>Current album you are playing
>Current feel you are feeling
MBV - Loveless
Literally madly in love with my best friends slutty EX who keeps hitting on me but I dont wanna make this weird
Soundgarden - Superunknown
Kinda switching between sheer depression and complete happiness. I feel bipolar.
feeling pretty comfy cause i didnt do anything today but play vidya and im chillin with bae tomorrow really much better than ur confusing lame shoegaze life
>hes never listened to Loveless while being loveless on valentines day
Get good kid
i think i figured out the root of my anxiety but i dont know what to do. im out of cigarettes
you're wrong friendo
>I don't know, how you could not love me now
Weirdly happy. I haven't slept in 29 hours now and for some reason it's making me really really joyful. I think I'll keep going
There's nothing to do at home, I want to go back to university so I can chill with my friends
I'm feeling ready to take life by the horns but at the same time I have no fucking clue what I want to do, or rather nothing seems terribly interesting
Third girl in a row just went lesbain on me and cut things off, I'm depressed to begin with and still in love with my best friend from high school, who according to her friends also is only into girls now.
I'm so fucking sad and everything pisses me off excpet this album, though I've listened to it everyday for 2 weeks now.
fucked everything up with my ex, she's now dating a guy who used to be one of my best friends
best friend since 2nd grade cut off all ties with me today saying he was "sick of my shit attitude and tired of my disgusting lifestyle"
am currently feeling guilty over planning my suicide because I know my mom is going to lose it
sorry for the blog post
I got pissy at a cs:go match while playing with friends, one of them left and now I'm feeling awful
>drunk as shit off Stoli and NyQuil
>want to wank to some comfy mommy POV vids
>too drunk and cold
trying to plan on how to ask this qt out because she's not in any of my classes anymore and I rarely ever see her around campus
Dammit dude, come on. Fuck "making it weird", just go for it. Life's too short to waste time sitting around waiting for the perfect moment to do something, especially when the perfect moment won't fucking ever happen. I've missed a shit ton of opportunities doing what you're doing and I hate seeing people make the same mistake. Talk to your friend, if he's a good friend he'll understand. Just fucking do something, even if you fail spectacularly at least you can know you gave it your all.
i feel numb, somewhat looking forward to taking my ex out tomorrow night.. i told her i loved it and i don't mean it
Its not just my friends feelings senpai
Regardless of my emotions, logically I couldnt get with a girl that my autistic retarded friends ahve fucked
Id feel like a cuck
Its better if I just delude myself and admire her from afar
>Current album you are playing
>Current feel you are feeling
Happy, content. I'm enjoying a nice quiet winter night to myself.
I would consider asking her out anyway. Either she'll reject you which is what you expect or she might surprise you. In my experience it always feels better having asked and been let down than regret having never asked at all. Great album by the way.
What's got you down? Also, great album.
Which would be?
Wow, that's a bummer. That's a (great) album that's very cathartic when you're depressed and lost, but it's definitely one that lets you wallow. It would probably be good for you if you listened to something else after a while. Not something nauseatingly happy, but something that might help you not think about it as much for a while.
I was in a similar situation once. Good luck, man.
I've never even thought of her in a sexual way, or even in any way involving myself, I wouldnt try to woo her or anything
I would never talk normally, Im only thinking of it because I dont want her to be creeped out or have have negitive feelings.
Even though she is logically I know she is promiscuous, she appears to me like an angel she is too pure, happy, and good for me to stain with my presence and filthy negativity
I just want to watch her exist the same way you may enjoy a nice view, a field of flowers, or the sound of the ocean waves, I enjoy watching her mannerisms and smelling perfume her when she walks by
But I do not insert myself into her world, I keep myself separate, knowing I am inferior, and simply enjoy "watching love grow forever"
I hope she is happy and has a good life
>Cylob - Bounds Green
Really shitty but at least I don't have to work tomorrow
Want to get with qt3.14 from classroom, no idea how to. oh well
There's this girl who lives in my building (I think) who I want to ask out. I met her during Frosh Week and we got along well enough and she smiles sometimes when I walk past her so I think maybe there's a chance for something there. But I haven't had a chance to talk to her in about 4 months now so I don't know if she wants to be friends (because she would have said something, right?), or if I've been wasting my time on this crush which feels entirely too highschool for my taste. I don't have her phone number (because I never ask anyone for their number for some reason), but I have her on facebook. But she's never on facebook.
I don't understand human interaction in the 21st century.
Ah, that's how you're into her. Well man, I think you should probably just leave it as-is. You'd keep the good ties with your friend, and you could admire her from afar as you say. You could also be friends with her and whatnot and still admire her, unless you're really into her; in which case it's probably best to cut her off.
