What's your biggest insecurity /r9k/?
Is it something you can fix? If so what are you doing about it?
>small head and small face
Not a hell of a lot I can do.
My receding hairline.
It bothers me because I'm only 21 and I feel like because of this its almost like missing the prime of my youth. Like I skipped that step and went straight from awkward teenager to old baldfag
I can wear boots, and I am NOT doing height surgery
That is FUCKED UP
My other big security is having no steady male influence on my life. My mom moved me away too much and never let my dad see me. I'm very insecure around men now but have no idea how to be one. For fucks sake I only work and play video games all day, can't even talk to women
It's never too late anon. Maybe you don't want advice but I lost 50lbs and have kept it off for almost 8 years. Just don't go too hard out... Do exercises you enjoy and eat only when hungry, and just enough to be satisfied. I did this, still eating what I want and not stuffing myself, plus lifting weights because I like that more than cardio. Willpower is overrated, what's sustainable is a better idea.
Penis too thin and long
Not being able to talk to people to ask for stuff I need.
...and my face, I want to be qt but shitty genetics won't let me :/
Inferiority complex due to my looks. I look a little better than i used to but this complex follows me in every interaction. I start panicking when there are long silences in conversation. I immediately suspect that maybe they're disgusted by my looks.
i don't know how you feel but pic related
You can keep growing past 20 right robros? RIGHT?? ;_;
I used to weigh 316 a few years back, lost enough weight to become 250 and then I hit a wall
I've been stuck here for about a year and I haven't been eating bad or anything, I just have no motivation to exercise. I plan on changing that once I get a gym membership
>inb4 someone complains about the gym
>a shame beacuse its easy to fix but im so lazy
Fixing it actually takes less work than not fixing it.
You don't have to exercise, you just have to not eat a fuck ton.
Losing weight is a simple calories taken in vs calories spent equation. If you're a fatass you more than likely like a sedentary lifestyle and burn less calories than the average person. If you take it down somewhere around 1500-1800 calories a day you will lose weight.
I have a slight overbite and buck teeth. never felt bad til a girl at school said I looked like a squirrel and all the other girls were talking about it forever. Kinda gave me a complex about it.
I have quite broad shoulders which accentuates it but I do look ridiculous if I am anything but a skelly. I have a sneaking suspicion I might have a mild genetic condition as no one else in my family is pinheaded. My brother has cromagnon head and face. I have permanently bent 5th fingers (ubiquitous to a lot of genetic conditions), can see veins thru my chest, thighs,arms. Partly why I wouldn't breed even if I did miraculously find a cute gf.
I'm chubby and balding but neither of these have ever stopped me getting women.
However I have Psoriasis covering about 20% of my total body which I'm very self conscious about.
My girlfriend and I haven't had sexy in about 2 years now for various reasons, one of which I think is because my Psoriasis has gotten worse and she no longer finds me attractive.
My voice. I used to not be able to pronounce R's until I was 19. I corrected the problem thanks to speech therapy lessons in college with cute linguistics graduate students, but the insecurity is still there.
Something that people understand as they get older is that the vast majority of people never even give you a second thought. The vast majority of people are thinking the same was a you... thinking everyone is talking or thinking about them, when in reality no one is. That's why old people stop giving a fuck, they understand no one cares about you, people only care about themselves. EVEN
Very small... Small baseball cap. Haven't measured circumference but it's visually obvious. Had a car accident and they had to find a child's collar to put on my head and neck. All sunglasses make me look like a beetle.
Edit to add, thankfully my head and face is in proportion... Like small forehead etc.., it's as if my head stopped growing but my body carried on. Women have pointed it out, not in a bad way I suppose but more in a "that's cute" way... Still feels bad man. I hate taking photos with people with normal sized heads.
>every time someone talks about their fetishes
>every time someone talks about their relationships
>every time someone talks about sex
>every time someone talks about strip clubs
>every time someone talks about pornography
>every time someone talks about funerals
>current events 99% of the time
>deaths in the family
>my own family
I have to hide it from everyone, EVERYONE, and even when I try to talk to my shrink about it he pretty much just changes the subject because he knows he can't help. There's nothing I can do to help it that I haven't already tried. I just have to deal with it. I can't go to support groups, there are none, I can't talk to people on the internet about it, nobody I've ever met wants to or has the same paraphilia.
