Spring cleaning edition
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Reducing Muscle http://www.trans-health.com/2001/lose-muscle-gain-fat-dieting-for-mtfs/
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
• No Bullying
Old thread; >>8083804
>>8085320
That was very kind of you, Ash.
tfw no pretty bed
>>8085320
>Makeup for beginners
me thread
>>8085338
>star face boy
What a creative name xD
>>8085338
edie in the top left
>>8085342
Made a new thread right on schedule.
>>8085342
your cats are on your bed in like every picture you post lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7MGUNV8MxU
>15 seconds in
M-Mommy
>>8085320
cats smell
hey bros
>>8085301
whered you get that idea
>>8085315
okay well hating her is perfectly fine then I think but still idk if killing yourself world be best course
>>8085325
It's just a Raspberry PI with labeling for the expansion header pins. Yeah, I muck about with electronics. Crazy thing is designing something like that is easy for me.
>>8085336
I wanted to be one as a kid.
y does kayla hate sparky?
kayla just sperged out in passgen and I dont get it.
>>8085355
I like the way you type
>>8085320
I'm balding and about to start hormones. The bald spot is prominent and unhideable. At first I was thinking of going with a high quality jet black wig to suit my Gothic aesthetics, but now I'm considering going with an obviously unnatural color so it doesn't look like I'm trying to hide the fact that I'm wearing a wig.
What does /mtfg/ think?
>>8085369
Not her trip
discord.gg/transpeak
>>8085369
I think she hates almost everyone ._.
>>8085373
go for a lighter aesthetic!
>>8085358
are you some kind of gay homosexual
>>8085358
honestly cate blanchett in that trailer is goals
What I'm playing with electronics wise now, and making these posts from.
I am a gay homosexual
>>8085366
RPi tinkering is fun
>>8085369
Kayla's a meme
>>8085383
looks like an xenomorph
>>8085388
i want to transition into hela tbqh
>>8085366
Where did you learn all of this tinkering from!?
>>8085338
>>8085385
how gay tho
>>8085393
i'd say i'm a 5 on the kinsey scale
>>8085382
Prbly
>>8085383
I fuckin know right
what's everyone listening to?
>>8085379
But I like black nail polish, black lipstick and dark eye make-up...Wah, wah, wah.
>>8085384
Wow :O How much does that run you normally?
>>8085395
i always get 1 but that test is bunk
>>8085385
An astonishing revelation.
>>8085395
that means you are very bi though....
I'm bored..AMA! :3
should I eat more ice cream?
>>8085397
silence
it feels like there's nothing to listen to in my itunes library of like 200 albums
>>8085391
More like Trend face boy! :o
>>8085406
Wanna date?
>>8085406
should i go to sleep or stay awake forever
There is something so satisfying about dicing up fresh garlic. It feels so good, gets me excited to taste the meal when Im done cooking it. Gosh I love Garlic.
>>8085406
On a scale of cis fetishist to chops dick off to get off, how agp are you?
>>8085369
anyone talking about getting surgery means they're rich while poor kay has to live off of mommy
anyone passing in anyway going to get hate from k monster
>>8085408
as much as you want
>>8085406
How do you pass when you're six feet tall with 18-20 inch shoulders, big hands and MPB?
>>8085413
I already claimed you as my wife though
>>8085414
You've been on like all dai. I've done took a nap and stuff already :S
>>8085422
delet this
>>8085423
Put a little flag in my butt to signify ownership.
>>8085424
i dont think i would
>>8085424
Kinsey scale 1 is like exclusively hetero 10 is exclusively homo I think
>>8085423
>his choice is burch's chaser
worst taste in the whole thread
>>8085406
Is benzaderm peroxide good for acne?
Im using it and it doesn't seem to affect my acne. Makes my face feel clean.
>>8085432
maybe later
>>8085435
oh i forgot but the hydro boost stuff you recommended gets here on wednesday :>
>>8085444
yeah but its straightga..
oh wait i cant do that anymore..
>tfw whopping great bazonkers
they're growing again and they've never hurt this much, the skin is drying out and fuckin ow bruh
nearly a c-cup
"HRT was a mistake"
-bruce "caity ""cait """caitlyn""""""" jenner
I had a lesson with Zheanna the other day and I did some Practice stuff she gave me.
