>Playing Gameboy in car
>Sudden urge to throw it out of the window
>realize it has no games
i have this so bad. i dont know whats wrong with me. of course ill never do it. i get so fixated on bad things that could happen in any situation. it makes me tense up and feel terrified
>Sudden urge to leap out of the car and die, making everybody I know happier
>playing my Vita
>sudden realization I bought a Vita
I was blown away when reading this back in the day when I started lurking 4chan in 2008
I couldn't believe there were other kids as autistic as I was
Also applies to imagining there's a man on a skateboard following you and jumping around doing tricks as you travel by car
It's so autistic yet a bunch of us felt it
Anybody sometimes get the sudden urge to just start beating the shit out of people? Like, sometimes when I'm at work I just have the urge to wanna beat the ever loving fuck outta people who make eye contact with me.
I also just have random urges to kill myself. I don't think that's normal
>work with a lathe at work
>why the fuck do i always want to grad the chuck while it's spinning?
>'go on, smash your face into it, it'll be fun!'
>'don't touch it. DO NOT touch it...'
I need to get out of here.
No, but whenever somebody hands me a tool like a screwdriver or a saw, or even a steak knife, I think "This guy must really trust me because I could murder this guy if I wanted to"
As for the random urges to kill yourself, you're probably depressed.
Nope but I do get these very strange, random urges to want to shove my dick violently into attractive women. I just want to strip her down and pound her downtown brown. Just want to shove my rockhard, 6" dick deep into her womb and explode and then shove her used body away like trash.
Does anyone know this feel? Very strange.
This isn't autism guys.
>In the teachings of Sartre, anguish is seen when an utterly captured being realizes the unpredictability of his or her action. For example, when walking along a cliff, you would feel anguish to know that you have the freedom to throw yourself down to your imminent death.
>Also applies to imagining there's a man on a skateboard following you and jumping around doing tricks as you travel by car
I used to do this.
Except instead of imagining a guy on a skateboard, i imagined Sonic running alongside my car.
>As for the random urges to kill yourself, you're probably depressed.
I am depressed. I have a gun in my house and sometimes I have the urge to call my mom and tell her I love her and then blow my brains out on the phone and earlier today I had a suicidal thought about driving my car off a bridge.
I want these thoughts to leave me
I feel your pain anon. I work in a warehouse and use power equipment on a daily basis and every day I have flashbacks to watching Klaus the Forklift Truck Driver(if you haven't seen this you need to). Like I could just murder everybody.
And if I'm driving in the car bickering with my girlfriend I always get the urge to drift into oncoming traffic just so I don't have to hear it anymore.
I think intrusive thoughts and intense weird shit going on our brains ultimately led us to a place like 4chan
We might want to stay in denial and believe we're normal and that everyone is like this, but we all fucked up.
I can't be the only one with that backflip dilemma
Here's another one:
Have you guys ever just stood still and concentrated on wanting to move a certain body part but not actually moving it and 10 seconds in you feel as though you can't actually move it.
Anon. Anytime I'm in casual conversation with someone, I have the urge and curiosity to hit someone. I can feel my fist hit the side of their face and feel the burn of the embarrassment. I really hate myself. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Whenever I back out of my driveway, I always imagine how it would feel to accidentally roll over a kids head. Then I play out the scenario of calling the police and telling their parents. Every fucking time
Who here have whole conversations with themselves? I live alone and sometimes I have a conversation with myself or act like I'm getting interviewed or some shit. Am I crazy or just lonely?
ITT: 4chan is literally a support group for autistic and ADHD kids
that makes me really happy :)
>program expensive as fuck mill/lathes and machining centers
>overwhelming urge to just run everything into each other at max speeds and feeds
I swear to god if I ever figure out I'm going to get fired, jaws are going to fly.
But for me it's usually things that have spinning motion, they usually just keep spinning and never stop or land, I have to actually think about it really hard in order for it to to stop spinning or land
its amazing. I've been coming here since 2008 and you're all still the same brand of pants on head silly. You argue about literally nothing, HATE videogames, but you sarcastic shits produce some of the most humorous content I've ever seen. never change boys.