There are plenty of relatively normal things that I am insecure about but this one really takes the fucking cake.
I have a relatively large nose but everything seems fairly in proportion to my head except for my forehead, but I'm not sure if that's due to shit hairline or if it was always large.
My biggest insecurity is the fact that i never developed a meaningful relationship with my peers, the fact that i was always a foreigner in the eyes of my peers, that makes it harder to relate to other people
>Lazy eye so nobody can ever tell what I'm looking at. Seems as if I'm looking into the distance.
>Fucked up face because after struggling with acne, I'm left with gaping holes and red marks all over.
>No jawline, chin recedes right into my neck.
Severe allergies and hay fever.
I've stopped mouthbreathing a year back, started putting my tongue to the roof of my mouth, started chewing falim gum, and I lightly tie a band around my head to keep my jaw up. If I start mouthbreathing in the middle of the night, in the morning the band should be extremely loose. It's already too late-- my face is already practically done developing.
I don't think I want to spend $6,000 on a facial surgery that could go horribly wrong. My face is already fucked, it's not like it can change its structure and size now.
I think my main insecurity was being a virgin, until a few months ago. Now it would be never having a serious relationship or a serious carrer in 25 years, working on it. I'm pretty happy with my body lately, I should fix my mouth though.
Thanks man. I really hope that day comes some day in my lifetime.
I am only interested in very, noticeably decomposed corpses. Most necrophiles are only concerned with fresh dead bodies and are repulsed by the only thing I find attractive. It's tough to relate to people who can be satisfied by roleplaying or bodies that don't pose a health hazard or major obstacles to obtaining them.
I have 2.
>height and high voice
I'm 173 cm (5'8") so I'm fairly insecure thanks to the whole manlet thing, and I have a fairly high voice. At least I think it's high. It cracks when I yell and I sound like Mickey Mouse.
Nothing I can do about them though.
How decomposed are we talking? Discoloration and slight bloating? Full on rot and leaking fluids?
Did you ever masturbate using something dead? Ever came up with a plan to fulfill your fetish? And most importantly what I always like to know: Do you have any insight into how your fetish formed? Traumatic experience? Scene in a movie that stuck with you during your sexual development? No idea?
5'5" 22 years old. I feel like my deep-seated inferiority complex is subconsciously caused by my manlet status. I get the feeling no one takes me seriously because I look like a child. Also I'm a dude with a girl's name.
>TFW actually had braces for gap
>didn't wear retainer
No its still ok with that I've got now. I'm not shaving it until I pass the point of no return. I want to enjoy hair while I can.
Plus I have accepted it. I don't need to stare reality in the eyes like a man. I'm just not happy about it.
1 inch taller than avg. Dick is bigger than mine by a bit, and 15 girls all liked mine. Jawline is nbd. Big nose is a fetish for plenty of girls. Eat more food and maybe lift? Just gotta put some effort into yourself mang
>genetic puffy nips/very slight gyno
>Jaw leans more to one side; barely noticeable though/asymmetric full lips
>permanently yellowish teeth/blunted from chronic tonsillitis, vomiting and bad eating habits as a kid
The last one has to be my most obsessed. Last time I measured I had 36 inch hips, 33 inch waist. 47-48" shoulders help but 43 inch chest does not. Doesn't help I pile on fat in the lower stomach/lumbar area due to genetics either.
>How decomposed are we talking? Discoloration and slight bloating? Full on rot and leaking fluids?
Full on rot, leaking fluids, very bloated, completely discolored, face disfigured, filled with maggots, the works.
>Did you ever masturbate using something dead?
Yes. I'm not entirely comfortable giving details on a public imageboard though.
>Ever came up with a plan to fulfill your fetish?
I obsess over it every single day, of course I have.
>And most importantly what I always like to know: Do you have any insight into how your fetish formed? Traumatic experience? Scene in a movie that stuck with you during your sexual development? No idea?