I can wallow to some quiet ambient but actual songs other than whats on TOTBL and Antics just irritate me. Gonna try to give it a break for a few days, but something about bank's minor voice crack at the end of Lief Erickson just lets me sleep at night.
>she's a person not some movie character
I like to pretend my life is a really shitty movie senpai
It helps me to find meaning in things
>not anylizing every event in your day as if it was in a movie and finding the meaning behind the symbolism
Is it really that wierd?
I think this is the standard emotion most "hopeless romantic" type guys who watch too many movies feel
Go watch Chungking Express and tell me you would rather watch and admire Faye from a far instead of going for her, do this with any film with a MPDG in it, you just say that stuff because you're a fucking coward
If you don't try to do anything you are disgusting
I used to do that a lot in high school, plan out perfect days where I'd get to know a cute girl and we'd eventually become close and fall in love, anxiety and acne killed all those dreams though.
My girlfriend has been in really bad moods lately, and hasn't been treating me too great. I love her, but she's not happy with me for whatever reason. I'm depressed but she isn't really helping out. Also she hasn't wanted to be physical with me at all for a while, like ever kissing or just having my arm around her in bed, she's just isolating herself.
At least I have a girlfriend, I guess
i know there are things i could do to make myself happier but a lot of my reasoning draws from general habits I see in every person I've been close to, including myself
sorta feel like humanity is just fundamentally shitty and life is unenjoyable
I don't want to come off as an asshole arguing with someone who's trying to offer him a bit of comfort though, thanks for the concern man
Sufjan Stevens - Illinoise
Pretty drunk, recently went through a bad breakup. This other girl im texting hasn't responded in three days. might be time to move on, but I don't want to. she's one of the only people that has made me feel anything like this in a while.
>Just enlisted as an Infantry man (11B) in the army
>gunna love hating every miserable second of it
It's weird when you phrase it like "a field of flowers, or the sound of the ocean waves." It sounds poetic when you say it to yourself, but to the object of your affection it usually just sounds bizarre and creepy. Women don't want men to treat them like fine art, they want to be treated like regular people.
I want to put her in a giant mason jar filled with saline solution and preserve her like a rose throughout the years, protecting her from the impurities of the world
>Kinoko Teikoku - Long Goodbye
>Depressed, trying to feel better
>Current album you are playing
The Velvet Underground - Loaded
>Current feel you are feeling
In need of a cigarette
Broke up with my gf of 2 years because I'm moving across the country.
Made out with my hs crush on new years', she doesn't want anything out of it tho. Starting to think it was out of pity.
Worst part is can't remember a lot of it :/
What does she want? If you don't know maybe it's worth trying to find out.
Hope you figure it out man, sounds tough. Best of luck.
Feel ya for sure. I usually just pick something and run with it and then have minor regrets later. The analysis paralysis is real tho.
One of my friends in hs killed herself and it was really tough. I used to tell myself that suicide was selfish and only assholes did it but she taught me that that's not how it actually works. I really hope you figure things out.
It's fine if you get pissy, just learn from the experience and try not to make it happen again
Do you know or anything about her or is she just hot? You might be better off moving on if it's just that she's hot/you're infatuated.
Lol I don't really have a response for this. Good luck I guess? Try not to be a huge dick to your ex
Practice makes perfect. The more time you spend thinking about it the worst it's going to get
I feel in the same boat. I'm moving on, but good luck to you whatever you choose.
dont kill yourself anon, use that guilt to convince yourself otherwise, thats how i got past those feelings in my life
there are people on this website that have never had the confidence to even look or want a girlfriend, your healthier then most of us so I think you can make things better. dont use suicide as a way to take control of your life just one last time when you feel its been our of your control for what seems like forever, i think your better then that, the fact that your posting here makes me feel like you want to be better then that
long story short I'm pretty content right now and I don't really have as much of a strong feeling to kill myself. did a bunch of job hunting today, and made a deal with my mother about moving back in with her (say what you want, the place I was living at a week ago allowed me very easy access to a gun and bullets)
I'm about to redose kratom and I found out today that my anti-psychotics were delivered to my old place, so I'm grabbing them tomorrow
things are moving upwards. slowly but surely. i just hope they keep moving up and i'm going to do everything in my power to push forward
You seem like a nice person.
>Made out with my hs crush on new years', she doesn't want anything out of it tho. Starting to think it was out of pity.
>Worst part is can't remember a lot of it :/
Was that before or after you broke up with your gf? Did you actually want something to come of it?
feeling pretty sad. my ex gf broke up with me before chistmas and I didnt recover yet. I still love her a lot and I hurts to hear her say that she dont love me anymore. people keep telling me everything is gonna be fine but everyday i get worse.
I dream about her every night.
