What keeps you sane, robots? How do you do it day in and day out?

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>>25980388

Exercise - Every other day, Maybe starting every day, Biking with resistance for 20 minutes. Tire myself the fuck out. ( though I'm usually tired as hell from my erratic sleep schedule)
Internet - R9k open, pol open , 1 PDF file for Philosophy/Math I'll never finish, Stream open to have constant audio applied to my brain, 2 other tabs open i switch between (Youtube, Proofwiki, Bay12games, Manga)

Need those 24/7 distractions. Give me escapism or give me death!

If I managed to find a GF once, then I can do it again. Plus it would be a huge waste to kill myself with $25K in the bank and 3/4 grandparents still alive. Why put them through that grief?

>>25980497
>1 PDF file for Philosophy/Math I'll never finish

How big of a PDF is it?

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My political and social activism.

I work at a daycare and I couldn't imagine killing myself because then my coworkers would have to explain to the kids why Mr. Anon is not coming back. Kids that age shouldn't have to deal with knowing a person who died.

In addition, I have a niece who is just 2, she wouldn't remember me but I can't be the second uncle she has that commits suicide. It simply would not be right.

Lastly, beside the obvious (parents) is my politics. one of the few joys I have left is listening to mark Levin, Rush, and all those people. I also enjoy working for campaigns.

So there it is, that is what keeps me going, it isn't much but it is my life.

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>>25980738

Anywhere from 500 page Textbooks to short Proofs for various theorems. I can never remember any of the shit ( and I have so many random PDFS I throw on) so I never really learn anything.

Can't focus either, shit's pointless

Either play europe universalis 4,fap,or idk

Weed, sort of. And alcohol. But they both have huge obvious drawbacks.

Alcohol. Unfortunately my family thinks I'm an alcoholic and are trying desperately to get me to stop drinking so pretty soon I won't even have that.

>>25980800
This
Video games lost their touch
Drugs are the answer now.
Considering ending every day.

>>25980829
Don't get drunk, just cut back before they try to throw you into rehab.

>>25980844
Man, I'm so out of backlog. Games and films and anime are all getting stale, I feel like I've played all the good video games already.
I used to get high and spend all night playing the shit in my backlog, nowadays I can't even find a good game or anime to spend the night.

Porn, or roleplaying I'm a giant women/man online with chubby tumblrruina's I meet over my porn blog and creating puesdo realtionships with them. Dating sites hoping to find someone I can have some companionship. Some vidja. I don't do THAT bad in school, just Ok.

But overall the thought of killing myself seeps in sometimes and it's all I can think about.

Nothing.

The world is fucking rotted to its core. The women are all shallow, vacuous, soulless shells. The men are all testosterone-addled chimps who can only think with their fists or their dicks. The powerful elite accumulate mass amounts of wealth while starting wars full of horrific carnage and destruction and keeping the rest of the world poor and suffering. Few people are intellectuals, and those who are display a pompous, pretentious, elitist attitude that makes me wanna fucking punch their genitals.

Fuck this stupid fucking pathetic hopeless retarded planet.

>>25980388
Lately, not a whole heck of a lot. I've started popping pills and I think I'm getting hooked on painkillers. I didn't think life could get any worse, but there you go.

>>25981044

Does your genocide crusade start now?

>>25981044

I'm sorry but you sound like a huge fedora lord.

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>>25980914
Same here anon.

did the same then at some point I began replaying and rewatching the same shit over and over because i just couldn't find a taste for the newer stuff.

Then everything became shit in 09 and beyond.

Can't even find joy in the adult swim bumps anymore anon

How do we go back to the way it use to be?

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>>25980784
>Can't focus either, shit's pointless

I run into the same problem

>>25981116

I have neither the resources nor the skill to impact the world in any meaningful way.

>>25981140

I fucking know I do, but it's just because I'm so fucking angry and paranoid all the goddamn time. I haven't slept in four fucking days because I'm always just seething or crying or feeling completely numb.

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>>25981153
original numbing sadness

>>25981046
I'm sorry anon.

Addiction in early stages can sometimes be avoided by outdoor hobbies

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I was extremely depressed and alone and was thinking of ending it all. I ended up meeting a girl online and everything was perfect. I was starting to turn my life around getting healthy and applying for a lot of jobs but lately she's been a little distant and its getting worse. I love her so much but I think she's finally tired of me. I was always scared of this outcome but ended up falling for her anyways. If we cant work things out I'm pretty much done with everything and I'll probably an hero soon. She was the last light in my life and if its gone there's no point in going on.

>>25980388
i spend all day surfing pol and r9k and watching youtube videos that aren't very interesting. i occasionally play games on my phone because i can't run anything on my laptop. nothing is really interesting anymore and i hate doing this same thing over and over again more every day. i think i'm going crazy or something, i need to get a job or kill myself, dunno which.

I got so fucked up I tried to kill myself and now 10 years later, having dealt with most of those issues, I stay sane by reminding myself how far I've climbed.

My dreams keep me going even though they're completely unattainable. I'd probably kill myself if I let go of them.

>>25980388
By making goals, focusing on one thing at a time and putting my all into it.
Right now it's losing weight. I've lost 127 lbs in 11 months and I need to lose around 60-80 lbs more.