Misaki Friday thread. The weeks come and go but Misaki is eternal.
Not talking about how you feel ends in a one million Yen penalty!
Personally my week has been uneventful. Mother complained about me never talking to anyone but that's about it. Semesterfinals are coming up and I am getting increasingly anxious since oral exams and presentations are part of the finals.
Save me, Misaki.
I both love and hate Misaki
On one had, if I had someone like that in my life I'd probably fall in love at the thought of someone like that caring about me. Having the love you feel for someone returned back to you probably feels so blissful. I can understand how out of touch with reality normies are. I would be too if I could experince that.
On the other hand, those people do not exist. People don't just help random people to that extent. A girl isn't gonna waste a second pandering to some lowlife depressed scum unless she can gain from it (wealth, social status ect) -in reality- that girl sees him as a creep, or quiet, desperate and boring. Or they don't even interact with people like me at all because when/how/why would they interact with a depressed neet? And for that I hate the idea of Misaki because it's such a tease to the helpless and hopeless
The more I go to university, the more I want to drop out, but my parents won't let be a neet, which is probably good, I think I will also go insane if I just stay at home doing nothing without a goal. Actually going to work seems somewhat impossible for me, I don't even go regulary to university, maybe I should just change my subject and study something different. I also started to sleep around 14-16 hours a day, which probably means something bad
Week's been about the same as this guy >>25945018 , uneventful that is. Spend most of the days working, bit of r&r in the gaps, some naps. Been pretty sleepy and low on energy, I think my sugar levels are way off but I don't wanna see a doc about it, because they're only gonna tell me to stop soda and sweets and I don't wanna do that.
Another one down the gutter.
Very well said. I do not hate Misaki myself.
Her not being real makes her all the more real for me since I can at least have pleasant daydreams with her. Meanwhile there is no way in hell some 3D slut will ever reach out her hand to me.
What are you studying, if I may ask? I only slept that long during my neet phase since these days I am way too anxious to fall alseep early enough.
Sweets soothen the crushing feelings. At least temporarily. Just make sure to drink enough water.
I'm disappointed in myself, Misaki.
I'm supposed to be smart, but my mind hasn't been working and I haven't been thinking before I act. Already I've screwed up a couple things in easily preventable ways.
I have a ton of work for uni that I just can't motivate myself to do, and I'm not smart enough to do anyway.
I've disappointed everyone in my life. Everyone I love is starting to leave me and I can't bring myself to care enough to turn it around.
That's how I feel.
i really really don't want to go to work! i have work in a few hours but i hate that i have to act so fake and theres one manager there that hates me and if she's working i don't know if ill be able to take it...
i've gotten really good at crying without customers seeing
>I'm supposed to be smart
This sounds like a delusion of grandeur and failure to live up to it.
>Already I've screwed up
Shit happens. No sense in crying over spilt milk. It's not like anyone died, right?
>I have a ton of work for uni
You can try to bruteforce it all in one day but it takes some willpower to do it. Maybe do a little bit each day and just skip the difficult stuff for now. Maybe you feel more motivated at a later time and perhaps the questions won't seem as difficult then. I had a magnificent breakdown myself trying to get homework for uni done. It wasn't like anything the lessons had covered.
That is terrible. I assume you also have no option of switching jobs. Unfortunately I have no advice other than going into zombie mode and just trying to shuffle through the day somehow.
I quit my first apprenticeship because I couldn't bear it.
Try and put it as little effort as possible.
Studying physics, specialized in biophysics, I often feel like I am too dumb for that, but I seem to understand everything, when I actually go to uni, but it just seems really dry in general and it was mostly a spontanious decision, because it was 2 days till the deadlines were approaching and my parents said I have to find a job if I don't go to uni or they kick me out, so it was the first thing I chose. The other problem is that I always try to avoid people I went to school with, like changing busses or my direction, so the uni is a place I always try to avoid.
