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Who /selfharm/ here? Doesn't matter if you still do or not.

Any good coping methods? Pics of scars?
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I scratch and pour boiling water on my hands when stressed. Does that count?

Sorry, don't have a camera.
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Scratch behind my knees and my ring fingers.

hurts to bend my ring fingers but my knees have scarred up so its okay
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>>25784245
Yeah, that totally counts.
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Would put out cigarettes on myself when drinking and I will usually hit myself when angry.

Sometimes I fantasize about chopping off my limbs/extremities as well.
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>>25784328
I get the same urges, except for slicing. Not really removal of limbs but more like dragging a scalpel down my back
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>>25784360
Whew that sounds exhilarating.
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>>25784205
Used to cut and was hospitalized for it
When I was in grade school I would punch my arms, shouldve seen it coming
Also broke my wrist on purpose once
Pic related
I relapse every now and then but nothing heavy 1-4 cuts max
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OP here. Cut my thigh pretty fucking badly. The ones on my arms fade fast though.
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>>25784478
Look like nasty stretch marks.
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>>25784497
Yeah, I cut vertically b/c it was easier, but now I can't wear jean shorts without getting pointed out.
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>>25784478
Guy who broke wrist here
10/10 would lick scars until you felt better
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>>25784478
Looks kinda like hair. Like an early phase of becoming a wolf
Are you a werewolf op?
>tfw will never turn into an uncontrollable killing machine once a month
>tfw I hurt myself for all the things I'll never be
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>>25784619
I've been told that before
It's just the camera quality
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>>25784619
<3 if I respawned I'd let you violently kill me once a month
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I cut with my nails, I scratch with my index finger until I can get a good burn going.

I have schizophrenia, and it helps ground me when I'm feeling really out of it or when I'm feeling anxious.
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>>25784652
What type of pills are those? I'm only familiar with Prozac and Abilify. Also namefagging because I can.
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>>25784714
That was my Prozac dude 40mg
Also had valium which did absolutely nothing and trazadone which worked for a few weeks
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>>25784712
I have depression with psychotic features, and boy am I such a card. I probably have BPD too but I haven't been to a therapist in a spell.
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>>25784774
I take 30mg. Mine are white with a green stripe.
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>>25784793
That was my initial diagnosis, then bipolar with psychotic features, then schizophrenia. I think they're all related, honestly, and diagnoses are stupid because each individual's symptoms vary widely even within one illness.
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>>25784817
Do they help or do you just take them because that's what you were told to do?
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>>25784817
>>25784774
I was on 120mg. Unless you're a normie they won't work. SSRI's are literally normie drugs.

Currently on an MAOI (phenelzine) and back on guanfacine. I think my BP is stabilizing, but some of the outright fucking terror of being alive is gone.
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>>25784874
30mg helps but I'm starting to develop an eating disorder and the pills mean weight gain so I hate taking them
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>>25784205
I had to get 72 stitches Thanksgiving morning in 2006. I ran, bloody, from the police, drunk. I accidentally my nipple that night. Got locked in the mental hospital for 5 days.

