There was a thread about the Sun that I was gonna post this to, but it was deleted by the time I finished typing it all. Synchronicity thread.
So most clear nights I go out and look at the stars, just to think about things. I think about everything, but one thing that always comes to my mind is this... feeling that eats at me. It feels like a severed connection with a woman that's far away from me (bear with me, I know how it sounds), and she's trapped there and I'm trapped here, and we're the only ones that can save each other.
So I sit out there, wondering what it is about staring out at the stars that makes this ambiguous feeling burst forth from inside me. Well, the other day I was browsing /x/ and I see a thread about Sophia (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sophia_%28Gnosticism%29)
Sophia is an Aeon, one of the first emanations of God, a feminine aspect of God and mankind. According to the story, Sophia is the Aeon responsible for the "flaw" that is the material realm. She tries to breach the barrier to the unknowable God and is cast down. As she falls, her fear, anguish, and longing to stay was so powerful that matter and soul were created. Jesus Christ, her syzygy, which is like a one and only soulmate for Aeons, is tasked by God to bring Sophia back into "fullness", which I guess is basically saving her.
So already I noticed a lot of similarities between this random part of gnosticism and the feelings I get nearly every night staring up at the stars and trying to "tune" into the universal pulse. Just a few hours later, I pulled out my Thoth tarot deck and did TWO one card draws. Both times I drew the Aeon.
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What does this have to do with Sun thread? Well, here I am, just a few days later, I see the thread about the Sun and as I'm opening it I go to look at my Soundcloud random playlist and the song that's playing is by a band called Sunchase. Then it hits me. The sun is a star like the ones that I stare up at at night while pondering foreign feelings of a lost soulmate. A star - the only thing in nature capable of creating matter.
Weird coincidence, huh?
>>17316427
I'm far too high for these levels of autism, I'm going to bed.
>>17317042
but isnt going to sleep just a waste of the high? I wait til I'm not high to sleep or its wasteful :D
>>17317527
laying in your music listening to bed is the greatest thing ever