I'm 33. It's alright. I still enjoy video games like a kid and learned Japanese in my 20's so I have a few Japanese otaku friends. Besides work (craftsman) I enjoy my life. I don't even want a girlfriend or anything either.
>>26123208 >28 >khv >have job usually done by teenagers >have worthless BA >no friends >all my shit falling apart. >have some money, but not nearly enough. >lost weight(was 185, now 155), but health feels worse.
>>26123208 Turned 25 yesterday. I'm yet to go to college, and I think I should've acquired more work exp by now, but I'm not going to descend into pointless defeatism. Just gonna take it easy, life ain't too serious anyway.
>Lucky If I was lucky I would have died during the event that should have killed me or the following surgery that saved my life in 2008.
>>26123798 I feel like I was supposed to die too and that's why there's no path for me, no place for me in this world. This is why nothing makes sense and the motions and mechanics of reality behave as if I wasn't supposed to be here.
Yeah, I am just not sure how to go about it. I was drinking a ton alone at bars recently, but it was really fucking with my mind so I stopped drinking. Now I just spend most nights alone reading and programming -- don't even have nerd friends to hack with.
>>26125018 By staying in school and/or working. But I think the real next step comes at 30 when you finally should have some financial security or at least proper qualifications for reasonable adult job.
>>26125095 Nope I'll be 30 in about 30 days and I still just spend my days smelling my own farts
the real problem is I've jacked off so many times to so many porn types that nothing works for me. I can't afford prostitutes but the couple times I did they were rude aggressive ignorant and unpleasant so I didn't even cum because they made me uncomfortable
>>26125017 Yeah, I'm kind of a failed normie. I cant manage to go to bars, but went to the area of my town where all the bars are after closing time, when all the severely drunk people were filing out. I wander around or sit on a bench and look at my phone. I don't smoke, but on these occasions I smoke cigarettes so someone will ask me to bum a cig, or for a light. Three of the girls I almost had sex with, I met this way, after "last call". One of them vomited while I was taking her home. All three were much fatter than me.
>>26124876 I'm not sure if you can call that a second chance since my health is degrading rapidly and I'll probably die soon anyway. More like delaying the inevitable.
Sure I'm all for improvement but I have little time to dedicate to it, most of my time is spent working or in and out of the hospital.
I'm seriously considering getting one of those "do not revive" tattoos on my chest but it's meaningless since the medics can't take it into account they have to try not matter what.
My monday will be spent working, my tuesday will be spent working too. I'm "okay" because of the ton of medication I have to swallow everyday to tell cancerous cells to fuck off and prevent my body from rotting away. That's a level of okay that isn't interesting at all.
I'm not trying to be depressing and your mindset is probably adapted to most of this board, but for those of us with agressive physical illnesses operating completely outside of our control it's a losing battle.
26 and close to giving up. No degree, no relationship, barely any friends, no motivation to enjoy my hobbies or strive for more. Fucked up so many opportunities in the past that I can't live with it anymore anons. Everything is so bleak and hopeless.
>>26125167 Look I've tried gay porn, I don't have any homo tenancies, I even touched myself while looking at it. No real effect, and even if i did my penis too scabbed and bruised. I stopped using lube to get more sensation and I rubbed some skin off
>23 so its OK if you want to skip my post, I just want to talk with someone who won't tell me to lift >two years ago I matured a bit and decided that I needed a plan for the next 5 years >plan was to become an artist (illustration, comic drawing, 3d modeling and animation) >first year I learned nothing but the second one I have been going steady >still two more years to go and I think I will accomplish everything but animation >if I don't tho I will go to college (its free here) and get some low tire job to support myself) >I have been feeling lately like I want to be more responsible like finally doing something about my weight and getting more serious about my drawing tho
>>26125409 It really does, damn near impossible since they don't really want any new friends by the time they get close to their 30s. Hell I'm 28 and don't really want all the effort new friends take to make. Hard to find time to hang out with the ones I already have anyway.
>>26125366 you're kind of correct. If I was a college student there is a 100% chance that I would be expelled for this. The courts are a little less strict about a drunk woman having sex with a sober man. "date rape" in most legal systems is more like what bill cosby is accused of doing, actually drugging people.
>>26125522 I wouldn't call it leaving, I get busy too between work and finishing up my degree. I think it's kind of natural, people get involved with their own lives as they start to get closer to having families of their own. Kind of makes you value the friends you do have even more.
DnD is super comfy however, fun and social game. Surprising how high energy it can get when you have a good DM, really can get drawn into the world. Really worth trying if you never had, I didn't starting playing till like a year ago or so I wanna say, was pretty intimidated by the rules and structure at first but it's actually pretty simple overall, lots more about what you can thinking of to solve a problem.
>28 >Don't bother with high school friends anymore because I have to hound them to do anything so I don't contact them and they don't contact me >Work in a warehouse >Work isn't too bad but the early 20 year old's don't care about their quality of work as much thus mess up the organisation of the racks >Live by myself >Only person that ever comes over is my music teacher, otherwise I am alone. >Virgin, no girl friend >Ex-reclusive NEET but still have tendencies to just stay in my apartment when I don't have work or HAVE to do errands I am going to die alone.
>>26125994 Very lonely. Normally when I lived with my grandfather at least I got to say hi to him once a day. On weekends I only talk to the grocery store clerk to get my food, otherwise there is no one to say good morning to me or good night.
>>26123208 >26 >dropped out of university >shit job >have 3 friends from high school I see once every 2-3 months >feel low around them as they all have high status jobs, gfs and nice houses >one even just brought a house that is practically a mansion >one is getting married >shit hours for shit pay so little free time and little money >little free time I do have is spent sleeping as i'm tired due to manual labor job >no gf ever >still a kissless virgin >moved back in with parents last year to save money as was barely saving anything with rent and bills
Not sure what I even live for anymore. Vidya isn't even fun anymore. Honestly going to off myself in the next few years.
>25 >live alone >shit job but isn't dead end >while at work I don't feel melancholic or haunted by my empty past >while at work I just want to go home >each day at the end of working hours (last 20-30mins) manager goes home early >co-workers usually start something fun >playing cards or just chatter and banter >I don't always participate but that's because I sometimes feel like i'm intruding on some subjects >I get to talk with some qts sometimes and they are really kind >then I just take the bus home and feel like shit till i go to sleep and wish i had the balls to suggest going to a bar or something with the coworkers >I live for those 20-30 mins >on weekends I take heavy doses of medication, nothing risky, just enough to keep me slipping in and out of sleep while watching a playlist of movies like baraka/samsara/documentaries with nice scenery
if I am lucky I sometimes dream of traveling there with a qt from work
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