/mtfg/ Male to Female gen

>>8845112
>is tripfagging
>demands not to be bullied
only on /lgbt/...

Even if I have to spend a lifetime in prison. I will harm that person

>>8845128
who

>>8845127

:3c

>>8845120
How hard can it be to just.. not bully?

>>8845135
what if you're addicted to bullying and you can't help yourself

>>8845144
Then you should seek help asap.

I am going to dox the person that ruined anons life

>>8845148
it was just a hypothetical, i'm not actually addicted, i'm just mean

>tfw you share a bed with a platonic boy friend who wants to fuck you

it felt like a bad decision but damn I was so tired

>>8845148
You should seek out your bed

>>8845154
I genuinely do not understand why people are mean.
Like it's not a joke.
Everyone around me in my life is a horrible person, and I literally do not get why anyone is like that.
Is my brain broken?
Can you please explain.

>>8845156
I am watch movie.

>>8845162
hugg
being nice is good

>>8845131
You will see when I commit the crime

>>8845162
Okay well after the movie it's straight off to bed. Also what movie

>>8845165
Ye ye

>>8845172
GotG 2

>>8845162
>Can you please explain.
This would probably be an easier question to answer if you were able to differentiate between genuine malice and people just joshing you, but the fact that you're not able to means that you're too pure for this world and will never understand, I'm sorry Ally

>>8845128
hi Angie
planning to assassinate Trump?

>>8845178
Okay well after your racoon and talking tree adventure motion picture is over you need to crawl into bed and go to sleep

How old do I look if anyone remembers how I look?

>>8845189
Late early 20s/early mid 20s

>>8845189
you look like a nice 23 year old kindergarten teacher

>>8845196
This. Also huggable as heck.

I found this video of Shakira preparing Jerk Chicken
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUJJdeByJa0

>>8845181
Oh, I guess that's probably true :/

>>8845186
I will I will.

>>8845189
Cute early 20s librarian.

>>8845196
>>8845199
>ywn run up to ms puru and hug her legs through her ankle length skirt

(re posted because fuck notepad)
>don't want my dick to be useless
>wanted to look like a girl for a few years now
>don't want any more masculinization
>not convinced I'm trans and therefore can't transition
>sometimes feel really envious of the girls at uni

I feel like I really can't do anything with regards to this, like it's pointless to post about or talk to anyone about and I can't make progress on it. I often don't feel that bad, and rarely for like a day every month or two I'll feel fine and these problems go away completely and I feel like this is wrong, but it always comes back, and even though it's almost always there, it's often not strong enough that I feel like I can or should do anything about it. On Friday morning I just wanted to cry during my classes because it was bad then, but it hasn't been bad since, so I feel like I should have no reason to post about this and that I'm making a problem out of something that isn't one.

Even when it's very mild, I still don't like what I see in the mirror, despite people telling me that I don't look ugly. I don't like how I look and sound like my dad, and I kind of want to be more like my mother. I think it would feel better to see one of those girls in the mirror for some reason, but I'm also convinced that everyone feels this on at least some level, or can be made to.

In a way it's nice when these feelings are stronger, because then it's more clear what I feel and what I should do. Like I feel like I would rather look like a girl but when these feelings aren't really bad like Friday, I don't feel like I can do anything. Logically I understand that cis people don't feel this way and I can't find any who do but I also feel like they just don't talk about it or haven't thought about it as much.

Can anyone else relate to this?

I'll make sure he doesn't harm anyone anymore

>>8845218
>he

Chaser?

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>>8845209
>puru-sensei i wanna have rainbow sockies just like you!!

>>8845218
assassinating Trump wont solve your problems Angie

>>8845209
>ms puru will never grade your homework and draw a smiley face after you get 18/20 right on your arithmetic test
just toss me out of a boat into the ocean with a toaster

>>8845220
Someone who has harmed many people, trans and cis alike

>>8845239
Eugenie?

>>8845239
What's their name?

Do they post here?

mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy

Am I a good girl /mtfg/?
Am I as naive as people say I am?
Do I deserve the bullying?
Can I be fixed?

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>>8845248
>Do I deserve the bullying?
Sans doute.

I don't know why you're so preoccupied with trying to be a good girl though. It's more fun to be a bad girl, and if people are going to pick on you anyway, what does it really matter?

Cuddling feels amazing

>>8845260
Yes it does matter.

>>8845269
Wow so gay.

>>8845269
I miss cuddling ngl

>>8845191
>>8845196
>>8845199
>>8845207
>>8845226
>>8845231
Aww ;-; <3

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henlo

>>8845280
Herro

>>8845278
Me too ;-;

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>>8845280
Suuuuuuh gurl

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goof morning

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>>8845272
>Yes it does matter.
Well, it's certainly cute that you seem to think so at least.