Sorry for my poor english. Its not my native language.
bored and lonely, looking forward to winter break to end. my parents moved to san francisco from new jersey right before school started and i don't know anyone here. also it's hard to just make friends because i'm 19.
Im in physical pain, i got too drunk and ended up with a fucked up face, bruises all over, got picked up by cops when i ended up on the outskirts of town somehow
Lost my phone too baka
who else /reckless/ here
Missing my friends after having them bum and sleep over here for a few days.
I'm really feeling
>tfw no close friends
>tfw no gf
>tfw doing really good academically though
Rec me something that will destroy me emotionally, lads. Preferably something made from 2010+
Thanks. I really do try to be, for however much that's worth. It was after. I didn't expect anything but we were both drunk and she was a great kisser and the morning after all of these pent up high school feelings came rushing back. (She also said in the middle of making out that she would have dated me if I were taller. Suck that I remember that)
Your english is solid, don't worry about that. I don't want to parrot your friends, but I can promise at some point it will stop getting worse and start getting better. You just got to hold out. I find that finding a time consuming hobby - reading, listening to music, drawing, watching TV or playing video games - to distract yourself can help a lot.
Yeah it's tough being that young somewhere new. You can't exactly go to bars and meet people. But it sounds like you've got friends to see once you get back to school, all you got to do is wait it out
Before I Disappear
Great movie with a dank sound track
>tfw no qt to save you from yourself while dancing to the Cure coverbands
>Do you know or anything about her or is she just hot? You might be better off moving on if it's just that she's hot/you're infatuated.
i studied with her before finals but then we went on break an now i dont have any classes with her/barely see her
>Current album I am playing
letthecomputerdecide.bandcamp.com listening to my album to decide whether or not it sucks and how to improve it
>Current album I am feeling
Nicolas Jaar - Nymphs II, III & IV
No problem dude
I'm always down for talking to other people! no clear way to exchange contact info tho :/
It sounds like the window may have closed then? Maybe you should see if there are girls in your current classes/that you see a lot you might be into. I've absolutely done the exact opposite in your position though, so I can't really criticize. You could also always try just asking her out? haha I'm really not sure
>tfw i can never go back in time and ask her out
Just finished reading The Fountainhead, dealing with valuing my friends without sacrificing myself.
Don't dwell on it yo. That's what'll kill you, whats done is done and you can still move on to new and better things. There's a whole world out there that's open to you, don't waste your life thinking of what could've been
>I didn't expect anything but we were both drunk and she was a great kisser and the morning after all of these pent up high school feelings came rushing back.
Yeah that'll happen. But that's fleeting. After a while being away from her you'll go back to feeling the same after you did before that night. That's a good thing, unless you were still in love with her before that night.
>(She also said in the middle of making out that she would have dated me if I were taller. Suck that I remember that)
You know it's probably a good thing you didn't date her then. That's a very vain and shallow thing to say to somebody, especially if she knew you liked her. Anyway, don't let it get you too down. That's farther than many guys get with their crushes.
Again, thanks. You seem like a nice person too, and I'm sure you're right. Just need to get back to college and away from this shit and I'll be good to go.
is pretty emotional if you haven't heard it before. I don't really know your taste though :/
I haven't read The Fountainhead but I tend not to be a fan of Rand in general. She just seems to over-simplify. You need to love yourself and your friends, and figuring out how to do both is complicated and takes a lot of time (I know I haven't got it down yet). But I still think it's good that we're working towards that kind of balance, you know?
feeling a bit hopeless right now. Not motivated to start on that album I've been meaning to for a while, and not motivated in the slightest to go job hunting since I got laid off. I've been living in a shitty eventless cycle and I don't know how to break out of it
>maybe its just the substances but I feel really content with my life right now, shits gonna work out
I can't remember a time when i didn't feel like my life was falling apart and i've fucked everything up
Feeling lost emotionally. I think I've successfully tricked myself so hard into feeling happy that I don't know that I'm in a loop perpetual sadness or just numb to it.
Acid Rap - Chance the Rapper
Depressed. My life is kinda stagnate. I don't have much going on. No motivation. Just school. I hopefully get hired by the hospital I applied for. Oh well.
I'm being more avoidant than ever, I need to force myself to interact with the outside world but I keep delaying it, every night I tell myself "tomorrow I'm going to talk to someone, maybe even go outside" but I don't do it, at least the next semester is starting in some weeks, I am also >tfw no gfing very fucking hard lately
Dreading going back to my university in a few days because I actually like my friends back home.
don't know how some girl I crush feels about me
Alright, that's fair.
>we won't know how it actually is until we experience it you know
I get that. I've only had one girlfriend, and that wasn't until my early 20s. It's great sometimes and it has its benefits. I'm not going to bullshit you and pretend that it doesn't, but if it makes you feel any better there are good things about being single that you probably don't even realize you'll miss until you're in a relationship.
