>want to kill myself
>can't find a way to kill myself without too much pain
one of the worst feels
One time I was recommended coffee and something in like bugkill works, might want a more accurate confirmation though.
that sounds easy
bumping for a confirmation as well
>You actually want to die.
>Can't do it, muh pain.
Shitloads of benzoites + opiates + alcohol + whatever else you can ingest.
Repeat until dead. You won't even know it when you go you'll just be dead.
Exit bag is physically euphoric but sortof mentally scary because you know you're killing yourself and it takes some time and your mind doesn't like that.
I'm in the same situation. I need to die but guns are illegal where I leave. This leaves me with hanging, jumping off a building, jumping in front a train, helium and poison. All of these are incredibly painful, except maybe for helium, which is very easy to mess up (and it becomes painful when you do)
there is nembutal, but you can only buy it on the darknet, most vendors are scammers, and it's unlikely your package will make it past customs undetected. it's not like you can just keep trying until you get lucky because it's really expensive. even the "legit" vendors mix the drug with other powders and chemicals to get more money out of you. It's depressing
right now I'm looking into other methods I can use to poison myself.
after doing all this research I can finally understand why there are so many unhappy people. people who abuse drugs, alcohol, fast food, etc to escape from the pain. I am almost sure that a high % of the population is suicidal (at least 1 out of 5 people) but can't act on it because the guvmint made all the easy methods illegal and expensive.