I dont know if I can take it anymore robots;
please reccomend me a nice/easy way to kill myself that wont be too graphic for my sister to find.
Can be found at your local walmart super centre.
Sorry anon, this is the final ride which I can not embark. May you find your ending peacefully...
what's your story anon? i'd like to hear it if you want to share it
>please reccomend me a nice/easy way to kill myself that wont be too graphic for my sister to find.
give me a reason why not Anon, dont you feel like ending the ride sometimes?
>everyone will be out of the home tomorrow
>resisting the incredible urge to kill myself
>the only single fucking thing stopping me is my mother finding me, she has been through far too much in her life
Soon, OP. Soon.
It's one of those days.
I got to sleep now. Maybe I cry a little bit.
Every 2nd day.
i actually find myself crying randomly and quite often these days. not like bawwing or anything but whenever i sit back and even think for a second about how fubar my life is, i do cry a little bit.
Been clinically depressed my entire life, beaten etc
Met Rebecca at about 8 years old
She made life not seem like hell whenever I was with her
We went out for two years and I loved her so much. I was never really happy but she eased the pain.
She was hit by a bus when I was 11.
started getting heavily drunk often
Cut myself pretty often.
Every therapist I saw did nothing and often just made things worse as I realised how fucked up I was and how I don't really deserve to be unhappy
Since I was 10 I've spent my entire life online, browsing 4chan, playing videogames, trying to forget
Addicted to the internet and pain medication while hiding it from my family. Not really hiding because they know, I just keep doing it no matter how many times they ask me not to.
Try to keep up a normie college lifestyle but I just sit alone in the library in all my free time.
/r9k/ is where I find my solace.
Sorry for my complete shit storytelling and spelling have been awake for 50 hours
She's killing herself slowly, constantly on meds, smoked a pack a day for 35 years, extreme stress, PTSD. She'll be gone soon, then so will I. Probably my dad after me.
Oh yeah about the breaking down
Last week after months of apathy and no feelings I suddenly exploded. Screaming, crying and cutting up my arms whilst running a bathtub hoping to die. I couldn't stop laughing. I was just cackling to myself as I bled out on the floor. Nobody came to help me. I know they heard me.
I'm ugly, have a mediocre at best penis, shrill-voiced, criollo fly socially anxious, and two weeks away from turning thirty. I've had one "relationship" that lasted a whole three months but have otherwise been met with nothing but rejection from women. The only solace I find is in tabletop games when I can pretend to be someone who is better than myself. All attempts at bettering myself have been met with failure. I yearn for death. And it never comes.
Before you leave, I saved a method that might work better than helium or carbon monoxide, nitrogen. I'll see you soon, I plan to kill myself before the end of this month
Order a vast quantity of powerful CNS depressants on the internet, a tank of nitrogen (helium is usually adulterated), set up an exit bag, take the drugs, wait for them to start to kick in, then use the exit bag, and after a few deep inhales it's lights out.
Why are you taking the drugs? The exit bag will kill you quickly and painlessly (IF USED PROPERLY)
If anything you should be conscious and aware in case anything goes wrong (like, you experience the suffocating sensation) and you have to abort.
>I know they heard me.
I know they did..
Like this image.
Make sure the pressure somewhat matches your breathing so it is quicker and comfortable.
For the love of god, if you're serious about doing this, do your research.
Don't rely on memes to inform you. This method takes preparation.
It can be painless and quick IF DONE RIGHT. Non-breather masks are less effective than hoods because they can leak air, which will slow down dying time at best or cause you to have that suffocation sensation at worst.
You have to be fucking careful or else you'll end up brain dead, or dying traumatically and relatively slowly. Whether that's a risk worth taking is up to you.
It's harder to find pure helium nowadays, since the normies are onto us, they mix it with 02. If you do find some, tell us please. I plan to simply lie down on the railroad tracks, if that doesn't work out then I'll shill out the cash for some gas. My deadline is this week, but I haven't even finished my suicide not yet....
op literally any way you kill yourself will fuck up your sister/family for life
i've been in groups with people who've lost family members to suicide, it's maybe the most damaging thing you can do
go somewhere away from the house asshole. save your sister the gore show.
>I plan to simply lie down on the railroad tracks
Holy fuck dude don't do that, sounds painful and scary as hell. Plus you'll be putting some strangers through misery for cleaning up your bloody mess.
>captcha asks for "business fronts"
Depends on how you rest, plan just to let the train decapitate me, get some autism points. It might traumatize some, but ehhhhh..... At this point I don't really care, I just want out, maybe the trauma would be a slight payback of sorts for how this world has treated me. I don't really want to buy equipment
>If you believe life has lost meaning, you have lost inhibition and can go anywhere and do anything. Take advantage of it
I'm using drugs, drinking, fucking whores and got a tattoo
Next item in the bucket list is learning how to ride a motorcycle
There is not a single day in which I don't want to die
February my family wants me to try to get back into education with tutoring and such, so I can go back to a different uni, close to home, where that can monitor. They won't let me seek professional help since they don't think I have any problems, that I just couldn't handle uni life on my own, that im just a vidya addict. My grandma dumped out my pills and my mom wont let me prescribe more. The future is too unknown for me, and since I have no motivation in what to do with life, I just want it to end. Life is like a dark room, and I have no flashlight.
Probably my dad, but my mom is a conservative christian, so that's gonna be a bit harder. Also my lack of social skills shine when I'm trying to talk to them. I really can't, its hard for me to have a normal discussion with them, either I get sick of the ignorance, or I just can't bring myself to express my views. I'm too passive, I've never developed how to communicate property in order not to get pushed around. I might try, I have a psych and counseling meeting this week (I think), if I can't talk to them, maybe they can
I won't have anyone else to talk to if you kill yourself robot