Got kicked out of my college program because of my shitty sleeping habits & I think I might actually have ADD. Broke up with ex 4 months ago & she's still in love with me, but I don't want her back cause shes fucked around 13 guys since we broke up (or so she says). Overall pretty shitty atm.
Listening to pic related for the first time while laying in bed, good shit. Currently have a crush on a girl, she's great and everything's semi-cool. Recently overcame a huge depression over some shit. This album's real nice and mellow, guys.
Was listening to pic related
I loathe myself and don't know how to drag myself out of this pit of doing nothing
Not listening to anything right now, but here's the last album I listened to.
And I'm feeling great, my life is probably better than its ever been because I'm doing well in school, making lots of new friends through work, and saving money. I lost 50 pounds a couple years back after finishing high school and basically became a new person. My self confidence is at an all time high, but I'm still sort of lonely and have trouble asking a girl out, because I've never had a girlfriend.
Just gonna do it next time I see this girl I work with.
Anyway, this was a good album.
Have a piece of very important work that needs to be completed by tomorrow - but I don't have the motivation to start. Also thinking about the dream I had last night which involved the girl of my dreams and I living a happy life together. The twist is that the girl of my dreams is fucking an electrician. It's sad because she's my best friend and a solid 10/10.
John Zorn - Locus Solus
Can't stop dreaming about people who I'm never going to see again. Pretty odd feeling, since I thought I didn't like them that much.
Happy to be honest, even after I totally fucked up today.
don't worry anon, I will share this moment of serendipity with you. life is a gift we must all be thankful for, and at the very least acknowledge. to be alive on Earth is completely against the odds and the fact we can communicate as we are is incredible. viva la 2040. I am going to die this year from terminal cancer , I hope you live a pleasant and fulfilling life and understand the magnitude of this fleeting moment
Rather conflicted rn. A few days ago I leveraged my open relationship to get with this girl. My gf and I would set rules as we went tho, so we weren't completely 'open' and well I invited this other girl out to the middle of a field at night and we got pretty intimate. Gf found out, said she was breaking up w me, then asked if I thought our relationship could be saved and I said no, at which point she begged me to stay with her! So but gf is moving out soon, other girl and I are still talking but she is leaving for three months today. I'm breaking my gf's heart she thought we'd be together forever
I'm going literally nowhere in life and I wish I didn't care whether people give a shit about me or not and I'm dreading the fact that I'm too much of a pussy to ever kill myself
other than that everything's great
that feel when ive skipped school for the umpteenth time today
Trying to get away from this girl who is in love with me and doesn't want to accept that I don't feel the same way about her. It's pretty rough because I just hate hurting people, but I've got a bunch of great friends who can help me take my mind off of things that are bothering me so I guess I'll be fine soon.
Pic related is an incredible album, definitely one of my favourites for when I need something to pick me up.
That sounds really nice. Great album too, glad you're doing good anon!
tirestires - shadowdog
out of town sleeping on an old friend's couch. worked a lot during the holidays. free to go to a bunch of cool shows this weekend. excited and comfy. album on repeat.
>Current album you are playing
Blank Banshee - 0
>Current feel you are feeling
I spontaneously remembered this artist after not listening to any of his stuff for well over a year. Feels good. My girlfriend is away and I haven't had a night to myself in quite a while. I might do some painting tomorrow. Who else /uniholidays/ here?
So I am the guy that initially responded to you but I am also this person >>61553530
As you can see I am having relationship woes as well!
Your situation sounds pretty rough, and I don't know any specifics. But I do know, from being in an open relationship, that sex is not love. It certainly can be loving at times, but often it is simple and superficial attraction.
Her being your best friend is probably a difficult feeling for you. Idk, I really don't have much experience in this realm. I would say to, like, be there for her whenever she inevitably gets upset or tired of the electrician lol
Do you have any romantic history with her/do you think she has ever shown more-than-friend interest in you?
We very nearly had a thing. It got so close to us actually fucking. She'd come to my house every night and we'd just drink, smoke, talk and do whatever the fuck, I was there for her for ages until this fuck came into the picture. He literally stalked her and she gave in. I feel like such a cuck. Haven't seen her in a while though cos of this guy.
Lmao i got lost one time in another city and the cops put me under arrest for 10 hours because i jumped a fence. The thing i dont get is why the fence was like in the middle of the road. Needless to say i lost my phone and money :/
Currently living with anxiety over my own health. I'm relatively healthy but I'm constantly panicking over my heart and I always feel like i have cancer or something.
>be me at 17
>get drunk with friends camping at a riverside
>dared to jump in the river
>do awesome superman style dive with one arm out
>until I realize the river wasn't as deep as I thought.
