find so simple. Why can't I just...just...work. DAMN IT FUCK YOU ADHD

please don't give up . i'm not giving up on you, so please wait for me.

I love you but I'm not in love with you.

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I am a chef and things are getting out of hand with one of my coworkers.

Maybe you're worried that if you do or say something you'll get in trouble, or that you don't want to complicate things at the workplace, but I can't take the tension anymore. All the flirty comments and hints you throw out at me have finally gotten to me. You don't need to put your entire body against my back to reach over me for the oregano, but you do. You don't need to put your arm around my leg to stabilize yourself when you're reaching down to the shelf below me for the aioli, but you do. You didn't need to invite me to that party you had with all of your college buddies and you didn't need to ask me if I wanted to play N64 for a while as the last guest was leaving and I was putting on my coat and you didn't need to let me win at that lickitung sushi game (because I would have won anyways) so that you could pretend to be annoyed and push me over but you did.

So next week instead of us waiting for the other to come in so we can talk about the new anime episodes while we broil salmon, how about you invite me over to watch it so that we can talk about it while you're on top of me?

I actually like greek people

Eat Shit and Die

Come on you USPS dumbfucks, deliver the package tomorrow...

>>16467049
no thanks

>>16461873

People with nothing important to do or say should hold their tongue. If you must then be a lesson to others.

Drama addicted people should not create postings or situations they can thrive in. Or suffer the internal consequences eternally.

The blind should not try to lead the blind. The blind must choose their path correctly and listen or be lost forever.

Social climbers and emotional vampires must be identified correctly. Their feeding grounds controlled, and passer bys warned. So they may change correctly.

Do not judge for you will be found guilty yourself and cast away eventually. Forgive and forget.

Children have no place in the discussion with adults. If you are A then you can exit without grace as usual.

Use your time wisely and spend them with the right caring and loving people. If you do not have any in your life then become one.

Be well.


End of chapter

It is 12:29am, and I still have 2 more anime episodes to watch, but I have to get up at 8:48 for class later this morning. Due to my lack of discipline, I'm going to wake up tired as fuck & get pissed at myself once again for allotting myself far less than 8 hours of sleep. When will I learn?

>>16467247
the irony is killing me. have fun with your schizophrenia and self professed lack of loyalty to anyone but yourself.

ridiculous.

I fucking love Reol's voice! She sounds fucking amazing, and she's the best utaite I've ever heard. I would marry her voice, if I could...

>>16465005
Do something, now. Tell them.

>>16467289

Again and again, you refuse your lessons and chose play victim and project as usual. You are paranoid and malicious. You best grow up and stop protecting your scammer ways.

>>16461873
I love and miss you holy fucking shit.

Please message me, we could have been perfect. We got a long so nicely and If I never see you again I'm going to be a very grumpy lonely sailor.

Seriously - meet me halfway, one message is all it takes, and I'll tell you everything.

And what lovely milky tits you have

I have feelings for you, but it always feels like a game when we text and we never skype anymore so its hard to feel comfortable being somewhat myself around you.

I don't text you much because I don't want to seem needy, but I think even that is failing. I bet if I just decided to put my ego aside and text you first once in a while we would be much closer.

I remember us telling each other that we never wanted to bug each other so we waited to receive messages instead of sending them first. I hope that still applies.

I don't know who's fault it is, but I hope we can close this distance and meet face to face one day like we've always dreamed of.

>>16467251
oh my god this

>>16467289

This anon is always buttblasted it's pretty funny.

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Haha just poured my heart out to a girl Ive had feelings for for a few years with some personal problems and got brushed off. Whats even the point you know? probably thinks Im a child and spoiled ass now.

you should have fed the rats poison not milk and honey lol but i understand.

A single insensitive, heartless, backhanded comment from my mother ruined my self-esteem in my early teens. I've resented her ever since.

As far as I can tell, this event was the single defining moment of my life, and led to the downward spiral of bitter apathy I've been living in for the last 2 decades.

I'm not socially inept, but for some reason I'm incapable of forming lasting relationships.

I try not to prejudge people, but I end up resenting everyone anyway. People suck.

And the saddest part is I don't care enough to try and fix it.

>>16467315
B..?

