I can't even imagine a person, place, thing, circumstance, or just anything that would make me happy
Like I was thinking of texting my friend we should drive up the coast and rent a beach house or something for a few days. But what even would be the point?
Why do anything?
None of this matters. Any of it. So why go on living? Why not just commit suicide?
i know the feeling, OP. The search for meaning in life is the hardest and most important thing people can do. There's no intrinsic meaning in anything.
Sometimes what saddens me is the suspicion that I may be happiest when I'm unhappy.
I know the feeling
But, on the other hand, things often turn out to be different than you would imagine them to be
Like yeah on a very concrete level it's the same shit as being in the house you are in now except you're there with a friend and there's water everywhere, but the whole experience can turn out to be more fun than just your little mental simulation of it
Still kinda pointless unless you can satisfy yourself with the temporary meaning it might give those moments you spend there
Remember the last time you were truly happy?
That's what I'm saying man. Maybe I would enjoy it, though I doubt I would that much, but ultimately I just go back to my shitty life afterwards however much money poorer.
Maybe that's just me thinking about it wrong though idk. Maybe I should just try it out.
Travel is really a "canned" stereotypical answer to things and you will know if you are or are not drawn to it. ( I have friends who travel constantly and love it, but like you, I don't see the big draw)
I think you need to have some sort of mission to generate enthusiasm. For me, I'm trying to build a side income stream that will eventually replace my job. It's really challenging and keeps me motivated.
My best memories are playing video games back in the day with my only friend. Which is both cool and kind of sad I guess in a way.
Yeah I told my coworker I wasn't rly the traveling type and didn't like it and she just laughed at me and didn't get it. She's going to NYC soon and Tokyo after that. But me idk. I want to go to those places (and others) but I just don't see the point if I don't like... Go for a prolonged period of time.