It was probably consistent exposure to death from going to a lot of funerals over the course of my entire childhood. Very abusive childhood, influenced by my father to romanticize death, influenced by my mother to shun my emotions and do away with any normal attractions I could have had. I was always scolded very firmly for showing emotion or affection towards other things or kids, and I almost felt like I was left with no other choice but to attach myself to the deceased. People were so affectionate towards them, openly displayed their love for them, it seemed like the right thing to do.
sorry for taking so long to reply, my captcha is all fucked up
I was born with really thin eyebrows. That combined with my limited ability to grow facial hair makes things look weird.
>hooked, crooked nose
>receding hairline/male pattern baldness(Norwood 3, only 21 years old)
>ears stick out a bit too much
Despite this, I've had attractive, above average females show interest in me, but I'm too self-conscious to act normal or carry a conversation with them. Those girls just go fuck Chad, since they have options and see me as weird/insecure. I'm able to talk to below-average girls or landwhales who are in my league without sperging out, however, but the dilemma is that I'm disgusted by them.
I'm still a kissless virgin and time is running out.
Killing an unwilling victim and waiting several days to several weeks for their body to decompose, then fucking it until it's nothing but a pile of liquefied muscle and bone.
I know this sounds like the edgiest fucking thing ever but I'm being completely honest here.
>People were so affectionate towards them, openly displayed their love for them, it seemed like the right thing to do.
That's a plausible theory. Do you remember when you first noticed being attracted to dead people?
>Yes. I'm not entirely comfortable giving details on a public imageboard though.
Step by step then. Animal or human?
I love fetishes.
That's not the point. I'm planning on shaving my head when it gets bad enough.
The point is that I want hair. I don't want to be the bald 23 year old. I'm not particularly good looking but thats the final nail in the coffin. Not having hair is like losing a form of expression, in the least faggy way I can say that.
Back-acne. Its gotten to the point whete is has spread to my shoulders and I cant even wear a t-shirt with out it being seen. If I dont fucking fix it soon, it will be anoyher summer with a sweatshirt on 24/7
No it isn't you fuck. That image has been circling the web for years.
Fucking up whatever I do.
This is preventing me from doing anything I enjoy, or think I'll enjoy.
>Want to cook some good food and not settle for shit parents spew out
>Will not do it because of fear of fucking up and wasting all that time and effort
>Really want to get into animation and drawing
>Can not and will not do in fear of fucking up
>Wanted to get into other stuff just to make shit I can be proud of basically (blacksmithing, costume making and pottery)
>Will not do it because of fear of fucking everything up
How do I escape this hell?
Kind of in the same boat as you.
I started with racist jokes that eventually turned into banter.
Dick jokes are always funny too, I think the key is finding the right type of humor. Just don't be that guy making edgy jokes for no reason.
Not related, but I also feel that learning another language helps, so you can say whatever you want without most people being able to understand it.
Oh yeah, and don't talk like you do on 4chan in real life. I've made that mistake a few too many times.
Do you actually fear fucking up?
I personally literally can't get myself to better my life. Like I can't even open coursera or whatever to continue my python course. I just can't.
I do have unfounded, negative expectations for everything I do but I think I might also be actually addicted to the internet. It's pretty fucked.
>That's a plausible theory. Do you remember when you first noticed being attracted to dead people?
When my uncle's long-time gf died. She was extremely nice to me and my siblings, and she died young. Still looked very attractive, had an open casket funeral. When we were all going around to pay our respects, I got to spend a decent amount of time with the body (my mother scolded me for spending so long next to her afterwards but she didn't really seem to care), and I really, really liked what I saw. It was comforting and I was completely fascinated with her appearance and demeanor. I had never seen a dead body so close before. It stuck with me and I was almost desperate to get the chance to see another corpse again afterwards. It wasn't a sexual attraction per say, but I was still very, very interested.
>Step by step then. Animal or human?
Human. Animals have never turned me on.
Penis in vagina is not the only way to have sex. I can put any part of a corpse inside of me, or grind up against any part of the body.
I suspect it may have been an experience I felt often in the past that's caused this.
>Does something I shouldn't have done in the past
>gets shouted at constantly for it
I can remember being somewhere I should not have been in 1st school and when a teacher saw me not only did she yell at me to shit, but she took me to another class room, told the teach to which she yelled at me also and told me to sit in the corner of the room on a desk and write an apology letter.
It's either that experience or something else, like doing what I'm always told by everyone in my life.
I don't know. I just want to have the balls, determination and possibly motivation to do what I want to do with no fear of anything.