Not crazy, it's fine mentaly to talk alone soemtimes.
I mostly laugh creepily when i think something funny or unsettling. Have to be carefull not to randomly start laughing at uni or at work.
ok that's it. this thread has official changed my life
I prefer to company and conversations my own mind provides far more than that of other humans. I have like one friend, a few drinking buddies, and a girlfriend. Other than the like two days a week social obligation and my job I just stay in my bedroom and play vidya and read comics. And talk to myself.
Nah, don't worry. You aren't alone here. I think it's anxiety caused, like when we imagine something we are aware of the possibility of not being able to do it, and you know that thing about how when you tell yourself not to think of something (pink elephants), you immediately start thinking about pink elephants? Well we do that. We realize we could fuck it, and even though we try to think it normally, we start pink elephanting it.
>about to hit the ground
>wake up in a cold sweat
>think if I played my favorite song in front of people they will immediately love it and like me
>dream your taking a piss
>wake up and your bed is completely dry
Oh god what, I thought I only had that thought.
This shit is getting weird.
>See a bunch of reports about shootings and shit on TV
>Alternate between "Man, that's fucked up" and "Maybe I could do it better"
Anyone else get this?
I mean, you could really kill more people if you were quiet about it and killed them in isolated locations with a knife or something before getting caught.
>hit the womb
>wake up in the middle of a warm viscous discharge
Everytime. I've had this recurring fantasy of blackmailing one of my high school teachers into being my personal sex slave doing depraved shit like cooking me dinner and rubbing her pussy on my feet as I eat it.
My friend backed his tank over a dead insurgents head for giggles and took a picture of it, on a related note. I still have it saved somewhere.
He named the file "squish"
I did this with my phone at college. The class I had was on the fourth floor of a building with a huge open space in the middle. Everytime I looked down I wanted to throw my phone as hard as possible to the ground. Still don't get why.
>tfw I'll never be able to sing like Morrissey
Happens to me.
In an MMO when I have the ability to save some guy not in my party from death
>Should I help this guy?
>No, he wouldn't help you.
>If I help him, maybe he'll pay it forward and help somebody else.
Cause a wipe in a raid
>OH BOY YOU JUST FUCKED UP
>God damn it this is embarrassing.
>That's what you get for being a fucking retard
>You should just quit now and let them replace you.
>Leave the guild, block everyone and pretend like it never happened.
>Let's just see what happens first.
>hear about all these murders
>think that I would be the best serial killer ever
>formulate a plan in my head
>realize that the people I'd kill all have a family and people who love them
>realize that I could never willing put people through the pain of losing a loved one
These thoughts don't happen often but damn, they're hard to deal with.
I'm seeking help soon. This depression is just making all my thoughts negative. I don't want to kill myself because I know my mom would be destroyed. I just wish things were better
Something is up here.
I have to stop these gets.
I do that. I never really had friends growing up, so I effectively put myself in my own company. Now I don't really need any friends, because there's always somebody there who understands and agrees with me. Plus, it's great for working out logic and ideas, since I discuss and scrutinize things with myself from every angle I can think of.
This is deeply sad.
So, anyone ever picked up a pair of hedge clippers and immediately had to stop themselves from flexing them at people? On the way back from the hardware store to the car, a bird flew past at ground level, and I vividly wondered if I could cut it in half mid-flight. I can't be the only one.
One time, while driving to work, I saw what seemed to be about 100 elementary school kids walking on the side of the road, towards what I presumed was their school. I think they went out for a field day to the nearby park.
I could have had my face on every news channel in the fucking civilized world.
>mfw i felt the muscles in my hands twitch
Quite likely, my aw is crackign like mad, and i can dislocate it by moving it on the side. I also always hear weird liquid sound when i do it.
Gonna have it checked in a few weeks i guess.
