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What's stopping you from committing suicide?
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What's stopping you from committing suicide?
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im a pussy
nothing else really
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>>26226236
mmm how i would lick those dirty salty feets
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How expensive are shoes?
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>>26226236
Having parents. After their death i'll probably kill myself.
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Two nights ago I found out the hard way what happens when you don't take enough Tylenol to kill you. Haven't been to my classes and I just told my friends I'm sick. I don't know what's stopping me from trying something else honestly.
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>Giving ISIS all the As answers

You really need to stop this.
You are evil.
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>>26226236
My unwillingness to commit suicide.
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>>26226286
>having parents
this breddy much, my mom sometimes says how devastated she would be if she were to lose one of her children, so yeah
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>>26226251

Same. I figure I maybe have a few more months left in me before I've decided that I've finally had enough.
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>>26226426
I've been saying that for years
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My mom already lost one son to illness. I have two sisters but I am her only son left. If I killed myself I think she might too.
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>>26226236
I would love to sniff and lick those sweaty stinky feet
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Waiting for my mom to die first. Then I'm good to blow my brains out.
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>>26226236
False hope.
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>>26226409
Kill her before you kill yourself, then.
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>>26226477
I don't have hope for myself. I just want to see where technology goes in the next 40 years
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My fear of not knowing what's on the other side of this shit. Plus I'm a robot pussy.
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>>26226258
I came here looking specifically for this comment.
Thanks for not disappointing me.
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>>26226236
Becouse my life is awesome.I like to browse r9k tho...
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>>26226236
the ability to post and spam dank memes on chinese message boards.
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I'd rather let time do it for me
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>>26226236
Parents, they love me too much. I would off myself when they both die
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Knowing that then normies would be happy. They drove one inferior being to suicide through bullying and humiliation. But now at least I know my life has no value, no meaning. I have nothing to lose. I'm free. Free to take revenge.
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fear of death, and not wanting to hurt my parents
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Religion
and a faint hope that something will come about to make my life less shit
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>>26226477
this desu,
how bad is it anon?
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I don't know. Usually when I start feeling suicidal I call a friend and talk to them for a while. I still remember the looks on their faces last time I tried to an hero as they drove me to the hospital, and the talks that resulted from that. I'm trying to get better now, but I still feel the same.
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80% my mother and 20% instinctual fear of death.
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I'm waiting to see how my transition turns out, I was planning and attempted to kill myself anyway so if it doesn't work out I've not lost anything and can just end it
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if i commit suicide i wouldn't get these dubs
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The only reason I don't is because I know it would devastate my brother. He's the only person I really care about and I couldn't hurt him like that
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Being pretty happy with my life.
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Ultimate ninja storm 4
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>>26226236
Because of my parents, also there is a good chance if Christianity is right, I will burn in hell for all eternity for commuting suicide and for being a racist (i don't see how god could like Africans, Jews or Arabs).
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>>26226236
I don't have the balls

fuck originality
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>>26226236
Biological instinct of survival. I was about to cut my veins the other day and just couldn't do it. There's no other explanation.
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>>26226836
No dubs, kill yourself faggot.
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>>26226953
Don't be bitch. Cutting your veins is a shitty way to go out. Only Attention whores cut. If you really want to die, you either jump off a really high buildings, drink some toxic shit, or the best method, a shotgun or musket to the head from the mouth the the back of the head.
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Several things:
>my mom
>my brother and sister (especially my brother)
>my gf (who I'm 99% sure would off herself too seeing as how she's a little bit nuts)
>my hope of transferring out of CC and getting back into real college and getting my life back on track
>antidepressants have actually worked for me and I don't feel as miserable anymore
>good friend killed himself and I got to see how it devastated his family and friends
>instinctual fear of death
>religion
>no real reason to kill myself to begin with
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Maybe it gets better. Or maybe I can make my life better.
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>>26226236
Less and less every year. Honestly I don't know how I'll cope after 40. I probably won't.
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>>26226892
Don't worry, the equality meme in Christianity is just to get the kids into it. Can't get too much support without at least paying lip service to shitskins.
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>>26226306
What happens when you don't take enough?
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>>26226837
This and my mum. They've had to deal with too much shit in their lives I don't want to make it worse.

