>tfw not smart enough for stem degree
>tfw still interested in science
>tfw doomed to consume pop science because its all I will ever understand
should I just kill myself now?
>it takes me much longer than most people to understand most material
>I can get it, it just takes me awhile
>will fail horribly when I go to college
>going to push myself and try to succeed regardless
Become a lab tech OP.
All you do is repeat the same series of tasks over and over, and you don't even have to process data, just pass it on to the researchers who will do it themselves.
Get a degree in biology, which is almost entirely memorization-based, and then do it to it.
>not smart enough
There are some real retards in my EE classes senpai. Literally half the kids are normalfags. I'm at a supposedly good university for Engineering too.
>40% of the grades in classes are homework and labs that kids just copy from each other
>nobody is making new friends because they're all just running with their crew from high school
It's incredibly disgusting when rich cunts just get to breeze through life because of how retarded this system is.
>small classes, teacher knew your name if you asked for help, relevant homework that was your responsibility, not graded
>150 students in one of my lectures, you can't even get help from the teacher because back-to-back classes and teacher's office is 10m across campus, TAs are available like 2 hours a week
>homework is 5-10 hours a week for each class, graded at like 2% of your grade per assignment
>Applied Electromagnetics taught by a Russian
>book written by him, incredibly poorly organized with few examples
>tells me to fuck off when I ask if he can do anything else in lecture than read his book
>Physics majors get two semesters for the exact same material
You cant love what you dont understand
Anyway, youll see the true beauty of sience, when you habe understood it. Only then you can talk about loving it. Also its not hard the thing keeping you faggots from doing so is the maths, i guess.. Mathematical understanding and thinking will lead you to science and everyone can master math, some just need more time but thats okay. People being not good at math because they "cant" do it is just a meme to allow stupid faggots not to care about it