>haven't jerked off in 3 months
>stopped playing video games and reading
>haven't talked to another person in almost half a year
>can't feel sexually aroused or enjoy anything anymore
>literally just lie in bed all day with my laptop
>want to kill myself but I can barely lift myself out of bed to go to the toilet
>starting to become underweight from barely eating
>can't remember the last time I left my house
anyone else hit rock bottom?
Damnit I was gonna be the first to post that here faggot
It's not that I can't feel sexually aroused but that I feel unbelievably ashamed of myself and if I cave in now I'll feel defeated by whatever image I jizz to. I can't stop, and I still don't like anyone in real life. I just tell myself that "at least I have all my limbs and both eyes" but then I realized just how fucking low you have to be to find solace in such a trivial thing.
> It's not that I can't feel sexually aroused but that I feel unbelievably ashamed of myself and if I cave in now I'll feel defeated by whatever image I jizz to
I just defeated myself by fapping to hardcore fetish porn when I swore not to. I'm really sick of my sexual drive, I just want it to go away. I used to actually enjoy fapping, now it just feels terrible. I don't even necessarily believe all of the bullshit that no-fappers spew, I'd just rather not fap.
Do you work? What do you do beside shitspost? Do you have motivation to do anything else?
>Do you work?
>What do you do beside shitspost?
i met a few robots and got their kik and i will cycle between them and whine and complain about my life so each individual doesnt think i'm TOO whiny. i also use tinder every day but so far haven't got a match (i swipe left on 95% of girls though)
>Do you have motivation to do anything else?
OP here, I'm unemployed.
Nowhere wanted to hire me, not even shitty minimum wage burger flipping or stacking shelves. I have literally no motivation, ambitions or goals in life.
>started lifting in the new year
>feels fucking great
>no it's too good
>still masturbate, doesn't make me happy
>played video games for the first time in a week, didn't really have my heart in it
>work feels like a waste of time because I could be spending that time and energy lifting
>can only think and feel enthusiastic about the next time I lift
what the fuck this wasn't supposed to happen
>if I cave in now I'll feel defeated by whatever image I jizz to
well the nice thing about masturbation is that you could jizz to a video of a washing machine and the only person who is going to judge for it is yourself.
You need to just stop caring so much. i masturbated 3 times yesterday and that's kind of a low average for me.