I may be a depressed fuck who just wants to sleep all day (but can't because the above reasons) but until it gets so bad I feel a compulsion to an hero I'm not going to try it.
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I don't really know. I think about it all the time. If I really wanted to, I could just steal money from my family to buy a shotgun and end myself, but I have to force myself to at least wait and see if things get better.

To be honest, I don't really care about my family. It's their fault I'm fucked up, they deserve the grief.
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>>26226251
/thread

Also some delusion that I'll be able to turn my life into something enjoyable someday.
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I don't know how to kill myself. No, really. I have no access to a gun and no money or way to order helium or anything like that. I could always slit my wrists but I've read a lot about that and I've found that wrist cutting is extremely ineffective and also extremely painful. Hanging seems like my best option but if you mess up then your life is permanently fucked
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>>26226236
I honestly don't know, guess I'm just a coward.
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>>26227147
You have no trains in your country? You have no car and can't get one?
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>>26226992
I also tried to drink bleach the other, same story.
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>>26227200
I don't want to kill myself by train. I saw my mother kill herself that way and no way I'd ever do that. I' a huge pussy, but I want to die. I know a lot about failed suicides and the consequences. My best bets are jumping from an extremely tall building (but I'm too pussy to do that) or hang myself. I think hanging is my best bet.
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>>26226236
realizing that life isn't as bad as I sometimes think it is
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I know how it would affect my parents. My mother essentially told me if I died she would kill herself.

Besides that I don't necessarily want to die, but I also have basically zero motivation.
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>>26226360
wut?
wrong thread?
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>>26226236
Benis xd
mummy and daddy will be sad and devastate u.u
I don't wanna make them sad!
But they will be better without me... They couldn't keep reeling disappointed with me if I'm dead.
But they will be sad... And I don't want that.
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If I hit around 150 km/h in a car, yank the steeringwheel to the side and I'm not wearing a seatbelt; that should do it, right?
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>>26227243
Then get drunk. Closest I've been to blowing my head off was when I was drunk. It really helps with courage. I only didn't do it, because I'm not decided I really want to, I've never been. If someone who actually decided to kill himself gets drunk, it should be easy.
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I want to see genetically engineered catgirls in my lifetime.
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1. Lack of a firearm.
2. Family.
3. Cowardice.
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Food. I really enjoy eating.
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>>26227272
bad news anon
it's never fucking happening
thanks to feminist scum and moralfags
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I'm scared I'd go to Hell and then I'd have an eternity of suffering to go through.
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Her.

Also Paper Mario 5.
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>>26226258

Several hobos probably puked all over that urban ghetto sidewalk she's been walking on.
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>>26227007

Nigga, why even post? You did the equivalent of joining a fishing forum and posting "I don't like fishing" in a "What's your favourite fishing thing?" thread.
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If i killed myself i'd be giving my enemies and those i hate satisfaction
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>>26228090

>having enemies
>having people you hate

Have you tried just ignoring some folk?
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>>26228104
Nope can't
Their hatred fuels my reason to exist
without it i'd have no reason to better myself
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drugs and few friends
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according to the bible i'm already dead
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You have to be in true despair to go through with it, otherwise your survival instinct will kick in like with >>26226953

Your depression/situation has to get so fucking bad that you just do it to escape the pain.
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>>26226236
Fear mostly. Desperation to find a point to living.
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Prophets words written on Graffiti
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I have an eight year old sister and it would devastate her if I was gone.

I'd rather grow miserable and seeing her grow up nice than kill myself and not being there for her.
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Because when I talk about an hero I get taken to A&E
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>>26229416
Thats a stupid reason. Thats as stupid as living your life according to someone.
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My fiancee would be destroyed.
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5 more years. If things havent changed drastically by then I will kill others and then myself.
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>>26226837
You are a hero

>>26229416
You tooo
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>>26227271
try jumping of a high building
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>>26229531
>I have no family I like therefore noboy should

This is what you sound like.
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I'm saving up some money so i can travel first, after that I'll kill myself.
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drawing, then making a comic, it's my only objetive in my life, after that, I might consider suicide.
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>>26226236
The near release of Dark Souls 3.
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My four year old brother and parents. I can't begin to imagine how my brother would process me just being gone from his life out of nowhere and my parents having to explain why.
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>>26226477
This right here.

