Why do I go through periods of sadness for a month and can't think of anything else but killing myself and then after that month or time period over I feel ok again then the shit comes back full force and im close to suicide again. Anyone else know this feel.
I know that feel bro, does anything
For me it just happens outta nowhere like you described.
You could be Bipolar II. I have episodes like yours, they just come and go. I would try logging your mood each day. If you see a pattern, you could likely have the illness. It wouldn't hurt to visit a psychiatrist.
Yeah. Roughly every 2 years since I was 14 I go through period where I get bad anxiety and depression and lose a bunch of weight and distance myself from all the friends I've made. Idk lol
being a cyborg is the worst
>born too robot to be a success
>born too normie to fit in online
>born just right to feel sad and have friends that dont understand sad
>It wouldn't hurt to visit a psychiatrist
I don't believe this advice. I'd like to think there was an objective criteria for finding these things out and effective treatment measures. But it seems like diagnoses is based on the doctors opinion based on biased anecdotal evidence from the patient, and then you just get given random drugs with terrible side effects until they find the one that fucks you the least, assuming the disease you have is even real.
>Cant fit in with chad
>Cant fit in with robros
Why even live.
Anyone know what it is called? I'm fine, albeit a generally miserable person, most of the time. Then I have these episodes where I'm incapacitated and can't eat or sleep or even get up to turn the tv on.
So much this, that's exactly what I've been through. I'm coping with my depression alone now. That's not the best idea, but it's not the worst either. Those side effects I got from Effexor ...
>tfw false hope is my only source of happiness
>tfw it doesnt even last that long
Mania in terms of what? I thought mania is something to do with being really excited, not being able to sleep, tons of energy, lots of creative ideas, etc. like the up period of bipolar.
Just every few years, I have these periods where I get REAALLLY depressed and anxious about my life to the point where I think I'm dying. It last a while and then goes away after about a month. After several months I feel like I can't remember why it happened and don't think it will happen again. The annoying thing is I'm pretty chaddy in terms of looks, have a gf, and a few friends, so no one understands why I feel this way. I had a pretty rough upbringing which I think has something to do with it.
The other problem is that I don't want to find a solution. It may seem weird at first, but think about it : did you try everything you could to make your life better ? I know I didn't, so I can't say I really want a change.
I've tried exercising and socializing more. I usually just rebound harder as a result. If I try and be more social, I'll shut myself away from the few friends I have for a while after. If I try and exercise more, I'll just stop getting out of bed. Honestly, I think I hate life as one hates an enemy. I don't want to enjoy it.
>I usually just rebound harder as a resul
"Improving" myself always backfires. I really try though, it just won't get better.
If you are unhappy and you continuously force yourself to do things you don't want, you will eventually kill yourself, not magically get better. Discipline is a meme.
Yeah I know that feel. But for me it doesn't happen in months. It happens throughout the day.
Like yesterday, I thought about killing myself and was crying in the bathroom for hours, but today I realized how stupid I was being and don't feel to bad. But I know that feel of negativity will come back. It's like flipping a switch on and off.