I really hope I did it right, I don't want to screw up my voice and end up paying over 500 dollars in lessons.
>>8085435
I can travel every now and then. What do you wanna eat?
>>8085444
lol I think you are right actually sorry
I need to sleep I guess
>>8085437
Kinsey scale is 0-6. 0 being straight as an arrow and 6 being straight as an arrow in flight.
>>8085451
i hope it went well!
i havent been able to get lessons because my mom has been home x-x
>>8085450
honkhonk
>>8085362
pre transition grace?
>>8085450
your Australian lingo is getting out of hand.
>>8085437
I think it is 1-6
not sure why
>>8085450
Congratz :) I don't know many girls that go to C cup and beyond
>>8085461
Zheanna.
>>8085450
I think she never actually said that and it was just made up tabloid
ok lads i think i'm going to make sushi again today
>>8085440
It depends on if your acne is hormonal or bacterial, when do you find yourself breaking out most?
>>8085446
Yay! I'm super excited for you to try it out, I've heard a lot of good things about it! <3
>>8085452
Beignets!
>>8085467
>Zheanna
who
>>8085473
i hope it helps with my redness x0x
>>8085471
never say that word again please
>>8085474
how newfag
she's gone, or possibly just anonposting but pretty sure she's gone
>>8085480
sushi?
>>8085478
From what I've experienced water based gel type moisturizers are very gentle and calming !
>>8085473
I think its bacterial as im not on hrt yet
>>8085473
That was far more specific than I anticipated. I have never tried one!
>>8085484
i really hope so
i get really self-conscious about it ;-;
>>8085383
I didn't even recognise her I had to double check
she is doing good for 48
>>8085386
I've liked it over the years.
>>8085390
I started working with electronics when dad brought a computer home from work. It was the size of three refrigerator cabinets. It was old back in '73, and not supported my the manufacturer for some time. I learned how to repair it, then extend it's memory, etc. Funny bit is my replacement memory banks were 8 times the capacity of each of it's refrigerator sized memory banks, and fit on a single circuit board about a foot square. That meant two of the refrigerator sized cabinets were not needed anymore. Eventually I replaced the main processor using TTL chips, and I reduced the computer to just 5 circuit boards and it ran faster too. Initially each card was the equivalent of one TTL chip. I then transferred the logic over to a wire wrap board, and changed the timing to as fast as the TTL chips would allow. I've kept playing with electronics during the rest of my life.
>>8085482
lads
>>8085488
Then a sulfur-based treatment would be best for you, have you ever checked out the Murad acne line?
>>8085490
I had some a couple of years ago and I fell in love! It also picked up my taste for southern food like Louisiana cuisine.
>>8085358
>short haired and bearded Chris Hemsworth
d-daddy
>>8085497
i've been talking to a girl who says that a lot lately lol
i've been calling people dudes more often too.
I guess it's upsetting for newer ppl, i'll stop
>>8085504
i call my mom dude is that weird
the real reason nims face is always red is because she is always thinking about eva
>>8085491
I'm so sorry imouto <3 I really hope this works out! I know how you feel though, during the winter when it's really windy here my face gets chapped and red! n_n
>>8085505
not rly i call my sister the greek equivalent of dude
another invite since the last ran out https://discord.gg/3Mc3B
>>8085504
I'm not new I just hate the word lad
>ywn be Rose
why live ;~;
>>8085506
h-how did you know..
>>8085512
are you british
>>8085505
>calls her mommy dude
>her daddy was an intersex tranny on hrt who dressed as a mommy at the preschool she(he) owned
>>8085399
There's maybe $150 in parts there. RPI 3, servo controller board, and 4 LED driver boards.The LED driver boards are my own design, and hand soldered.
>>8085514
because i'm a pearl silly
not pretty enough to be lapis
sad tho
>>8085507
for some reason i get all dried out even though i drink a lot of water every day!
like i have to rub petroleum jelly on my lips three times a day or they're ALWAYS chapped
it sucks :(
Is there any signs that could help me know if my T is in female range without a bloodtest?