Every day that goes by makes me want to just end it.
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>>26226236
Family. I'm not suicidal anymore but I would have killed myself long ago if my family didn't love me like they do. I couldn't do something like that to them.
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A few reasons
>too much of a coward
>already failed once, left a scar on my neck
>family would lose their only child, they care about me despite me being an autistic failure
>don't want to be put in the fucking psych ward again
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>>26230535
Holy shit Dark Souls 3 is what keeps me from doing it as well. Like for real.
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>>26226236
I wanna help save this world. I have a shitty hero complex.
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>>26230736
Hope I see you in the multiplayer then :3
And later we'll die together, ok?
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>>26230580
Yeah, that was what I was thinking about when I was at my lowest. Just kept going for my sisters and my parents, I'm much better now and I love them even more, they saved my life without even knowing it.

Still, I ended up cutting my arms like an edgelord when I couldn't bring myself to slash my wrists...just for good measure I guess. Those scars don't go away and people hardly believe that a dog scratched me like that. Really regret doing that now. It makes me even more self-conscious.
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>>26226236
My brother. He is only 12 and we are very close. He doesn't realize what a loser I am yet.
I don't want the last thing I ever do to be ruining his life.
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Because I don't know how the fuck I'd do it. I'd like to overdose on something
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>>26229297
What? Explain further.
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I don't want to be yelled at in case I won't succeed.
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>>26226236
>pic related my man
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5 seconds of summer literally saved my life like OMG 5SOS
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>>26230880
Damb, real feels.
In order to succeed you'll have never even known.
The real real feel.
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>>26230892
Whoever typed that is an ignorant cunt and has no idea what depression is like.
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>>26230879
well mate he seems to be saying that he's either in heaven or hell. my guess would be hell considering the general tone of this place.
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>>26230892
You can't be more reddit.

>Error: Our system thinks your post is spam. Please reformat and try again.

Fuck you robot
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>>26230799
Im glad to hear that youve turned around. Things are looking bleak for myself, but I'm hoping that my percieved obligation to stay alive for them will blossom into a desire to stay alive for myself. Reading your post definitely brightens things up.
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>>26230783
Sure anon desu.
Tbh when Miyazaki announces another game I will postpone it further, we'll see.
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>>26230535
This

And pic related
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>>26232043
kek.
Yeah, I guess we'll have to see what the future holds.
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>>26226236
Summer feets.
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>>26226236
I just need an instant and guaranteed foolproof way of killing myself.
I just want a button to press and it instantly ends.
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>>26232237
Would you settle for a trigger?
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>>26230892
I sincerely hope you fall in to a severe depression at some point just so you'll realise how utterly stupid that pic you just posted is.

Literally kill yourself for even thinking that's good advice.
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>>26232277
How do you know being shot will be an instantaneous end?
I like the idea of a helmet made of c-4 explosive. Just instantaneous annihilation.
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>>26226236
I'd say it's to bear witness, but I simply lack the constitution to kill myself
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it would devastate my mother. it's the literal only reason
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>>26226236
I have a life insurance policy that covers suicide after the first 13 months. Sum is for $200k.

I'm still not 100% sure I want to die, but fairly certain I will. I'll be 13 months into my policy in May so I'm free to do it after. At least that way my family get something from me.
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My sister is nearing the end of medical school. I know she'd probably fail exams if I killed myself, on top of that the several times I've tried before have only left me with most likely brain damage, I've never talked to a doctor about it because it's not like someone who's a neet needs decent motor skills/concentration.