>>8845296
Hi Phie!!!

>>8845290
>>8845296
Hi :3

>>8845300
I'm not cute ree

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>I'll never get to talk to her again
I can't stop crying mtfg. Is this it for me? I miss her so damn much.

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>>8845301
whats up lil lia?
is it still hot in griechenland?

>>8845307
hey puru!
you emigrated to australia, right?
how hard was that?

>>8845309
Idk what you look like, but youre one of the very few new people here I actually like, which probably means you have a cute personality

>>8845311
why cant you talk to her?

>>8845280
I hope Irma swerves back out to the ocean after Florida, restrengthens and hits New York and you die

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>>8845309
You don't get to decide that, other people do.

>>8845314
>whats up lil lia?
>is it still hot in griechenland?
It's 23C but my feet and hands are cold as always.
>>8845307
:3

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>>8845286

herro. soup?

>>8845290

watchin cowboy bebop and trynna stay up all nighttt. wyd?

>>8845296

good morning phiengoddess~~~

>>8845315

i don't live in new york lol

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>>8845314
Something happened and she cut contact. I didn't even get a chance to say goodnight.

>>8845314
Aww, ty Phie :)

>>8845315
Wow my dude.

>>8845317
I guess, but I also get a say in the matter.

>>8845322
>watchin cowboy bebop and trynna stay up all nighttt. wyd?
Why stay up all night? Also i'm trying to find the motivation to do stuff, but i have to meditate for that. Will do it a little later after lunch.

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>>8845314
I haven't fully emigrated yet, will file an application for a permanent resident visa next year. It's not very difficult just expensive for someone like me without higher education. Hows Europe holding up without me?

>>8845322
Anons were nice to me >\\\\\<

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>>8845322
goof morning waifu <3

>>8845319
same here, but its a lot colder I think ;_;
considering getting a second pair of pants

>>8845323
what happened anon? Maybe she ll calm down after a while and you ll be able to reconnect?

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>>8845330
oh that sounds relatively easy
what counts as higher education? would a master's be enough or would I need a PHD to qualify?

Europe is barely standing, its getting worse and worse here. We re considering leaving in a few years

>>8845335
I don't know what happened. I feel like it's all my fault but I didn't do anything wrong. It's been weeks now and nothing has changed.
I miss her so fucking much.

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>>8845324
>I guess, but I also get a say in the matter.
Of course, just not one that means anything to me, and likely not anyone else either.

>>8845322
>i don't live in new york lol
aw :(
did you move?

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>>8845335
>same here, but its a lot colder I think ;_;
>considering getting a second pair of pants
I used to wear like 3 sweatpants when it was super cold in the winter. Also unless it's 27C my legs and hands will always be cold unless i cover them with lots of layers. Bad blood circulation life.

>>8845336
Even BA would count lol, I just never got into uni in Finland because socialism and free overbooked uni = years of waiting to get in.

Damn I was expecting you to be the last bastion of hope for Germany. Where do you plan on going? If you come down under you can get dank weed easy.

>>8845345
Well you're free to think whatever you wish, but being the only one who has seen my face, I can assure you I am very not cute.

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>>8845359
Trannies have notoriously bad self-perception and self-awareness though, so that means very little.

You probably couldn't even identify yourself in a police line-up with four other lookalikes.

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>>8845343
oh, if it has been weeks its probably not gonna fix itself :c

what do you mean by you dont know what happened? did she just cut contact without an explanation?

>>8845349
I feel this so hard
lmao
I am always ice, but I dont mind , I am used to that. my mom always complains when her feet are cold, I just tell her it doesnt matter because there is no important organs in them

>>8845351
oh wew thats nice, I already have 2 BAs

Id like to avoid australia because I am scared of spiders and my bf hates the heat, but we ve been going on dates the last few weeks, and its literally 80-90% sandpeople on the street after nightfall. Nobody on the bus speaks german anymore either, it has gotten a lot worse in the last few years, wasnt a fraction as bad when I moved here 8 years ago.

we ve considered going to the US midwest, a cozy flyover state, away from the big cities and such, but unsure how easily it would be to get a job as historian. we also considered canada but if we go, its at least 5 years in the future, we have ties here we cant seperate, very old people that need us and stuff. We re not gonna just leave them to themselves. also theres the whole issue with my bf NEVER going to go on a plane, so wed have to go by ship, which probably isnt exactly cheap either

>>8845393
she cut contact with no explanation whatsoever
i don't think I can fix this
its so painful

>>8845386
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I know the truth.
Am just ug dude with long hair.

