two nights ago I had a dream that I met someone teaching a Kurt Vonnegut seminar. the man looked and sounded just like Vonnegut, but claimed to be someone else, merely a scholar. I tried to ask him questions about his novel Galapgos, but he refused to acknowledge the book. odd for a scholar.
anyway, since then I have been continually encountering Vonnegut in my real life. more than once I've googled something, only to see Kurt Vonnegut come up in the results. it happened twice just today, both results coming from unrelated search terms.
finally, I googled 'Vonnegut' to get an image for this thread and it turns out there's a Kurt Vonnegut memorial library literally 10 minutes from my apartment. should I go?
I'm really not a fan of his at all. I've read a few his novels and I've done as much research about him as I have about most other authors, which may be a lot, but he's never been very important to me.
But now here I am, trying desperately to figure out what significance he has in my life. I'm at a crossroads personally and I'm wondering if this won't lead me to some sort of resolution.
In the dream, I approached the scholar and asked, "Are you Kurt Voggenut?" He did not think this was funny or clever. Instead he ignored me throughout the seminar as I tried to ask him questions about Galapagos. The only response had for me was putting an anthology of Vonnegut short stories in my hand.
I woke up, told my wife about the dream and we laughed at it. That night I was googling ideas for dates around the city. To my surprise, there was a Vonnegut reading event happening downtown that night. It seemed queer to me, but I didn't give it much more thought.
The next day, I was looking up a quote from the Penguins of Madagascar and the first result was a link to an article about a Vonnegut short story.
I can't just chalk this up to Baader-Meinhof or observation bias, but I'm reluctant to project too much meaning onto these events.
I went thru a similar phase a few years ago, was at a crossroads of life too. Kurt kept popping up, I had no idea who he was. Pay some respect to him. If you're going thru what I went thru you're going to have a very difficult time but you can get thru it however you want by willing it to be so. Trust your self trust in your ability to find answers and don t be afraid to follow instinct.
Why? Why make it about Kurt? You realize playing this game using him goes against everything he believed in right?
If you searched for him in the past I'm pretty sure most search engines will take that into consideration to give you personalized results or whatever. If you feel like you're seeing a pattern in your search results it's probably because there is one.
Also it's not unusual to notice something more often when it's still fresh in your mind. Sometimes when I learn a new word or phrase I feel like I suddenly hear it everywhere, when in reality I heard it just the same amount but now I'm more sensitive to it.
And if you want to go to the library then you should. If you expect something unusual to happen you'll probably be disappointed, but maybe you'll find a good book at least.
No. Don't go. Why would you go? Doesn't make sense. You apparently like Kurt Vonnegut and there's a memorial ten minutes away from you. Obviously you should definitely not go. Stupid question.