OH MY GOD
I have shit like that happen all the time. Not just backflips but random physical actions that can be looped. It's like I can't make the cycle end. Goddamnit whats wrong with us?
>want to write some stupid story
>write it out bit by bit in my head
>can't bring self to put it to paper
Too much pride to lower myself to the level of deviant autists, but it just keeps boiling up inside.
>walking through a grocery store
>sudden urge to get completely naked and start doing jumping jacks while pushing out a fat turd just to see how people react
Have you ever had something like the backflip one, except it's walking or being moved and you just can't walk/move? And you try so hard to visualize it and you're brain won't let you, nor will it let you move onto another topic until you finish walking? I hate that.
Screw intrusive thoughts.
I do, in the middle of the night. Fortunately, it's rare. You hear voice around but can't mov, shit is one of the scariest thing i've experienced
Another clasic is sleeping in a roo you don't know, and being unable to remeber or navigate the room. I'd wake up in the middleof the night unable to know where i was and where was the door, even in place i had slept the day before
I know it seems impossible but you can make things better.
Never perfect, never free of it entirely, but better.
I hit rock fucking bottom and ended up in a psych hospital for 3 months, so I really do know how shitty you're feeling. And I'm not bullshitting when I say you can overcome it.
Sometimes when I'm at work I want like a bunch of bad shit to happen like robbers or bad people come and scare everybody and then I be a big hero and save everyone by beating the shit out of them while music is playing in the background. Kinda like a video game or an anime. I hope I'm not alone in this
Go find a support group, man. Reconnect with your mother. Don't feel ashamed or embarrassed of your thoughts. They're not good, but suppressing them makes you feel worse about it in the end. Maybe even talk to your mom about it if you're that close. Just please don't shut yourself away from people or help. We know you can get out of this funk and be happy with your life again, anon.
>middle of class
>wonder what would happen if I randomly pull a gun and blow my brains out
>people in back of me yelling
>peoples to the side getting splattered
>people in front looking back and going what the fuck what the fuck
>teacher going batshit
No, but in middle school I had this weird recurring fantasy about being in a talent show competition, walking on stage, then my body just completely collapses with every limb and bone basically doing the opposite of what its supposed to do, then the disgusting mess floats off the ground and reassembles itself and I start flying around the auditorium.
No idea where that came from.
>all these me
EVERYONE ITT TELL YOUR STAR SIGN AND RISING/MOON (IF YOU KNOW IT), MAYBE WE CAN FINALLY PINPOINT THE CAUSE OF THIS MADNESS!
Fire signs tend to be the most autistic
It really is, especially if you have never experienced it before or at least don't remember.
You can possibly move your fingers and toes in this state to reassure yourself you didn't actually snap your spine in the middle of the night and aren't truly paralyzed.
Holy shit, something similar happens to me but with crosses. I used to be a Christian and I'd sometimes visualize crosses and candles when praying, then one day the horizontal part started moving up and down which sometimes looks like an upside down cross. I can't stop it either. The only way to get past it is to use tactile visualization.
>In High School/College
>Have daydreams in class that some fucker tries to shoot up the school and I save everyone while taking maybe a minor injury and I get a qt3.14 grill
I swear to god these thoughts are invasive as fuck.
>Fixing friend's lap top
>Sudden urge to throw it as the wall
It's happened to me hundreds of times. I can usually move my jaw and that's how I wake myself up but it's sometimes very difficult. i wake up feeling like i just benched 500 pounds
Yeah I fantasize about it. Not in like a glorifying way though if that makes sense. Also think of different ways I can die in a lot of scenarios I'm in. Think about killing myself at least once a day then (not in a depressive way just what would happen or how I would) realize I'm scared as shit of dying and then stop.
