What are you guys listening to tonight. How are you feeling.
Can someone convince me that everything is going to be OK.
Nothing will be remotely OK again. You better freak the fuck out because something awful is about to happen
listening novellers album for the 1st time
I like it
stuff will be ok if you make it ok
I'm feeling a bit better than the songs imply. Just kind of passive.
I've been playing Persona 3 recently and that's cheering me up, I never finished it a few years ago and I'm finally coming back to it.
And I have a 3DS ordered with FE: Awakening and SMT IV :)
I've been a pretty big Fire emblem fan since 7th grade when they released FE 7 on the GBA. I actually took japanese in middle school solely so I could play the first 6 games.
So it's all pretty cool c:
But I am a bit down I guess.Just passively.
You know how that goes anon.
Everything probably won't be okay but that's better than being nothing. Sometimes it's comforting to be sad because you can indulge in sad music and get meanings you wouldn't otherwise, it's bittersweet kind of.
qt3.1 of 5 years broke up with me a few weeks ago. Right before my brithday and christmas. Still have to return her gifts. Moving 500 miles away in 1 month. Thinking of giving her this album as a parting gift.
Can't wait till to get the half gram of dope tomorrow to show her how little I care.
Fucking crazy bitch.
i'm listening to death grips' fashion week, one of my new favorite albums. it probably won't make you feel any better but you might enjoy it
in the meanwhile take some advice from the big fucking frog, pic related
Listening to Pain Teens right now, and plan to listen to pic related later.
>everything is going to be OK
Nope. If you're at the point where you need to be convinced that things will one day be OK, you're at the point where things will never again be OK. Life will just continue to spiral down while you fight in exercises of futility, until the end.
If you're on the NA eastern coast I'd be honored to suicide with you, if at any point his year you're available and up for it.
While everything might be fucked up, you'll wake up everyday to find purpose in why life sucks so much. Beautiful, isn't that?
Yeah just go no contact.
Anything else shows that you still care. If you do in fact still care you shouldn't be vindictive or hurtful or you'll just make her hate you and feel justified for doing so.
If you do not care anymore, the best/most hurtful thing you can do is just go no contact.
Dude don't say it like that. Gotta throw moar finesse in there plz.
Thanks bro. You're definitely right. It'd be a waste of 12.99 anyway. She'd definitely scratch the fuck out of the CD. And to play them out of her stock '06 Mazda 3 speakers. Yuck.
shure bruh. gotta work 9-10 hrs at the factory in like 5 hours and I probably wont be able to sleep cause I'm fucking up my sleeping schedule during my off-days. so I'm not that hyped atm
I'm listening to Feels again
I don't feel anything, not really happy or sad, feeling a little "hollow" , sounds agnsty af but whatever
I feel lonely. I want to make friends but I don't know how. I want to get a gf, but I also don't know how.
I don't know how to talk to people. Sometimes I'm sitting on my school's campus listening to music and it hits me how dependent I am on music, and I really don't like that. I don't know what to do.
Noveller - Fantastic Planet (v0)
>Novellers new album
Giles Corey or Swans as usual. Clinical depression making me feel like shit as usual.
I am the clinical depression guy who posted the Giles Corey and Swans. I envy your ability to cry. Seriously I wish I could cry everyday. But nope, for some dumbass fucking reason I haven't been able to cry since I was 10. Nowadays my catharsis involves the two artists I have mentioned, cigarettes, and cutting myself.
You can do it anons, but you have to force yourself to pretend like you're happy. You might not be willing to do that but it's necessary if you want to socialise.
Anyways someone rec me music for these feels.I'm stuck at home in the country with my parents, haven't had human contact with anyone except family members for over a month. I'm anxious because I'm re-applying for study after dropping out for a few years (am now 23), feeling bored stupid hopeful and a little heartbroken. Currently listening to pleb rock like The Strokes, The Orwells, etc
People say it gets better, and it does. You gotta put experience -- life -- between you and whatever.
Listen to Brand New, whatever. You'll stop crying, and get on with your life. That's how it goes.
You got this.
Try screaming really hard into your pillow, then do pushups until you pass out. Atleast you will feel something then. But you'll probably just hehe no my anxiety won't let me!!
>Sometimes I wanna pack it all up, get on a bus and move to Vermont,
>Or Maine, or any of those states back east that I remember.
>Sometimes I wanna go back to school, an east coast college with some history.
>I'd be satisfied, I know, in the simple things.
Dammit Rivers I can't deal with this feeling right now,
I'm not feeling great guys.