>hit head on something
I say something because to this day I have no idea what I hit
>get out just fine
>friends think it's hilarious
>fall out with gf because she thinks I'm immature
>wake up drunk in a park 3 miles away (I walked it)
>crying because I fell out with my gf
>check my texts
>turns out I said I'd try to hang myself at the park because of her
>mfw I must've tried because I'm next to a ropeswing
Also turned out I'd suffered a concussion. Mad 'un eh?
A girl I like likes me too. A new kind of feel for me and I'm not sure how to deal with it.
This fucking movie man. I'd forgotten all about it. I watched it when it was still a short film called Curfew. It won an Oscar if I remember right.
That scene and that song is perfect.
>insomnia is fucking with my mind bigtime, slept less than 5 hours for the 6th day in a row
>winter depression is settling in, feeling kinda numb
>realised that no matter how hard I try to be social, my social skills will always be shit because I'm an undiagnosed autist
>exams coming up
Damn that sounds shitty man.
Sounds like u two have a deeper connection than that other dude and her tho, hopefully. I hope everything works out for you, if she comes back to you tho make sure you are on guard in case something similar happens again.
Came back home from the first year of college, and the fact that I'm a 19 year old kissless virgin finally hit me. I have a great social circle, most of which have really attractive SOs, I'm pretty close to what you would call fit, I'm just genetically ugly as shit.
I used to be super rational about everything, and really not caring about the robot-ness of the whole thing as I put things like saving up to travel in front of everything else. And now, it just hit me, and I can't get the thought that I'm in the end a complete loser out of my head.
The album isn't a musical achievement or anything, but it is great stuff when you have a cup of tea watching the snowstorm outside.
feeling really anxious to get out of work!
Can't help, but feel like my Tinder date is going to cancel on me this saturday.
Trying to deal with coping with my grandpa's death, and dealing with surviving on my own. Finding my own time while working and having a relationship is fucking me up, lost all my inspiration to make music of any kind. Hoping things settle themselves down so I can do what I enjoy again and actually feel something.
I should stop doing so many drugs and also drop out of college
I love my gd a lot but I wanna fuck other people too without feeling bad about it. But I know if I break up with her, I'll miss her so so much.
girl I'm in love with told me she's not mentally stable enough for relationship. (probably bullshit to sugarcoat not liking me) so I tried to cut off communication with her, but she won't stop texting/calling me and it's like she's trapping me into a friendship with her when really all I need is to never see her face again so I can finally get over her and get on with my life. I go to bed and wake up every morning aching because of her and I can't get away from her no matter how many times I tell her to fuck off
Falling in love with a male teacher of mine. Practically can't look at him anymore without shaking from anxiety. I don't know what to do anymore.
Feeling pretty meh. I m at Starbucks and I can't stand their shit. Just wanted to get out for a minute
gf of four years left me this morning. i knew it was coming, got drunk last night, and made a facebook post that probably lost me a couple of friends
Gf went to her hometown to see her grandparents after new years eve. We broke up but got back together just some days before christmas. We have problems often, she has cheated on me before but we worked it out, so now that she's out of town for a month I'm feeling very anxious.
Sorry man, hope you get better soon, but it really takes a lot of time to get over someone you loved that much. Maybe your not thinking about this now, but its worth to say that trying to replace your ex may feel better at first, but in the long run it makes things more complicated, just get it together slowly man. Also non native english speaker here, where are you from m8?
>why did i not fuck my gf what is wrong with me she was clearly disappointed
not fitting the vibe desu
a little anxious since I have exams coming up in 10 days and if I don't pass, that's it for my law studies.
Not that I care much about the subject but it would probably mean I don't get any more cash from home and just bother me in general.
I think I'm gonna be fine but you never know what's gonna happen with these exams.
Absolutely stunned by how fucking incredible this bands entire discography is. Fucking ridiculous band.
feeling a bit desesperate, i fucked everything up in college(freshman year), i'm a looser here and it made me get into 4chan, have no friends, no gf... i miss high school... being popular and hanging around with my friends and with my qt
hope better times come tho
feeling like I have fucked up my life, but could probably fix it if I put forth the effort, but am also really tired.
also, i wish j robbins were my boyfriend
after months of literally wasting all of my time on meaningless shit like vidya I got my shit together and started studying for exams, working out and ended some toxic relationships
>feels fucking good man
if you're listening to that album then you're on the right track, it's all about embracing life for all the beauty it holds so hopefully it talks to you. You'll get there my friend things will get better for you.
Broke up with my ex for the 4th or 5th time (i actually don't know anymore) in October, managed 2 and a half months of getting over, through some fucking stupid series of events we ended up talking again as we always do and I ended up learning she'd slept with a bunch of guys. We've been on and off for 2 years now and I was always the only one she'd ever done anything past kiss so I never knew how I would take it. Long story short we ended up meeting up again like always and having sex and being exactly how we always were when things were good. Which is to say, not often.