Sorry for bombarding you with questions but I'm genuinely curious.
>Still looked very attractive, had an open casket funeral.
I was about to ask where you might think that your fascination with the rot comes from since I already asumed that you must've been exposed to bodies in good condition if any at funerals.
Is it just the mental association of "rot=death"?
Do you think actually going through with your fetish could be disappointing? Like you expected more or the act itself poses difficulties you didn't expect that turn you off?
>Human. Animals have never turned me on.
I'm too lazy to draw this out more. I'd really like to know what you did and we're anonymous here but feel free to tell or not.
Self-loathing for being such a mentally fucked up failed normie. After being mostly bedridden for a year after a mental breakdown, I've just lost all hope of ever fitting in with normies/society. I've had gfs and all that, went to parties, but a few years back I realized it was all a crock of shit, and most people, especially the "beautiful", popular ones are absolute narcissists.
Don't know what to say.
Head and shoulders. For real.
If not try getting more haircuts.
>Leg covering birth mark
It can't be that bad. Just wear pants
...pics? No but seriously, don't even worry about that.
There's stuff to make them fade to the point where you have to be up close to see them.
>Most people are a crock of shit
>People are narcissists
Surprise! Welcome to the real world.
>I was about to ask where you might think that your fascination with the rot comes from
Once I hit puberty and got access to the internet, I started looking up pictures and videos of dead bodies as often as I could. My curiosity was insatiable, and as my sexuality developed so it was too. Like with any fetish, the more I got into it, the more severe the fetish got. At first I could get off to mostly fresh corpses but I really was aroused more by the decomposed ones. In time that was all I could get off to, and no matter how many ways I tried going back to just fresh corpses there was nothing I could do. It was a mental and physical association. I have seen corpses in person that were in various states of mutilation or decomposition, and the reality of them has not disappointed me. If anything, it's strengthened my fetish and worsened my obsession. The worst surprise by far has been the lengths taken to protect myself against disease and infection. I have to use so much protection that I can't actually feel the texture of the body or really get any sense of intimacy with them, it's too fucking sterile and the only other option leaves me exposed to incurable disease. It's a major turn-off and in a perfect world it would be a non-issue. I wish there was some other alternative.
>feel free to tell or not.
I'll hold off, but I appreciate your curiosity. It's pretty cathartic to talk about this sort of thing.
That's your only fetish?
You don't have any other fetishes?
Like at all?
You can't use other fetishes to bring you back to vanilla tier?
It probably does, assuming it functions.
Wear some of those elongated thermal underwear for guys.
I'm gonna have to second this.
That's it. The only one. My entire life. No other options. God only knows I've tried as hard as I fucking can to get new fetishes, but nothing has ever worked.
Ive got a few minor PTSD moments with this and I suffer the same issue
I get so nervous my hands start fucking shaking when I do ANYTHING new at all, especially in front of other people I know
I fuck up constantly when I feel like Im being scrutinized by someone else, shits fucked
I'm a guy and i chemically straighten my hair. i have to hide it from my roommate and all of my friends which is really difficult. everytime im out in public, i always get paranoid that people know and is snickering behind my back, which is why i wear a hat a majority of the time i leave the house
Permanent bags under my eyes that make me look half dead/asleep. And no, it isn't due to lack of sleep. When I hit puberty they showed up and haven't gone away since. Fixable with surgery I suppose, but fuck that.
I forget the proper term for it, but my nipples are huge and poofy. If I were female, I'd just wear a fuckin bra. Other than the poofy nipples, I don't have man tits. When I was younger I thought this was caused by being overweight. I lost 40 pounds and got skinny as fuck all for getting rid of it, but it only made it more pronounced. Again, fixable with surgery but fuck that.
When I began lifting a few years back I noticed some lumps on my legs. They are somewhat deep so you can only feel them, with exception to one that is a few inches away from my balls and extremely noticeable when naked. I found more and more of them over the few months and went a doctor. I was told they weren't cancerous or harmful in any way so surgery would be an extreme solution, and that it is quite common for many people to have them. Only problem is that there is no other fucking solution and it looks like I have a third testicle growing out of my thigh for fucks sake. Even if I weren't a total robot, I'd be scared of sex for this alone.