>>8845398
Just keep trying to contact her.

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>>8845398
Do you want to talk about it in more detail in private? maybe that could help you come to terms with it.
Ill be busy for the next 2-3 hours, but after that Id have time

>>8845393
>I feel this so hard
>lmao
>I am always ice, but I dont mind , I am used to that. my mom always complains when her feet are cold, I just tell her it doesnt matter because there is no important organs in them.
Wew that's one way to look at it. Tfw not in a position to get lani to warm u up.

>>8845404
i don't know how to get into contact with her now
>>8845406
it won't help. I've tried everything to rationalize it but I just can't. I miss her. and I don't think she'll ever come back

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>>8845403
>Am just ug dude with long hair.
Glad you're starting to take my advice already.

Telling little lies on the internet is the first step in a long and richly rewarding career as a mean girl.

>>8845393
Yeah America seems nice too, I considered it as well but flannel lives here and it's more like how Europe used to be here (no guns or niggas or shady corporation oligarchy shit). Good luck with wherever you end up going for : )

Haven't seen any more spiders here than in Finland which I found a bit surprising considering Aussies reputation :p

>>8845413
Dodnt you have mutual friends you could ask to deliver a message?
You must know some way.

>>8845414
But they aren't lies though senpai.

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>>8845413
alright. If you ever change your mind, feel free to add me on discord.

>>8845412
but you could warm me in like 6 weeks :3

>>8845420
oh right, how is flannel? I havent talked to her in ages.

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>>8845431
You can have my parka if you ever feel cold when I visit :3

>>8845421
ive tried that and got nothing

>>8845431
you and i already know each other but okay

>>8845437
Then you have to keep trying.

>>8845431
Shes good, we're enjoying life and planning on moving out together and our holiday on the mid semester break from uni.

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>>8845112
i had a long, bad, day /legbutts/

>be piece of shit tranny
>3 years hrt, passing, living fulltime
>my boyfriend takes me to his sister's wedding
>first wedding I've ever been to
>all the women are prettier than me
>feel out of place among them
>feel like I stick out like a sore thumb at 5'9"
>start getting super self conscious about my hair
>get an incredibly bad sunburn because i'm wearing a shortsleeve dress and forgot to put on sunscreen
>throw a jacket over my charred skin
>go to the reception, eat lunch, feel nauseous
>can't even enjoy my overpriced glass of wine
>all the while try to be happy for my boyfriend's sake and his sister's sake
>bride and groom dance
>she's fucking gorgeous, like a princess
>her dad does a dance with her
>that will never be me
>even if I did get married, I wouldn't be able to bring my family over without feeling uncomfortable and weird about it
>I can't have a normal life
>i do a shit job of just looking pretty, or even just a normal woman
>my boyfriend's family probably talk about how disappointed they are in him for dating me behind our backs
>they probably think i look like a gross troglodyte

im ready to end my life tbqh

i'm a fraud

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>>8845425
Good start, but when you're confronted with your lies, what you have to do is completely gloss over the accusation and redirect the conversation to something else, perhaps onto some minor pedantic sidepoint in the other person's post. If you're shifting onto the defensive, you've already lost.

You're learning though. Perhaps you're not so hopeless after all.

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>>8845437
>you and i already know each other but okay

most people know me, so I am not surprised at all.
I dont make these offers lightly though, Id try to help you even if youre one of my enemies.

>>8845436
n-no, Id never do that.
youre not used to the cold as much as I am

>>8845439
that sounds really nice
how is her mental health? I recall she had problems that were sorta similar to mine

>>8845441
I don't know why you're doing this, but what I say is truth.
If I wasn't ugly and useless, why do my family tell me I am every day?
People don't constantly say the same things if they aren't true.

>>8845454
I'll just catch some warmth you radiate towards me :3

>>8845438
but how

>>8845454
im not one of your enemies at all

How many of you bi / les people would be willing to date a post op mtf?
If not, why not?

>>8845459
I dont know. But if you really want to save your friendship you have to keep trying

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>>8845458
awwww :3

>>8845468
Junk don't matter, it's about the person.

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>>8845445
m a n g o
f e e l s

>>8845454
I don't know what exactly you two have talked about but we all still medicate it in similar ways I guess. Drugs make life a little bit more tolerable. Overall we're doing good, just gotta find a place of our own and things should be gucchi. Idk how I'm going to afford that while saving for surgeries but maybe there's some way

>>8845468
Would, it's her body she does what she needs to to be happy. Also it'd be hypocritical of me to judge someone for it considering I want to get it myself.

