>>26257801 >not an alcoholic >being drunk doesn't even help me nearly as much as being high does >move to another part of my city >grocery store two blocks away sells some reduced-price beer for .69c a bottle A MAGICAL PLACE
>>26257824 my parents bought my alcohol at 18, its when they could drink sorry for your loss man.
sont become an alcoholic, it sucks.
i mean while you're one it is great... fast food, energy drinks 4-5 hours of sleep every night, ocasionally throwing up, going everywhere drunk or high or both rarely being sober even for family events or important events for yourself. being so into it that you always drive under influences, drink and drive, with open containers, smoke and drive... man just dont do it. it doesnt help.... but for that one half of a second before you pass out, you forget that she is gone.
>>26258035 Yeah it ranges between brands like when I went today, the shopping cart that the reduced price beer was in was almost completely full (guess they recently restocked it) but only about six different types or so--mostly pumpkin-related types, maybe they had a lot of Thanksgiving leftover stuff?--so those were 12oz anywhere from 4.2%alc to 5.1%alc--then they had some generic BUD LIGHT 'Mixx Tail' (cocktail-like beer) that was 11.5oz with 8%.
I really don't like my current problems. Because no matter how much I work toward the future if I fuck up people can be like, "oh it's your past problem you had that six pack of beer one time when you were 12." like i have drinks when my istuation is fucked up so sometime every time my situation is fucked up my character is fucked up because i drank when my shit was fucked up. >>26258203 they all cost 3 something, but steel reserve brand is just marketed to the have no life goals crowd.
Was going well until I went to my parents for dinner last weekend and my dad was feeding me shots of tequila. I was too embarrassed to tell him I stopped drinking because I thought I was developing a bad habit so I went shot for shot with him.
And now here I am just 4 days later buying airplane shots at the grocery next to my work to drink on my drive home where I just sit and drink straight from the bottle
I'm going to give it another try.....once I drink all the alcohol I have in my apartment
Drank every day for 3 years... slowed down this year. Last booze I had was maybe over a week ago? I feel great, it's nice not waking up feeling like shit. A six pack would give me an all-day hangover, no matter how much I hydrated. Then again, I started smoking weed again.
>>26258613 >NYE 2013 >mix whiskey, beer, and champagne >cockblock myself with girl I've wanted to fuck since sixth grade by spoiling GoT while talking to her >vomit in toilet, she has to clean it >friend has to drive me home >have literal 2 day hangover I still fucking die thinking about it
>>26258143 >i started developing sleep problems recently .. do you think it might be alcohol induced? in my experience i dont dream when drunk.. i sleep alot better when im sober its like when drunk.. your body is still trying to cleanse the alcohol out of your system, so you like sleep doesnt do anything.. after nights of HEAVY drinking i can sleep like 14 hrs and still feel tired.. I drink 7 days a week and i want to stop.. but i just dont know man..
>>26258383 dude your better off sending it down the drain man, alcohol isnt worth it.. im sending you good vibes brother.. everyone deserves happiness, and alcohol isnt the answer.. fuck ANY addiction isnt the answer
>>26258649 Are you a fucking child? You don't just "become" an alcoholic. You realize you are an alcoholic when you look back at a multi month bender in a blur, and see your life around you falling apart.
Im new to drinking, ive never been a drinker before except for the very occasional one but I fucked my life up again last week, this is my 7th night in a row that I have been drinking, I have been lightly/moderately drunk, I went though a 1.5litre vodka bottle in that week, thats not that bad is it? I bought a new bottle plus a 15 pack of beer, had 4 beers tonight at 3 shots, ill do the same tomorow.
>>26258877 Kinda same as me. I'm pretty big into pot but its not really doing for me what it used too. This is probably night 13 in a row drinking like 4-5 beers. I need to stop soon before it gets worse
>>26258655 started off i would sleep off the hangover and then just sleep on.. 12 or 14 hours i loved it, loved going to sleep drunk then it started that i would wake up just as the hangover wore off.. i would wobble downstairs to drank so water and sleep another 8-10 hours
now (heavy vodka drinking, multiple times a week for over a year) the hangover sleep is fine, falling asleep is heaven, dreamless sleep 4-6 hours, then i wake and the seconds sleep is troublesome with paralasis and hallucinations...
i think perhaps it is the drink. binge drinking every now and again i was ok but about i never had sleep problems until daily drinking
>>26258952 I would get high but I dont have connections and I dont want to order from the darkweb. Drinking was like a lightbulb went off in my head and it felt like it made complete sense to start, it still does, its brought me much happiness and comfort and helped me forget my problems. I feel trapped as fuck, without alcohol I would be more of a danger to myself than I currently am
>>26258672 I want to, because as much as I like to think I can be strong enough to tackle it alone, deep inside I know I can't. It's just really hard because ever since I've been little I HATE asking for any kind of help. Even with menial things becuase it makes me vulnerable and like I've failed. I think I'm going to give it one more go by myself and if doesn't work then I'll talk to him.
But even that is hard right now because he just had to go bsck to his home town because my grandma is literally on his death bed and his back is seriously fucked from a car accident and he is having bsck surgery on the 19th and I don't want to burden him with more things right now. But he is like my best friend so maybe I should just mention, even if I have to down play it ;_;
>>26258694 Thank you, anon, it's funny how a small comment from a complete stranger cab bring so much warmth. I've thought about dumping it, but unfortunately I thibk the addict in me rationalized it in a way that I don't thibk I will dump it. Luckily I only have about a half a bottle of whiskey left and one beer, which with any luck will be gone tonight.
i just want to actually not care, not be unable to function because of how much i care. I can't do this anymore and its all I will do. Theres nothing to do, theres no recourse, theres no choice, theres no outlet no relief no pain no waiting no expecting no realizing my feelings no being present no nostalgia no me. I want to be a baby comforted by my mother forever.
