What is your most painful moment?

>>25756138
mother was going to kill herself, took gun out of her hand

Listening to hiphop

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The moment never ended.

was going to kill myself in front of my son, he took the gun from my hand

tie between my brother dying and my last gf dying.

my dads wife was going to kill herself, my stepbro took the gun from her hand

>2012 family vacation in Tahoe
>by myself on the beach because jetskis make me motion sick
>qt Stacy reading near me, I decide to strike up a conversation because fuck it I'm leaving in a few days
>remember reading girls like confidence, I'll be upbeat and cheery
>"hi I'm anon, what are you reading?"
>holocaust survivor novel
>"oh have you read the sunflower? It's a great holocaust book!"
>great
>holocaust
>book

I haven't killed myself yet senpai

was going to kill myself in front of my dog, he took the gun from my leg

Owner's mom was gonna kill myself but then my owner took the gun from her hand. After that I licked my own ass and took a nap.

>>25756262
What did she say afterwards?

was going to kill myself in front of my cat, he shot the gun out of my hand with a jet of pee

>>25756138
My mother's death, more specifically the day of her funeral
Early in the morning I went to the chapel of rest and seeing her there just made it all seem real
It's weird, seeing her waving goodbye at the train station and the next time a week later her eyes closed in a coffin
I knew she was depressed, but fuck I wish she had just got help or something
Seeing here there was the worst moment of my life, I was terrified
That was really the last day of my childhood when I think about it

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A couple years ago my daughter died. She was 5 and I was sitting by her bed holding her hand she just slipped away and that was it.

was going to kill myself in front of my gun, he took the gun from my hand

>>25756218
dang that sucks bro
but also
>girlfriend
GET OUT

>>25756212
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>>25756337
why are you doing this desu

>>25756262
>the sunflower is a great holocaust book
It was though... Very controversial
I recently read it in my theology class and it was interesting to read the commentary by famous figures, philosophers, and theologians

>>25756360
everyone is here for different reasons, just because i chose to try make something of my life, doesnt mean im better than anyone else here.

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>>25756212>>25756184
Kek, be serious pal

was going to wank myself in front of my dad, he took it into his hand

My dad died right in front of my eyes from a drug overdose. It'll be a year on the 31st.

>>25756383
I was gonna ask why but I assumed it was a meme like fingerboxes and didn't wanna get called out for being here for less than a year

I died in front of my son from a drug overdose. Almost a year I think but I really dont even give a fuck

Failed suicide attempt at about 10 was probably one of the worst

>>25756519
I tried to hang myself at age 11. I pussied out when I put the rope on my neck and cried for like 2 hours. I haven't told anyone until now, ~13 years later. I'm glad I didn't.

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>>25756492
oh shit hey peepap how's it goin kickin it with ol' J.C. jesus christ

>>25756138

getting stabbed by an abbo

pretty cool though because now I'm allowed to be racist

>>25756191
>hey guys, I can make fun of a music genre! Aren't I funny?

>>25756573
Why'd you try to do it anon?

>>25756597
>abbo

not a word you stupid faggot

>>25756577
Fukkin tight my man. Tons of bitches up here, shits cash. Dont tell your mother tho. Ey stick out for a lil longer, you're gonna make it champ.


See you in a lil bit

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For me it was when she left me, because she just abandoned me.

16 years old, father came home and took out his anger over his part time job on me. I was already dealing with shit with my mom, and stressed/depressed over my struggling grades. morbidly obese, no friends, homeschooled, never left the house. I hated everyone and everything except my dog. I contemplated killing myself that day.

glad I didnt

Getting all 4 of my wisdom teeth out at once

>>25756630

Aboriginal brah, like a dumber and skinnier nigger.

>>25756678
You're a fuckin liar, peepap! You went STRAIGHT to hell and we all know it. Mom's fuckin some nigger that likes to take my mountain dew and doritos and he beats me sometimes. YOU'RE THE REAL NIGGER THOUGH, DAD! (but furreal tho get that demon girl butthole lg lifes good)

Stabbed in the forehead by the corner of a coffee table when I was three.

>>25756209
>waah I embarassed myself my life is over :((
You're like a teenage girl. You don't know the meaning of pain, kid.

>>25756621
Well, right now I know it was because of BPD. The reasoning I had for justifying killing myself THEN was that my family had put a lot of pressure on me to succeed in school, and while I was being ostracized by the rest of the kids there, i had absolutely no friends and I was lagging behind all the other faggots when it came to puberty (this continued through high school). I didn't know I had BPD as a kid, i only came to figure that out about a year ago, and the only reason I believe I have it now is because it accurately describes the symptoms I've experienced for much of my life (e.g, fear of abandonment even when it's not real, inability to form stable relationships, etc.,). So it's a self-diagnosis. I've neglected to get a professional one because I'm afraid of what my parents would think of me if they found out I had BPD. My family would've fucking put me in a mental home if they knew i'd tried to kill myself then, and I'm sure they still would now. But I really want some kind of help because I'm so fucking lonely.

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Getting off by sticking a haircomb in my ass.

