>>26030545 I feel the same man.. like I'm completely alone in my own mind and everyone else is just a part of my imagination. I feel so alone and empty inside and completely sad. I cry when I go out in public because I just want to be home. I hate this. and I fucking have to deal with being de personalized and obsessive compulsive along with being bipolar I'm fucking messed mentally
>>26030545 It gives you a point to be fixed on in life. If you ever think about ending it, you just go over to their house at whatever time it is and talk to them. Explain The whole thing and most people will totally be fine listening to you just to keep you from doing something. Online friends are fun but they just don't do that. Go to about club, get a job, go to a college, even if you're still in high school it helps. You should be fine after you get real life friends.
>>26030589 Anon Im not searching for friends now and I dont think that I could keep them >>26030618 >>26030701 Im really scared >>26030655 I do think about ending it a lot, but I still manage to keep going somehow All these 'normal' things like having a job, friends or something doesnt make me happy at all Im lost
>>26030446 Not him but >Always talk with friends >Always talk to family members >Gotta keep the happy face on or they all would think so much less of me
I want somone to know how lonely I feel and truly talk to me. I don't want the normie shit answers like "just be happy man" I want somone that cares and sees it goes deeper than that. Talking to people doesn't help for shit
>>26030779 If they're not helping you then I'm drawing a blank. I went through a similar phase, and eat fixed it was arguing with people on instagram about politics. Kept my mind off of anything. I doubt it'll help but it's worth about try. Also try some games that force you to talk with other people. They can be worth your time. I recommend CSGO, but I'm sure others could work.
>>26030862 I've tried venting to my brother, who felt closer to me than anybody else, still he just sat there giving answers like "You just need to stop being sad". My brother is undeniably a Chad aswell.
>Green eyes >Amazing jaw and cheek bones >Bragged to me about all the girls he's had >Had half millon on his account after doing work for 2 years >Travels all the time everywhere
And I'm related to him, me the failure. The one everyone expects to be better. Always get compared to him no matter what. I'm just gonna finish my college degree and leave everything behind. No one cares about me, why should I care about them.
My chronic and intense depression is mostly because of an uninterrupted period of loneliness that has been ongoing since I first started college as a naive freshman thinking things would get better. Since then my hope has all but vanished.
I just want someone to be there, to take away the loneliness, whether it be a platonic or romantic relationship. "Friends" and family only want me around because I make them feel good, but I can't say the same about the them. They vent to me about their problems and I rarely, if ever get to talk about mine. Even when I do I'm always met with the same bullshit response of, "It gets better, Anon."
Lets take, for example, my father and mother. My father calls me almost every night just to talk about his problems and how he's finally staying sober can't count how many times he's been to rehab. On several occasions he's said that us talking together helps him just as much as it helps me which is fucking bullshit. I hardly get to talk, all he does is just vent about the bullshit going on in his life and I just spit out one or two word responses because he won't let me get a word in edgewise.
Now on to my mother, she does mostly the same thing except it's mostly gossip she talks about and non-issues. But when she found out I was suicidal, had a plan and a date set, she of course broke down in tears and cried about how crushed she would be if I killed myself and how much she needs me in her life. I don't like the whole 'I need you to feel good about myself' part. Why do you (they) need me to be happy and to move on with their lives? I get the whole paternal/maternal love thing, but still. I think it's kind of fucked up that they need me, but they have not necessarily said they wanted me to still be around.
I don't know, I guess I'm done venting my frustrations for now.
>>26031046 Ask to be taken on a trip to your favorite country and then run off after you tell him to Fuck off. Take some of his money too. Live off of that and pretend to be quaint your whole life. Or just deal with it.
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