>fall for a girl who works in my office complex
>crush on her for months
>sometimes look at each other and smile
>keep trying to talk to her but feel too autistic
>convince myself that she is curious about me
>heart beats and starts to hurt when she's near
>find out LITERALLY 30 SECONDS AGO via researching her on google that she is dating a handsome "musician"
I had so much hope resting on this. Literally the only reason I haven't quit my job is because I was trying to build enough self-confidence to approach her. I am so fucking delusional. This guy is attractive, talented, popular and "fun". What the fuck. How did I ever let myself believe she could be into me. I feel so pathetic and childish. I think it's time to call it a day /r9k/. I'm just too weak for this life.
you are not weak anon. the fact that you stayed and tried to build up courage to ask her out or whatever shows that you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. don't give up now :)
You shouldn't shit where you eat anyway.
Also, it's quite normal to flirt at work or iniversity (or anywhere else, really). As long as it's all innocent and stuff. Many people do that. But of course, you could try to find out if she's down for some cheating on her bf. However, I'd suggest to only use her for sex. Don't start a serious relationship with her, unless she's willing to leave him BEFORE the two of you start an affair.
She is from a wealthy background and I am not. Also since our only means of communicating is in the workplace (we're not colleagues) it is difficult to "make a move"
I'm barely saving anything. I earn a shit wage in a city which sucks up all my rent. I live in a shitty apartment and I want to die.
I don't think it shows strength I think it shows an inability to act and a meek attitude towards the perceived sources of my discomfort. All my life is the accumulation of regret and failure.
typical aspie cuck
you put so much emotion and attention into ONE person and you can't even work up the courage to talk to her.
you fucking shitter there are literally billions of women.
I DON'T CARE IF THERE OTHER WOMEN
I HAVE NEVER, *EVER* MET SOMEONE AS FUCKING PERFECT AS HER
MY RESEARCH HAS REVEALED TO ME THAT SHE IS ABSOLUTELY IDEAL AND THE TYPE OF GIRL I'VE ALWAYS LONGED FOR.
NO OTHER GIRL I'VE MET EVEN COMES CLOSE.
I AM FUCKING SO EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO GO AND LIVE IN MY MOMMY'S HOUSE AND NEVER LEAVE.
How the fuck do people go through their lives forming relationships and then allowing the person they love to leave? Holy fuck it blows my mind. I would literally rather kill myself than experience that sort of trauma. The idea that she is kissing somebody else, investing her optimism and tenderness in somebody else, expressing her love towards someone else, daydreaming at night about having his children and lying in bed beside him smiling as he sleeps beside her. HOLY FUCK. I want to die. I really really can't deal with this world. I'm too weak for it. I gave up a long time ago and since then I've just been hanging on. I really think it's time to let go.
'my research' holy shit could you be more autismal. you don't 'research' women to figure out if they will be good partners.
you fucking meet them.
oh, and they also have to find you attractive and not a complete shitter.
good luck with that.
It's fucking retarded not to research a prospective love interest in 2016. They usually have social media and stuff like that which tells you whether their beauty only extends to their physical appearance. I am attractive I'm just not a musician. I have personal ambitions which I'm working on but I haven't achieved shit yet and it's making me want to fucking end my life right now. JUST.
I really think it is. It's like the past years have just been a way for me to get rid of everything in my life that would have prevented me from killing myself.
What the fuck am I supposed to do? I like this girl, I've liked her for some time. I have logical reasons to suppose she wouldn't be interested in me, hence my hesitation. I've FUCKED up. I know this. I'm feeling very emotional right now. Every time I think my life is getting better I reach this point where I become suddenly self-aware about how little I have to offer anybody.
>giving up your one life over intimidation by a scrub musician who will not be remembered by anyone outside of his insignificant circle
She is from a lifestyle background which has systematically replicated itself over generations to DENY poorfags (relatively speaking) like me from corrupting their family honour. I am a friendless faggot autist whose only virtue is his rapidly declining physical appearance and a delusion-based ambition to succeed in a specific field. Also it's not easy to talk to people like that where we most often see each other.
So what? He's doing what he loves at least which I respect. The music is fucking terrible but he wears fashionable clothing and is basically a less repressed and more jolly (if less intelligent and profound) version of myself. The fact that RIGHT FUCKING NOW (REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE) THEY'RE PROBABLY FUCKING LYING IN BED FUCKING KISSING AND FUCKING WHISPERING TO EACH OTHER MAKES ME WANT TO FUCKING IMPLODE I WISH I COULD FUCKING JUMP THROUGH THE SCREEN OF MY LAPTOP AND SHOW YOU HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME I AM TOO FUCKING STUPID TO EXIST
>I AM TOO FUCKING STUPID TO EXIST
Jesus. How do people like this expect to get girlfriends or even regular friends? Think about it. If you were somebody else, would you like yourself? Probably not. Knowing this, you should probably stop crying over something you can't change.
I WAS EXPECTING MORE SYMPATHY THAN THIS TO BE QUITE HONEST FAMILY
I WAS PLANNING TO DATE HER AND TAKE HER TO VISIT MY FAMILY IN WISCONSIN BEFORE THE SUMMER ARRIVES AND IT GETS TOO WARM TO GO OUTSIDE
NOW I'M FUCKED
THE WARM WEATHER WILL SOON RETURN AND I WILL HAVE TO LET ANOTHER FIVE OR SIX MONTHS PASS BEFORE I CAN EVEN LEAVE MY HOUSE. THE GUY LOOKS LIKE HE IS FROM A RICH BACKGROUND TOO AND I BET THEY'VE MET EACH OTHERS' PARENTS ALREADY. FUCK THIS SHIT. FUCK. THIS. SHIT.
>Main issue is being poorfag
>Slobbering at the feet of a richfag actively oppressing you as you've stated
>muh perfect match!!11
This is classic "brain in love" halo effect delusion. Get over yourself and use your attractiveness to attract deeper women than this rich, shallow scum into the crummy ass >epic musician :-)