I don't know why I started to sleep that long, I feel extremely tired in general, it is really hard for me to fall asleep, but when I do I sleep for 8 hours, wake up for an hour and sleep for another 8 again, that happens like every 2-3 days, then I have a day with normal sleep, but after it it starts again
>studying biophysics on a whim and being able to understand everything
I find that amazing, borderline envious. I was never good at school and I won't be good at uni. The trouble about meeting people I can relate to. I haven't heard about a sleep cycle like that yet but sleeping an entire day away must be nice.
>all this talk about uni
>my A level grades weren't even good enough to justify paying for the courses I'd be able to take
you fools know nothing of true failure
Please, I am attending a course that has no grade-requirement. It's the bottom of the barrel.
>Why donn't you talk more, Anon? You're always so quiet! ;)
>Just b urself
University is almost free in my region, even if people from worldwide study here and only stuff like psychology, literature etc. has grade requirements, everything else has too few students.
I often feel retarded and have a hard time concentrating and focusing my thoughts, but it still works out. But still thanks for the compliment.
Sleeping like that was nice at the beginning, but my parents hate it, so I have to deal with their stuff. It also feels like I lose so much time, even if I don't know what to do with it. The feeling of tiredness does not go away either, which isn't a good combination with apathy
Am i a naive idiot for believing in true love?. I don't care about sex or fucking sluts, i don't care about money(maybe a little) or status, power or popularity. I think what i would really want in life is to find that special girl that would love me and i would love her too and we would be happy for the rest of our lives. However deep inside i know that is a fantasy and a very dangerous one. The other day i had a very vivid dream about me finding a girl like that and then after what seemed like years she would leave me for some reason i don't remember and then i would simply lose all reason to continue living and kill myself. The sadness felt so real I think it was a presentiment about my real future if i continue to think this way. Im a 21 years old virgin by the way.
What are your parents going to do? Wake you up? Go right back to sleep. I mean, as long as you don't fail uni they shouldn't have anything to complain about. My family always says I should get more sleep since I am always tired as well.
I gave this a bit of thought and I came to the conclusion that love like you wish for is nigh impossible in our modern, hectic times. I do not want to completely rule out the possibility but it seems very difficult to attain. Especially in bustling cities.
Maybe you can find yourself a christian girl from the countryside?
Bear in mind that she would still be 3D and sell your soul to the devil without a second afterthought.
Moving like a shadow
Disembodied and alone
Somewhere in the darkness
Beyond the dusk
Before the dawn.
>Maybe you can find yourself a christian girl from the countryside?
Yeah, i thought this too. Maybe right?. i prefer to have hope that someday maybe i might find someone like that. After all having hope is free and it's all i got right now. Thanks.
Hoping that someday Misaki will come.
Doesn't seem like it. Neither MCF nor that other Anon who said he could stream seem to be around.
Thanks, you too. I won't leave anytime soon so maybe you can have fun lurking the thread later.
He did surprise us with a stream a couple of weeks back.
My parents come into my room almost every 10 minutes and wake me up again, scream at me etc. I can mentally shutoff when they are fighting with each other, but stuff directed at me is a problem. It sounds petty, but it still is really nervewrecking for me, especially with my constant feeling of tiredness.
The thing is, that I have 3 classes with attendance duty, which means I will fail if I don't go. They are also on 3 different days, which makes it even worse.
Yeah, most people tell me I seem tired, but nothing changes even with 16 hours of sleep. Do you have any special reason for your tiredness or is it just because you can't sleep?
The memecountry of blue eyes and blond hair, the only STEM related subjects in my state with grade requirements are pure biology related ones
>My parents come into my room almost every 10
Damn that sounds rough. I feel sorry. I know how nervewrecking this can be. My heartrate jumps to 200 everytime I get woken up by phone calls. Can't you move into a cheap students dorm or something?
I do believe I'm tired because I never get enough sleep but my mother insisted in sending me to the doctor a couple of times. Nothing out of the ordniary except for higher than average blood pressure. I do have a gallstone since a very young age, maybe it has to do with that but I'm convinced it's just stress.