>>16467289
>>16467313
This is started to get really annoying and stupid. Can't you text message each other this crap instead of constantly shitposting on /adv/

>>16467362

The lower case one is one of those ACN guys. Just ignore it.

>>16466782
Iktf anon. Are you planning on seeing a psychiatrist for testing/meds? I'm hoping to soon but as usual I've been procrastinating it :/

>>16466782

Have some self discipline. It's free. Change your diet and exercise.

It's only been five days and I miss her horribly. I'd give anything for a chance to fix my mistakes. Amazing how much impact someone can have on your life in such a short time

>>16461873

If you want to matter in someone's life stay quiet and let your actions do the talking. Be like those people and stop claiming loyalty or whatever mental problems you have onto others who moved on with their lives.

>>16467379
I'm on meds and can focus in school bet never when i need to on my own.

>>16467387
I do exercise and eat right. I have that down. It's just everything else

>>16467355
Lucky enough for the both of us, no.

Sorry anon

Im think i might kill myself

>>16467479
Don't

>>16467495

fuck

I'm in over my head, some part of me won't give up on everything though.

>>16467508
Same, sometimes I feel like giving up but then some other part of me is like "naah"

Shut up you bipolar chimp.

chimps masturbate too

I'm not giving up on this.

>>16467599
Good

I love you Mariana but I'm not gonna do shit about it, just like always. I guess it's a good thing you probably don't like me as more than a friend, that way I won't disappoint you.

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>>16467350
Aw fuck dude you sound like me - except the comment just happened this year and it was my Dad and I'm only 20.

Fucking asshole always blamed me for shit and said I have a shit personality and that's why no one likes me or cares about me (I have no close friends, and so he thought "hmmm why not capitilize on this insecurity of his to win an argument using ad hominem and then call him a sensitive little kid when he gets offended! good idea! hail satan!"). Anyway worse turned to worse, and after I made a phone call to my mother (They're divorced and live in different cities) I broke into tears. I told him he makes me feel miserable and self loathing and that his treatment of me is a big part of why i avoid people and drink so much alone.

He said he didn't care and it wasn't his fault. He even went so far as to patronize me by saying "No I do care, remember that time i bought you that donut? You really liked that didn't you?" all while laughing. The worst part is he wasn't trying to be edgy, he literally doesn't have a drop of empathy in him.

I fucking hate him, and I want him to die. He gave me so much shit for putting on weight when I was drinking, just because he lost weight and was active at the time, when last year when I was lifting and he was fat he was quiet as a mouse.

Since then I've been kicked out, and a lot more problems have surfaced (One of them being: >>16467315, yes I was being sarcastic in this post) but the ones with my Dad felt more relevant to yours.

All the best anon! I'm hoping you can form relationships at least for the both of us

>>16467599

wasting your life on stupid schemes as usual.

Got Nothin' Blues

Ain't got a woman
Ain't no woman wants me
Ain't got a woman
Ain't no woman wants me

Oh I'm so lonely
Lonely as can be

Ain't got no money
Ain't no money on me
Ain't got no money
Ain't no money on me

Oh Lord I'm so
Broke as I can be

Been down so long
I forgot how to cry
Been down so long
I forgot how to cry

If something don't happen soon
I will lay down and die

scammers never sleep gotta keep a watchful eye cuz they got no women in their lives :^)

I DONT WANT TO GET KEKED DESU FAMILIAL BRETHREN

no one cares. no one ever asks. no one wants to talk. no one notices.

there's 1 person who gives a shit if i live or die. that's my only tether to life. if something happens to him i'd kill myself without hesitation

>>16468086
and it's going to happen, pls pray for me anons

release the gas

i'm a lonely neet wife in a sexless marriage
i have horrible social anxiety that's actually starting to make me hostile and aggressive
i really want to do something good, but people scare me so much. i feel unloved, undesirable (in any aspect) , worthless and incompetent

the therapy isn't helping that much, i don't know how much value i can put into advice that tells me "just tell that inner voice to shut up"
???

i could for a bout of non-existence, but i have responsibilities around here.

One year without you, my friend.
I miss you dearly... Words can't describe how terrible we've all felt and what a shitty past year it's been
I miss you so much