>have two beautiful twin cousins
>whenever i see pictures of them i get absolutely fucking triggered
>i can't do anything and i just stand there with the thousand yard stare
>all the memories are just rushing back
>was fat all of my known life
>parents did nothing when i was a child to do anything about it
>delude myself with all the lies usually spouted by people who want to delude themselves such as "b urself" and "u r beautiful just wait the right one"
>be raised like a pussy by my mother
>be rejected by girls
>just shelter myself in games and internet
>now 28 years old
>never held hands, never kissed, never hugged, never snuggled, only went to prostitutes once and i hated it
>parents are immigrants to this country
>my family back home is dying one by one, cousins growing up
>miss out on all of this
>start losing weight recently
>it's easy as fuck
>mixed feelings of anger, despair, depression, suicidal, of feeling weak, empty, dry, deprived, deep sadness, cold, envy, jealousy
>know full well what i missed on and will never get to do what i missed on with said cousins
>never felt these feels before
>can't cope can just endure and wait it out
>feels like i completely lost my humanity
i don't even know
why i keep coming here writing all this
every time i go through this i write the same shit here
the more weight i lose the sadder i become, the more i realize how it all turned out, the madder i become
the thing that gets me mad the most though is the delusion
the fucking delusions people give themselves to not hurt other's feelings
i sincerely believe liberalism, progressivism, political correctness are mental illnesses, where people lie to themselves in order to not spill the truth in front of a person who's got visible obvious physical problems that can be fixed, so they don't feel bad about themselves
they are incapable of projecting into the future, which is why they tell sweet sudden lies instead of cold hard truths that would have helped me greatly
it's a byproduct of leftism and liberal PC ideology
it is based in truths that have been buried by leftist lies
it's a weird mixture of feelings and i think the only reason them make me feel that way rather than any other girl is because of everything else that surrounds them which is the family
they just remind me of when i was younger, and everything i went through because of the lies from left leaning parents especially my mother
Why are leftists lying? To destroy the white race?
after having felt about it for a long time, i know why i feel that way
i wish i would have spent more time with them instead of being here alone wallowing in my own feelings
and everything i missed in my childhood because of being a little fat fuck
i lost quite a lot of weight and i see more women eyeing me, it tells me i wouldn't have had issues with women had i been not a little fat fuck
one just has to look at what the left has come up with in recent years, with the fat acceptance bullshit and many others
very simple shit no one explained to me
no one knows that losing weight is very fucking easy it seems, all it takes is simply reduce the quantity of food you take in, neither my father nor my mother tried to get me to eat less, they'd just feed me more and more and more
i already mentioned the lies, the delusions such as "b urself" and more like those
i got the "just like walk up to her and talk to her" advice, the "he didn't have girls in his class that's why" or the "haha who's this girl who brought your book back, is she your gf" even though i simply had lent her my book and she had just brought the fucking book back
the only problem was that i was a fat fuck, no one to spell it out for me, and of course i'd just shelter myself in games
i'm gonna try to make another cousin who's fat lose weight by simply explaining how it's done, how it works, and see where it goes from there
if that other cousin manages to lose weight, it will only make me madder
>with wanting to do your cousins.
Wanting to do them is one thing. Honestly thinking you will is another.
Realistically if you didn't get a headstart(started fucking each other pre puberty) chances of hooking up with your relative get slimmer with every passing year.
"Body positivity"(I just cringed) and be yourself bullshit only works if you honesty don't give two shits about what other people think or have super high opinion about yourself. Otherwise it's so retarded that even child can see it.
>Otherwise it's so retarded that even child can see it.
well no they can't
you're a fat kid being fed lies "you're beautiful", "just wait", "is this/that girl your gf :3"
the shit that would get me mad is when my mother, or others, would start talking about girlfriends
i was very well aware that girls rejected me, then i'm being told these delusions and lies, no one telling me "lose weight fat fuck"
"fat positivity" isn't a tenet of actual leftism, though. it's a stupid movement perpetuated by fat young adults on the internet.
and the "b urself" meme is a staple of modern conservatism. it's totally analogous to the "anyone can make it, just pull yourself up by the bootstraps" horseshit. liberalism is much more realistic and fatalistic.
in a way, i'm in the same position as you. i was a fat kid, and not only did my parents do nothing, my father encouraged me to binge on junk food so i would stay fat
and he wouldn't be attracted to my shota ass anymore.
