It's really, really tough having no friends.
I used to have two real, honest friends in high school. We were all robots, we always had each others' backs, it was great.
I'm now over two years into college and I haven't made a single friend, it's really getting to me now. I feel like I'm not even part of this world anymore, I've been diagnosed with depression and I'm on SSRIs but they don't help much. I just wish I had some real friends, that's all I want. Life is so fucking meaningless without friends.
I'm reminded now of Harlow's "Pit of Despair" experiment where they put a monkey into an isolated box for a long time, and after a while the monkey always goes insane.
I wonder how much longer I will be able to go on like this. Unlike monkeys, humans understand the concept of death, they understand that by killing themselves they can escape suffering. Eventually I'm bound to reach that point, there's no doubt in my mind.
I think 4chan might be the only thing keeping me alive at this point. You guys are the closest things I have to friends.
I used to have two real, honest friends in high school
I never even had that
It's not really anxiety that's the problem, I just can't make friends. There's always some barrier between everyone I've talked to, I can tell they want nothing to do with me, they have other people they would rather do things with, more fun people, people they have more in common with.
I want friends but Im never satisfied with the people I know and everything seems forced, not a natural friendship but a social alliance made out of sheer terror of solitude.
I wouldn't say I've never had friends ever but never a real friend. The only kind worth having imo.
I still talk to them on Skype every now and then, but we're all busy and far away from one another, I still love them but it really isn't the same.
At this point we've pretty much accepted that we are all going our separate ways in life. Our high school days aren't going to magically come back.
Also, they have made other friends since high school it seems. Something seems to be wrong with me and me alone.
Been there, I can't do it, it just doesn't work for me. I black out drunk before I can break the ice with anyone. Even when I'm drunk I feel that impenetrable barrier between myself and whoever I am talking to, I can tell nothing is going to work.
Actually if you never had any friends you wouldn't know how it feels like to have someone to talk to. If you used to have friends and now don't you can see all the normies with their friends and know how it felt one time...
Like I said we're busy a lot, I'll get in contact with them once every few months, I talk more on /r9k/ than I do with them now.
They're still my friends, definitely, nothing can replace them, but I talk to them so infrequently it's as if they aren't even there. A conversation every few months is not enough to keep a human sane.
I'm literally on the same boat as you anon
>bullied all throughout middle school
>met awesome friends in high school
>tfw true friendship
>Graduation came, we said our goodbyes and we all went to different colleges
>in my fourth term in college, still no friends
The only friend you need is the one you see in the mirror every morning.
You should be using others instead.
I'm graduating in 3 months and have never had friends past the first 3 weeks of college
if you fail to make friends in the first few weeks, you're pretty much dead in the water
everyone's already formed small groups and never leaves them
so anyone who sits/eats alone is going to stay like that
this is true
i don't have friends because i don't like/understand normie things
-Hey anon have u seen that whore nudes?
-WOW BRO do you live in a cave? it's impossible you haven't seen don't you have friends on whatsapp?
that literally happened to me a few weeks ago