everything we do here is meaningless and a waste of time until we die alone.
I've just accepted that even if I weren't as inept as I am, the time and world I've been born into would restrict me from achieving such a dream. So I'll just have to aim for something a bit smaller.
What an unremarkable way of thinking. Come back if you ever realize that EVERYTHING is meaningful. You won't - because that would be difficult. It would take some courage and sensitivity. It would take effort.