>one just has to look at what the left has come up with in recent years, with the fat acceptance bullshit and many others
Nigger, I don't care what dumbass westerners do. We still have marxist militias where I live
answer my question stupid bitch
>and the "b urself" meme is a staple of modern conservatism. it's totally analogous to the "anyone can make it, just pull yourself up by the bootstraps" horseshit.
doesn't sound like it to me
the ones who have told me to "lose weight fat fuck" in recent years were all right leaning folks
>liberalism is much more realistic and fatalistic.
i don't know where you got that from honestly
Nazis weren't right wing. They didn't support small government, were socialists and wanted full gun control. Comparing Republicans to nazis is like comparing an ant to a dog. Very different, apart from the Pro-Military stance.
>Nazis weren't right wing.
why do I do this to myself
also another point
i have older cousins in that other country, they work so much they can't even spent five minutes with the little cousins, and same for my brother who also lives here
i think the only reason i'm even in the situation i'm in now, with all these feels, is because i'm neet trying to find a job and what not
had i a job like my brother, i would have never been able to spend a minute with the little cousins
fucking neet life
>i was very well aware that girls rejected me
Well, see??? You did see through the bullshit, yet, for some reason chose to do nothing. Even now, instead of fighting and doing something you're here busy shifting blame and pointing fingers. You can only accuse someone of lying to you and leading you astray if you believed them at the moment which you clearly didn't.
>Well, see??? You did see through the bullshit, yet, for some reason chose to do nothing
when you're told lies all the time you end up deluding yourself as well
> Even now, instead of fighting and doing something you're here busy shifting blame and pointing fingers.
i did say i am losing weight
>You can only accuse someone of lying to you and leading you astray if you believed them at the moment which you clearly didn't.
i already said i got out of the leftist delusions and am losing weight and trying to fix it
when you're told lies you believe in those lies, you can't figure shit out all of a sudden like god sends down scriptures or other
kids need to be taught and told in simple words the reality of it, but the idea is that you can't hurt fee fees it's evil
to be able to realize what's going on, you need knowledge, if you don't have knowledge, you're left wondering what's happening
>when you're told lies all the time you end up deluding yourself as well
Deluding yourself is YOUR choice!
>when you're told lies you believe in those lies
You were told lies about some aspects of life, ok. Weren't you smart enough to figure out that those lies didn't quite fit in with the world around you? You know, from the knowledge you got from other aspects of life you weren't lied to about.
>Deluding yourself is YOUR choice!
that's now how choices work though
you are only free if you have knowledge, if you're told lies you're going to fail a lot wondering why you're failing
>You were told lies about some aspects of life, ok.
about all aspects of life, finding a mate is pretty much one of the most important thing for the psyche a person can do
emotional deprivation is the source of so many mental issues
>Weren't you smart enough to figure out that those lies didn't quite fit in with the world around you?
millions of people are deluded by lies, you can't honestly believe that people will be able to get rid of this problem the next morning they wake up
I was taught pretty much the same bullshit, I never bought into it. What gives?! I wasn't some genius kid from the movies that's super mature and understands more than his parents. I was just like you. I had common sense, and when I smelled bullshit I didn't sit around trying to convince myself it was roses, I followed the scent to find out what reeked. I'm not saying that my life turned out much better but at least I don't blame others, and I know exactly where. why and how I went wrong.
nice anecdotal evidence there breh
i'll put the blame where it lies
you can't honestly believe kids will manage to succeed on their own, it's delusion
the only part where the blame would lie on me is if i didn't change things around after all is said and done, and i've already lost 23 kg thus far
i have like 15 more to lose
there's literally nothing wrong putting the blame where it lies
I said I'm no different from the next guy. Most of the parents in our time spew that bullshit you're blaming for your shortcomings. Yet, somehow people seem to find their way out of there.
>I said I'm no different from the next guy.
still anecdotal evidence
you're the exception to the rule
there are more kids having problems because they're being lied to than kids like you
>you're blaming for your shortcomings. Yet, somehow people seem to find their way out of there.
the majority has never been fat, lied to, and comforted for being deluded and fat at the same time
you won't win this faggot
>liberalism, progressivism, political correctness are mental illnesses
Now THAT'S delusion! Don't try to blame political ideology. I was raised in a liberal/progressive family and social environment, and despite that, people around me were honest.
They were honest about my weight, bad habits, social weirdness, etc. and that honesty has hugely helped me move from being a friendless virgin to someone with a lot of friends and fairly regular sex.
Just as I'm sure many people who grew up in rightwing/conservative environments did.
Its not about politics; your parents are just retards.
And another thing, you think your main problem is your weight. It's your shitty self esteem. You have no confidence and no amount of weight loss is going to fix that.
>still anecdotal evidence
Do you want me to cite the study to that shows how many parents are reassuring their kids that things will get better, or think that their children are without a doubt, most beautiful children on the fucking planet? Do I have to?
