I think this is it, brobots. I think I'm losing my shit.
My paranoia is increasing with each and every passing day. My overall mental state seems to be deteriorating. Yesterday, I saw someone walking towards me in my peripheral vision. I checked to see who it was and nobody was there. In fact, there was nothing around that was even vaguely human-shaped nor moving.
Sometimes I hear songs like there's an old radio in my head playing very quietly. More often than that, I feel like nothing is real. I know that I'm still me, but the world seems off somehow. I've also noticed that my short-term memory and attention are almost completely shot. I have this fixation that I have some sort of brain eating disease; I even went and got an STD test to make sure my whore of an ex didn't give me fucking syphilis or some shit and everything came back negative.
I've got an aunt with schizophrenia and my mom's bipolar and has had psychotic episodes. Should I say fuck it and just off myself? I don't want to end up living the rest of my life institutionalized.
was talking over the phone with a psychiatrist today
they asked me questions about symptoms which are similar to yours (e.g feeling of beign followed etc)
Im going because of increased paranoia/anxiety about health and "OCD"(OCD about body getting better though)
See a psychiatrist as they are doctors who specialise in mental health and get prescribe you a pill which really tackles your condition
You can get a referral from your local GP/Doctor
You may wanna see one that isnt private as they cost a lot more
>I have this fixation that I have some sort of brain eating disease; I even went and got an STD test to make sure my whore of an ex didn't give me fucking syphilis or some shit and everything came back negative.
Holy fuck are you me. I just got an STD test recently despite not having had sex for over 3 years
Thats part of why I have to see a psychiatrist
so good to hear there is someone like me
Have you been really stressed recently? I spent the better part of last year thinking i was going schiz The fear actially manifested into thinking youre seeing and hearing shit, and then it becomes an endless cycle
Lookup depersonalisation disorder and speak to a psych. Most schizos dont know there is anything wrong, so more than likely its stress/anxiety