I want to continue living, I just don't want to live in THIS world desu
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>>26233434
jump into the k-hole with me brother
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>still forcing the ''depression is real'' meme

Only on /r9k/.
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>tfw when you're not even bad looking
>can't blame your lack of social skills, life or gf on being uggo
>your social anxiety and autism are just apparent to everybody the instant they meet you or even lay eyes on you
>you will never have a meaningful relationship with anybody
>slowly eating away at you every single day

honestly been pretty close to it, as in i've had the gun to my head, hammer cocked, finger on the trigger several times. In the end I'm always too much of a pussy. All of the what-if's and unknowns about a possible afterlife always stop me. Everybody I've ever known has judged the shit out of my to the point I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up that I have no doubt in my mind that if there happens to be some kind of godly being they will do the same.
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I've tried a several times and had a loaded shotgun in my mouth a couple times as well. I've become less suicidal over the past several years though but I still I usually wish I was just dead. I don't know, I guess a shred of hope that life will continue to get slightly better as I get older.
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After I vote for trump and beat DS3 it's a shotgun to the brain for me
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Because it makes no fucking sense
I want to sleep and never wake up but I will never experience it. I can't motivate myself with a feeling that makes no sense. I can't imagine what non existant feels like.

the beauty of death would be that I didn't need an answer to this and that it doenst have to make sense. I can just say fuck you and be done with it, but dieing isnt that easy, unless you find a rash and spontaneuos way to end it in mere second without even realizing it. Planning and going through with it is just too hard for a pussy such as myself.
I tried a half-assed attempt in hanging myself just to see what it feels like to be near death, was even too pussy for that and couldnt get enough pressure on my neck to stop me from breathing.

j
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>>26226462
My nigga. Strait the fuck up
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>>26227007
I'm glad you're ok. I hope to be ok one day.
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>>26226236
>Nero
That graffiti artist had supreme taste in Roman emperors.
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>>26226477
It's a combination of this and fear.

I really just wish something would kill me. A car nearly hit me last night, and I was upset that he didn't.
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>>26227007
Why did you even post this? Originalu
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Don't want to disappoint my parents more than they already are
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>>26226236
you permavirgin cucks jelly?
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Family, specifically my younger brother. I can't leave him behind even if he has become more successful than me. Some people kill themselves because there is nothing to lose at all. They have no family, friends, co workers that may slightly care about them.
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I don't want my brother to blame himself...I think he might have it worse than me...
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there are millions that have it worse than me
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>>26235228
Not really, at least I have a phone from this era, faggot
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>>26232287
o noes muh feels
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>>26227007
>Has GF
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If I ever get my hands on a gun I'm gone. Until then... Oh well.
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If I die, I'll miss out on food and vidya
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>>26226236
The possibility of being famous, if not during my lifetime then posthumously. But to be famous posthumously you have to do something notable before you die, which I haven't yet. But I'm working on it.
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>>26226236
really curious about the robot suicide death toll. how many have actually done the dirty deed??
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>>26236453
I have killed myself 3 times anon
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>>26236453
about seven
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>>26226236
>suicide
At least kill others first geez.
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>>26236290
I get weird kicks off of being lonely, it hurts so much but it makes me feel human. This strangely is what I feel like I live for.
I want to feel the feeliest feel.
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>>26236707
Write things down. If you are alone a lot, you're the only one who can record and describe the feeliest feel. It's how a lot of poets were, actually.
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I don't know how and I'm afraid it will hurt. If I could instantly disappear into nothing that would be great
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>>26226236
Proven wrong to people by existing.
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>>26233508
>Everybody I've ever known has judged the shit out of my
Caring about what others think of you.
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>>26226236
The faint desire of proving my parents wrong.
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>>26233692
I got to see Trump live in person. It was the first time I'd ever seen a famous person before. Too bad I'll most likely have to find a way to kill myself before I get to vote.
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I don't want my parents to be sad, they're older though so it won't be all that long
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I've given my self up to my 20th birthday to change and if i haven't made any significant progress by then im either jumping off the roof of my building or just leaving and become a drifter and wander across the country cuss i just wont give a fuck anymore.
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Have a close friend, who had a good friend die recently, and became suicidal after he died. I don't want to put him through that again. He's got too much going for him to throw it all away.
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>>26226236
>have a oneitis
>she's not particularly attractive or anything
>we met online (we live in other countries)
>she's a senior in high school
>she has a huge course load (IB program at a richfag school)
>she's bad at writing essays but i'm really good at them
>i help her out a lot with her hw, get her good grades
>really the only useful thing i do
>she has other boys she talks to tho
>she even kissed one boy but said she hates him now cuz he's an asshole
>she's going to uni in another country
>once she graduates i'm just gonna say goodbye
>might even kill myself, figure i'll do a steroid cycle for 3 months and if i can't get a gf after that i'll end it at 23yo
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>>26228169
>Their hatred
At least you have people that are aware of your existence
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>>26226236
Knowing there's a strong possibility that nothing awaits us after death.
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>>26226236
I'm afraid of pain and I live in a no-gun state.