>>8085498
No, I dont know much about how to treat my acne other than washing my face ;~;
>>8085502
I apologize for a late response; I was reading about them.
Those actually sound really, REALLY good, and since I have nothing much better to do, I think I'm gonna go either find some or make some. Thank you!
Ugh I think I over did it today with the cleaning because my back feels like death.
>>8085516
no
people who say lad online are almost always the idiot shit poster type coming from int,pol,or r9k
then they come here and call us lads and talk about how we are failed males
>>8085528
cracc bacc
>>8085526
>when did i say her dressed as a mommy wtf
>her
confirmed for your daddy being a girl :)
>>8085495
That's hella huge for a PC. I know that was before my time ;_; How were you able to reduce the memory's physical size to a single circuit board? Is it using those new fancy TTL chips? Or was that just for the CPU?
>>8085531
no i meant he wtf
>>8085523
how much semen you produce and its color mebbe
>>8085523
not really, but clear cum may indicate it.
>>8085521
Try Carmex! I used constantly always have chapped lips but now it is like my saving grace. Also it has a nice little tingle to it since it's medicated!:3
>>8085525
Well I can link you to a good spot cream that works really well! ^^
>>8085527
Oh it's totally fine, I'm just bored and taking it easy. I love the ones at Disneyland because they were shaped like Mickey Mouse! >w<
>>8085534
:)
https://youtu.be/GQQ-xyPITj8
>>8085549
Nce comic xD
>>8085549
>repressing tranny has bigger shoulder than the tranny tranny
>>8085551
>>8085519
I just love Rose's hair and how pretty she is, plus her VA has a beautiful voice
I need to watch less cartoons desu
>>8085549
Best comic
>>8085546
Okay! that sounds good.
>>8085560
that's a cis girl
http://www.strawpoll.me/12722309
>>8085567
even worse
>>8085565
Here you go ^w^
http://m.sephora.com/product/P4001?skuId=1933100&icid2=skugrid
It was my go to in high school when I had bad acne!
>>8085193
>lol if only i could be this delusional
oh, well, surely you know i'm exaggerating, right?
it's only 11 inches, but 13 is just a fun number, you know?
>>8085182
>and i forget that you have a legendary 13" mercurial rod ready to blow at any moment. i need to take a ride to the stars bb
LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
yes, come bb, i will let u ride into another galaxy ok
i mean, it sounds like its all very nice and good, so like you may as well "just do it already" so to speak?
i can totally get what you mean about someone liking you being kind of suspect, but yeh you are a very nice and good girl, he would be lucky to have you imo i think
>>8085171
ok, i'm going to download and make a grindr rn
what should I put on it do you think beep?
>>8085196
;------; godspeed anon, i wish you well
>>8085533
It wasn't a PC. It was an early resistor Transistor logic based computer from the late '50s or early '60s. Dad's work was trowing it out because nobody wanted it. It was cheaper to buy and power a newer model computer than to power it. The memory banks were core memory. 4k words data, and 4k words program. That's it. The RPI3 I'm using has a million times the memory that computer had.
I made some level translation logic that allowed me to use TTL circuits, and 16k bit SRAM memory chips to replace each bank and expand it's size. Each chip was around .8" x .4" and two of them couple be placed in each square inch. It only took 8 chips to replace each memory bank cabinet. 4 square inches of board space per cabinet. That is how much things had advanced in size reduction.
>>8085542
T is likely nuked.
>>8085494
they digitally deaged her i think
i have a friend who looks like Blanchett (except hotter,) and now I miss her
>>8085564
i don't really watch many anymore, but i did introduce my little baby cousins to SU and they enjoyed the heck out of it
How old is Grace, and what is her biggest flaw?
-Tranny Investigation Bureau
>>8085576
what does it mean when nothing comes out anymore
>>8085581
Idk and not living close enough to me!
how do i stop misgendering myself?
how do i stop trying to act like a boy?
>>8085567
you just blew my mind
>>8085587
Personally if I lived close to you, I would pick Kayla over you. I want a violent alpha gf, too many beta trannies that aint about shit except cats and autistic cartoons.
