How do i die in my sleep peacefully without my brain and survival instincts trying to suspect I'm trying to kill myself?
But my brain will easily suspect i'm trying to kill myself and will just give me a bad tummy ache, migraine, vomitting and a painful ride to ER
I'm pretty scared of withdrawals, but I drink a lot too. I used to only take Etizolam for one or two days and then have a day off, but now I find myself taking it every day, whether it be for my hangover or my anxiety.
It's supposedly not as addicting as actual benzos because its a thienodiazepine but idk how true that is.
To be honest, I don't know how to stop. (I know this thread wasn't about me and I feel bad for derailing it) I've got pretty bad liver damage and kidney damage, etc and the only way I've been able to cope with the thought of it and also the alcoholism itself is through diclazepam, and more recently etizolam.
If I take a day without alcohol or etiz I get very very down and can't really do anything except be tearful and moody and extremely anxious.
I know I've had a tolerance to alcohol for years but now I'm starting to develop one for etiz too, it's a bit frightening for a 19 year old.