What's the point of living?
Seriously, I want to know.
I've lived my life up until now as a depressed shell of a person simply taking it one day at a time, but in the last four years (since I finished high school) I've atrophied beyond even what I used to be. I can hardly work up the courage to go outside anymore and I haven't put in a job application in a year.
Its getting bad, my parents are catching on. I spend my time with my head buried in the internet to temporarily forget about my situation.
I have no friends, no girlfriend, no acquaintances, nobody besides my parents to even give a shit if i died. So I say again, what's the point of living? I can hardly even communicate with other people without stuttering or shaking my hands to ease the tension.
At what point does suicide become a rational decision instead of a "permanent solution to a temporary problem :^)"
I'm too much of a coward to kill myself. I've already tried once, and it landed me in the psych ward for almost a month. I don't want to go back there, there were people screaming in the containment rooms having psychotic episodes. Granted I've had psychotic episodes too, but it stressed me the fuck out to be around them.
Not today FBI
There's no point in living.
All the bullshit (family, work, and so son) people do are another way of escapism.
I think it's better to do nothing productive as you (and I) do, at least we decide our life instead of being under the decisions of a boss, or of a slut
Well if you're too much of a bitch to die then try living like you want to. If you cant do either stop asking when it becomes a rational decision. I have friends, i had girls crush on me, im in like 5 group chats and i socialize daily and i plan on killing myself because everything is just so boring and meaningless when i cant get the exact girls i want or have the things i want because i am a poor normie.
>I think it's better to do nothing productive as you (and I) do, at least we decide our life instead of being under the decisions of a boss, or of a slut
Yeah man, I totally decide what to do every day. My choices are in no way constrained by being flat broke, having no friends, and having a PC too shitty to game on. Nothing beats the NEET life, eh?
I wish I could delude myself into thinking I chose the NEET life. Unfortunately for me, it wasn't something I chose. It was something I fell facefirst into after failing at literally everything else. Hell, I barely even graduated high school. I'm that stupid.
i'm basically you but i don't feel suicidal at all. you just need to get lucky i guess and have something click. do you at least get out of the house a few times a month? my brother's friend runs a show at a bar and i work door there so i get a few macaroons for sitting at the door for 4 hours and i usually spend it at the bar there.
I'm an agoraphobe, so not really. The only times I get out of the house are to go to the pharmacy down the street to pick up my medication, and thats about once every two months. I'm not good with interacting with people.
That's the weird thing, there really isn't. I mean, maybe it would be nice to see Japan. But I know it won't be like in my annie mays.
I missed school a lot of the time in high school because I didn't want to be around people. Its why I almost flunked out.
not op but I'm NEET and the only thing I want in life is to be self-sustaining so I'm not leeching off my parents. but i hate working because you go out and work all day and then come home and you're too tired to do anything that you want to do so you're basically working 5 days a week to live 2 days a week and i don't like that trade-off
no I'm all there and shit I just hate the fact that I was created and now I have to work 80% of my adult life away to live. Also, how would that work out even if i did get autism monies?
>get to doctor sneakily somehow with no license
>get diagnosed with something that gives me $$
>stay living with mom and randomly give her $500 every month
>tell her I'm moving out and she wants to know how i'm going to survive
Its gone the way of Half Life 3 anon, sorry. It was supposed to be released in late 2015 but that has come and gone.
Working, sleeping, commuting are the inevitable future if we continue living. NEETdom can only last so long before someone forces a change.
>permanent solution to a temporary problem :^)
God I fucking hate it when people say this. The way they say it in such a cheery but ignorant attitude makes me believe that they never suffered to begin with.
The people who say this are people who don't understand what it means to be depressed, or just loathful about everything.
I get how you feel OP. I used to be like you. It's just a matter of concealing how you feel from other people, and trudging one day at a time until the end.
Go outside for a walk, or go to downtown and watch a movie. Just do something, anything that'll take you out of the house. Go rent a motel, fuck a hooker, do anything. Walk to a park, skip rocks across a lake.
It starts from there really. It takes your mind off of things, and lets you get your thoughts together.
i don't know, i just keep passing courses at uni and listen to old music all day. idk what will be when i graduate and i will be too ashamed to live with and be funded by my parents
please somebody tell me what to do, send me to a war and brainwash me against the empathy for the enemy.
I know the feeling anon. I am a neet too, but I am really trying to get out of my hole. I lost my viringity a year and a half ago and thinking started looking up until I got dumped. Still, being a neet is a major problem. I have been working on getting new skills that will make me employable. I started coding again, which I had not done since I before I dropped out of college, and I am installing Linux from strach as, I am downloading all the files, as I type. to get better at computers. Maybe one day I will find a gf or bf to be with. I am bi so that makes things easier as the girl I lost my virginity to wanted to turn me straight. Little did she know I was bi lol.
>idk what will be when i graduate and i will be too ashamed to live with and be funded by my parents
Hey, I know a lot of people at my uni who're planning on living with their parents until they find a job. It's not a really bad thing.
In a lot of places in the world it's not uncommon to live with your parents while you're working a job, it's really more economical in the long run.
By human logic, the death of "the self" can never be a rational decision, due to the nature of our survival instinct, desiring to stay alive no matter what and keep life (the species) going.
Life if a single leaf in the entire tree of the universe.
Do whatever you want.
Some people decide their point of living is to improve the society they are living in, the lives of other people, some decide it is to explore as much of the world as possible, for some it is to meet as many different people and discover what stories they have to tell of their subjective human experience. Some people decide the point is to achieve the most amount of enjoyment and produce as much dopamine and oxytocin and so on as possible in their lifespans. Some are a mix of all of them.
And then there's us. Which apply to none of the above.
There is no point
There is no purpose
people make up the their own "purpose" based on their hopes and dreams but it is pointless outside their own perspective
Logically you should do whatever it takes to to enjoy the current and every moment of your limited time in this hellhole
unless you're in a considerable amount of physical pain or paralyzed, pick one