In our current time, why is it a trend to be a loser when people truly aren't losers? Oh yeah, personally, I love anime/manga, trap music, gay shit, and cute things. I'm not even hideous or autistic looking, so I blend in just enough so people don't visually despise me. My problem being? I'm 22 and still the socially awkward, depressed, loveless outcast back when I was 12. In comparison, You see others on social media who I share interests with, claim the whole social awkwardness thing, and turn out to just be the popular kids only following an alternate trend.
How is that I'm still just an outcast to people that I share interests with things I absolutely love? All my life I felt like I've just been kicked to the curb. Why does it feel like I'm unnecessary and unwanted?
Because you truly are unwanted. Being akward / so nerdy xD is a trend, just as you said. Being actually socially akward is still despised. Normies are just trying to individualize themselves by acting slighty "different" than normal. The cool and hip thing to do. Social media is a cesspool full of these people stroking their own egos. They will never know how a true loner feels.
I finally got this http://www.amazon.ca/gp/product/4047138517?psc=1&redirect=true&ref_=oh_aui_detailpage_o01_s00 in the mail, but it has no cd. This is bullshit. I'm still going to look for the cd but this is ridiculous, the cover image even shows the cd. Sorry for anyone who was looking forward to seeing the VN.
Aw man, that's a shame. Did you order a used copy?
Yeah, they were all used. I didn't think that would mean leaving part of the product out, though.
Not yet, I posted here just after I opened it. It's still shown as not arrived on the order page, so maybe they split it into multiple packages. I don't know if that's a thing, though. I'll message them about it.
Used product usually don't have any extras the original might have had, that's how I know it at least.
I doubt there is a second package underway. Amazon still lists my month old orders as "not arrived".
I wish you that you experience being looked at that way someday. It will be fine.
So ... it's friday again ... and there won't be a stream again, r-right?
Trips confirm it. Everything is going to be dajoubu.
It's not looking good.
N-not that I don't wish it for myself. But it still seems more probable if it is someone other than me.
Anyone is more probable to find happiness than me.
This sounds pathetic but these misaki friday threads are the highlight of my weeks. Something about being surrounded by others in similar situations is comforting. I wish r9k was more like this. Even wizchan is divided by failed normies from r9k and internet tough guy "wizards" who proclaim to be superhuman for being dissociated from basic human desire.
At this point I feel like I'm just waiting for a comet to hit earth or some other massive event that will turn life around. I've been making "personal progress" but I'm dissatisfied by how slow it is. Even though I told myself to take baby steps since anything more is too overwhelming. I'll always be behind others. I'll always be a loser who gets made fun of when he's not around. Only thing I can dream about is a Misaki-like girl. Just dream, because those do not exist in the realm of 3D.
>tfw religiously check r9k at 9pm every friday for these threads
I don't even browse this board too much anymore, these generals are pretty much the only reason I come here at all.
Oh, that's a shame. I ordered it again from another place, I hope it works. Should be another month.
Mine too. There's nothing out there for us. Only getting as close as possible to Misaki.
The threads are the only thing I'm looking forward to all week. I don't even care about having weekends anymore.
>making "personal progress" but I'm dissatisfied by how slow it is
I started exercising a few years back but haven't made any significant progress in a long time. If anything, I have already passed my zenith (which was laughable).
Just waiting for something, anything to happen is how I feel as well.
I'm not making any progress with exercising either but as long as my weight remains stable I don't mind. Turning into the big fat slob Sato imagines himself as in one of the episodes is one of my worst fears. I guess I'm not useless but I feel useless. If only the hurdles to get a job weren't so big...
Are you from the US? I always hear horror stories of people having to do unpaid internships for months before they even have a shot at a job.