>>8085528
u should go to the chiropractor OR get the cats and dogs to walk on your back for a bit
lol
>>8085514
>wanting to be rose
>>8085596
I mean if mental abuse is your thing then you do you! :)
>>8085602
mentally abuse me big sis :3
>>8085603
oh good
they didn't put up much of a fight desu
>>8085599
I'll just stretch better at the gym tomorrow n.n The heating pad I'm using right now is working pretty nice though ~
>>8085596
I think I should make a home made tazer....
>>8085576
That's pretty impressive :)
>>8085602>>8085608
my throat is really hurting rn, but i saw this and laughed so hard i choked a little, i think my throat is on fire or something THANKS ASH ):
no but really that was rly funny
heating pads are nice!
i feel like Yoga would be a good way to start a workout, im gonna have to try that at some point
>>8085604
B-but you're my precious little sister! And I've never really mentally abused anyone, since I'm a pacifist. But maybe you and Eva could try that out as like a kink or something?
ive ordered so much stuff from amazon lately that i just realized i ordered two different types of shampoos x-x
>>8085578
It's a fun little show
>>8085569
wew I love the princess Marco version
>>8085588
Let me know too desu
>>8085614
AHHHHHHH i was kidding but now you're talking about me and eva and kinks
>>8085613
Haha gah gomen! <3
And yes yoga is great for the body!
>>8085608
You may consider doing some slow stretches now. Nothing to drastic, and definitely not fast.
>>8085619
Hehehehe *pokes cheek* my imouto is the cutest!
i think i'll pass, twitter
>>8085629
Yeah I should definitely before bed, thanks for the tip! :3
>tfw want to transition but don't want family to find out because know they're bigoted
It's a bad feel
>>8085588
i think i pass already but i keep misgendering myself and introducing myself as a male
>>8085636
Do it anyway, forget what they think.
>>8085576
I hope it's nuked, that would be nice.
>>8085636
#Feelsbadman
>>8085636
Fuck em, don't let other people's opinions keep you from being you
>this cat comes up and sits in your lap
Wat do?
>>8085588
Easy! Don't go on autopilot when you are talking to people. Be consciously aware of your talking and choice wisely. That goes for anything.
>>8085632
h-haha
>>8085648
"you're in my spot"
>>8085648
Catnip as bait
>>8085648
Pat head
>>8085648
i'd pet it
>>8085320
what are some things that you do when you feel dysphoric and want to feel more female?
I hate that i pass and live full-time but I still get dysphoria regularly
>>8085648
pat
where kitler tho?
>>8085655
:3
>>8085648
oh we catposting now?
>>8085663
How are you dysphoric if you're full-time and pass?
>>8085663
the fear of always having dysphoria despite passing makes me wanna die desu
>>8085655
*blocks ur path*
>>8085666
wow i want to post my dog but i cant
my dog is def cuter than all ur cats jsyk
>>8085668
dysphoria doesn't go away you dumdum /:
>>8085648
>Wat do?
*intimidating stare"
>>8085667
wwwwwwwwwwwww
>>8085657
>>8085660
>>8085662
>>8085664
Nimkitty is eating~
& Boots says "thank you very meowch for the pets!"
Kitter
>>8085676
>>8085667
;w; what a precious baby!!
>>8085648
hmm
>>8085678
>thank you very meowch for the pets!
UwU
>>8085610
In the development I lived in we had an engineer from Brookhaven Labs that did electronics work for them. He helped me initially learn electronics and programming in machine language. He also got copies of the circuit diagrams for the computer line ours came from. Quite neat, and that taught me lots about both digital logic, and analog circuits. Each 5" x 8" board that made up the computer was 4 or 6 logic circuits implemented in discrete resistors and transistors. Through advancements in electronics, each board was eventually reduced to a single TTL logic chip by the mid '70s. That allowed me to reduce the whole computer to just a few circuit boards.
>>8085682
.............holy shit is this a shoop?
>>8085673
lol u wish
>>8085663
Positive reinforcement or treat yourself to some healthy snacks!
>>8085690
she is though, you can ask anyone whos seen her
i'm not exaggerating at all
http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/295012.php
>Cat ownership in childhood linked to greater risk of later-life mental illness
Cat owners are autists....astonishing and completely unexpected correlation ! :^)
>>8085679
Awhhhhh <3
>>8085682
LOL win
>>8085672
Look who jumped up!