>>25756754
abo is the word, do you see to Bs in aboriginal?

dumb cunt

>>25756839
should probably clarify that I mean borderline personality disorder and not bipolar personality disorder

>>25756785
>not the anon you responded to

I've been beaten, abused, all of my friends have presumably died/confirmed died/forgotten about me and moved on with life, I've tried to off myself 4 times and I like to consider myself at least partially well off

this other kid's a fucking normie faggot

>>25756383
its a meme you dipshit

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when my one of my friends looked through my chrome history while I was past out drunk. He then showed all my other friends who were there drinking.

There was so much embarassing shit
>browsing here
>looking at traps
>the extend of my e stalking of one of my friends gf
>posting on wizchan
>looking at questionably homo shit

>>25756262
not sure why you'd be worried about the jewish defense force in tahoe m8

>>25756895
>I've tried to off myself 4 times

Can someone please explain this? How in the fuck can you fail to commit suicide 4 times? It should take one fucking try. Everyone who says they've tried to off themselves are all fucking pansies that havent actually tried. Taking 10 advil isnt a suicide attempt you dumbfucks

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>>25756870
>to Bs

Pot calling the kettle black.

>>25756961
if they do that to you then they aren't your friends you dumb faggot. Ditch those niggers for people that respect your privacy.

>>25756138
When I woke up and saw my dear dog dead, he was recuperating from an illness. A little part of my died with him, God rests his Soul.

Whatever one gets me to the next one.

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Well this actually happend...

Honestly, Helen Keller is more self aware than this guy.

>>25757114
good thing he killed it. Dont want any retard genes from his family growing up and infecting the rest of the population.

>>25756300
She didn't say anything, there was the longest moment of soul crushing silence while I realized my spaghett was on the sand

>>25757000
abo is the word

>aboriginal
>abboriginal

see how stupid you look?

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>12 years old
>when Animal Planet was good
>Steve Irwin was my hero
>wanted to be just like him
>he was like a super hero to me

>mom just found out that my dad was cheating
>she showed up at my school and checked me out early
>she was really upset
>we drove 6 hours to my grandma's house
>stayed there a few weeks
>grandma didn't have cable
>i was just left alone to be upset my parents splitting up
>one night mom is reading the paper
>"hey anon, the crocodile hunter is dead"
>i'm crushed

That night I realized that everything is shit and never looked back.

>>25756969
Hanging with an improperly tied noose is an attempt

>>25757364
>cant tie a noose right after 4 attempts

Are you fucking stupid?

when penis spiders

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>>25757277

Dubs of truth, senpai.

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My beta years of middle school.
>Kid named Terrance used to fuck with me in front of the cute girls
>Just stood there like a bitch and let him
Terrance was like 6 feet tall in 6th and 7th grade, guy would have almost definitely kicked my ass in a fight but I still to this day regret not standing up to him.

I am definitely a lot better about shit like this now. I think people can sense when you're a beta and they feed off of it, ever since I stopped taking shit from people it has all stopped. In high school I wasn't fucked with at all, if there are any under age b&s lurking here take my advice: Stand up for yourself, it might mean you'll get an ass kicking but trust me, an ass kicking is a lot better than taking years of shit in front of everyone and being made out to be a bitch.

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>>25756138
When my best friend and feels bro became a normie... He actually kept it from me until I found out.

Just around one year ago I took all of my medication and hid in a storm drain in a field where I passed out listening to Learning to Fly by Pink Floyd. So I have this borderline NDE trip while I'm out and I come to in the hospital. Death, from what I experienced was comfortable and inviting, but the scariest part was waking up into a world where my mom had taken pictures of the paramedics dragging my almost lifeless body out of the storm drain while she stood by with my 4 year old sister who was brought outside to see. Later she uploaded the pictures to MY facebook account and in one fell swoop, my friends, the last piece of humanity I had, was gone. I haven't left myself in the past couple months outside of getting the mail. I think the most painful part of all of it is knowing that my four year old sister saw. I moved out and don't want my narcissistic mom to talk to me anymore so I stay away at the expense of potentially losing my sister to mental illness.

>>25756209
ho lee fuck. how can one man transcend autism

>>25757000
>>25757263
>crow calls the raven black

I'm not even an aussie, but it actually is abbo when it comes to desert natives. The ones in canada are the ones with a single b

>try to bleed myself out in the tub at 3AM
>fail because mother wakes up to pee around 3:15

rofl kek lmao

Finding out my grandpa died in the baggage claim area of the John Wayne Airport when we had just landed and we were on the way to see them. We still fly through that airport a lot and I always feel feels. He was my only grandparent I got to know since my other grand parents died before I was like 9.

>>25759403
This gave me some sad feels

>>25759194
Woah, that's pretty awkwatrd, vro

>>25756138
I shot a Palestinian kid who came at me with a knife. I laughed so hard that I pulled a muscle in my chest and I stopped breathing.

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>>25759674

Is this real, bruv?

>>25759764
I lied. It wasn't really the most painful moment of my life.