When Diablo 3 was announced back in the summer of '08 I went back to playing Diablo 2 again. It was fun at first but after some days I got really frustrated that my only source of fun was staying indoors and playing this game while other people, including the ones I was playing with, would go out with their friends and travel. So I wanted to get back at them. I made a trap assassin for the sole purpose of PKing people in normal baal runs. Used a staff with teleport charges to quickly get to the boss room and from there killed them with sentries from a long range. Then when everybody left I joined the next game and did the same. I would also nab wirt's leg in tristram runs. Eventually I got bored of it and gave up. That was my normies reee moment before the meme even existed.
Almost done with January exams, this Monday and Thursday are the last two.
I failed really badly at one exam, but I feel alright about the other ones. I could have done better if I didn't relapse into my procrastination habits real easily.
You know what's the sad thing about being disconnected from society? It's that you can only lie to others. I have never ever been honest with anyone and nowadays I wonder if I'll ever even meet someone who I can be completely honest with, at this point I can't even care for tfw no gf, I just want a friend, a person who won't be disgusted with the true me. This happened the other day
>taking a break during work, surrounded by my colleagues who all brought their gfs or wives
>have to hand out soft drinks to kids playing on the playground in front of the store as a promotional event
>have a visibly annoyed face
>boss comes around with his wife
>"So anon, do you have a kid yourself?
>I reply jokingly with
>"I hope not, might have to pay alimony if the dumb broad found me"
>realise just what I said
>they're all laughing for some reason
>"So you're divorced? Who's the unlucky lady
>somehow manage to weave a half-baked tale out of the lie
>they actually buy everything I said
>"You've always been silent during breaks Anon, I never knew you lead such an interesting life.
>I'm sweating underneath my shirt at this point and just nod to everything he says until
>"Atleast you're not like Jeremy, boy that poor soul is probably 30 and must have never even seen a real vagina haha"
>"He's a hard worker but I don't like him, he's weird, never talks, probably gay as well, atleast he's earning me money and that's all he's good for haha
>These fucking normalshitters can smell losers but believe lies easily
>I'm 21 and have never even seen a real cunt myself
Never trust society, they only need you so they can look down upon you while you earn them money. Always lie to normals
> delusion of grandeur
That makes sense. But my family expects me to be intelligent because I use do excel at schoolwork but I've hit a wall where I cannot bring myself to care anymore and I don't think I'm smart enough to do this anymore.
I'm sorry for the reiterating of the problem. I just need to say it.
Back in the day you used to have good job chances with a regular higschool degree. Now even the shittiest craftsman jobs want secondary school degrees.
>not even comfy with snow
I haven't seen proper snow in years and now that I do have it I can just look at it with a blank expression. I still like the sound of it crunching under my feet and the general quietness it brings along.
Good luck with the last two. Does failing one exam mean anything bad?
Misaki uprising fucking WHEN.
Get it off your chest. That's what these threads are for. If your family aren't complete cunts they shouldn't care too much if you screw up here and there. Plus, you are aware of your mistakes and I believe if you go over your excel sheets after you completed them you will find mistakes and can fix them.
Just make sure to wait a day or so and look over them with a fresh mind. Judging from your responses I don't think that you completely stopped caring. You want to do well so that your family can be proud of you and that's a good drive.
>Does failing one exam mean anything bad?
Normally it means you have to take a rechance in August, but the specific subject I failed is only half a course for some reason, with the second half next semester. So I'll just do better next semester and pass that way.
Thanks for making these threads by the way, I legitimately look forward to reading everyone's posts at the end of the week.
No worries then. Nice.
I'm glad people appreciate the threads. I just wish MCF could be around more often since he was the one who made them in the past.
Lost, abandoned, whither do we stray
Help us, save us, take us away
I wish I was born rich so at least I wouldn't have any financial worries. I legitimately have worries about not being able to hold a job in the future and make enough money to live at least a comfy lifestyle.
This. How can you truly be happy if you have to worry about earning money day after day?
Under detrimental spell
If I had a shotgun
I'd blow myself to hell
I think this is my limit for tonight. Thanks to everyone who participated. It's been fun again.
>having to wait another seven days until next friday
Misaki give me strength.