How the fuck do I placate myself
Im so fucking angry I think im going to do something stupid
How do I calm myself?
I usually dream up scenarios where someone is coming up to rob me, then I practice my punching technique while I'm all worked up into a frenzy. My heartrate usually goes through the roof and it's pretty cathartic. Better to use a punching bag though.
I had intermittent explosive disorder growing up. Then I started smoking and drinking, and I'm now perfectly calm even when utterly fucked over.
The drawbacks are, of course, not really being able to get angry. This might seem like a benefit, until you have to fight and can't find the rage to do it. Oh, and you become a chainsmoking alchoholic eventually. But at least you don't get a nigh uncontrollable urge to murder people over the slightest of offences.
Stop. Take a breath. Identify what's bothering you. Communicate it. What are your initial feelings (anger, sadness, disgust, etc)?
What are the feelings behind those (shame, pain, betrayal, etc)?