>I have to use so much protection that I can't actually feel the texture of the body or really get any sense of intimacy
That sucks. Kinda like wearing condoms lol.
>disease and infection
What kind of diseases are we talking about here? Stuff the person might've potentially had while alive or things that arise due to decomposition?
Do you feel the need to put rotten material into your mouth?
>I'll hold off, but I appreciate your curiosity. It's pretty cathartic to talk about this sort of thing.
Alrighty, but I got a related question. Getting entire corpses is probably hard. Can you derive sexual pleasure just from rotting body parts and not the entire person? If yes are there body parts that attract you more than others?
I also just read:
>Killing an unwilling victim
Does that mean you're fine with either male or female? Where does the killing part come into play regarding your fetish. That's something we didn't really touch upon yet. Would you want to be in a specific type of relationship with that person beforehand or would you want to just pick a stranger?
I've always been extremely self conscious about my looks. It doesn't help that I've been rejected so many times by girls. I don't know what it is about me. Am I ugly? Do they think I'm a loser with no life? Is it because my Facebook page is empty? The uncertainty kills me.
im black and have weird niggers lips that when i lick them, the corners creates a reflection of the lift so they look white at the corners but theyre really not. people ALWAYS lick thier lips when they see mine. at first it kind weirded me out but it just hurts...
you know how the best way to read someone is through body language right? well, ive learned that after years of reading others language that when people lick or cover their licks when they see mine, it usually means they have rejected me off as a friend acquaintance, bf, everything. just pure rejection. it hurts a lot, years and years of rejection gets to your nerves.... i am terrified of talking to people and looking at peoples faces now because of it...
>Kinda like wearing condoms lol.
Exactly like wearing condoms
>What kind of diseases are we talking about here? Stuff the person might've potentially had while alive or things that arise due to decomposition?
Stuff that people may have had while alive, like STD's or other disease, and things that arise from decomposition.
>Do you feel the need to put rotten material into your mouth?
Yes but I've managed to restrain myself and never do it, or even kiss a dead body (as badly as I want to).
>Can you derive sexual pleasure just from rotting body parts and not the entire person? If yes are there body parts that attract you more than others?
Just body parts are sufficient, I really prefer the torso but arms and legs will do if need be. I really like hands, and dislike heads to the extent that I prefer them to be severed if at all possible.
>fine with either male or female?
Yes, I'm bisexual.
>Would you want to be in a specific type of relationship with that person beforehand or would you want to just pick a stranger?
Stranger for sure. Someone I have a relationship with would be traced back to me almost instantaneously.
>Someone I have a relationship with would be traced back to me almost instantaneously.
I was talking in the ideal scenario.
>dislike heads to the extent that I prefer them to be severed if at all possible
Does that have to do with any insecurities or fears of being judged? What if you killed a hypothetical boyfriend or whatever?
You also didn't tell me how killing comes into play here. Is it just for getting the corpse or would that increase arousal in itself?
>tfw you realize a murderous female could pull hundreds of willing idiots from this board that no one would miss
Do you have help with sourcing your masturbation material?
>Does that have to do with any insecurities or fears of being judged?
Yes, I'm painfully insecure and one of the biggest draws to necrophilia for me is definitely the idea that I won't be judged.
>What if you killed a hypothetical boyfriend or whatever?
I would never kill a partner unless they cheated on me or turned me over to the police. At that point I would be so angry I would be able to happily mutilate them and severing their head would just come with the territory.
>You also didn't tell me how killing comes into play here. Is it just for getting the corpse or would that increase arousal in itself?
There are far, far easier ways to get corpses. It's to increase my arousal, homicide is part of the fetish for me. Torturing them, then killing them, then watching the body decompose, then making love to the body. It's very involved and messy and unecessarily horrible.
>Do you have help with sourcing your masturbation material?
I'm not sure if I understand what you mean.
not the same baldfag but I'll probably go bald pretty young given my genes and current hair. I'm afraid I don't have the head or face for shaving, can't grow a beard either. I'll look like a fucking skinhead. Honestly might buy an expensive wig
Ok, last set of questions. Thanks for indulging me.
Is there anything specific that turns you on about a particular corpse? Let's say I have a thing for redheads and dimples. What would be your equivalent for a corpse? They can't be all equally good can they?