So now she's going back to uni tomorrow where she'll be able to move on easily without much hassle because she can go out and fuck guys and drink and take drugs to get away from it all and i'll be here for the next 6 months at least feeling empty and wanting affection that I'll never get no matter how hard I try.
I've given up drinking, smoking, drugs, fapping, unhealthy foods, everything for January as well, so I can't even drink these feelings away or drown myself in MDMA so at least for a while I can be happy. I don't know how I've still stuck with it.
I know what will happen anyway. I'll be just short of getting over her, we'll see each other at this small festival we both go to each year and - just like last year - we'll both be wired and want to go back to our old ways without thinking about how stupid it is and then the whole 6 months will have been pointless.
It just takes time I know but I never seem to get enough of a chance to get past the stage of crippling loneliness where I can't stop myself going back to her because nobody else wants me.
Sorry for massive rant I just haven't spoken to anybody about this yet so needed to vent
Had a depression for the past 6 years. Can't get a gf, can't get my life together. But i am smiling when listening to this.
The Field - Cupid's Head
Tired, just finished packing most of my stuff, moving to another city next saturday.
I'm pretty content but I'm trying to block out my arguing neighbours
thinking about a cute coworker
about to smoke a joint
going to a theme park tomorrow with my friends
and finally, i just got tickets for the 70mm showing of the hateful eight
current feel: tfwnoqt3.14coworkergf
i'm from são paulo m8
thanks for the advice
It's a new year and I want to change a lot of things about me. Evolve into a new person. Got out of a three year relationship last May and I haven't ever slept with anyone since. Depression hit and I tried to kill myself last August.
Senior at uni and honestly I forgot to keep up with myself so it honestly feels like I'm a freshman. Stuck at a school where I don't socialize with anyone, in a major I want nothing to do with and thinking about past opportunities with girls four years ago in high school, but I know that it's futile. It has been four years and most likely any emotions or connections I've had with any girl in high school is long gone.
I know I shouldn't live in the past, but it so much better than right now. I'm working to become a new person each and everyday but sometimes I feel like I'm just going back down the dark hole.
I heard this album was good and I have to agree. I need to check out more Lil Ugly Mane.
Concrete plan for suicide if things dont get better by Dec 31st.
Been depressed and lonely my whole life; it's been really bad since 15. 22 now. Dropped out of college a year from graduation, living at home with no job, friends, or reason to go on.
Girl I liked a while ago but haven't actually liked in a while said some weird things about me behind my back, manned up and we talked about it and we're back to being good friends.
I'm feeling this weird mix of optimism and fear for the future, like I love my friends unabashedly but they all getting boyfriends and girlfriends and stuff and I'm worried they're falling away from me. They've constantly tried getting me out there to meet people but considering what I just came out of I'm a little nervous to start again. But then again I don't wanna turn it down because I don't wanna miss the opportunity. Also I wanna go out and meet more people with similar interests but the thought of trying to find those people is scary to me. I get anxious sometimes and I worry a lot, however I don't think I'm a bad guy by any means I just don't know what to do.
TL;DR In a weird place relationship wise, optimistic but still a lil scared
This album fucked me up. Listen to the lyrics and have a good cry buddy, things'll get better
The general consensus of this thread seems to be that all of us are either: lonely, depressed, stuck in a rut or feel lost in the world.
I know we're supposed to be nihilist Anons, but I wish I could give everyone on this thread a big hug.
kinda bored, lonely, and wondering what to watch tonight
I'm not sure if it's the same thing you were talking about but it sounds similar to what I tend to do when I get out of a relationship. As in, immediately try to surround myself with any girls I've ever previously gotten romantic attention from.
You've got to remember that there's a reason they no longer give you that romantic attention and they aren't in the same position as you where they so badly want that attention themselves.
And like you say, living in the past achieves nothing which is what I always struggle with. It's really great that you're actually trying to become a new person, in fact it's made me think about it as well. Never occurred to me I could just work to change who I am as a method of moving away from all the bad things that have come into my life in the last 2 years.
I hope you get better soon, anon
only girl i ever loved has started dating some new guy
i have no desire to keep living, only staying alive because i don't want to let down my parents
I really want a gf
otherwise I'm feeling pretty good atm
Make sure you keep seeing that as a reason then, because it is one. And if you have that reason then you're in a position to work on getting better which you absolutely should.
I'm in near enough the same situation, but remember that girls aren't the only thing in the world and certainly not something you should take your life over.
If you have a job, do what you can to focus on that. If you don't, focus on any hobbies you have and if you don't have any then pick some up.