I don't think there's anything wrong with me but who knows
>look in mirror
>constant fear of reflection moving on its own in the back of mind
>Doing some activity, such as walking down the stairs
>I suddenly think about tripping
>The more I think about it, the closer I come to tripping
>Have to concentrate or I'll do the stupid thing
You'll never hear a qt3.14 grill say "Anon, you're my hero!" in her adorable voice while a crowd of your peers cheers for you
And yes, I get the game boy thing. I also hate my phone and want to throw it down into a sewer as well as my fucking keys. Don't hate the keys, but I always play catch with them when I walk over a sewer grate, just hoping that they'll fall one day.
WHAT ARE WE DOING WITH OUR LIVES
everyone wants to be the hero anon. you figure if you were the hero once, and saved a bunch of people that people would remember you, you'd be recognized and respected above others.
>take a shit
>fear of getting my balls or ass chewed by an alligator
>get up every now and then to check
/a/ is seriously the absolute worst board i have ever been on. first time lurking i checked the catalog and opened about 5 interesting threads. within minutes all 5 had been deleted. ive made 2 threads on /a/ and both times they got deleted in seconds. and every thread is waifu shit nobody even talks about anime
>you're cuddling with 'her'
>Those intrusive ultra gay thoughts
I'm not gay I swear I'm not gay I swear
He means that you're a totally free being in a world with zero absolutes.
Basically whenever you have an intrusive thought (i.e. an urge to do something generally violent either to yourself or to others) you are experiencing a mini-existential crisis. It happens to everyone.
this is hilarious but i have similar situations. i always check the dryer to make sure the cats not in there like 50 times. even if its like 1 shirt i still have to go find the cat and make sure
>Waking up thinking you're late for work/school the next day
>Have no attraction to men
>Can't even get it up to anything gay
>Still picture what happens if the male protagonists were to suddenly kiss in a particular scene
IT KEEPS FUCKING HAPPENING MAKE IT FUCKING STOP
>little brother watching avatar or whatever
>wish I could go on some life changing journey with a qt 3.14 so I wouldn't be alone
Saving the world alongside a girl and falling in love because of it seems so much easier than asking them out
Yeah. What actually help me the most is giving blood and participating in research. That way i feel like him helping other people do good stuff, and amnot a waste of time and ressources.
I'm waiting for the day society collapses so I can act out on all of my urges.
I feel like in holding myself back from my urges i'm killing myself in a way.
The only medicine is to hurt people and break things.
The urges are the true self.
I don't like walking near traffic because I'm somewhat suicidal and constantly imagine how easy it would be to throw my head under a tire.
>using free software
>get the urge to install Gentoo even though steers the user towards nonfree programs
please take your normalfag cancer to /b/ or /mlp/
captcha: pic related
>at some random place you've never been to
>meet some girl
>completely normal and believable person
>spend entire time talking and getting to know each other
>realize this person's pretty cool, and you'd like to get to know them better
>no cheesy love-at-first-sight bullshit
>only legit, honest interest in another human being
Sometimes dreams are more suffering than life.
>take a shower
>drain is a little clogged
>water is ankle deep
>OH FUCK PIRANHAS
>hop out of the shower
>unclog the drain
>wait for the water to drain
I should probably mention that I have a phobia of fish, large bodies of water and other things that live in the water.
Not sure if it's just me.
I sometimes get the urge to just go apeshit and just wreck everything I see without caring about injury to myself or others. Like I would literally destroy what's destructible for no reason.
>Playing my pc
>Sudden urge to fap
>Sudden urge to fap again
>Check the clock
>it's 4 in the morning
>It has been 5 hours since the last time I fapped
>Need to get up at six
>Go to bed
>Fap in bed
>Fall asleep for one hour
>Go to work
I hate my life
For me it was Alex Kidd riding that fucking bike.
>Doesn't matter what I'm doing
>Shower curtain in stretched out
>Fear that some psychopath is hiding behind it, waiting to kill me
>Have a gun with me
>Guys chasing me
>Try to shoot gun
>Fucking trigger is almost impossible to pull, it takes too much effort
I dropped out in 9th grade
livingwith my single mother
>Having daydreams about your qt crush being attacked and you come in to save her.