>I'm not sure if I understand what you mean.
Whether you have someone help you get corpses/body parts.
>There are far, far easier ways to get corpses.
Now you have to tell! Fresh graves? Hospitals? THE MAFIA?
Last question: Does it matter what age the person was before they died? I can understand very old people being a turnoff but what about teens or even children?
No problem man. It's been nice for me to be able to talk about it, too.
>Is there anything specific that turns you on about a particular corpse?
Blondes, lots of livor mortis, skin slippage and maggots are my major turn-ons.
>Whether you have someone help you get corpses/body parts
Jesus christ no, that's just asking for trouble.
>Now you have to tell!
No I don't :^)
>Does it matter what age the person was before they died?
Children are my biggest turn-off. They need to at least have hit puberty, preferably look in their 20's or 30's. I've seen a handful of older corpses that were very attractive but I've never wanted a child's. That shit is too sick even for me.
Thanks again for the conversation.
>Blondes, lots of livor mortis, skin slippage and maggots are my major turn-ons.
Exactly what I wanted to know. Skin slippage is awesome in concept. Not like I'm into corpses but I'd like to just pull someone's skin off like from a chicken.
>No I don't :^)
I'd like to prod further and I'd guess you work either in healthcare or in something similar to a morgue but that's where I'll leave it.
>That shit is too sick even for me.
Hah, and a good chuckle for the end.
It was fun talking to you.
Barely brush if at all
Went to get braces
Could not because ingrown teeth
Went to get them removed
X ray shows that the roots are intertwined with other teeth do they would have to go as well.
Still barely brush
Idk senpai... I feel like that's what /soc/ is for. Either way, for better or for worse in stuck with small head. Even if someone did say something nice, my self esteem is like permanently non existent anyway.
My yellow teeth
How do I make them whiter? I brush twice a day...
>I'm only 5'10 and my dick is only 6 inches
In other words, you have a slightly above average height and a slightly above average penis length, but that's somehow not enough for you?
Dick thats 5.5 inches
Ive always been the smallest in the lockeroom. Every time I've told that to a girl she's had a look of disappointment on her face. No one has ever told me its acceptable except other sad sacks on the internet
> yellowish teeth from smoking/drinking coffee since young age
> back acne
> very slim
I can fix back acne and being slim, yellow teeth im not sure if there's anything reliable out there for it and im 2 embarrased to go to the dentist to find out.
If I were to fix these problems and dress up nicely, use contacts instead of glasses, I could legit become an 8/10, my genetics are pretty good.
you look like the grinch 2bh Family
Puffy nipples and gyno too insignificant to require surgery, but plainly visible.
I hate going out without a jacket or a hoodie for this reason.
Sexual performance and being a virgin because of it.
Long story short, I know how to woe girls and have done it before. I have good ideas sexually of what they want and how to do the dew. However, as much as sex is being thrown at me by these women I'm scared that I'll be disappointing them by being too nervous to not get erect, or just prematurely ejaculating.
Granted, I've thought of several scenarios to just compliment how attractive they are if the ladder happens.
Stop masturbating as much as you can, if at all. I know you've heard this advice before, but it's true. It's absolutely true. It will help you.
There is very little, if any hard science behind this, but I'm definitely a believer. I found this article helpful, it's a simple and short read. Hope this helps you.
Lift weights man I have gyno too but running everyday with my dog and following scooby's 3 day per week workout routine has made it extremely less noticeable over the past 2 months.
>hairy puffy nips
>huge ass from squatting stupid heavy weights- I can't fit into any pair of jeans unless they're at least 5 inches wider than my waist.
Everything you can think of. My biggest insecurity is being inferior in general. There is always going to be someone better than me in something I'm doing. I can never be the best. So nothing is worth doing.
My face is pretty variable. At best it looks alright, at worst I look like a partially albino Aboriginal who just woke up from a week-long meth-induced coma. My nose is pretty fat and snubby and my lips are very thick for my complexion. Also my hair is absolutely shit-tier; it has all the texture of dried straw. I can even wet it without it becoming dry as fuck. It's also something between curly and wavy and very hard to do anything with without using product, and using hair product is for normies.