Trapping yourself in your own mind will just make things worse.
I really do hope things start getting better for you anon, just remember your parents and focus on yourself.
listening to pic related and i'm pretty drunk. it's pretty good.
i feel you. it's been 2 years since high school and i still love the same girl i've loved since 4th grade (so basically 10 years). we've only ever been friends too (not 'best' though). i'm pretty social and i go out a lot now but no girl has ever made me feel like when i hung out with her.
Long story short, met a girl on New Year's Eve and we kinda hit it off. Next morning found out she has a boyfriend.
I always feel the worst when it feels like I had a chance, otherwise I've learned to deal with it. For now I've just gotten drunk every evening. Like now.
1. talk to people
2. if no one wants to talk back, ask yourself why
3. fix those things
you think that out of 8 billion people there's not one of them who wants to be your friend?
also you can probably make friends at any job you get, you'll be with them every day with even minimal interaction so if they're good people you can at least have a light friendship with them
"If you're more upset about Lemmy or Scott Weiland dying than about Pierre Boulez please stop listening to/talking about/pretending to care about music at all. For everyone's sake."
>tfw showed my power level in public
Simple Life - Wazonek
Waiting to chill with a friend. Stoned and completely unsure what to do with my life.
I just... Really dislike most people I get to know. I don't have a problem with being unpopular, or knowing social niceties, or even caring (I care quite a lot about people). I never really feel connected with anyone. Also can't get it up, desu a bit of a problem which is mo def related
>Album: Sol Invictus - Lex Talionis
>Current feel: Tfw no gf, and also feel sad for my twin brother since he had to break up with his girlfriend of over two years today, but atleast I guess he and I can be together the way we used to be before. Also Im a 19 year old depressed, kissless virgin who don't know what I shall do to get out of this fucking shit.
Kinda crying right now /mu/, sorry, I really love these threads.
Are u me friendo?
Nigel Pepper Cock
Feel the need to suck some major dick cuz im a feg who goes on /mu/
you rolled trips man you're not a loser
maybe you are basing too many things on your social circle. I didn't lose my v till after all my friends. i started getting bitches once i was like "wait these guys are cool I guess but pretty stupid in the end. I want to do what makes me happy"
just some thoughts. you really will be aight my friend, I mean, think about how much beautiful music there is in this world that will always be there for you to listen to
Lonely and depressed. The girl I like has a boyfriend (for a while now) but I still want to be friends with her and everytime we try to hang or something always comes up, it's always fucking bad planning. I talk to her through PMs on twitter and she just changed her profile picture to a picture of her and her boyfriend, I want to die.
Listening to this too.
Pretty sure that girl that I've been hanging out with lately has a crush on me. I don't really like in any way other than as a friend though, usually. She made out with me the other day. It was in a pretty casual way though. Either she really likes me or just feels bad for me, not sure how to feel...
You have to spin it to be like, oh if you want to get with ME, YOU will have to break up with your bf.
But be super casual and playful and one day when she is sick of her BFs shit you'll be like. Sure, I guess I can get with you now. Feel ?
pretty damn chill right now. Drinking a beer, just got an awesome new job. Fuck it, lifes ok atm.
Make moves on another chick and she will get jealous bru. If you've been talking to her that long then she definitely thinks of u in some way.
Put it this way. Her bf wouldn't be cool with knowing that you guys have been talking so much... so you're in a good spot if you just cool it out and chill it down bru
Lonely, nostalgic, depressed. I have fucked up everything in my life, and i keep doing it.
been there. Have whole weekends of complete black out. Bruises are fine, I just dont want to hear about me leaving them on others. Also, herpes.
I'm feeling slightly disoriented for no apparent reason.
> Shlohmo - Bad Vibes
Feeling a sense of disconnection and isolation
I really want a drink but I'm too lazy to drive to the store for some booze.
I feel somewhat free, I just cut myself off from some toxic relationships that were pulling me down. I hope this is for the better.
fuckin been there too. New Years was a goddamn blur. Punched someone, maybe Cheated on my girl (got walked in on getting a lapdance apparently), tried to start my car but went in drive instead of reverse, had to get that shit towed out of my friends driveway in the morning... did coke for the first time in months after swearing not to do it.. fucking hell.
but at least I had a kind of existential moment after coming off that shit and I feel a lot better now.
what drugs did people get fucked over by last semester?
Took two tabs of acid in september (still have visual snow), Xanax is fucking poison (glad I realized that sooner than later), Xanax and Coke is a hell of a fucking high and even worse come down. Smoking weed all day every day really aint good for you either.
its weird how coming so close to insanity...actually, going insane...makes you see things. Every time I wake up not knowing how I got there, I shudder.
