Who /selfharm/ here? Doesn't matter if you still do or not.
Any good coping methods? Pics of scars?
Used to cut and was hospitalized for it
When I was in grade school I would punch my arms, shouldve seen it coming
Also broke my wrist on purpose once
I relapse every now and then but nothing heavy 1-4 cuts max
OP here. Cut my thigh pretty fucking badly. The ones on my arms fade fast though.
Looks kinda like hair. Like an early phase of becoming a wolf
Are you a werewolf op?
>tfw will never turn into an uncontrollable killing machine once a month
>tfw I hurt myself for all the things I'll never be
<3 if I respawned I'd let you violently kill me once a month
I cut with my nails, I scratch with my index finger until I can get a good burn going.
I have schizophrenia, and it helps ground me when I'm feeling really out of it or when I'm feeling anxious.
That was my Prozac dude 40mg
Also had valium which did absolutely nothing and trazadone which worked for a few weeks
That was my initial diagnosis, then bipolar with psychotic features, then schizophrenia. I think they're all related, honestly, and diagnoses are stupid because each individual's symptoms vary widely even within one illness.
Do they help or do you just take them because that's what you were told to do?
I was on 120mg. Unless you're a normie they won't work. SSRI's are literally normie drugs.
Currently on an MAOI (phenelzine) and back on guanfacine. I think my BP is stabilizing, but some of the outright fucking terror of being alive is gone.
I had to get 72 stitches Thanksgiving morning in 2006. I ran, bloody, from the police, drunk. I accidentally my nipple that night. Got locked in the mental hospital for 5 days.
I once flayed my arm open all the way to the bone. Had to get internal and external stitches. Shot heroin in the hospital even while under observation lel. They let me out that night.
That sounds peaceful anon, I'm glad it's winding down
I wish you luck on your journey <3
Dude I used to be a fat fuck
215lbs put myself on a diet and lost 80lbs in less than a year
They saiid nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, they lied. I also can't let myself go and get fat again because I'd be terribly ashamed
I had that mindset but then I gained like 30 lbs (especially being in the mental ward where for some reason they had really shitty unhealthy food)
I had to get new clothes and was always afraid of talking to people because I'm a fat fuck
>try to look at thinspo stuff
>barely helps when eating my worries away is so nice
I just like the feel of it and the blood. Im not addicted to it and i can stop without any problem, so im not sure why i do it still.
You answered your question in your post comrade
Me and my ex used to cut each other sometimes, it has sadly developed into a fetish but I'm able to suppress it
Then you're perfectly fine, don't beat yourself up so bad about it. We're going to die and be forgotten one day
I haven't cut in about 2 months.
I dunno I had a moment when I thought of the people I looked up to and thought of how they would be proud if I didn't hurt myself.
And I think it's important that I didn't focus on how people would be ashamed or scared if I did do it.
I focused on the positive aspect, and even though it was just a thought, I felt like I was being applauded for not going further downhill.
I hope you all, dealing with whatever you're dealing with, can do the same some time whatever way works for you.
I hope that you find your hope.
I burn myself, when at work at times, I use the razor on my leg.
To be honest I am ashamed when I do it, instead of dealing with my problems the "professional" way, I hurt myself. The worst part is the scars because it makes me realize how weak I am to other people, who can deal with there problems.
Im not the anon you were responding too, just putting that out there.
I just want to feel numb/not whoever I am so I abuse sleeping pills. Makes me feel weird and different and what not. When I actually do start cutting myself I don't really feel it/care much. I just want to bleed so I know I'm still a human.
Lol very true. I want to get drunk fairly often. Or high. Solely because I don't feel like myself. At parties etc I have to make sure to drink very little. It's basically the only time I'm actually happy. I like to think I have good impulse control because even selfharm I can resist for months at a time. Despite wanting to do it daily.
Also I'm feeling pretty good recently (I 'cut' 2 days ago though) and this thread is triggering me. I don't even restrict it to when I'm just sad anymore. Pic related my thigh.
was gonna cut tonight. talking with some friends on skype. not about anything really but talking always helps me cope