I tried various other methods but even though I genuinely wanted to die and was not doing it for attention, my instincts blocked me out of it.

It's like my survival instincts literally paralyze me when I attempt it and I think the only way to overcome this is with a gun to the head and a light tug on the trigger.

I am saving money up at this very moment to move to Alaska or New Mexico so I can buy a gun and, after a long hike through nature, blow my own head off in the forest.
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>>26239802
>no-gun state
Is there really such thing? Unless you count DC.
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>>26239802
Come hang out at my apartment and we can shoot ourselves together
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>>26226236
if i do it now i can't come back
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>>26239969
What if you can come back as a ghost? Or go live with animes?
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>>26226731
>having friends to care about you
.
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>>26226812
I'm in the same boat, anon..
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>>26226892
Why wouldn't god like those people?
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>>26226236
im enjoying life , is this the wrong board for me?
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My life is enjoyable because I can still enjoy my hobbies and learning stuff
Also I am a Christcuck
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Already tried. Followed my life to its logical conclusion and realized I shouldn't be alive. I thought i'd do the noble thing and erase myself. However when I tried, I pussied out. Now I'm living in this purgatory like an ignoble animal; I've no purpose. I could've gone out on a high; I could've looked life in the eye and said, "fuck you, I'm not playing with this shit hand you've dealt me."

Instead I live like some incubated vegetable of a man. I'm now costing my family and living as "NEET". I could've left with my head held high, now I live in constant shame.
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>>26236707
>it hurts so much but it makes me feel human.
Thats why we all hold onto our depression and our isolation. If we didn't find meaning in it then it would be cruel enough to kill ourselves. Problem is letting go so you can be happy finally.
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>>26226251
>fucking this
>/end thread
>cry myself to sleep tonight
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>>26226487
>as if you could kill your momma who did nothing but love you your entire life
fuck you anon
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>>26226236
don't see the point in killing myself when I still have a shit ton of vidya, movies, TV and anime I have to get through.

My life survives on visual media.
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Got to something to tell you OP

:^)
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>>26226731
>>26240071
what's that like anon
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>>26226836
>tfw no dubs and no reason to live
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>>26226892
> (i don't see how god could like Africans, Jews or Arabs).
I like you anon
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>>26241534
Damn she's cute, what's her name?
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>>26227007
>my gf
>has gf
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>>26226236
Momma didn't raise no quitter!
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>>26227070
you get incredibly sick and refuse to take tylenol anymore
>THANK YOU BODY FOR NOT LETTING ME KILL YOU
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>>26241544
dis gon b gud

robot
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>>26241544
>she
>her

Boy have I got news for you
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>>26226236
i think i can turn it around . am oing job hunting tomorrow .
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I had somewhat of a near death experience a few hours ago

>be me
>tripping on shrooms
>decide to meditate
>go too deep and overwhelm my bloodstream with oxygen (hyperventilate)
>entire body enveloped in intense vibrations
>hands are completely locked up in an open position
>figure I'm having a stroke and I'm going to die from hyperventilation
>breathing becomes worse because intense anxiety
>feels like my life is draining away
>Lay down on my stomach and accept my fate

Said fuck that and got up, was about to tell my parents to call an ambulance but decided not to and allow the feeling to pass. It eventually subsided but i was in shock for a bit.
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>>26241544
>>26241594
>>26241600
only the most beautiful woman you will never have
>why live
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>What's stopping you from committing suicide?
The forced apathy I place upon myself when depressed. I did attempt suicide a couple years ago, obviously failed. I've never been quite the same since then, better in some ways, far worse in others. Whenever I start slipping down into depressed thoughts I eventually remind myself that none of it matters. Living or dead, happy or sad, in the end it won't matter. I honestly couldn't tell you why I find that comforting, but I do and it is keeping me from suicide. I know this is a bandaid solution, and there is a very good chance that I will kill myself somewhere down the line unless my life changes drastically, which is doubtful at this point in time.
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>>26226236
my survival mechanism

