>bored all day everyday
>no motivation to do anything
>gaming alone is boring now
>no gaming buddy
>talk to almost no one at school
>come home a crash onto my bed everyday
>no girls to text
>every social thing I try to do never works
>tfw destined to be alone
Just try doing the exact opposite for a few days. If your life is pretty much shit then you have nothing to lose by putting yourself out there. You seem pretty bothered by the state your life is in, why not try to change it?
Optimist Costanza doesn't last long. He eventually reverts, just as OP would if he did the opposite.
Sounds like OP needs a good clan or guild.
Maybe dota2 chat channels for team search, join a team and try to play with them every time they go. It takes effort to find friends. It's easy online, you just ask them if they need another and usually you'll get an invite if you're any kind of good. If you're bad there's noob guilds too, or ask them to coach you a match if they are bored.
awful advice. someones life is that way because they are that way
> you've got nothing to lose!
total bullshit yet again. there's lots to lose.. your dignity, pride, self esteem, sanity, feelings, comfort, wellbeing, identity..etc..
op i suggest thinking of the least horrifying way for you to socialize and try to make incremental improvements in that direction each week, baby steps..
>no motivation to do anything
If that's true then just embrace doing nothing.
Do nothing during all your free time and then go to school do what you have to and then resume doing nothing. It gets pretty fucking cool, I swear. Make sure you're really doing nothing though, not debating with yourself, jerking off or watching tv. If you can't stop doing that then I think it's because you're secretly not done suffering and you have to go a bit lower. That's how it is for me some of the time, but once I get really low I get to experience something cool.
Same anon here. A few months ago I was in the same position as you. I'm assuming you're in high school? Maybe talk to your parents about getting a shrink? If you can change your that patterns to think more positively then good things will often follow, but it's hard to realize which thoughts are incorrect without an objective listener who can tell you what they are and how to change them.
OP seems pretty uncomfortable, dissatisfied, low confidence, so my point still stands. All it takes is one little success to realize that not everything is against you, and from that point you can build your confidence off.
Furthermore, improvement in any way requires discomfort, because it's work. This kind of mindset, that just because something is comfortable means that it's natural and not harmful, is toxic for a person that wants to make their life better. I was pretty comfortable thinking that I was a piece of shit that nobody wanted to associate with because it was what I was used to.
You got the dissatisfied part right. I'm confident and comfortable, I mean, I'm not depressed or poor, or abused, or anything. Just... Bored.
Who doesn't nowadays. I'm top tier scrub tho.
The hell am I supposed to do? Everyone lives so far from me and the people that live close are too unlike me. I've tried socialising with them anyway but I got nowhere. Like I said before I'm pretty much destined to be alone.