>>8845456
Don't let shitty family members put you down. I learned that last night. I've always had good relations with my parents so I didn't know how bad they can be sometimes :/

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>>8845478
>I don't know what exactly you two have talked about

I actually dont know either, my memory is super terrible

good luck with everything!

>>8845468
I can only date a pre op who isn't afraid to use her penis because I think vaginas are weird and really don't like using my own penis, but if I had a gf(male) who got srs i'd probably stay with her even tho sex would Probably be weird, but I prefer romantic attraction to sexual anyway. Would never have a hook up/date with a cis girl or a post op tho.

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>>8845456
There are lots of reasons people say mean stuff, even if it's not true. Maybe they don't like you. Maybe they're bad people. Maybe they're in the habit of shitting on you and no longer have the ability to engage with you in any other way. If their proofs is nothing but mean words, you shouldn't really care.

If it makes you feel bad, you can always buy laxatives and put them in their milk. Also, post results afterwards.

>>8845468
Dont matter to me whats between someones legs.

>>8845440
weddings in general seem to do a really good job of making people here depressed

>>8845468
>post op mtf
Like something out of a body horror movie.

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>>8845491
>my memory is super terrible
At least we all got that in common

>>8845504
Oh boy I haven't been to a wedding nor a funeral yet. Which one is going to be worse?

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>>8845504
Why is that?
There's food, drinks, music, friends.

>>8845478
>>8845498
Sorry I've been getting real sad at night lately.
I think I feel ok during the day, but once it gets dark and there is no noise, there is nothing to stop my mind racing.

>>8845504
I've never been to a wedding, but I've been to two funerals, one for my cousin who hung himself, and another for my granddad.
They were two of the very very few family members I have who were not completely evil.

>>8845509
>Oh boy I haven't been to a wedding nor a funeral yet. Which one is going to be worse?
probably the funeral, unless it's a wealthy relative

>>8845514
get outta town with that normie shit

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>>8845509
wedding. funerals are very sad, but I feel like because of the shit I went through, Ive the strength to be the reliable person and like, be a shoulder for people that need me.
On weddings, its the other way around. Everyone is happy but I am super sad. a lot harder to deal with.

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>>8845517
>get outta town with that normie shit
I think it's time to normalize yourself.
If all goes according to plan (it probably won't but let's pretend) you might be in for a wedding of your own.

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>>8845516
>there is nothing to stop my mind racing.
this is why i keep myself occupied or drunk/high when it could get quiet

>>8845517
I can't imagine too many people whose death would really hit me hard. It would have to be an unexpected death of someone really close to me and those are pretty unlikely for a few decades.

>>8845520
Yeah I can see this being the case, me locking up in my mind while in a wedding. Mind flooded with negative thoughts of inadequacy and dysphoria.

>>8845440
I bet you looked pretty anon

>>8845516
Hugg ally

>>8845440
If it makes you feel better, marriage is a sham where the best case scenario is you die first

>>8845524
getting married ain't for me senpai

but if it's your thing, have at it

>>8845540
Smart girl

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>>8845514
god they look like the most stereotypical catty mean girls from a high school. like they probably still bully people for no good reason. they probably pull shit like pic

>>8845528
thank you anon

>>8845533
I'm aware. my boyfriend and i have mutually decided not to get married on principle alone. no point in wasting several thousands of dollars on rings and banquets and dresses to reaffirm what we already know: that we love each other. just seems a little pointless. shit image quality, but here's us before leaving for the wedding today

>>8845543
i'm a cis dude, but you're right about the smart part

>>8845545
>thank you anon
see!
I knew you would be

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can i get married to my imaginary boyfriend he says im special and he wants to spend forever together

>>8845525
I've been getting drunk a lot, but it's not very healthy, drinking alone in my room every night.

>>8845532
uwu~
Hugg

>>8845549
Ill go to your wedding

Ill bring an imaginary date

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>>8845552
>drinking alone in my room every night.

you can do that for a few weeks, but after that it gets dangerous. please dont overdo it.

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>>8845555

>>8845557
I haven't in a few days, but the desire to do so is always there.

>>8845555
thank you i thibk it will he a night to remember

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>>8845533
>>8845540
>>8845543
>>8845545
So much disdain for the sacred union that is marriage.
No need to be such sour grapes about it. I am sure you'll be perfectly happy in your childless, poly-amorous, unholy union.

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>>8845552
Come visit us and lets get high together instead. We can cuddle too

>>8845557
I'd say take a break after 3 days after that's it gets a lot harder to stop.