>The attacker gets the upper hand and injures me
>All hope seems lost but I get a second wind and kill the attacker
>Severely injured but the qt crush see how heroic I was and we kiss
I swear I have this fantasy at least twice a week
Not really that relevant to the thread but to all the anon's saying they want to kill themselves
>Do LSD with friend and girlfriend
>I don't get hit as hard as they do, decide to try salvia
>Smoke a pretty good sized bowl of 60x
>like being slammed through an interdimensional taffy stretcher/kaleidoscope
>Try saying something to my friend
>My entire body splits in half and I'm just hearing myself talk gibberish but it feels really unpleasant when I talk like this wierd chill
>At one point I stand up and shout at my friend CALL THE COPS because It felt like my head was open and they were looking at my brain
>At one point I melded into the carpet and could feel it
>Forget who I am at one point, everything looks like I'm in a corrupted videogame, everything going batshit
>Feel like a death chill, don't really know how to explain it just that it was fucking terrible and I thought I was going to die
>No more suicidal invasive thoughts because I'M NOT FUCKING GOING BACK THERE TILL I HAVE TO
Also apparently 60x is crazy strong salvia.
Don't ever fucking try it jesus
>Dream I'm at party and meet qt3.14
>We hit it off and start dating
>Make out, etc.
>Wake up right as things get heated
And another one
>Dream I met the perfect woman
>We get married and have a family
>Live the life of taking care of my family
>About to walk in the door to be greeted by family
>new ballpoint click pen
>irresistible urge to take it apart
>anywhere with a view
>I could totally snipe that guy from here
>anywhere with a small group of people nearby and a back alleyway
>I could totally push those people into those alleyway then lock them in with a truck and just walk away
talked to my gay friend about these thoughts
he said it's not gay unless you're thinking about romantic relationship things
thinking about sex concerning everything is something all guys do
And then I dwell on them for a while and do my best not to give in to this madness. Having OCD sucks. It really does.
>Hey! What happens when I drop that 3DS in the toilet?
>How much of a shock would that charger give me if I stick it in my mouth?
Crazy shit like that and what's so bad is how long they can stick around!
>Take a dip into a pool
>Try to see how long I can hold my breath
>Close my eyes
>Imagine a shark coming near me
>Immediately surface and get out of the pool
I've had this happen and I've kinda acted on it but when I was much younger probably around 10 years old. I used to help my mom babysit some little girl who was 3 and I used squeeze her cheeks and slap her till she cried and I thought it was cute when she did. I still get the urge to do this whenever I see something really cute but I learned to control it.
Oh Anon, how could you possibly be scared of this little cutie?
>be a chemist
>whenever anybody mention any drug remember i could be makign it
>anytime i hear about an explosion i think i could have been bigger
>urge to make fluoric acid and throw it at people
I always fear i'll snap and go full akbar mode
>Be resting, either trying to sleep or just getting horizontally for a while to think
>Suddenly, without any previous hint, my body has a spasm as if I fell from a great height.
Good god do I have the gun dreams a lot. Also, ever have dreams where you are looking at a screen or playing a game or WHATEVER but it's so dark that you can't see it?
>Around little girls
>Start checking them out
What has this place done to me?
>Biggest fear is that I'll be alone forever in life with no friend and nobody to talk to
>Terribly afraid of starting conversation, usually think everyone hates talking to me
>Have weird panic attacks when I remember how alone I am
>tfw ADHD, intrusive thoughts, fucked up jaw and inner ear, can't make my brain visualize things correctly, sleep paralysis, imagine playing music to classmates
clearly there is something related here that's bringing us all to 4chan
god its so fucking cringy but yes yes yes i do
>playing King of Carrot Flowers part 1 & 2 with my best bros on stage at a talent show
>after the first part everyone is fucking into it
>start wailing like a fucking banshee for the second part
>I LOOOOVVEEEE YOU JESUSSS CHRIIIISSSTTTT
>that first break down happens
>the whole crowd is into it fucking swarming to the front of the stage
>every single qt hipster is soaked and wanting my dick
>mfw im imagining this while driving listening to the song during my daily commute
>Be like 12
>Family vacations on a river nearby
>Shit's both deep and fast
>Get a safety rope tied to a tree and use it while swimming
>Suddenly I fuck up and end up losing my footing
>I'm below the water
>Can't pull myself back because the current is really strong
>Can't get my feet on everything, the rope suspends me at half the way from the bottom and the surface
>Can see my parents on their armchairs talking
>Can see the tree and the rope going all the way to it
>Suddenly stop fighting
>Start feeling really peaceful
>The beautiful sunrays go through the foliage, then the water and finally hit me
>The water is not that cold either
>Suddenly I'm forcefully pulled back by my father
I still want to feel that peaceful sensation again.