>there are more kids having problems
Yes there are, but only because they chose to lie to themselves.
>you won't win this faggot
No shit Sherlock! You've convinced yourself that there's absolutely no way that any of your failings could possibly be your own fault.
Good luck, It's only a matter of time until you become convinced that only way to fix your life is to murder your parents.
I know how you fucking feel man. I was fat, acne ridden, bullied and all that too. Everyone told me it would go away. It wasn't even my fault, my single mom was Just under 300 pounds.
By the time I made friends at the end of high school (i was class clown/top student) they all started dating sex other and abandoned me. Fuck friends.
After I lost weight I just sit in my room saying its too late. I can't get those years back. I'm ruined now. I've got nothing but a home to hide in. Meanwhile my 200 pound 45 year old mom is getting men with six figure salaries hitting on her, I'm just the weird Aspie who only leaves her room to grab food or drink, give a thousand yard stare in baggy 6 year old clothing and walk away
I even tried to become an alcoholic but couldn't because it tastes so fucking bad or can barely pass my gag reflex.
Why us man.
>Now THAT'S delusion! Don't try to blame political ideology.
i just did
what are you going to do about it?
we see today in many liberals, leftists, feminists and SJWs: they delude themselves so much, outright lying with fake statistics and slanderous lies
>They were honest about my weight, bad habits, social weirdness, etc.
not with me
>Its not about politics; your parents are just retards.
i see all the deluded faggots wanting to vote gibs me free shit sanders and hilary shillary clinton, all i can think of is they've been deluded and lied to all their lives
>And another thing, you think your main problem is your weight.
>. It's your shitty self esteem.
the self esteem is destroyed when you get rejected for actually looking like shit
the delusion makes it worse
> You have no confidence and no amount of weight loss is going to fix that.
i now have more confidence than i ever had before, it came with losing weight and starting to lift
these two things alone have made me more assertive than i was, it works
>Do you want me to cite the study to that shows how many parents are reassuring their kids that things will get better, or think that their children are without a doubt, most beautiful children on the fucking planet? Do I have to?
do i have to show you the number of retards who know nothing and will vote free shit sanders?
>Yes there are, but only because they chose to lie to themselves.
your presumption is that kids can handle it, when they can't
kids need focus, kids need to be taught, the wild child thing doesn't work
>No shit Sherlock! You've convinced yourself that there's absolutely no way that any of your failings could possibly be your own fault.
i put the blame where it lies and i don't understand why it bothers you so much
are you against the concept of personal responsibility?
GOD DAMNIT i forgot about that one
i was acne ridden too, and it's the acne vulgaris
i still have the scares
>spouts anecdotal evidence telling "no u r wrong" without actually arguing anything
"u cant handel criticism"
like i said, i lay the blame where it lies, and there's literally nothing wrong about this
by the way there's nothing worse than being "open" minded
>>26374695 Not the same guy you fucking moron.
ah yes, you're a virgin, a social retard with no friends whose never felt a woman's warm embrace. and whos fault is that?
its bernie sanders fault, and obamas fault, and your mamas fault, and your daddys fault, and societys fault, and progressives fault, and feminists fault, and black lives fucking matters fault, but you know - its DEFINITELY not your fault. amirite?
>not a failure
>my mother and my father
>not socialist retards who let me be "free"
>not a bunch of retards deluding themselves
>not a bunch of retards deluding themselves
>not an inferior race
i have no problem socializing anymore btw, after losing weight and starting to lift
but hey, keep deluding yourself, leftist faggot
i did repeat in the thread that i am fixing my situation, but it seems my criticism of the leftist ideology has gotten you so butthurt that you're incapable of reading the thread
>are you against the concept of personal responsibility?
This coming from you?
wow I can taste the bitterness.
I dont give a fuck about the leftist ideology. i never defended it. fuck bernie sanders.
my point was that you blame any and every other person/group you can for your own failings. you may be able to socialise with other neckbeard virgins, or normal people who secretly look down on you, but until you accept your own faults, you wont know happiness.
yes, it's coming from me
you're incapable of laying the blame where it lies
>my point was that you blame any and every other person/group you can for your own failings.
because there's truth to what i'm saying
i partly blame the ideology behind the choice my parents made for my upbringing, and i partly blame my parents for imposing it on my, and i would be blaming myself if i weren't bettering myself right now, but i am
>. you may be able to socialise with other neckbeard virgins, or normal people who secretly look down on you, but until you accept your own faults, you wont know happiness.
keep deluding yourself leftist cuck
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