>>8845545
Cute dress, hope it's not a terrible event

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>>8845563
ya Ive been there.
benzos, alcohol etc.
we seem to have similar habits and similar pasts iirc.
I wish I could help you with that, but I dont have the answer either yet. when I figure it out tho, Ill letchu know

>>8845570
I stopped drinking, but I am doing opis now.

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>>8845578
Marginally better I suppose. I cycle pharmacies for otc codeine but booze is still easier to get and works faster. If it wasn't for weed I probably woulda drank and opi'd myself to death by now as I get really easily into a loop.

And I'm the more responsible one with drugs usually...

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>>8845585
ya my bf keeps my pills and I can only use as often and as much as he allows.

I am currently in tramadol, but Ill get oxy next month, and I want to get dihydrocodeine in december or something (this is legal, cause theres a loophole in europe)
100*30g pure dihydrocodeine is like 150€ tho

>>8845566
Nothing wrong with being monagamous but having to get the government involved to make it permanent is obviously a terrible idea 95% of the time, the other 5% being if your SO is rich

I came from a broken home where my dad used to beat us, so I'm probably biased. But still, would rather die alone than be in a toxic relationship

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>>8845566
I want to marry mine, I just dont like other people's weddings

>>8845570
>get high together
Hmm I'll have to think about that one, but ye, I'll definitely go to Aussie eventually.

>>8845578
Yeah I think so, I have a terrible terrible memory though :/

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>>8845592
I wanna try psychedelics next but they're a bit hard to come by for someone who knows about 3 people on the continent. Tried rikodeine last week and it didn't do much, sticking to neurofen or equivalent type of pills.

I kind of want to get benzos just to try them out but idk if flannel would let me as I threatened to kill myself with them earlier this year.

>>8845598
I'd marry my gf if I could for legal rights that straight couples get regarding the right to stay in the country. Sadly that's not an option for now.

>>8845604
We can not get high too, whatever you like bub, just come here and hang out it'll be a good time.

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>>8845607
dont touch benzos.
shit is dangerous af. I am still not over them, despite having used any in 8 months. stick to weed and painkillers please

also killing yourself with benzos is really hard

>>8845613
>despite having used any
despite not having used any

>tfw ur too pathetic and weak and stupid to actually take action and make an effort to improve ur life
i just cant do it mtfg
i hate feeling like this
also
i hate this realitu
there has to be more than this, right?
the only way for this to make any sense is if i exist beyond this
i hate the scientific explanation for the universe
it just happened
it could have never happened, but it did
and because of that we exist
in a universe where nothing matters
there is no purpose to this universe
because it just happened
it just started to exist
we start to exist
with no meaning to our existence
no purpose to it
and then stop existing
it can happen any time
and your existence doesnt matter at any point
because compared to the scale of the universe
we are nothing
and the universe is nothing too when compared to what should exist beyond it
i hate how religion explains it also
i dont want to go to heaven or hell
i dont want to be powerless to a god
our purpose cant just be to live under a certain set of rules so when we stop existing here we can get into the good place forever and not the bad place forever
i need to be important
i have to matter
i know this seems like pretentious pseudophilosophy but for the most part its how i really feel
i hate how i, as a person, am weak and powerless
but even if i wasnt
it still wouldn't make any sense
i still wouldnt be important
this reality
this universe
would still have no purpose
id still have no control
i dont like the possibility that i will cease to exist and other things will continue to exist
if anyone actually reads this, keep in mind this was partially fueled by not getting any sleep and just feeling bad in general, but still
im a pathetic person and mostly believe what i wrote
TL;DR im feeling like shit and decided to type out what is pretty much an edgy pseudo-deep diary entry in mtfg

im dont want to be sad everyday

>>8845604
hey allie, lay off the drugs and lay on the bedtime

thanks

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>>8845613
I'd just like to feel not anxious and functional for a little bit to see what im working towards and I heard benzos can do that. I'd obv have to avoid regular use and stuff, I don't think I'd abuse them but I don't know if I can convince anyone else. And yeah I know killing myself with them woulda been unlikely to work but you aren't exactly in the most rational headspace when at every waking moment you just want to jam something sharp into your jugular to make it stop.

I've managed to be without antidepressants for over a month without planning suicide so I think I'm doing pretty well at the moment. Opis really do help with the shit days.

>>8845619
This basically.

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Just fuck my shit up

i wish i had money for any drugs
but i had to spend 100 dollars on hormones today so thats not gonna happen i guess

>>8845634
Hormones are drugs too.

The best kind of drugs in fact, because they turn you cute.