SOMEBODY FUCKING ELSE FANTASIZES ABOUT THIS HOLY FUCK I'M NOT ALONE
The hell is that.
>be thinking about stuff
>suddenly remember something embarrassing you did in the past
>involuntarily say the first word that comes to your mind
>talking to girl
>conversation goes well for twenty minutes
>realization that I'm talking to a girl hits me
>notice her tits and how cute she is
>nervousness hits me like a truck
>urge to fuck growing
>conversation ends awkward as fuck
I can't be the only one.
Happens too often.
It's a nice feeling when you first wake up, and than it sets in.
>Have the ability to save some guy
If it doesn't actively take away from something me and my group is trying to accomplish (which includes not getting killed by the way), I will go to help without hesitation. Usually I just use healing spells to support them. In Mabinogi as I'd travel through the world, I'd just heal / revive / mend the wounds of random people in their pets when they needed it. I wasn't even a medic, I just kept a fuckton of bandages and phoenix feathers around, and I had learned Healing for pure utility reasons. People never did the same for me, except for the occasional revive if I waited around long enough, though.
>hair falls out
>earlobes grow huge
I get the hair falling out. Don't understand the earlobe part.
I actually literal piss the bed and wake up with soaked pyjamas
>tfw have to wake up before my uni flatmate does so i can change
>Want to post reaction image
>Someone else already posted it somewhere else
Excellent taste anon.
They are amazing in concert
>you will never play This Modern Love while the qt of your dreams is in the crowd and she smiles at you during the ending when you softly say "...throw your arms around me..."
>driving in car
>start saying nigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigganigga
>dream I'm back at school
>usual dumb shit
>run into the chick I tried to ask out on the last day of senior year because too much of a faggot to do it before then
>feels like a second chance
>get blown off way more brutally than when it happened irl
>do nothing the whole day but strongly consider suicide
I know I fucked up but that's still not cool.
And I know that first feel man, it sucks.
>Cannot see shit
All I wanted to know is what the fuck I was playing
>Talking to beautiful 10/10 coworker
>Sudden urge to rape her
I need help
>still have an imaginary friend since I was a kid
>he's actually grown up with me
>that feel when I'm more comfortable laying down by myself than with a qt grill because I'd rather sleep with the protection of my dragon friend.
still single and honestly I'm perfectly happy by myself because I'm never actually alone.
>driving my car, by myself
>listen to weeaboo/vidya soundtracks
>sing along loudly to them sometimes
>stop singing at the intersection even though I know other cars can't hear my music or my singing
Goddammit no, that's my thing.
What the fuck?
I also get random spasms and hit myself when that happens too.
>sudden urge to stab my closest family member
Shit, don't remind me about that excellent album. It's one of the few that I personally believe to be flawless in that I love every track on it. I still listen silent alarm once in a while.
>See extremely sexy/nude picture of a woman
>Instantly scream out the gibberish
>Do that but while I am trying to fall asleep
>Spend the next hour or so trying to forget about that shit, not able to go to sleep.
