Guys, I don't know what's wrong with me
>be me laying in bed
>look for music to listen to
>put on "Sleep All Summer" by The National & St. Vincent because I like both artists
>halfway through the song
>think about ex girlfriend from years ago
>burst into tears the rest of the song
It's been a couple of weeks I suppose. Yeah and honestly I've just been a little sad lately, but I've been telling myself that I'm being dumb and that it's probably nothing. Then I put on a super sweet but sad song and I just fucking start crying. Sigh*
I guess the line at the end that Matt and Annie sing together? The "why won't you fall back in love with me?" I'm guess that ate at my subconscious that I secretly wish we were back together...
Thanks man. I just had to get this off my chest, I literally no other place to go but here concerning this.
And I guess I'm still not in a way. I've fought so hard to just completely forget about her, but I all have is nothing but good memories. It's hard to forget about such a nice part of your life.
Tough, I am in the same boat, actually, but probably more because I never stopped thinking about him or loving him. I dunno if he even ever thinks about me but I think about him, all the time, things I think he'd like that I can't show him because he doesn't care about me anymore or read my messages. I know I'm just an idiot living in the past but he was literally perfect, I am starting to feel that if I can't be with him I should just kill myself and suicide only ever gets more tempting. Wanna do a suicide pact with me, OP?
I know that feel too well. Although she did say like a year ago or so that "I worry about you sometimes you know" and that literally made my day. But for the most part the ONLY time we talk is just to say happy birthday to each other over fucking FB message and some bs small talk that doesn't mean anything.
I'm sorry anon, I'm still have some hope for the future. Offing myself is 2spooky4me
Go fucking kill yourself normabitch
Dude why can't you just be my ex, then we could both be secretly wanting to talk to each other but too hesitant to make the first move. Instead we're both just getting cucked by our dream lovers and sitting around waiting for them to see the daylight, which they never will because they've moved on. The only reason I'm suicidal is because my brain tells me to be, otherwise I would have done it by now because I'm such a pussy and always back down anyway. One day I'll go through with it.
sorry I might be projecting, Idk if she's your dream lover, you sound less obsessive than I do but at this point I don't even care how pathetic and desperate I come across, my love just gets more intense and painful and I just want to rip my heart out and die and stop feeling anything. How can he know how this feels?
Thanks man. I really like their stuff, which was why I was surprised to find this song that they covered with Annie.
Unfortunately /mu/ doesn't think so, the National gets no love there.
They really freaking do and I've been hanging out there the past two weeks. Another coicendence is that they also can't stand Annie now. Anytime you bring her up you just get bunch of "she's a talentless hack" "ugly" and what not. But apparently back in 2009 she was super well recieved because she still underground then.
Yeah I get that but do you know the specifics of why it wouldn't work? I am probably the same in why he dumped me because he also said "he didn't want to be in a relationship while he was off transitioning to a new step in his life" and the way I saw it was "I wanna go fuck bitches and not feel bad about it" goddamn
I mean her moving away to a far away college was apart of her over all "I'm trying to reinvent myself" sort of thing. Which included letting go of things that might hold her back. And also the awkwardness of being in college and still dating someone far away that's in highschool. But that's the more practical side.
On the emotional side, I'm not even entirely sure anymore. I think one of the things I remember her telling me was that she only ever felt the need to be in a relationship if that relationship actively brought about inspiration and motivation in her life, and apparently I just wasn't cutting it...