I started geting depressed when school started and so now i have basically all f's. I've started becoming suicidal and more depressed i feel like im just going to end up homeless and die alone. i honestly might kill myself tonight or tomorrow
i fucked up college royally the first time. we're talking sub 1.0 GPA and everything. i went back to a different school a few years later and graduated with a 4.0.
don't kill yourself over bad grades man. your life is not over just because of one bad semester.
i was depressed and then the bad grades came... that made it so much worse, its just another thing to be added onto my shoulders that i have to feel and be reminded>>25530800
of every day
I've been there before, years ago.
My advice (assuming you have parents and a home that's not dangerous or otherwise toxic) drop everything and go home right now.
Just say "Fuck this" and walk away. It's not working out for you and you don't need a plan, you just need to be somewhere where existing feels comfortable.
I wish I did it earlier when I was in your place. I was stubborn and afraid of failing that I couldn't entertain the thought of not doing "my best"
But I spent years at home, only to decide to return to school and finish with a much more stable attitude.
That's tough op
Are you in the states?
Maybe you could convince some professors to possibly give you an incomplete grade
Maybe take a semester off and try to start on a better footing
>attention whoring on the internet
>doesn't expect to explain why he's truly pretending to be suicidal
so stick with the "oh well i can't remember anything in school XD" and you'll get all the attention you want. no fucking clue why you change your own subject and still keep it vague enough to look like a pussy.
>Hur Dur I don't know what depression is
Come back here once you've actually experienced having a loaded gun in you hands and it took more than a second thought to put it back down.
I hope you can make it through this op
Sorry for your loss
I know school can be really tough.
It was some very dark years where countless times I almost gave up
A break sounds good. We all need to not so hard on ourselves
>true depression is not shooting yourself with a loaded gun
I think I got the gist of it. You go to class and you just fuck around until you realize you aren't passing, and then you post on the internet that you want to be homeless.
you sound like the type that is lying to yourself about your life. Why would you be replying to a thread that is about suicide and depression if you yourself weren't going threw some shit. Stop lying to yourself.
Op I'm gonna be honest and give you my opinion I was in your shoes once but I realized that higher learning wasn't for me so I got a job working with a friend of mine at a meat factory lemme tell ya I couldn't be happier I was able to rise up the ladder I'm a supervisor making 28$ a hour tldr college isn't for everyone no need to end your life over it buddie
I'm not OP fag.
This too. School is not a big deal. Do it when you can, when you want to, when your ready, and at the level you want to.
Obviously everyone isn't fit for PHD programs like Doc McDick-in-ass here >>25531292 otherwise we would all just have paid attention in school
and become highly paid doctors, lawyers, or petrochemical engineers.
I found that it's not just school that bothered me, but the way that college became this all-consuming goal in life, constantly trying to test me, and break me
and find my limits, making me question my personal worth every day that didn't go well. Ad it did just that. I found my limit. It was painful and I didn't have the
support I wish I had, but I discovered a personal limit and I'm ok with that now.
Also this. I got through my second half of sophomore year on copied homework and group help because I tried to complete a major, aeronautical engineering,
that was too theoretical and mathematical for me to compete effectively. I eventually changed to mechanical engineering and did much better because the practical
nature suited my way of thinking better.
>loved by parents
>set up to get depressed over some bad grades
don't really know where you pulled this from since if OP had loving parents, he wouldn't need a bunch of assholes on 4chan to tell him to suck it up.
It's way easier to talk to some assholes on 4chan than it is to family members, because assholes on 4chan don't matter.
Explaining your issues to people that are close to you but still don't understand you is a lot harder.
Even loving parents might not understand, just like people that have not had actual depression might not understand.