>graduate highschool with no intention of furthering my education
>work backbreaking wagecuck job since then
>3 years of real life has changed my mind
How should I start prepping myself for academia? Any websites or books that you'd recommend to prep myself? granted I'm going the 2 year CC 2 year uni route, I haven't read or exercisedmy brain high school
fun fact: that meme about how it's not what you know its who you know is actually true. Higher education isn't actually about acquiring knowledge in most fields, it's about being a normie and meeting other normies who can say to someone in HR "Hey, about that open position, I know this guy Bob who'd be great for it..."
I found it distasteful and disgusting and didn't do it and now I have a four-year degree and no job. If you too just want to study hard, get good grades, learn things, and then get a job related to what you learned, I advise you do disabuse yourself of that illusion right now.
I've read that same advice a lot on this board. It must suck to have done all that work only to be denied because you didn't get lunch with some normiefags. Is there any way to make yourself marketable without developing fake connections?
Not really. You stand a chance if you go to a bunch of job fairs and do internships around sophomore year or so, but even then, a.) they're picky about who they take, even for an internship, and b.) you need to do the "networking" bullshit since many if not most jobs aren't even advertised, they just find someone someone knows, and those that are will call up your references and ask "so what kind of a guy is he?". if you can't make normies gush about what a great person you are, you'll have a hard uphill battle.
I'm kinda in the same position as you op, been working for 3.5 years part time, like 3-4 days a week and the rest I isolate myself in my room with zero motivation and I really want to go to uni but every time it comes up I get anxiety kicks in and I start thinking about how I will fuck up by being to retarded and fail every paper I have to do. And ofc the I-don't-know-what-to-study meme
Yep, this. People who find even just a few friends in school have wonders done to their lives overall, usually because they are great references for jobs. Also, the ones who suck up to instructors/professors usually get by easier too. It sucks, but being the smartest doesn't cut it by itself anymore.
Yeah I know, but I never manage to overcome my fear of failing, damn doorstep mile.. But what the hell, we live only once and we're not even guaranteed to grow old so what do we have to loose.
can also confirm.
Even as I work a wagecuck job myself, I see that jobs I apply for are often filled by the son, nephew, friend of a friend, or son of a friend of management. It's truly disgusting, and as an aspy introvert I simply don't have the skills to be a part of this. Maybe I'll have to try and start a business or something...
Bombed my first semester of cc and made me legitimately depressed for the first time since middle school. Pretty much failed every social interaction I had and started skipping classes due to anxiety. Should I even give it another semester? I really just want to work as a night shift guard or something while I develop my programming skills on the side.