>>26257801 About 10 weeks sober now. I had a 7 month come down period where I got down to 1-2 blackouts a week (from drinking at 4-5 pm until I blacked out every night regardless of whether I was working or attending night school beforehand).
I might feel a weak urge now and again but it's pretty much dead. I'm in a decent place in my life. I'm running 5-7 days a week (went 8 miles today), studying 2-3 hours for the June lsat everyday (I know how fucked the legal industry is-my going to law school is heavily conditional on it being elite, cheap or some combination of the two) and I have my first long term gf (after being incredibly spergy throughout highschool I managed to snag a couple hook-ups and very short lived relationships in college but this is the first, real deal thing I've been in and it's wonderful. She's incredibly sweet and kind- I took her virginity and she's very much in love with me. She also knows about my past and is fine with it).
The only thing left is to secure employment. I recently quit my job because the hours were long, the pay was shit and my boss was a raging cunt.
I think I have something lined up but it's a little too early to tell.
I also have appointments set up with doctors and dentists to remove the wire that's running through my front four teeth (it's been there for almost a year now after a drug dealing piece of shit decided to sucker punch me) and I'm seeing a doctor about some joint pain that I have and to run some blood tests to make sure my liver is healthy.
I have an okay amount of money in the bank and I'm visiting family right now.
All in all things are starting to come together. Feels comfy desu.
>>26257824 I started drinking at 17; was a full blown alkie from 18-21 (am 21 now).
Fun fact: I drank mouthwash from 17-20 first because I had no access to real alcohol and then after I achieved that at 18 I kept to the mouthwash because it was considerably cheaper than even the bottom shelf swill.
booze is goat but I have no idea how you lads can drink consecutively. After one day it becomes so unappealing, i once got drunk 6 days in a row to see how long I could do it and I felt pretty great but that was a miracle desu.
anyway, beats fucking dxm, the worst drug of all time that gets romanticized here.
>>26258527 >was only a few years ago three beers would have me off my fucking lid This tbhf, a few years ago I drank 2 700ml bottles of beer and puked from it. Nowadays I rarely puke and when I do drink I consume a hell of a lot more.
whoa whoa whoa. "cool" people don't do shots of whisk(e)y unless it's some cheapo Scotch or bourbon like johnnie walker or jim beam. cool people drink single-malt Scotch and high quality bourbon, or maybe something more exotic like japanese whisky on special occasions. vodka is always acceptable in good cocktails, and occasionally served chilled and neat. of course im just a robot like all you faggots so i drink shots of room temperature bottom shelf New Amsterdam vodka or shitty Bacardi until i pass out
>tfw finally kicking it >tfw was going to relapse yesterday, had one of those "i literally can't take it, i hate everyone and everything in my life and i need to actually relax tonight" moments >got off at subway stop just before mine to buy beer >said fuck it and went to dollar bookstore instead >got 25 classic books for $25, cleared out my booze money >got home and felt like having christmas for the first time since i was a kid, going over them >no drinking
>>26260545 fucking best wishes anon, read ur eyes raw bro.
however, i thwart my sober self by buying lots of booze at once and then have ten bottles to go through at any given time >"i'll quit once this lot is finished" then buy more in between fucking hell, if it gets to the poiint where im beter off dead i hope i can do the right thing right thing tight thing
>>26257801 I got caught drinking and driving. The cop felt bad for me and was really cool about it. It was a nigger too. I don't drink that much anymore but lately I just need to do something because suicide seems so pleasant right now.
I have PTSD and I keep getting flashbacks every hour almost. I just want it to stop. I'm also 18k in debt and have no job. To be honest I don't think I'm going to see the end of 2016.
Just turned in a paper and now I'm drinking as my reward. Is vodka mixed with sprite. All my friends left me because they became psychopaths and started tearing each other apart like hyenas. I remain innocent and pure albeit a little drunk.
The funny thing is, the opposite works too. Just not having booze on-hand makes it so much harder to drink because you actually have to go out and get it.
Get it away from you, man. Find something comforting on a weirdly deep level that works for you, and replace the drinking. For me it was drinking fifteen fucking mugs of decaf tea every day in my big chair, watching a Let's Play by my favourite Youtube guy, and wearing a comfy hoodie. I know that sounds stupid, but it zenned me out at times when I thought only booze would be able to break through my misery.
>>26257943 This is too damn real man. Was my life for several years after my first serious relationship ended (although I admit alcohol/substance abuse started before). Hang in there, it does get better, even if you have to hit your own personal rock bottom. Goes for everyone ITT. Godspeed anons.
After drinking vodka so often I decided to get a 24oz of Redds Wicked and a 3pack of 25oz cans of Bud Ice. I have 2 cans of the bud ice left but It's already 12:51am and I probably wont be able to get that drunk. I ate 6 tacos from jack in the box so that filled my stomach with the beer. At least it will probably let me sleep tonight. I can't sleep without drinking until I pass out so I've started taking 100mg of diphenhydramine before bed on nights I don't want to drink. I wake up groggy as fuck and feel it 9 hours later but it's better than lying awake all night and getting 4 or 3 hours of sleep before I have to get up.
The bottom of the barrel liqours are 20$ per 750ml, and the absolutely cheapest beer avaliable is 15$ for a 15 pack, pic related although considering it's less than half of what normal beer costs it's not bad.
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