>days go by within minutes
>can make myself hear/see anything I want to
What is wrong with me?
welp, you reached the tulpa level of autism.
kinda wish I could do that.
saddly the time distortion happens to me too... but its kinda obvious if you sleep all day and stay in front of the computer at night.
Anything is possible but as humans we were born programming to believe that magic isn't real and that everything has to obey the law of physics. Op must have been born with this belief system subdued. Look up the law of attraction, synchronicity and quantum mechanics.
You got to mention more then that, like books to read or something. It's not like you can get this suff from /x/ or something when they're too busy roleplaying and having the trillionth tarrot thread.
David wilcock- The source field.
Dr.Wayne dryer - The power of intention
Michael Newton- Life between lifes
That should get you started. You will learn alot from those and should be able to use the info you learned to further your research.
If you've ever had a lucid dream, it's kind of like that. Not quite as good or real feeling. But I can do it while I'm awake and whenever I want.
But never allow your OCD to over power you. Before you know it, you'll be doing things 50+ times but only in threes
My psyche is so far removed from normality that I am surprised I made it 23 years on this earth.
My mom has cried because she realizes that I will never produce grandchildren for her. It makes me a feel bad ofc, but theres nothing i can do about it.
I am just too abnormal.