I don't even care about a girlfriend.
I just want a regular friend. But I'm too shy to make them.
I want to throw up and cry when I think about all the friendships I've missed out on because my of shyness.
I'm so emotionally unstable. I'm like a fucking woman. Everything makes me anxious and sad. I get overly excited and happy when good things happen and then I get obsessive.
You can practice with me. Currently my only two friends are on the other side of the screen, one from these kind of threads, and we talk almost every day
I like listening to robot problems, because It's something I can relate to on this alien and hostile world, and I help someone in the process. Post skype, steam, telegram, whatever you have, or tell me to post mine if you prefer
>tfw too awkward to even talk to people from r9k
Not even begging for friends, just the thought of adding someone makes me kind of anxious. The few times someone has added me it always ends up with 2 mins of small talk and then me going silent because I'm not sure how to respond (I always feel guilty about this because the other person might think I'm ignoring them on purpose)
A while ago I realized that I never actually made friends. All the people I know in HS was because some guy wanted to increase his social roster, and then they introduced me to whomever they knew. I never had the ability to form legitimate friendships, I never will, no one wants to hang out with me, wants to form close binds with me, I wouldn't
I've tried making a tulpa but it's so hard.
From what i've read, it's just imagining what you want your tulpa to be and what they would look like, that's it.
I've been rereading my notes i've took on this stuff for couple weeks now and it's still not working.
Are tulpas just a meme? I had hope.
>recently start uni
>join a lot of socities to keep me quite busy in the week
>very anxious when around people
>push through and consistently attend, manage to talk to people
>don't think I'm letting anxiety show
>still no friends atm
if it weren't for the amount of things keeping me busy I imagine I'd be quite sad
At this point, any social interaction is more than welcome, and like I said if I help you vent out, even better but I dont know what you people use
They arent, it's just some people cant or are not willing to accept it can be done, and endure the long process
find a fellow robot who you add with the exact understanding you wrote there. use a throwaway account so you can always bail completely if you get too stressed.
it worked for me to become slightly comfortable using skype
ask them questions
spill your heart anonymously
I find these new activities quite enjoyable which is a plus ( I wouldn't continue if I didn't like them ) I seek to do more aswell like scuba diving classes etc.
The only thing that dampens my mood is the zero social life