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>>8845632
ya that sounds pretty good :3

the problem with benzos is that they work REALLY well for anxiety.
which makes only using them occasionaly really hard

its basically impossible to get a benzo prescription here.
I got one when I was so anxious I couldnt speak or eat anymore and had to carry around a laptop so I could communicate with my parents.
it was brutal

>>8845607
Yous get high, I'll just get drunk.
Perf.

>>8845613
Yeah I came off a benzo addiction recently, fucking horrible.

>>8845628
I don't do any drugs except estrofem, cypro, lamictal, and venlafaxine.

>>8845633
hows your face

just mommy my shit up

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>>8845643
I want this too

>>8845545
Aww you two look nice together

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>>8845640
Im struggling in school due to my anxiety so I'd like to get something that works for that and isn't an SSRI like lexapro. Group projects eat major ass because of my voice, I hate opening my mouth and after I say something I spend the rest of the class pondering just how fucking hard I got myself clocked and how much my group members must hate having a tranny in their group.

>>8845641
You don't like weed? We don't need to smoke, westons and finlandia is a good night on their own.

>>8845545
Hey, you're that girl from passgen

>>8845648
nazis don't deserve mommies

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>>8845654
yeah Ive been in the same boat.
Ive held 7 presentations during the winter term. the longest was 2 hours long
ended with me falling back into benzos and completely losing my shit after it was all over.
I risked my relationship with that because he doesnt like drugs and I was using behind his back. stupid, considering he is the only reason I am not killing myself

>>8845658
maybe I wouldnt be a nazi if my mommy had loved me.

>>8845654
>You don't like weed?
Na I never liked it, i smoked it all through highschool cause the stoners were the only group that would have me and I didn't want to be alone.

>>8845658
Everyone does, even assholes like you.

>>8845660
you can always stop being a nazi

>>8845654
Hey Puru, what do you study? Is it one of the cute disciplines?

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>>8845663
but then I would be wrong.
not sure that would be worth it.
and Id not get a mommy that way either, so...

>>8845662
no drugs

>>8845667
its all just emotional bullshit desu
its a comforting ideology for sad people but it's ultimately meaningless and will only result in a miserable society that only lasts for like 15 years

>>8845670
yeah, but what a sweet 15 years

>>8845668
I doooon't do drugs.
I'm a pure innocent flower :)

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>>8845660
>considering he is the only reason I am not killing myself
Yeah that's the relationship dynamic we got going on. What I fear the most about benzos is that the exposure would make her do them and I don't want to hurt her with them.

>>8845662
Don't feel obliged to drink with the drunks either then x)

>>8845664
Compsci but I will pick as much non-nerdy shit like fine arts when I can as minors because this shit is not for me.

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>>8845670
I could change a lot in 15 years.
make me the Führer, and Ill lead us into a better world

>>8845674
ya, Id honestly prefer if you didnt do them at all, or at least use long-acting ones, and dont use xanax

>>8845678
Yeah long-acting ones sound fine. Thanks for the advise, I'll make sure to ask for those if I ever bother dropping money on a psychiatrist again.

>>8845674
>Compsci but I will pick as much non-nerdy shit like fine arts when I can as minors because this shit is not for me.
compsci will get you beaucoup bucks though

fine arts might be fun and i like your drawings, but be careful you don't accidentally become poor, ok

>>8845678
you won't be fuhrer though, you'll be purged in the next night of the long knives like the gay nazis were the first time
all they "changed" was murdering people and doing meth

>>8845673
tfw flower

>>8845633
What the fuck did you do this time? This really hasn't been your week.

>>8845674
But I like drinking and being drunk though.
I never actually enjoyed being stoned.

>>8845678
I'd gladly serve under Führer Phie :P

>>8845690
Gay flower.

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>>8845686
if you think the Röhm-Putsch was about fags, youre wrong

also, why does everyone think nazism cant be modernized in certain areas?

also, being purged would be fine with me. I am not exactly fond of living

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Night girls, it's getting late and I wanna try out this old bicycle I found in the garage tomorrow morning.

>>8845685
I won't be passing the degree if I end up picking difficult majors. I'll pick some design/ux classes too and try and git gud at web design, seems about as hard of a job as I can imagine myself doing.

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>>8845703
goofnight puru!

>>8845678

If you become fuhrer what will your mantra be?

Mones and soil?

>>8845703
good sleeps cutie

>>8845703
sleep tight, mite

seems like a pretty good time for all australians and new zealanders to go to bed

>>8845703

Nini new tripfriend :)

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>>8845708
Blut und Eisen

>>8845703
Nini buddi.

>>8845712
No.