I go workout everyday. It hurts from an anxiety perspective. But exercising doesn't help make it better either. I go in the hopes of trying to continue a somewhat normal life. If you're just talking about the crying thing, nah. I am also the only person I know who didn't cry during dat part in Clannad: After Story. I have tried really hard to make myself cry.
It's better to be alone. Im extremely capable socially and have made plenty "friends" and I always ended up getting fucked over. So now i just keep to myself and if i do socialize I'm extra careful to never make myself vulnerable.
I disagree. I think it's a question of making good friends and actually being close to them. There's no way I would be going to the gym all depressed and stuff if my friend wasn't there as my support, drill sergeant, and personal trainer. Having good friends can help you through even the absolute worst of the worst. Again, good friends. Those you really legitimately care about, and those who really legitimately care about you.
Fair enough, try reaching for a memory rooted in your childhood that made you cry and try to relive that. For example I can cry instantly and genuinly everytime I think of my father.
If you actually do suffer from diagnosed depression though, I'm not much good help, though I know what it feels like. Try to get someone to talk too, however cheesy that may sound..
My roommate in my apt who's an actor told me to try doing the memory trick. I got nothing. FFS I am the guy who at one point 4 years ago had two friends die and had my gf cheat on me and I still didn't cry.
I am on heavy medication right now. If I wasn't on meds there's no way I would be enjoying ANYTHING forget music or posting here. Other than the fam and my psychiatrist only 10 of my friends know. The rest think I have mysteriously disappeared cuz I deactivated my facebook and whatnot. At least I can enjoy music again, however dark and depressing it has to be for me to "enjoy" it.
I just really hope you all are fine though. Because the pain I am going through right now I would never ever want anyone to feel that I don't care who you are.
Never had a good friend in my life. Probably never will now since I can't help but be emotionally distant from everyone .Maybe im just one of those people that are ment to be alone. I don't mind it one bit though, nothing feels better than going home and getting away from people.
You know what feels better? When you are going through a tough ordeal, and these guys have your back. Also when everyone's happy and everyone enjoys while looking out for each other. You guys can't let the assholes who probably created the trust issues make you like this. If you guys continue to be alone, you're letting those assholes win because those pieces of shit are affecting you hard.
It's exam season man, Revision and what not, feeling guilty about how little work I've done.
Just, I dunno man, every time I pick up my notes I just can't bring my self to read them just seems so pointless.
I don't want to be a geologist, but it's too late now.
Also general girl trouble etc.
First year at huge state uni, just not really having the experience I was expecting, which was ignorant on my part in the first place to expect all of this social thriving out of nowhere. Just missing home and trying to focus on my studying right now.
>What are you guys listening to tonight
a bad quality version of pic related because i ripped it off the bandcamp using a browser addon. i'm aware i'm a terrible person for doing that.
>How are you feeling
ungrateful, anxious and ashamed of existing a.k.a. the usual.
I definitely know that feel. Cuz of my depression, I missed out on an exam last semester that I taking tomorrow. I have been trying to study so hard, but every time I look at the notes I retain so little information. It's really, really hard, dude. But please man, we gotta pull ourselves together.
So to both of you, good luck with your studying even though it is really really REALLY FUCKING hard with possible other things in your mind!
Gonna cook dinner for my girlfriend tomorrow and then fuck her, so pretty good.
Hm, maybe it's blocked for many people, people go through feeling what you describe forever, until they get a proper psychiatrist.. Those things you listed sucks, and I've been through half of it.. And about that, atleast you feel something through music, even if it's pitch black and hopeless stuff, it's still a feeling, I presume.. I've been through suicidal thoughts and feeling worthless for a shitlong time, until Just small things and setting up very tiny goals made me feel better, we humans aren't as complicated as it may seem. A steady job and income combined with a somewhat steady identity with doing something you love is enough.
Wish you luck mate..
Don't give her anything Anon, i gave my ex a Jason Mraz album, it was stupid and pointless. Plus that album was given to me by someone nice.
Just don't bother acknowledging her existence and live a better, happier, fuller one without her.
As for OP, listen to some more tunes and look at the stars tonight, everything should be fine.
>want to hate you
>for being happy
>for being healthy
>for having what I want
>for being so nonchalant about it
Thanks guys. Sorry for the vent, but you guys know one of the things I am trying to stay alive for? Seeing Swans live. I really can't wait to tell Michael Gira that every time I put on Filth I can actually go to the gym, or every time I put on Cop or Public Castration is a Good Idea I don't cut myself and get further away from suicidal thoughts that usually my two closest friends are talking me out of cuz I vent EVERYTHING to them. Dude's one of my heroes.
