I pray to God I don't end up like Charles Bukowski. What a sad, lonely motherfucker.
>You don't try. That's very important: not to try, either for Cadillacs, creation or immortality. You wait, and if nothing happens, you wait some more. It's like a bug high on the wall. You wait for it to come to you. When it gets close enough you reach out, slap out and kill it. Or if you like its looks you make a pet out of it.
Celine, Fante and Hemingway rolled into one.
Nothing wrong with his books if you can get over the simplicity and repetition of its themes.
Reading him is like watching an action film: sure there's better out there but i cant be arsed with highbrow stuff all day
Done goofed up poetry though
I pray to God I never manifest an intense hatred for all of existence like that of this man.
The last years of his life were pretty happy. He loved his wife, had enough money to buy good booze and his work was easier because he wrote on a Macintosh.
>lived a comfy life with his wife in a huge mansion in southern California
>went to the track by day, drank and wrote by night
He ended up pretty good OP. Or did you mean you don't want to get fat?
>he was mostly sober for the last 2 decads of his life
Eh, I'm pretty sure he kept drinking until near the end. Bukowski was just extremely lucky. I read a story in Playboy a couple of years ago about the filming of Barfly. According to people who were there when Bukowski filmed his cameo, he drank 9 bottles of white wine on at least one day he was there. In the same story it says that when Buk was being examined to see if he was fit enough to get chemo and radiation for his leukemia, the doctor said he had the liver of a 8 year old school boy or something like that.
Just read the first half of Love is a Dog from Hell. It's almost as if /r9k/ wrote a book. They aren't bad poems though, I really enjoy them. Bukowski's diction is retry simple, but it's powerful nonetheless.
Is this how you justify you're depression? By pretending its a inherent part of some other positive quality in yourself?
Stay in that cycle loser, maybe you'll kill yourself one day.
After a while, one should realise that the only thing that will stay with you until your death is the pivotal values which shaped your path. I know that this simply sounds like "just be yourself" bro, but it's a bit more complex than that. Charles Bukowski found his values, and they stayed with him until his ashen end, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. In fact, it's all that you really can do.
John Williams, the author of Stoner, writes about this sort of shit a lot:
“One does not deceive oneself about the consequences of one's acts; one deceives oneself about the ease with which one can live with those consequences.”
― John Williams
Can you guys post any proof that he ever quit drinking?
He was as happy as he could be when he finally became famous. Some say that what saved him was his wife, she is some sort of veggie chef or something and cooked good meals and generally took care of him. He must also have been a tough/genetically blessed (at least in liver genetics) sort of fella.
Suicide rates and depression among geniuses and people of higher intelligence tend to be higher.
It's very well documented.
/sci/ keeps puking out threads about depression and intelligence, they're usually filled with "you're not smart because you're depressed OP".
I'm sure more people are depressed around the smarter end of the spectrum.
I'm also sure most people who mention the correlation between intelligence and depression are not intelligent.