>17 years old
>likes various forms of art
>likes music but has no real knowledge
>not accepted into musicology preparatory year in College
>first real failure in life
>ends up majoring in English
>be me 18 years
>depression 2 months after the beginning of the year
>still want to do music
>goes back to college
>majors in English
>can't stand it
>takes too much drugs to focus
>drops out again
>still likes music
>tried to become a webdev and things like that
>doing nothing since september
>can't force myself into doing it, brain refuses to work
>music theory for dummies that I bought for college still unread
>still considers trying to work in something computer related since I have a High School degree in electronics
>be me 19 years old
>tfw picked guitar seriously a few days ago after seeing Miyavi playing in a video
>now refuses to try to shake music off my mind
>tfw no anxiety attack
>tfw food addiction that made me fat becomes weaker
>don't know yet what to do
>starts having hope in the future
What is it that you can't shake off your mind even after years ?
>mentally gifted, popular, good looking
Stopped reading right there.
I know it's pleb shit because literally everyone dies, but it seems like it's all I want to do
I wish I could "test it out" and then come back, that's what I really wanna do. Like in that move flatliners.
Nothing else is interesting except sometimes drugs
>You will never see normies like OP be mangled in a trash compactor
>He hot, popular, and smart
>Be a retarded faggot and try to go to school for music
>Get denied but instead of taking this as an omen and gift from god I act like a retarded faggot
>Take english but despite being """"gifted"""" I drop out
OP is massive faggot. Probably the biggest faggot on the board atm. Go stick your dick in a beehive and fuck off.
Something similar here op. I just want to become an artist but I'm starting to think it might not happen. My iron will is starting to disappear I don't know why. Drawing has become a chore and I only started when I was 21 or so and I don't draw so much anymore. It's something special left inside of me something SO important that for that reason I will never stop but I might never become great at it which would break my heart. I'll try though.
>Why did my parents not just let me go to artclasses when I was young..
Stopped reading there, negroe
>wasted it all by majoring in a meme field because "muh passion"
are you sure you're mentally gifted?
I find it funny how all these child geniuses or "mentally gifted" people never end up making any more money than people in their same line of work. If you were such a genius or mentally gifted, you would be rich, but that is never the case. I work as a webdev and one of my coworkers is a "certified genius" and he makes the same as I do. I'll be making a lot more than this so called genius soon, just had my first professional fight a few weeks ago and I am now 1-0 as a heavyweight in professional kickboxing and I have my next fight scheduled already. To think, if any of the girls I went to school/college with became my gf and stayed my gf, they would be set for life soon.
I feel like this doesn't all add up with your originalgreen text. Life seemed pretty good before you had your
What everyone is saying about you in this thread is true by the way.
Yes I'm sure about the gifted part, I'm not Einstein tier but I have a good brain. However I gotta say that I had no idea about how the world works and thought "I will figure it out in the end, as always". Thing is, this time I didn't.
Well, good luck with the kickboxing.
OP here, right before the green text was the only part of my life that actually went "fine". I think going back 2 years ago is long enough to add up to it.
And as sad as it makes me, they're totally right.
Say that to my face fucker not online and see what happens
There is an optional year during which you learn all the basic stuff. There is a limited amount of places, and my interview seems to have been shit. Other people already had experience and all, while I just was a dancer.
I could still have gone for the normal year, but I would have failed since it didn't start from the beginning.