i wish i enjoyed sports edition
How are you all holding up today?
Really not looking forward to work tomorrow. Everybody always wants to know if you watched "the big game" and they just magically don't hear you telling the fifty other people who asked that, no, you didn't. Maybe I'll just fake diarrhea and stay home.
I just don't like watching sports. That's it. But everyone acts like it's a cardinal fucking sin that I don't watch it.
>Hey Anon did you watch the big game?
>Well why not?
>I don't like football
>But football's great! Why don't you like it?
>Because I find it boring
>[various noises of disbelief]
It's like these people just can't grasp that I don't like what they like. I don't fucking walk up to them and start badgering them about not watching the new episode of an anime I like.
better than usual! i love football and big spectacles in general, so super bowl sunday is always a comfy occasion for me.
unfortunately i don't really know anyone who's into football as much as i am and i'm too autistic to have a proper conversation about it anyway
I've worked for the same company for five years and every time there's a "big game" I get asked. I haven't watched a "big game" the entire time I've been there but everyone keeps asking. I honestly hate it even more than going to work on, or the day after, Valentine's Day.
Itt can get better, but you have to actively work for it.
although for some itt just gets better due to changing brain structure or whatever its fucked up
Hey, thanks anon, I appreciate it
:< hope you feel better
Can you like, order a pizza and drink from like a pizza place?
anyone not depressed but just want to kiil them self. this feeling gets worse as the day progresses then seems to reset each morning so ill probably never do it. i think that having the option is stopping me from doing it but also stops me from trying to accomplish anything
Sleep is all fucked up again. Gonna try power through the day and sleep at 10pm.
This fucking sucks
>Everyone tells me it's going to get better, but when? How?
Well first you have to define "it". What is "it"? Your life? What specific aspect? List areas/qualities of your life that bring you down and write them on paper/type a document.
The next step is imperative; to dissociate yourself from your problems, think about that list of quandries as someone else's dirty laundry. People are much more apt to solve other people's problems than their own.
>cleaned my room, dusted, vacuumed
>fairly productive so i could watch anime tonight
>start thinking about ex gf and valentine's day at dinner
>our anniversary would be two days before it
>thinking about what she'll be doing and how much i miss her
>all interest in everything is destroyed
>this is my second of three days off in a row and I'm now going to spend it laying in bed browsing /r9k/ instead of doing what i wanted to earlier because of the fucking hole she left in my heart
Another great day being alive.
I've been doing a little better. The reason is that one of my sister's said something nice to me. Maybe it was because I came off as depressed. Still, it was nice to have her say it.
My life is still empty though. I just have my parents and the internet. I never even see my sister. And if I did, it wouldn't go well. She has a dog. I'm not good with dogs. Nor am I good with people. So I'm eternally alone. I'm so used to it that there is an almost an acceptance of it. But I still lack something to replace that void.
A year and a half ago, two years in April I believe. Or May. It's hard to remember for sure, it's been kind of a blur. My grandfather died the same day, I got home from trying to convince her to stay and saw on Facebook what'd happened. My Mom came home from his bedside and told me herself an hour or so later. I feel bad for not remembering which month it was, that doesn't exactly help my self-loathing.
I suffer from insomnia too so my sleep is all over the place anyway.
Many drugs and attempts at fixing it do nothing so I just deal with it now
I'm wondering, is anyone here a comedian or considered to be ''funny'' by others?
Any pagliaccibros here?
>zero interests in life aside from indulging deeper in escapism either via animu/vidya or drug consumtion
>fucked up sexuality so no chances of fullfilling my 1# biological function of passing my genes to further generations
>can't kill myself because that'd absolutely kill my parents as well, and they've always been the kindest people to me caring only about my well-being, so at the very least I gotta endure this till they die
>can hardly stand being in their presence, even though they think that nothing wrong is going on
>tfw ran out of hash so will have to chug home-made pear wine instead
Nah, standup is my least favorite form of comedy Plus i'm not really one for performing.
Have you ever thought about telling them how you feel? Also what do you mean by fucked up sexuality?
You should see her more often, she clearly cares about you
My parents are arguing in the other room. It was supposed to by my father's birthday today, but he ended up getting pissed at my mom for the sole fact that she got him a gift. Both my mom's and I relationship with him is increasingly dysfunctional and going to shit.
I can't move out because I don't have a job and am a full time student currently. Honestly its pretty shitty but I'd wish my father would move out himself. He's was planning on doing that a month or two ago when a things got really bad but I guess he's stuck around.
About a year and a half at minimum as my parents will have to move somewhere else since my father is military. Its going to be shit in between, but I will have just make sure I have enough money to actually support myself on my own.
>Have you ever thought about telling them how you feel?
I tried telling them about how I feel about life in general bits by bits, but even that makes them pretty depressed, and then on the next day they act like nothing happened. Me being a massive sperg doesn't help either.
>"say anon, have you ever thought about killing yourself?"
>"well, a couple of t-"
>see absolutely mortified looks on their faces
>"dont joke like that anon"
Shit like that.
>fucked up how
I'm sure you can figure that out on your own. Should be pretty obvious.
For the love of god don't make me say it.
I remember in high school people told me I was the funniest person they had ever met.
I dunno man humour is all I have when it comes to social interaction, it's just that I can't fathom why anyone would think I'm funny.
It'd be good if I lived closer to her. She lives with my dad but that's very far away.
But if anyone has a sibling that might be feeling down, it could mean a lot to them to hear something nice.
Oh, I think i've got what you're saying. How much does that contribute to your feelings? And It might just be better to tell them, even if it hurts. Thtey could help
My siblings don't talk to me very often. One of them actively despises me
High anxiety in general that extends to dogs. Dogs respond to anxiety instinctually. Then their reaction just creates more anxiety on my part. I can't fix it so I just avoid dogs.
Sorry to hear that. You seem like a cool person to me. Seems like they're missing out.
>How much does that contribute to your feelings?
A decent amount. Blah blah guilt yadda yadda romantically and sexually frustrated (although the latter can be said about many people on this board), you know the drill.
>And It might just be better to tell them, even if it hurts. Thtey could help
Maybe, but I can't even begin to fathom what'd happen.
Still, thanks a quite lot for listening to my ramblings, skellington, and good night.
Bipolar here. I've been feeling better since my meds.
I was watching a lets play of firewatch, and the dialogue actually made me sob. I want a genuine human connection, god I'm so lonely.
Also I have a fucking 20 minute presentation in tutorial tomorrow. Fuck.
Was rereading Gunshow and found this. Only good webcomic ever to exist tbth
I felt like crying at work today because I was starting to realize how I'm too dumb and slow for the job and how I can't do shit. I feel pathetic and frustrated. I'm a night grocery stocker.
I don't think that's true anon, I think you're letting your doubts and low self esteem get to you
Also I just realized how lonely I am tonight
I locked my keys in my car and I have been waiting for AAA for close to 2 hours. It wouldn't be so bad if my car wasn't running. I was told I was a priority because it was running, but I got a call and was told there was a 911 emergency and the dude they dispatched for me was sent there. I'll have to wait another 30-40 minutes. I have a 30 minute drive home and class in 8 hours.
Welcome to my life.