I have spots all over my body. They are fucking hideous; it looks like I have a disease. My neck and chest are covered, along with my groin, and my torso is speckled with about a couple dozen scattered dots. Tinea versicolor; it's curable, but it's been such a bitch that I gave up a while back. Gonna get an OTC anti-fungal which I heard good things about soon.
My jaw is pretty small, especially my chin. My voice is fucking atrocious. I can't speak in a pitch or tone which is comprehensible or smooth. I always sound like a dying orangutan. It only becomes like this in public or with strangers or people with whom I am uncomfortable. While it is like this, I have a lot of difficult speaking with my head turned, for some reason, so this results in many awkward times.
My face/head is a fucking mess.
I've got a Zlatan nose, my eyes are uneven, no jaw, close to no chin, balding, asymmetric eyelids, no cheekbones, and my ears are uneven.
I'm praying to any and all gods that I can grow a substantial beard and just hide behind that for the rest of my life.
But that still leaves everything that isn't the jawline/chin.
And it's not prominent enough to be a "striking" feature like Kylo Ren or something. It's just fucked up enough to make me straight ugly.
Well it's a pretty big feature to a person. It's called the window to a person's soul for a reason, and when your eyes look like an indian street, it's not a good first impression
God, it sucks so fucking much.
I could go anywhere I wanted, provided I have the gas money, if I wasn't so terrified of driving. I feel like it's holding my entire life back.
Maybe I should see like a hypnotist or something.
My huge hips, tits, and neckbeard.
No, can't fix klinefelter syndrome
6'2 155 lbs with fast metabolism
> large forhead
> awfull teeth
> right side of my body is more overall developed than left side
> social anexity
> lack of motivation
> rare panic attacks
> I have one golf ball sized testicle instead of two
> comingfrom.lower middle class family so I was always ashamed of my material possessions
That's the thing, I've been to a sex therapist and a forensic psychiatrist that specialized in paraphilias, and both of them wound up coming to the same conclusion. My necrophilia is so deeply embedded in my psyche that I would have to completely change my entire personality in order to even start rewriting my sexuality. I've tried so many different therapies and coping strategies, but ultimately none of them changed anything. My current shrink isn't bad, he just recognizes his limitations and is honest with me about them. I would much rather deal with someone like that than like the other two guys who pretended like they could help me for years when they weren't equipped to actually do a goddamn thing about it.
no women have this fetish
makes me extremely sexually insecure
don't even want to enter a sexual relationship with someone out of fear of them finding out
the biggest factor for why I'm so quiet and secretive
Im pretty skinny. I workout, been working out for about a year, but im still considered skelly by /fit/. I used to weigh 100 pounds, but after a year of lifting and running I weigh 150 pounds ( and I am 6 foot tall). I think it may be in my mind, everyone tells me how much bigger I am getting, and with clothes on I do look alot bigger. But when I lift, I take my shirt off ( I lift at home) and I feel soo small. Also my skin gets really really red in many situations. If anyone comes up and asks me something, or If I get a little bit embarrased or nervous my skin turns red as fuck. Idk what to do about it, normally my skin is a good golden tone, but for somereason it gets red and hot as fuck in these situations.
I'm a pretty big guy(for you), muscular-wise. I would usually get the "All brawn no brains" impression and the fact that I'm NEET contributes to that statement even more. My grades weren't all that great in high school either. All because of being lazy and information not processing through my head.
I take time to read books + articles, watch documentaries and watch College lectures on Youtube. But at the end of the day, I know it doesn't change much at all.
All major studies say yes. All Indians are bald, it's a fact.
>one fucked teeth
Gonna be fixed this month after having it this way for years.
>being too skinny
Needs quite a lot of effort to fix, but maybe this year will be the year I manage to keep hitting the gym without quitting after 3 months.
I'm quite comfortable with myself, I think if I fix these two things I will be really confident.
I always feel like my face is crooked. Not sure if it is but nobody tells me or it's actually alright. Also I'm always kinda afraid that I might be mistaken for a spic, even though I have pale skin and pretty standard European features.
>have a molar out
>teeth are near perfect but I need braces to close the gap, they wouldn't give me a fake
>wear braces for 18 months
>don't wear retainer for long after
>gap appears again
Fortunately my wisdom tooth grew in that time so the tooth doesn't have much room to go backwards and make the hole big again