>>25756138
>In gifted program
>Severely piss of programs head counselor
>Offered to transfer to "New Dawn" a program giving college credit to high schoolers
>Why wouldn't we take this
>Brand new program just starting, try to find info but only have what they tell us in the office/meetings
>Transfer to it
>Its a fenced off area at a college campus where they bus-in students from juvenile hall
>There are some outsiders in the program like me, most of them were sent there after becoming violent in special ed. classes.
>The betrayel is insanely palpable, THIS CANT BE THE REAL LIFE
>THIS CANT BE ALLOWED TO HAPPEN
>Once you're in the program you cant get out
>Father has no grounds to sue the school
>All the juvi's realise I have access to the outside
>Get pushed to be a drug mule every single day
>Have to show up or its breaking the law
>We're researching how to get me out how to fight the school system entire time
>Even the teachers of the program are trying to get me out
>They sometimes let the juves out of the fenced area during lunches
>I get yanked into the handball courts and shanked
>I just hold the knife inside me at his hand so he can't keep pulling it out and stabbing it back in
>Get the living shit punched out of my eyes, face, lose a tooth
>College security stops it
>They finally transfer me out to a normal high school but I have to be in special ed because you can't just transition from "New Dawn" to unmonitered high school life

If I still lived in America, I'd be just waiting for the day I was forgotten about and could hunt the bitch down. God bless those teachers trying to get me out of there. In fact, one of the teachers there had pissed someone else off and the same trick was done to her. She thought she was going to be teaching gifted students. The school district was using the new program as a sort of dumping ground for people they wanted to fuck over. OP's pic was me by the time I left.

>>25756138
a lot of moment that is equally painful. I am undecided.

Got kicked out of a dorm for something I did when I was drunk the night before. By far the worst day of my life. Also the point where everything went to shit.

>>25756319
>>25756326
Sorry to hear that desu. I hope you two are doing okay now.

Sitting outside the bedroom and crying while my mom fucked my bf.

>senior year of high school
>obsessed with hot cheerleader
>we were good friends to the point where we'd hang out 1 on 1 in her room
>she'd let me give her back rubs and lay in my lap
>I was pretty much her asexual slave boy
>Yet somehow I mistook this as love and would spend 24/7 thinking about her
>eventually she got tired of me and started treating me like shit
>acted like faggot and told her about my feelings for her
>she shut me down hard and told everyone at school how pathetic I was
>was so embarrassed by everyone knowing that I stayed home from school "sick" for 2 days
>that weekend there was a party at a mutual friend's house
>didn't want to go because she'd be there but my friends convinced me and I didn't want to be left out
>she was there and of course ignored me so I just stayed on the other side of the room
>after we all got drunk I went for a walk with my friends before coming back to the party
>she was fucking the guy who threw the party on the couch while everyone was in the other room laughing about it
>they all got silent when I came in while trying to keep the secret
>of course it only took me a few minutes to hear her screaming and figure it out
>had a panic attack and left walking miles home
>for the entire next month I barely talked to anyone in class and could feel people talking about what happened and how much of a pathetic cuckold I was
>luckily this was april so I graduated in may


I cut all contact with my highschool social group and never talked to them again because I was so embarrassed and spent most of college playing wow and dota in my room. Probably should've handled it better and I now realize it wasn't worth getting that worked up about, but damn as a dumb 17 year old virgin it destroyed me. I still get chills thinking about it.

>>25756138
rheumatoid arthritis

it is basically your own immune system eats your joint from inside out

very painful, couldn't sit, walk, lay down without feeling like mangled in a car accident, feeling feverish all time, can't think straight, because the whole system is under major inflammation effect

but on meds now, don't know how long it will be effective, all is better

>>25760323
Never trust women with your feelings, especially high schoolers. I was in that same situation-the only difference is that I didn't tell her my feelings, and nobody laughed at me.

>>25760377
nah I'm not going to blame women for what she did. She was a giant cunt and I knew it all along but let my heart/dick get in the way. She bullied kids her entire life and got everything she wanted because she was hot. I saw her backstab other girls and treat them like shit but I always rationalized it. She reaping what she sowed now. She went to cheerlead at some big state school only to get kicked off the team and out of her sorority because everyone fucking hated her for being a bipolar bitch.

>>25760579
She snitched, so she's responsible. However, since you knew she was a cunt already, part of the blame belongs to you. It sucks that it happened to you, but it's like walking with tigers while meat's strapped across your back.


You can redeem yourself if don't let it happen again.

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>>25756138
>11-12
>wake up one morning
>right testicle is the size of an egg
>can barely walk
>have to go to the hospital
>the doctors ultrasound my testicle to look for parasites
>it was a male doctor doing it with a female nurse (and my fucking mother) watching

the most painful part of this is the amount I cringe at it

Seeing my dad on life support for the first time. I walked in to the room and he moved his eyes to the corner to see me. Whatever the fuck he was connected to was breathing for him.

I just could not handle it.

>>25756138
I was passing a kidney stone the Emergency room writhing in pain, and waited there for 45 minute before anyone came and helped me.

>>25756326
Sorry for your loss. What did she die of?