You ever wonder what it's like to be good at something?
A talent? Even a skill? Doesn't have to be anything remarkable or interesting, just something that you do better than most people.
For fuck's sake, I'm not even good at video games, and I've had my job for almost two years now without actually learning how to do anything properly.
I'm good at...
3d modeling, I'm pretty amateurish but still better than most of the world population
When a 2d artist watches me work they look at me like I'm doing some sortg of magic lol
I'm """""good""""" at drawing, better than most normies but definitely not good enough, the only diffrence is that I have basic understanding of how to use perspective. But I still can't even make a straight line properly.
That's pretty good, I used to feel the same way about my modeling but then j saw an entire class struggle with it for an entire year
Chances are you are better than you give yourself credit for, better. Not good, just like me
People like us just need to work because we are in the right path
im good at making vidya. had some success. as usual this is a "grass is greener" situation OP. to get good at something you need a naturally obsessive and perfectionist mindset which brings you a ton of stress, you'll isolate yourself to work on your craft, most normies don't appreciate what you do at all and ultimately you fret constantly about what you do and whether its good enough, until the anxiety becomes so great you drop it - at which point you're anxious that your one skill no longer brings you joy and whether you can do anything else. if you have success you're anxious about not living up to that next time and desperately try to recreate that success. if you have failure you just feel bad, and whatever you do you get a lot of hate and criticism and general annoying faggots who want to criticise you and your work.
basically, stressful, self esteem destroying all around. don't you hear about artists killing themselves and being poor..etc, even successful ones?
I'm literally good at nothing. I'm ok at some things I guess but not actually talented. I was a mediocre athlete, musician, and programmer and a decent student. My only interest is medieval history and it's embarrassing how little I actually know considering it's my only thing
>tfw nobody can use a shotgun better than me in bf4 multiplayer
i was thinking about this the other day when my brother made me watch American Football with him, and tom brady was on the screen
I was like, imagine being born and finding out at like, 8 years old or whatever that you can throw a ball really fucking well, and then someone tells you, that's really valued, and sure you have to work hard, but your path is just there before you, you're gonna be a quarterback.
Like, i think having something to work on in the first place is half the battle, once you have direction you can start to build momentum
not to mention that this would have made him the coolest fucking guy throughout his entire childhood and teenage years, he was genetically gifted to be like 6'7 and handsome as fuck, was probably knee deep in pussy all throughout his life, (and is now married to a fucking supermodel that makes more money than he does), but even without the women, it's just the confidence that a lifetime of being treated that well brings.
People will say, but he must be a nice guy, people wouldn't want him to play if he was a total asshole/girls wouldn't want him if he was an asshole etc. But the thing is, if you or me were treated favourably throughout our lives, we were the cool kid, girls gave us the time of day growing up etc, we'd probably be pretty fucking nice too.
I'm not even particularly as jealous as this makes me sound, i just feel defeated. The guy is tall, a world famous athlete, rich as fuck, married to a supermodel, has kids, and will retire at like 40 latest and enjoy the rest of his life.
Back when I was practicing I could do a lot of tricks with 3, 4 no problem, and 5 for ~50-100 throws consistently. I used to have a decent 3 ball routine I could do, but like I said, I haven't practiced in a while and I can't remember the tricks I included in it.