everything is pointless and whether i'm alive or dead doesn't matter, so i don't see the point in killing myself or living either way

i subsist on bare minimum energy expenditure and life force, i continue to exist because of circumstances embedded into me from birth beyond my control, i still see my meaningless life as something to lose with the potential for change and meaning despite realizing that it is futile to continue and i am indeed delusional and pathetic, i will never comprehend any of the answers to the questions i keep myself alive for, nothing will ever satisfy me in life and death is the logical and merciful ending to the organism that i am so eventually i will finally reach the conclusion i was looking for at the end of my life cycle, meanwhile i distract myself from reality to survive because my ego cannot accept it's inevitable death, it's a joke without a punchline

continue or not, in the end it's all the same, all i can hope for anymore is to painlessly disappear in my sleep, time will fulfill what i could not, it will correct the mistake of my birth
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I was happy at least once before, I want to be happy again. facing my problems used to beat the shit out of me but I kept trying. after a few weeks i saw progress, some glimmer of hope. sometimes i had to lie to myself constantly to keep myself from actually doing it. Reality for some other people's lives makes me appreciate mine, so i dont advocate suicide but i understand why people feel like it's their best decision.
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>>26226251
/thread
That's literally all it is.
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>>26226236
I don't have money for a gun
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i somehow ended up with a wife and a baby a year after i traveled and did a lot of acid and heroin and huffed a bunch of ether and propane. i was really really ready to not be alive and then some girl had sex with me and my entire life was changed. i did pussy out for like 3 years before i started hitchhiking and not giving a fuck so meh but spending a month in the desert with lots of whiskey and little water is basically the exact opposite of pussying out i think. anyways i wouldnt change a thing now because im happy and thats a miracle brought on rampant drug use. do drugs and be happy robots
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i don't know how and don't have a lot of money to buy a gun or anything
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Earth is 4.5 billion years old. Universe is what, 13.5 billion years old?

Humans are a pathetic spec on a tiny shitty little planet in the Perseus arm of the Milky Way galaxy.

Our selfish genes couldn't care less how we evolve.

Personally, the pathetic four score and ten that I have at most to live is all I have. Ok, we have science that may give me another 10 or 20 years?

It is still sweet fuck all, but it's all we have. Suicide is pathetic. I say that as someone who suffers from depression and all that shit too.

I call out to anyone who is closed minded and religious and suffering from suicidal ideation - strip the world of your shitty fantasy gods - learn how awesome the universe is and just how really pathetic you are. Then realise your pathetic tiny blip of life is not worth curtailing, you may as well have the extra few years 'cos there is no god or heaven out there.
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>>26227200
Suicide by cops
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>>26230892
I love how this hypocritical ccunts always try to blame you for being depressend. They are basically saying your personal suffering doesn't matters because other people might feel uncomfortable during a few days. And this is the same idiots that are always saying that the most important thing is yourself. I fucking hate them.
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>>26242510
>metaphysics don't exist

tips badora
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I want to max out all stats on my Old School RuneScape account, then an hero. I am almost done.
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Having the proper chemicals. SOON. Very soon.
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>>26230837
thats my plan senpai. OD on heroin. Get like .4 grams and do it all at once with a fat plunger.
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i have already fucked it up enough for my little sister killing myself would completely break her.
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if you kill yourself without killing some immigrants right before you're a top cuck
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>>26226236

The knowledge that there's no respite in death.
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not having any problems ^_^
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Ambition and stubbornness
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Because of family, writing, and watching movies.
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>>26241653
Exact same boat.
>last night
>pondering the futility of the universe
>take a heroic dose of 25i-NBOMe
>7mg
>sat on the basement floor staring in the mirror watching myself sob
>general shakiness, heartburn, and headache
>think I've built up way too much of a tolerance to rcs to an hero with them
>gun might be the best bet
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It requires a lot of effort and I know I won't do it anyway because I'm too much of a coward.
If I had a gun I probably would have killed myself already but I don't live in America.
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That there's no entirely painless way of doing it. Literally the only reason,
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Part hope, part narcissism, part lack of a gun.
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>>26242812
Can I have your account when you're done? I don't want you to kill yourself but if you do I'll make sure to take good care of it
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