>Trying to forget something
>Tell myself I will probably be thinking about it forever
>Five minutes later, I can't remember what I was trying to forget
Fuck you brain. Listening to me and shit.
i'm usually pretty calm when i suffer sleep paralysis, had a few jump scares like on time i saw my clothes drying rack by the side of my bed then a face/skull flew at me, then the clothes rack was gone and i could move.
my house mate screams in his sleep and shit fairly often really loud too
>My boss is the 10/10 gril
>Gathering with some of the other guys talking about which co worker or customer you want to fuck
I have similar dreams a lot.
I always go back to high school, and it's always really dark out, or dusk.
Same thing with Walmart, of all places, dreams always start there, it's weird.
Never the schedule thing, though.
It's usually a big assignment due that I don't have to turn it.
and then when you realize you aren't gonna do it because you think you are normal sane person you congratulate yourself in your head and say that you are good person for not killing them, that's what happens with me
What do you say then, anon?
The French have a term for situations like these. It's called L’appel du vide. It literally translates to "Call of the Void".
It's that little voice in your head that tells you to jump off that cliff you're overlooking or drive into incoming traffic.
>think about all the times you got a random boner in front of your family when you were young
I have a feeling that in the last moments before I die I'll actually be seeing him towering over me, probably getting ready to carry me off into the afterlife or something.
Feels kinda nice.
I even look like the guy, my coworkers always bring it up.
I've tought very often that i could make a good amount of drugs, sell them and just have a heap of cash stashed away in case of problem.
>Want to tell someone something
>For get what it was
>Remember just before you go to sleep
>post in a thread
>it immediately dies
I am the killer of threads
>post something you think is funny
>no one replies
>on the way to a meeting or to talk/do something important
>think of every possible outcome and how to deal with said outcome
It's getting to be too much.
>Freud said this represents a fear of castration.
Freud also connected literally everything and anything about human psychology with sex, there's gotta be a line somewhere where it stops being reasonable
It's so twisted, these things are so far in the past that they couldn't possibly affect you today.
And yet here we are, cringing out what we did 10+ years ago and have no possible way to control, and even if we could change them nothing would be different.
>always running what-if scenarios in your head, need to stay ready for every possible situation but only think about bad ones
>they never happen but you can't help but stay one step ahead
For me it's more 'holy fuck this is such a fucked up shitty feeling'.
I feel rather shaken up for a few seconds, then shake my head and say 'nah no fucking way could I ever' to try and reassure myself.
Fucking shit man.
>Have somebody else ride in my car
>Drop them off in my house
>Thoughts about them bugging my car so they can record me doing embarrassing shit
See with me it would be. Well remember those cars in Unreal Tournament 4 with the blades that shot out of both ends ? I would picture them shooting out of my truck or car and just taking down every streetlight that was ahead of me.
Not really related but
>At work, having met a coworker's mother
>She's really hot
>Come back home and lie down on top of the bed
>Have a dream about having a foursome with coworker, her sister, and her mum.
>Coworker sucks me off while I french her mother.
>For some reason I can actually feel her tongue wrapping around mine
>Suddenly wake up with the hardest erection I've had in a while, while I'm making out with the air.
>Realize that anyone could have passed by my open door and seen this
I currently live at home with my family. If anyone saw it, they would not speak of it, but I would still know. And it frightens me to no end.
>tfw sexually abused when i was a kid
>tfw no one knows except parents and the people who were responsible
>tfw no atequate therapy
>tfw too afraid to tell anyone because it will change their perception of me
>imagining there's a man on a skateboard following you and jumping around doing tricks as you travel by car
I used to imagine spiderman following our car while doing all sort of cool tricks
I know a feel you all feel
The feel when no gf.
>demonic beast starts towering over me
>exert will in my mind to force it to instead lay down on me and go to sleep.
>wind up falling asleep with it laying on me.
>having a dream
>something goes wrong
>"Oh yeah? Eat shit."
>open my eyes
>feel like a smug piece of shit because doing that lets me have full control over the dream and situation
>Dreaming about school during the summer
>Be it during middle school or high school summer break
>Going to class
>Fucking pissed as hell that it's the first day of school
>Have all this homework and shit
>Wake up panicking and make sure school isn't tomorrow
>It starts in like 3 months
Those dreams always pissed me off.
