Can we just get a depression/feels thread?
How dogshit has your day been?
Have you been getting help/taking meds? Has it helped?
When/how do you think things might get better?
>didn't do anything during holidays
>usually enjoy doing nothing but now I just feel empty
>going back to work has been hell
>realize again that I'm too afraid to be myself because people around me have expectations of me and will mock me if I defy them
>keeping up shell of who I used to be until there is a way out of all of this
>no way out in sight
>not making progress in therapy for OCD either
Post feels anyway friend, not like you're taking anyone's spotlight.
>I don't care
Do you enjoy life though? Are you alive because you don't want to kill yourself or because you actually want to live?
Genuinely curious since I know most of my problems are in my head, I can't really imagine how it is without that fucked up perspective.
>be completely horrible at math and can't even understand most basic algebra/fractions
>every time I have to do large math problems I end up getting frustrated and give up feeling shitty about myself
>Do you enjoy life though?
its whatever. There are times when I hate it because of my problems but I get over it and do what I like.
going on the computer
>Are you alive because you don't want to kill
yourself or because you actually want to live?
If I had the choice to never been born then I would have said yes. But being this far in life I might as well live off my NEETbux, play vidya games, watch anime and get to my mid to late 30s or 40s and then reflect
my life was shit but whatever. I mostly see myself as a third person, watching other people live their lives and I seek some enjoyment out of that.