>>8845715
She's been here for years but doesn't come here often

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bAOwBwAv-g
good morning mtfg
post some bops

>>8845726
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nrDkjFjeMYg

It would appear that I'm too depressed to even hate myself. Like I've achieved some true zen of depression where I don't even have the energy for self-destructive behavior because that requires effort.

Finishing school sucks every time it happens I guess.

>>8845719

oh okay, sowwy

>>8845716

damn, I feel sorry for your enemies

>>8845717
yes

don't argue, it's mean

>>8845735
hugg

>>8845740
I don't argue, I state facts and others try to argue them.

>>8845735

So its like you've fell so deep you've fell though the floor?

also mega hugg

Ya know I really want a kitten.

>>8845755
I mean this is more manageable than my regular sadbrains since I'm too exhausted about life and everything in it to go out there and do anything stupid and self-destructive. But yeah, your description sounds appropriate. Hugg.

>>8845746
Hugg

>>8845760
kitten would be so nice i want one too. also hugg

Morning all.
I cut my caveman hair myself the other day. I actually feel kinda cute :) today is the litmus test to see if anyone makes fun of me or puts me in the spotlight. I think my dad was too groggy to notice yesterday.

>>8845765
I wish my cats stayed as kittens, they're much cuter.

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I don't know if you'll read this, but I miss you and wish we could talk again...

>>8845797
same :(

>>8845797
same ):

one of you have to be my mom

>>8845831
Can I just be your friend instead?

Ok this is a new one but i know these people so i wont shit post im sorry for even thinking it

>>8845838
you replied, you have to be my mom now its the rules

>>8845841
hello i remember you from a little while ago : )

>>8845843
No I can't be a mum I can't even take care of myself.

>>8845849
Hi i have realized my purpose to post im getting good at it to they told me i had a choiche to bully lesbians or the mentally ill i chose lesbains but what they dont get is when i say im not trans they say they all say that i dont think they know that im male

>>8845859
i can barely comprehend this post, but im half lesbain and i like being bullied so im all for it
honestly id rather have you here than diaperfag if that means anything pal

>>8845870
>im half lesbain
is that on your mother's or your father's side

>>8845870
... they hate you you know they also hate me i take solace in this its all i have and im already known i just dont agree with the fact that they are the only ones who put cis in front of the thread the gays dont do that thats not fair to you im sorry if i offened you

>>8845875
no we love you hentai

>>8845881
Ahh you do thanks I didn't know i was loved

>>8845884
im bi so its like being half lesbain ya know

Goodnight /mtfg/ remember no bullying.

>>8845889
goodnight
sleep well
dream of going on cute dates with mommy faye uwu :3

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>>8845889
Sleep tight. I'm going to tell lies about you while you're sleeping and you're not here to correct them.

>>8845889
Good night Allybee.

>>8845889
Good night

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>>8845642
Oh pretty shit.
>>8845693
Dislocated right shoulder with a cup fracture.

Waifu says If I fight again I 'm single u_u

Who wants a headpat

>>8845936
me
i want a headpat

>>8845936
Only if you pat hard enough to knock me out

>>8845897
We need to talk

>>8845936
Will you kill me with a hatchet instead

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>>8845936
I would like a very highquality beep headpat
i-if it wouldnt be too much trouble

>>8845945
Oh?
>>8845936
yes pls

>>8845959
It's something important. I'm not willing to share here.

>>8845962
Maxoxo#6020

>>8845965
Doesn't help when you have me blocked

>>8845975
I don't want anymore of your lies, claire. It always ends up with me in tears.

>>8845975
>people who keep trying to contact you after you blocked them
Why do people do this? It's annoying as fuck.

>>8845978
its not us messaging you

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>>8845905

>>8845978
I'm not Claire.

>>8845213
You sound trans desu

May as well start hrt before it's too late

>>8845989
If i blocked you, i had a reason to. Leave me alone and never talk to me again.

>>8845999
You blocked me when you blocked everyone.

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>>8845939
uwu
>>8845940
*gives u soup and tuccs u in*
>>8845953
hatchet family 4 lyfe
>>8845957
ill pat you with BOTH hands
>>8845959
uwu
>>8845989
yeah its rAIN NOW! jeez

>>8845999
lia please unblock her for just 5 minutes.

tfw no beep gf

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Im too high to stand up AMA

You'd all be much happier if you became REAL MEN instead of deluding yourselves into thinking you're women. Go to the gym and get big! Make your father proud! Embrace testosterone

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>>8846006
cute bun uwu :3

>>8846015
STOB FABBING SDART LIBBING :D :D :D

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>>8845985
Fuck off puff >.o

Its trutrans to have fragile bones

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>>8846015
anon, I am afraid its too late for me...
go on without me, tell my testosterone that I am sorry

>>8846006
OMG youre the nicest ^_^

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>>8846012
;-; nonny i love u
>>8846016
NICE BUN
>>8846024
uwu

>>8846029
tfw no beeps to protect from her enemies and receive headpats as payment

>>8846029
ily2 beep

>>8846033
beepbeep doesn't have enemies, everyone likes her

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>>8846015
I am a real man IN DISGUISE

>tfw faketrans

>>8846037
Some people treat her like trash irl. I want to protect her.

