Guys, romance is not a cure for depression. It's nothing more than a form than escapism which is more addictive than any drug. When she leaves you every piece of progress you've made will be gone and you will be left in a worse state than she found you in.
I wish I hadn't found this out the hard way.
Regardless of how stable a romantic relationship you can orchestrate (or fall into), it is wiser to become psychologically metastable and independent of fickle circumstances for contentment. Every human is born addicted to pleasurable external stimuli outside of their control. The only way to break that addiction is to take control of your emotional state internally. That is why most people are slaves to their surroundings. Nobody can self-actualize while they still pursue extrinsic rewards as their primary ends.
>It's nothing more than a form than escapism
Same with masturbating.
Masturbating has become a form of escapism for me. It's 50% horniness, 50% wanting to escape into another world.
I feel that OP. I made it to 35 with near wizard status, then fell in love. I had no chance to avoid it, didn't seek it out, it just sort of happened. Now I'm emotionally exposed to someone who doesn't give two shits about how I feel. I was very happy with wizardry, now that I've felt an intimate connection with another person, I don't know if I can go back to the way I was. I am scared to trust another human with my heart. And I'm scared to be alone. I was just fine before. Why did this have to happen? All you tfw no gf mofo's dodged the bullet.
This happened to me, and it's true. I couldn't leave my house for a month and i'm still hurt. But well, i'm 25, it had to happen sometime. Now I know that it's useless to put your whole life around another person, lesson learned. But it was so good while it lasted, I don't regret anything.