>be in noise rock band
>been practicing for a about a year
>finally, a few months ago we did some gigs (6 to be exact) at small venues
>get good feedback from crown
>after everyshow my bandmates insisted that we talk/hang out with some fans
>fans tell me they really love our music
>this happens for the first 5 shows
>between the 5th and 6th show we recorded our demo
>day of the 6th show
>I put the demo on bandcamp and we plan to sell the demo cassettes at the show
>great show I guess
>after the show my bandmates want to go out side and chill out with some friends/fans
>I hate this type of scene
>I just started to walk away
>remove demo from bc
>break up band
I just hate people talking to me like im their friend or something
all i feel is awkwardness with that website. yes, i'm a sperg.
>dis guy doe
Dude Geology is sick. What are your other options? I'm a fucking logistics dude at a bakery; I'd much rather be doing some sorta geology work For real weight your options. Maybe you have something sweet in the works, maybe you'll be a geologist. It gets better.
> Your heart is a muscle the size of your fist.
For real, that's what I should do. She's a crazy bitch, she's moved on, I should too.
>You got a new friend
>I got homies
Thank you /mu/
I usually get fucked up, listen to your new shit, and shitpost, but for real -- thank you.
Tonight you come through.
just had an awesome time during the past 2 days, did acid, mushrooms and MDMA in a cabin far in the woods with some friends
I finally got to kiss a girl that I've had a crush on for like a year now, we cuddled and them slept together
now im back home feeling more depressed than I've felt in forever, and i"m not sure why
im scared of what is to come with this girl, as she is in an open relationship i don't feel like I'll ever have the chance to spend intimate time with her again
>Your brain chemistry is all fucked up thanks to MDMA.
>Your autism is at full force thanks to the "LSD--25", and 'shroooms. You're not yourself.
She's not the one. Open relationships are just excuses sluts use to be a bitch. Experiences are good though, move forward and kick some ass.
You got this.
>I finally got to kiss a girl that I've had a crush on for like a year now, we cuddled and them slept together
>she is in an open relationship i don't feel like I'll ever have the chance to spend intimate time with her again
you so should have sex'd her, then she'd be out of your system
she was really high when she first wanted to fuck me, she was on top and i just wanted to calm her down so i just layed for a while with her and let her fall asleep
and later yesterday she still wanted to but i was way too tired to do anything
idk she's different from all the girls i've ever met
she's so delicate
she makes me feel so good
I know she's probably not the one, but i just like her so much, she has all i am looking for in a girl and I've always felt a huge connection with her
Okay I am gonna get off 4chan for now study for my exam tomorrow/cut a little bit. I know it's hard anons, but stay strong and make the smartest decisions you can! Crying isn't dumb either, please do so if need be.
Idk listen to this badass track from the anime Gurren Lagann. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0V7aUT13qtM
Do something that tries to keep you away from the pain please! There's always hope, even when you may be temporarily blinded to it.
>she was really high when she first wanted to fuck me, she was on top and i just wanted to calm her down so i just layed for a while with her and let her fall asleep
>and later yesterday she still wanted to but i was way too tired to do anything
dude youve got to take chances like that youve just got to
In the same boat, bro. 5 years with this girl. She was my rider. We rolled together, dabbed together, did dope together, she was entertained by my taste in music -- but it's over. We just have to move on. There's another one somewhere.
I'll be rolling face at shows nonstop till I find my next rider. I invite you to join me.
>tfw in love with friend
>tfw he doesn't love you back
Listening to this.
Feeling like shit but a bit relieved at the same time.
There is this uni project (java program that handles a pretty complicated sql database) we were supposed to do and submit yesterday. Were working in pairs. I did it with a guy whom I befriended (or rahter he befriended me) from day one. Long story short, I'm a slacking freeloader and I haven't done my part properly (and some parts I haven't done at all) so I asked him for help. I lied to him that my grandpa died on Sunday so I have the excuse of emotional breakdown and inability to work. I don't really think he bought it. We ended up fixing this shit through the night for 11 hours straight, finished about 5.30 in the morning, one and half hours before the deadline. Of course he was not happy about it but never showed it. Just hope we can defend this shit on a seminarium.
I'm a horrible person.
you sound like a fucking shitbag. are you expecting sympathy for admitting you are horrible? fuck you, either push through and work hard in your life or just kill yourself already. no point in living if you are going to be a slacker like that.
I feel horrible and lonely, and have done for the past half-year. I'm listening to this currently. Maybe I should see a doctor, I've never felt this bad before.
Probably going to have to get an apartment by myself next year at school since I cant find anyone to live with. All my friends already have arrangements. There will definitely be some benefits to living by myself but I already know I'm gonna get lonely as fuck