I need hugs n cuddles desu

>>8846039
fag

>>8846043
>Some people treat her like trash irl.
those people are carbitch and i hope they win the lottery, but lose the ticket before they can cash it

>>8846044
huggu

>>8846043
please let her talk to you. She's missing you so badly

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>>8846033
It's me

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>>8846044
Soon kiddo.
>>8846047
Whaa?
>>8846050
I can't. I'm sorry.

>>8846046
Nuh

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>>8846039
lani lani

how was your beer festival yesterday?

>>8846055
Why can't you

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>>8846057

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>>8846055
Nice to meet you btw Maxokream, hope you kill uglyclaire or whatever

>>8845633
Stop fighting boyss

>>8846059
I can't.
>>8846062
More like ignore her forever.

>>8846055
uwu
*steals and proteccs you from the ebil 4chinz*

>>8846065
Will you ever

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>>8846058
Amazing
We both drank like 1.5 litres of amazing beer each. We got there early enough to try a bunch of cask beers, plus there was a lot of fruity stuff this year. Also, I got to try a gose and some barley wine.

10/10 can't wait for next year.

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>>8846064
I'm not allowed to fight nobodies now u_u

Now its straight to the knife or gun

J is furious :(

Also my pain tolerance without T sucks wtf valq

>>8846066
UwU
>>8846068
When someone causes me stress just by talking to me, i just shut down so not in the present or foreseeable future

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A-are lumps behind the nipple normal??

>>8846077
I'm so sorry

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>>8846078
they're called "breasts"

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>>8846078
yes, thats probably swollen glands. if you were to stop hrt, theyd be gone within 2-5 days

>>8846072
that sounds awesome.

I had started drinking straight beer again as well. tho Ive basically stopped again cause pills
but I like beer, its pretty great

>tfw cant show lani german beers

why even live

>>8846078
yes. theyre growing

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beep

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>>8846086
You, me, Oktoberfest when??

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>>8846095
that would be great
ive never actually been there

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>>8846098
I expect it would be loud and very drunk.
Come to Canada, we have the largest one outside Munich

>>8846078
It's coagulated milk.

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Thank god for the buddha or I would sudoku

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>>8846108
I honestly would if I could afford it and was less scared of places with a lot of people

Well the good thing is it got me out of repression.

>>8846091
bUN!!!!!!

so this is where the trutrans girls in this in this board hang out? nobody here is into girls or an old hon?

>>8846074
Ure a girl now, muscle is wasting away. No more T to rage you throug things.
Pls be safe

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>>8846091
I want to fuck bun bun puss puss

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>>8846120
I am only an old hon, thats good enough, right?

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>>8846120
Nope, no transbians here

>>8846113
>ywn guide Sophie through massive crowds and help her get used to scary things
Bad feel

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>>8846117
hugg

how 2 get a therapist?

>>8846140
ask your doctor

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>>8846140
call one, make an appointment, go to the appointment

>>8846130
that would be so nice ;-;
Id probably shake a bit tho

>>8846122
I will i give up trying to be tough im sorry

I wish you could visit my life is fucked now I have to drive like 60 hours and go to my job interview looking like a fragile piece of shit

At least im being hired for management skills and not strength but im a fucking mess

No more fighting I promise

I am sad please help

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>>8846151
HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG HUGG

>>8846151
*helps you*

>>8846151
huggu

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>>8846145
I will hold you and keep you safe

>>8846122
>>8846146
I hip threw my 6'5 peon Luke but he grabbed onto my arm as I flipped him so the force of my throw with his weight as a lever dislocated and cracked my shoulder. I was so pleased with how hard I flipped him for a second until that hot numbness ran up my arm. Pain on anti androgens is fucked.

>>8846154
>>8846155
>>8846157
this made me smile thank you anons and Katya

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>>8846159
this is exactly what I need
youre the best!!

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>>8846163
Autism

>>8846163
uwu

>>8846172
go eat a fist
again

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>>8846167
Anytime bae

>>8846172
U should beat them up to assert ur dominance or whatever it is you do

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>>8846163
Who is Katya?

I love being a girl. That is all. :3

>>8846180
im a new tripfriend : )