>>8085696
she looks like she has eyeliner on!
>>8085689
What a sweet boy, I would give him lots of love a treats <3
>>8085696
wanna jingle that bell. name?
>>8085685
Have you ever thought about getting cereal about doing it for a living? You seem quite knowledgeable. :o
okay goodnight!
>>8085632
I hope you shut up you're annoying and ugly
>>8085701
Genevieve aka Nimkitty!
>>8085705
Goodnight and sweet dreams! <3
>Go to bed
>Cry
>Go to sleep
>Have dreams
>Cry
>Wake up
>Cry
>>8085706
Awww is Anon having a bad day? I hope you feel better!
>>8085705
))head pat(( gn
>>8085705
Night Nim!
>>8085705
goodnight nim
>>8085713
why are you talking about my life?
>>8085696
daww adolf kitler :3
>>8085656
Sometimes, it helps with flexibility and balance!
>>8085713
*hugs*
>>8085718
EFFORT
LEADS TO HOPE
HOPE
LEADS TO FAILURE
FAILURE
LEADS TO DESPAIR
>>8085713
that feel is one i know. positive goodtimes vibes comin atcha
>>8085710
Yeah! Like saying positive stuff to yourself in the mirror like the Sims do!
>>8085704
I'm working on some computer controlled artwork right now. I've also done it in the past. A big issue is it is a bit costly so the art pieces won't be cheap.
>>8085722
despair leads to suicidal ideation
suicidal ideation leads to suicide attempts
suicide attempts lead to death
death leads to escape
escape leads to happiness
>tfw realize all of my college memories and experiences aside from therapy were as a guy
>tfw one day someone will end up wondering why I never have pics of myself from college
>>8085713
iktf
>>8085727
Do you have a portfolio?
Well I have to get to the gym early tomorrow, I hope all of you have a lovely night.
>>8085732
Night Ash!
>>8085732
sleep tight, have a head pat, you're doing a great job at life even if you don't feel like it sometimes.
>>8085732
Sleep well!
>>8085729
>Those pictures are on facebook
>People have probably talked about you once in the last 4 years.
>>8085723
haha :^) funny
>>8085728
i want it i need it
>>8085732
Sweet dreams!
>>8085340
Ew. Why goats .
>>8085732
nini
>>8085735
>ywn be as cute as this trap
>>8085732
Thank you so much for the advice nini
>>8085737
ok i take em all back. please ignore my previous statement
>>8085738
That would be a hella good idea :) That way you can show other people interested in your work and for potential employers.
I want to fucking destroy myself lmao
>>8085755
Your life is valuable :)
my boyfriend and i just bought 10 rats and threw them out his truck on the freeway oh god it was such a rush
>mother hears me crying in room and asks what's wrong
>tell her I'm just waiting for them to die so I can kill myself
>she starts crying and asks what went wrong in my life
>shit i dont know my life was a disaster before I was even conceived
>call her a selfish piece of shit for having kids and slam door in her face
>can hear her praying now
Should I feel bad. I only feel partially bad. Half vindicated half guilty.
>>8085759
y u so mean? :(
>>8085763
rats arent like dogs they are just pests
they would have been snake food anyways
plus im rolling pretty hard so we're gonna go fuck in the bed of his truck under the stars
>>8085766
yes it was so much fun i think i am ready to take the next step with him
>>8085762
>My hate filled words have no effect on my mother because she doesn't care
W T F
>>8085773
oh rly?
r u into crushing?
remember when tripcodes meant something
Would Kayla be considered a sociopath or psychopath?
>>8085781
>sociopath
not quite there yet...
>>8085762
Yes, you are an asshole. If you are so worried about hurting them by killing yourself, why hurt them now?
its not kayla
You should be able to solve this.
>>8085774
She is actually retarded like mentally deficit I just called her the worst thing you can say to another person in our native language.
>>8085777
I don't want anything to do with these people. They're not family. I am only taking her maiden name to remind myself constantly to never become her.
>>8085785
what is it than?
>>8085762
Honestly, given what she's done to you, you shouldn't feel bad at all.
Kayla and Drake should just get married and get the fuck out of here and leave us alone.