>Jerking off with my computer/phone/somewhere in my house
>Cum hard as fuck
>Get the weird urge that somebody's watching me or watching the sites I'm browsing
>Close everything, run a magnet, delete every history ever, search the room for any hidden cameras etc.
I've actually done this. DO NOT DO THIS.
>leap from a car at 40+mph
>smash head on road three times
>roll for 10 feet
>head busted open
>get up walk across the street
>mfw I say I'm ok guys
Not as fun as it sounds bro.
>tfw your gf was a virgin but you know you made her a sex crazed woman that's going to be getting dick whenever she wants now
it's like she's my daughter or something. the girl is crazy but i still can't get over the fact someone else is going be fucking her soon
>Post about a good video game to play with /v/
>3 replies, page 10
>Someone else posts thread number #460 about some shit from E3 or a AAA title
>456 replies, page 1
Or alternatively, what you posted. The only time I ever successfully trolled a board was the one time I visited /a/ and posted saying that anime was all tryhard bullshit, and I was semi-serious. I said that more anime needs to be lighthearted and comedic, amongst other things, and even then not a ton of people wound up replying. That being said, I think /a/ is a terrible board.
>family finds my stash of knuckles / rouge porn
>friends find my canon shipping proof dvd
>have the urge to throw my mom
>have the urge to belt
I get intrusive thoughts too. I sometimes think about punching someone or saying something hateful to someone. It always happens to people I actually like, not people I actually want to punch or be mean to. It causes a guilty feeling afterwards.
>sleeping and shit
>dream goes wrong, creepy shit and shit
>in order to wake myself up, I get on top of something, dive off, and attempt to break my neck
>when I manage to break my neck, I wake up
This is fucking confusing as to how I found this out, and why I did it.
I've actually compartmentalized many beliefs I've got into specific people; for instance, one friend represents Catholicism, another anarchism, an old teacher is modern liberalism, an ex-girlfriend is vegetarianism, etc. etc.
when I try to think about something I visualize them discussing the thoughts I imagine
26, no, not going to name it because I named my steam account after him, he's actually really chill, kinda wish I could be more like him - laid back but attentive, doesn't say much but when he does say something it's actually well thought out.
>tfw I can carry on a conversation dealing with technical stuff like what I did to fix a server but the second it even gets into casual or smalltalk I fucking turn into an olive garden
>Being in bed lil' tike anon
>Entire body is paralysed
>Every inch of my body stings like crazy
>Scream hoping my parents would wake up and help me
>Fall out of bed and crawl my way to their door
>Cry myself to sleep infront of their door
>wake up and just go back to my bed to go to sleep
>Lying in bed
>About to fall asleep
>Start thinking about scary shit
>Lay awake while scared of it
>Fear of the scary thing walking through your door
>Can't decide whether to go to sleep or stay awake
It's OCD mate, obsessive thoughts. i know that feel, random thoughts of violence or death involving things and people you know. seek help trust me it will only paralyze your life
>lying in bed
>this same scenario
>back pointing towards the door
>too comfy to roll over
>occasionally check behind you to make sure everything is clear
>In good thread on /v/
>someone calls you to other part of the house
>Worry about thread 404ing
>Watch Youtube videos about Creepypastas at night
>Know they are all bullshit
>Still get a scared
truth be told it probably contributed a lot to all of the issues i have now. i never got proper therapy or anything like that and i haven't spoken to anyone about it since it happened. it's disgusting to think that happened to me. it all feels like a distant memory but it's crazy, everytime i'm around my family i just think to myself "they know what happened to me"
This one always gets me
>Laying in bed
>Browsing a creepy thread or reading some creepy short stories (The good creepy pastas)
>Have a huge fucking feeling that shadow creatures will slam my door and staring at me in my sleep
Prepare to die DLC was a fucking nightmare for me. For some reason my biggest fears is shadow creatures like the top hat figure.