I'm turning 23 in a few months, and the loneliness finaly hit me. Lately, more than ever, I've been getting angry when I see happy couples walking around, and I had a miserable new year's.
I just feel alone as all fuck right now. I feel the bitterness growing each day, and I sincerely don't want to be one of those guys that ends up hating all women, but the last time I tried to go out to a bar and hit on one, she laughed in my face.
I don't know what to do right now. Usually these bouts of loneliness come and go quickly, but this one is staying.
I'm sacred as shit because I'm turning 23 this year, and I have no ideia what I'd do if a woman showed interest in my. I'm far past the age where being a KV is "cute" for a guy.
I don't even know what the point of this thread is. I'm just venting a little. It's crazy how I lived kind of on auto-pilot. Studying like crazy, getting a few shitty jobs here and there to support myself, and always thinking "Oh, I'll find someone. It's a natural part of life". But now I'm nearly halfway through my 20's and I'm getting scared.
I guess watching and playing all these movies, cartoon and videogames growing up kind of gave me weird expectations. I feel like I'm not the main character of my own life, and that I won't "get a girl" at the end.
>>25728934
>I feel like I'm not the main character of my own life, and that I won't "get a girl" at the end.
The realization of your own mediocrity is the most depressing feel ever. Makes you understand why people go postal; If you can't be the hero, why not be the villain?
>>25728934
>going to bars to get a gf
no how it works bro. That's how you get laid
gfs come from people you talk to regularly
>>25729130
>If you can't be the hero, why not be the villain?
real wisdom right there anon
>>25729211
I used to regurlarly talk to a girl. Perhaps the only one I ever got close to in my life.
One time I tried to to ask her out and she said she felt ashamed being seen in public with me because I was too ugly for her.
That's the reason she always came to my house to hang out. Because she was afraid people would see us together and mock her for being with an ugly guy.
I haven't gotten close to a woman since.
>>25728934
Save up some money for an escort. It'll help.
>>25729651
I've been thinking about it. At last for a while.But I don't want to become too dependant on it.
>>25729793
>too dependant on it.
I figurel the alternative is to go insane waiting for something that only exists in movies.
>>25729130
What does the end even mean? What is it to be "the villain"? Please explain, I am genuinely curios to what you meant.
>>25728934
> the last time I tried to go out to a bar and hit on one, she laughed in my face
that's what you get for trying you shitty failed normie
>>25728934
>I feel like I'm not the main character of my own life, and that I won't "get a girl" at the end.
That's known as a narrative trap.
There is no story anon and you are not a character.
Just accept that you will always be alone. Otherwise the desperation will seep out of your pores when you are out and about.
>>25729964
That's actually a good point, anon.
I just gave up.
I feel so much better. When you actually try, you've got the pressure of taking action, what do they think of you, what did you do wrong, etc. And for what? So you can touch some whore's filthy gash?
It's so much easier to just not give a fuck about getting laid, and jack off when you get lonely. They exist only to cause you to suffering.
"Do what you love and everything else will fall into place"
Thanks dad. Hope it starts soon.
>>25728934
> I'm turning 23 in a few months, and the loneliness finaly hit me.
That's the same age I was when it started hitting me hard.
> I feel the bitterness growing each day, and I sincerely don't want to be one of those guys that ends up hating all women,
There's no need to hate. You've just been looking in the wrong places, and meeting the wrong girls.
> I'm sacred as shit
Yup, being alone at that age was the most scared I've ever been. Nothing will be any scarier than what you're going through right now.
> I feel like I'm not the main character of my own life, and that I won't "get a girl" at the end.
What I did was to start being totally honest. I said: "I am single and I hate it. My goal is to get married sooner rather than later. It's the most important thing I will ever do, and I'm serious about it." There is a small percentage of girls who will really like hearing that message.