I once flayed my arm open all the way to the bone. Had to get internal and external stitches. Shot heroin in the hospital even while under observation lel. They let me out that night.
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>>25784924
That sounds peaceful anon, I'm glad it's winding down
I wish you luck on your journey <3
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>>25784932
Fuck that man eat as much as you like, food is happiness
If it's really worrying you just do basic pushups/sit ups every day
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>>25784978
I've tried but this seems easier. I always see these qt skinny white girls with boyfriends and it hurts so bad.
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>>25784478
do you just cut the one leg?
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>no sharp blades
>no money
>want to slash up thigh fairly often
Who knows this feel? Been dealing with it for 2 months. Stupidly threw away my blades.
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>>25785063
One leg, one arm.
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>>25785033
Dude I used to be a fat fuck
215lbs put myself on a diet and lost 80lbs in less than a year
They saiid nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, they lied. I also can't let myself go and get fat again because I'd be terribly ashamed
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>>25784978
I had that mindset but then I gained like 30 lbs (especially being in the mental ward where for some reason they had really shitty unhealthy food)
I had to get new clothes and was always afraid of talking to people because I'm a fat fuck
>>25785033
>iktf
>try to look at thinspo stuff
>barely helps when eating my worries away is so nice
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>>25785109
I remember I hid my blades and forgot, it was shit. I used this site to get my kicks. Also I made a tumblr to look specifically at cuts. I follow a few gore blogs.
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>>25785171
>forgets site
http://www.fataltotheflesh.com/
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>>25785150
Youd be surprised how often it depends more on self confidence than actually physical features
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>>25785199
My self confidence was great until I stepped on a scale and actually looked at myself. 145.0 exactly. Disgusting..
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>>25785268
May I ask your height?
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I just like the feel of it and the blood. Im not addicted to it and i can stop without any problem, so im not sure why i do it still.
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I'm severely depressed but I think that's a separate issue from the cutting, I just do it because I like the way it feels and its exhilarating
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>>25785309
5'4". Very not tall.
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I drink, I abuse sleeping pills, I cut myself and I give up. At least then I know I'm still alive.
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>>25785325
The clean-up is my favorite part b/c I can finally cry after. My pills make me feel like I have no emotion.
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>>25785325
You answered your question in your post comrade
Me and my ex used to cut each other sometimes, it has sadly developed into a fetish but I'm able to suppress it
>>25785363
Then you're perfectly fine, don't beat yourself up so bad about it. We're going to die and be forgotten one day
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ITT: drug addicts and alcoholics who don't know it yet
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>>25785325
you're addicted

>Im not addicted to it
>i can stop without any problem
'tis denial

>im not sure why i do it still.
this right here is proof you're addicted, seek help
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>>25784205
I haven't cut in about 2 months.
I dunno I had a moment when I thought of the people I looked up to and thought of how they would be proud if I didn't hurt myself.

And I think it's important that I didn't focus on how people would be ashamed or scared if I did do it.
I focused on the positive aspect, and even though it was just a thought, I felt like I was being applauded for not going further downhill.

I hope you all, dealing with whatever you're dealing with, can do the same some time whatever way works for you.
I hope that you find your hope.
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>>25785431
except i dont have any urge to do it. i stop and dont feel a need to start again but sometimez i just do it cause im bored.
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>>25785479
I jsut get this itch where I cut myself and fuck it from there. Gotta go do that. Sleeping pills numbs me to fuck though so..
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It's been about a month since I cut. 2 months in February. I really want to relapse though.
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>>25785491
I always drink a bunch of water because it makes my blood run really quickly. It burns like crazy though. Just you just KO and not sterilize?
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I burn myself, when at work at times, I use the razor on my leg.
To be honest I am ashamed when I do it, instead of dealing with my problems the "professional" way, I hurt myself. The worst part is the scars because it makes me realize how weak I am to other people, who can deal with there problems.
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>>25785613
Im not the anon you were responding too, just putting that out there.

I just want to feel numb/not whoever I am so I abuse sleeping pills. Makes me feel weird and different and what not. When I actually do start cutting myself I don't really feel it/care much. I just want to bleed so I know I'm still a human.
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>>25785659
Iktf, I kind of miss it.
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bumping for more responses
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>>25785693
Miss what? My body gets so overly sensitive I have to jerk off several times to make the feeling stop and then I start to hear auditory hallucinations.
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>>25785792
Bleeding out.
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>>25785416
Lol very true. I want to get drunk fairly often. Or high. Solely because I don't feel like myself. At parties etc I have to make sure to drink very little. It's basically the only time I'm actually happy. I like to think I have good impulse control because even selfharm I can resist for months at a time. Despite wanting to do it daily.
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>>25786916
Also I'm feeling pretty good recently (I 'cut' 2 days ago though) and this thread is triggering me. I don't even restrict it to when I'm just sad anymore. Pic related my thigh.
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was gonna cut tonight. talking with some friends on skype. not about anything really but talking always helps me cope
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I used to cut for years.

Then I got into the bodymod community and started doing piercings, tattoos, and suspensions.

Lol. Socially acceptable self harm.
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>>25788034
I like your scars. More orderly than mine. I gave up on keeping it neat an regret it. Wasted space.

Glad you distracted yourself
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