You gotta also realize that you're feeling that shitty because of the chemical imbalance in your brain. Idk if that thought even helps me out though ahaha. Maybe just being sober for a couple days after that is what made me feel better. Who fucking knows though.
Started to ask why I was using like that though, at least.
feeling Yoni's vox being fuckin' amazing wish they'd done this earlier after the Why? remix yfm
currently listening to this, and yes you're right. Ive slowed down a bit, but it's hard to not rage out. I just love getting fucked up. It's really bad, but ....idk. It's a unique perspective. I think if you have good humor and are kind at heart you'll be fine m8. Alcohol can only make a man so evil. It really depends on whats inside. Also, I love coke lol.
kek i 4got that i started this with what I was listening to. Deleted this for that without thinking.
Feeling ok I guess have work tomorrow so that sucks but not to depressed tonight surprisingly
aye, try LSD alone. I did for the first time a month ago. Loved it.
Feelan like I want to finally attempt to do something with my life, but I don't know what
Guy I knew and was kind of friends with killed himself last night. Anyone recommend an album for this type of thing?
beach house - thank you lucky stars
i met a girl at a friend's friend's birthday drinks and got to texting her, we went out for a couple of dates and then after a month she stopped replying to my texts, opening any of the snapchats i sent her and just completely cut me off. only girl (outside of my family) to ever show me any real affection so i naturally got really devo a week ago (and still am) that she'd just severe all ties absolutely. she didn't even give me a reason or tell me that she "wasn't feeling" it or anything. every single fucking day we'd text for a solid month and then one day she just stops replying after i asked her when she wanted to go on a third date.
so fucking 2 face tbH familia haha
women are a meme mate
do not understand them whatsoever. why wouldn't you just be like "yeah sorry [some excuse]"? just a gall-less and coward act leaving me in the lurch like that TbH
I´ve finally come to really like and want someone since my last relationship (sad sex and distance because she left to university). And now with this girl the same thing is happening. Different states for both, tho.
Listening to pic related
Currently mulling over the death of a close friend. She and I went on a few dates and I fell in love with her and honestly I really really think she felt the same way, then she died. Happened on November 21st 2015 but I still can't stop thinking about her
>Current album you are playing
inspiration is dead
>Current feel you are feeling
inspiration is dead
gf being unusually distant and im afraid things are falling apart
realized she has what has kept me going the past few months
tinnitus is aching my ear
kinda pissed because a friend of mine got mad at me because she thought I said she was bipolar, which I didn't say. She just gets mad at me and throws a fit for no reason sometimes. Of course she was acting really annoying before that and tried to take my phone from me. I got it back from her but she accused me of hitting her. After this, she randomly 'forgave' me an hour ago and act like nothing had happened.
sounds like she has some problems of her own, anon. maybe ask her if theres anything going on she wants to talk about and sya youre there as a friend. If she isnt the type to open up, just gotta wait it out
>Broken Social Scene--You Forgot It In People
>Between buzzed and drunk at a somewhat empty bar, lonely but recently begun to identify myself as a sex addict so who knows the legitimacy of my feelings anymore.
>I like /mu but it hurts knowing that I can't look at porn on the other pages because I'm addicted to it.
>I've cheated on my gf a few times and finally begun to get nightmares about it because one cannot live a selectively moral life
Feeling exhausted from chasing the love of my life for the past several months as she insists on keeping things to just a friendship basis.
So i'm sneakin in here to pat myself on the back actually.
All you Full bellies what have you
want to know how i;m feeling?
I just realised your forum thing is spineless archaic no spine.
Anyways unless you're visited by extraterrestrials seriously be here in march social media is a Plague I use to shamelessly plug alcolhol driven outbursts,your turn fuckers:
mother sorrow's in tapers
cut a hole
the present tense
Brush your words and doubt away just don't pine out before march
I'm drunk, bye have fun
Nervous. Wife is 38 weeks pregnant. Having our first kid. We are calling him Gabriel. Just painted the nursery and now shit is getting real.
Girlfriend has been away for nearly a month. I was kinda looking forward to it as first, seeing that I'd felt like I wasn't getting too much alone time and now that I'm deep into this month of her being away it's kinda shitty. Aside from her, I don't really have any friends left, let alone friends that are able to hang out very often. I've just been working on music a lot, and I really feel like I've hit a sweet spot creatively, which has been mad cool but I want to be able to do something with all this music I've written (I have at least 70 songs written that I really want to record and create some projects out of) but I always feel so lost when I get down to it. Aside from that and feeling lonely as hell, I can't really complain about that much I guess.
>Current album you are playing
>Current feel you are feeling
I dunno, im tired but i cant sleep. I feel like crap cause its going to be early dawn and i haven't sleep, but the album kind of makes me feel better, more relaxed