>be 28 >have erectile dysfunction >it's all in my head, don't have any phyiscal impairments >can't get one up with girls >isolate myself in consequence because I feel miserable >my life goes downhill it's absolute shit >plan to suicide before 30
>>26103288 >Wasted my formative years smoking weed and waste my free time now getting drunk alone or shitposting on this site >Spent too many years of my life as a NEET (although I was obsessive about fitness and health at the time and actually emerged from those two years or so looking better than I ever had >Treated friends from the past poorly hence end up alone >Narcissist >Lazy >Put things off >Low self esteem and sense of self worth so I never put myself out there or speak up >Desperate fear of failure
>>26103323 Yes. I failed so many times in my late teens and early twenties that I just lost any hope and it crushed my self esteem into tiny pieces. Got it all checked, neither do I have hormonal imbalance nor any damage to my penis. I'm cursed or my mind is fucked. Maybe a bit of both.
>get a really cool girl that you feel super comfortable with >talk about your fears with her beforehand >problem will dissolve on its own
I feel ya bro, i was like that before. always got cockblocked when I had a new girl because I was so nervous. worst erection killers were condoms. thankfully I am easy going when it comes to talk about those things so I found out the easiest way is just talking with the girl before anything happens and mention how nervous you are.
>>26103288 I think I was always just tagging along to my twin's friends >from kindergarten until 5th grade >live in the projects >actual hang out with kids in neighborhood >always be with my twin bro >5th grade move out of projects >never hang out with anyone outside of school ever again I had friends in school but I never ever hung out with them outside of it, kinda just friends of proximity. I never got my driver's license and never tried to go after any girls and weighed 100lbs in 3rd grade and only kept gaining weight since then (320~ lbs at 23 now)
>>26103354 I honestly think you should go to a prostitute. Go to a brothel and don't just go with the first girl who propositions you. Talk to them and go with one you like and feel comfortable with and that will willingly give you the GFE by default. When you're in the room, explain your problem to her and see what she can do. There won't be the pressure to perform like there would be with potential partners and she may make you comfortable enough to get hard.
>>26103381 >>26103396 I once went to a prostitute a few years back being on 50mg viagra, if I recall correctly. I told her I was a virgin (which was a lie, but I wanted her to take the lead). I couldn't get it up for a good 10 minutes while she was sucking on my limp dick. One of the worst and most embarrassing situations I've ever been in. Now I can laugh about it but back then it felt like I'm experiencing a bad trip. You know, all that made me lose hope. But before killing myself, I'll give it another few tries this year, if I manage to bait a girl in my bed. I want to at least give it another shot before calling it quits. Additionally, I heard porn can have pretty bad effects on your ability to get aroused. Being a heavy porn user for all my life, I stopped looking at porn last summer. So that might help as well.
>27 year old kv >live with parents >never worked >no real hobbies >failing all my classes >lazy and dumb >no self esteem or sense of self worth >no life skills, I'd be lost on my own >hardcore procastrinator Think that's most of it. And it's mostly my fault. Can't blame it on anyone but myself.
nearly 100% of all the money I've made from being 14-19 has gone towards virtual hats in DotA 2, the hat game gets shittier every year and I keep falling for valve's tricks. I'm 4k though, which is higher than about 95% of everyone who's ever played dota, which is nice.
>>26103288 >small dick >exhibitionist tendencies but shy as fuck >no self esteem >crippling fear of death >spent most of my youth as basement-dweller with little to no friends >got a bad stomach-condition that makes me sick literally 24/7, can't even enjoy the most basic of activities for almost 3 years now >gf always says how much she likes me but seems disgusted every time I try to engage sexy-time >friends don't even listen to what I have to say and constantly talk over me >first gf left me saying "lol, I already told you we were breaking up" without even hinting at it >got groped as a kid well yeah, that's basic stuff
>>26105290 At least you can point your finger at someone else for your self destruction
My self destruction isn't even suicide. It is a man slowly destroying himself through self loathing for no fucking legitimate purpose. It is the most painful version of suicide, the one where you don't actually cut your life short but let it continue to limp on while you create your own hurdles and hate yourself the whole way. It is a suicide by destroying yourself as a fucking person, I am killing the thing in my brain not the biological entity.
>>26103288 I was always prone to escapism but in second grade i got computer and everything fell in to abyss from then. I spent every free minute playing vidya and gradually replaced friends with games. I wasnt complete shut-in and was able to connect with younger (2 - 3 years younger people than me) but it was impossible to do the same with older ones. I was awkward with young ones and clueless with older kids.
Because I'm mtf in a country that condemns anything of the sort so I can never get really close with people in real life and I have no actual work experience aside from a portfolio of webdev work I've done, so moving to a better country like the US as a 21 year old from South America with no university degree and no actual job experience is basically impossible.
>>26105655 I did the same. Every single hobby I have had or enjoyed has been some form of hiding from reality
I got a computer to play half life and age of empires and blah as a boy
I expanded on that to run in forests or the side of the road on scarcely traveled roads just listening to music, playing guitar and never in the company of anyone ever because it would probably cause a panic attack, choosing to work a job where I am completely alone
>>26105772 I absolutely could not be a one man band. First of all I am not great and don't write a lot of my own stuff. Second when is the last time a guy and a guitar has done anything solo. Third I can't even play guitar in front of my friends. I literally hide my guitar in my basement so people don't even know. My best friends don't even think I have played an instrument
An artist or painter or writer is definitely a romanticized idea of mine but I realize it is the exact opposite of hiding myself from the world, it is expressing the core of it but through a different medium. Also I suck at all of it
>>26103288 I blame most of my insecurities on my childhood. I had the most uncomfortable relationship with my sister growing up. She used me as practice when she was going through puberty, either by playing with me, trying to ride me and showing me pornographic videos around the age of 7 or 8. But most of the time she would call me a faggot, worthless, beat me up, throw me outside during Winter and lock me out of the house.
I also hung onto my high school past like it was the greatest thing ever until I was 22. I just wished that things could go back to those years and used it as escapism. I dropped out of community college because I was scared, nervous and felt like I didn't deserve it.
There's a lot more to it, but that's the jist of things. I'm currently 24 years old living at home, not gaining any neetbux either and I'm leeching off of my single mother. I'm a real piece of shit, but I wasn't always like this - I had a job until I got fired and now I sit all day in my room on the internet for 14 hours a day. My life is wake up, internet, video games, shower, sleep, repeat.
>>26103288 The older I get the more I want to push people away. Even people who have always been there for me. I drink all the time as well. I have a hard time getting over past events while everyone else seems to be able to disregard them instantly, but I know they don't, they just deal with it better than I do. Never had to really try for anything because of mommy and daddy's money. Never formed a real relationship with a girl in my life. 26 year old virgin. Have a degree, will pursue it if I have to. Have a job, like it, pays low, don't care. Live with parents preparing to move out if I achieve this potential prospect in another state. >>26103292 Randy, I am the liquor.
>>26106217 Oh and if you didn't get the atmosphere of it, this is all the stuff I really don't want to do, but it's most of everything I do. I want everyone to be happy, but I feel like most of my life the message I personally get is shut up and know your place.
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