You're all young. None of you understand what death is.
And don't post in this thread about how so-and-so in your family or social circle died. I don't want to hear about it. You know nothing about death until you think that you're going to die. You know nothing about anxiety until then either. All the emotions you've experienced; happiness, stress, depression, are just pale shadows of what those words really mean.
>had several near-death experiences
Wasn't that frightened several of those times
>actually felt relief
You're just mad because you're an old poop and nobody cares about the grizzly words you wheeze out of your shriveled mouth.
Why even make this? I'm old too by 4chan standards. I've seen shit. It hurts. And you can't change what happened or what will. I get that.
But right now you sound like a teenager who just bought their first black lipstick from hot topic. Why?
I once woke up in the middle of the night feeling my heart being pulled out of my chest. I couldn't breathe or think as it happened. At the time, I was depressed, and it soon ended, so all I could think was "Wow, if that happens again, I'm going to get to die easily without any pain" and felt at peace.
>assuming that being young means you haven't been in a situation where you might die
I bet you grew up in the suburbs and ate dinner ever night you fucking faggot.
I did. And those are the people I'm talking to. So why do you feel targeted? You know you're not who I mean. Unless you also lived in the suburbs and ate dinner every night and feel the need to defend your ego through lying.
I've often fantasized of getting cancer or any terminal disease. One time I had some persistent stomach pains and a part of me hoped it was something serious. My thought was I'd die and it wouldn't be as traumatic to people as it would have been if I killed myself.