I'm smart, I have Kayla filtered.
>>8085784
They've done things to me that would make most people feel sick to even hear about.
I hate them but I can't help but pity them, watching them get old and frail.
>>8085788
>Child of a vegetarian that doesn't eat vegetables
>Literally on pills and injections for deficiencies that would go away with eating one fucking healthy food item
>Surprised when I turn out like shit
>>8085778
they never really meant anything t b h lol
i remember lils once told me about how serious and big of a responsibility having a trip was and i was just like ... or it's an identifier
>>8085800
Cavemen ate organically but they didn't live long :(
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pllfDEOiO-8
Idc I'll die a boy
Idc about anything
Atleast not enough to do anything ever
Fuck
>>8085790
Drake or Elanna
>>8085803
i'm just remarking on the fake kayla
>>8085799
that means you still have a shred of empathy. hang on to it. like, that whole blood is thicker than water adage is straight bullshit, but they're still human, just like you
>>8085799
I apologize for being presumptuous. I would like to ask about what has happened, but I understand you being reserved.
>>8085807
Fake Kayla… Real Kayla… It doesn't matter she still the worst trip.
>>8085807
u have to admit tho it's pretty funny lmao
"oh god it was such a rush" made me scream
>>8085808
What a cheap book. Is it from 1970?
>>8085814
I could actually see her doing that but instead she would be throwing the rats at people she thought passed better than her.
>>8085817
l m a o YEAH MAYBE BUT I DON'T THINK KAYLA IS THAT WHITE TRASH
>>8085818
Never underestimate someone that mentally ill!
>>8085800
Holy hell. Hope you guilt them as often as you can.
>>8085809
"The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb" is the correct saying, to mean friendships and relationships mean more than just your family. I am dead to my family and they're dead to me.
>>8085810
Lots of abuse. I talk about specific things they do occasionally but not right now.
AJ really makes me wanna get a Louis Vuitton bag like my mom had when i was growing up but i'm scared i'm gonna get mugged lmao
is it dangerous to walk around with an expensive bag?
Ima call kayla ratgirl now
>>8085804
The average age is low because of childhood mortality.
>>8085808
>not getting your essential iron and b12 in injection form
>>8085821
Yes :S
>>8085820
What keeps you in contact with them?
>>8085821
As long as you aint in ratgirls hood then you should be fine
>>8085829
I live in their house.
>>8085799
*HUGS*
My last gf in HS had been mentally, physically, and sexually abused by her parents. I met her after her and her sister had run away. I have an idea what it is like to grow up in a hostile home.
>>8085820
>>8085837
/DEFO/ GENERAL
>>8085581
20. Well gee anon take your pick on that one, there's plenty.
>>8085587
<3 u ash, you're always the best
>>8085596
>violent alpha gf
I'm not your type then, dont worry.
>>8085839
None for you. It's dangerous to go alone! Bring a friend!
>>8085837
Seiryu are you good at interpreting dreams?
>>8085838
My mother had 2 kids before me
They ran away at ages 8 and 6 and travelled 2 states alone to live with their abusive alcoholic father
My father had 1 kid before me
He ran away at 12, got mixed up in gangs
My parents don't have a good track record of raising kids
>>8085842
D E A D
same time EVERY night
>>8085848
Uhmm I wouldn't really say so? You would understand your own dreams better than anyone else because your subconscious acts entirely on emotion and memory and I can't read either for any other person.
I can try though.. posting is a bit slow since I'm on my phone. Flood here blew out internet.
Night yall! I shouldn't stay up as late as I did yesterday :X Sweet sleep when that time comes for yall
>>8085856
What does it mean when I have a dream where all I did was cry?
Internet came back up, for now.
>>8085867
Why were you crying?
>>8085867
do you cry when you're not dreaming?
>>8085870
I dont know
I feel asleep feeling emotionless and dead and then I had a dream of me crying for an incredibly long time then I just woke up.
>>8085867
>What does it mean when I have a dream where all I did was cry?
To dream that you are crying signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations.
>>8085878
you must have a lot of emotion built up and this was a weird way of catharsis
>>8085873
We can't choose to be born, sadly. If I could, I think I would want to simply nevet exist at all than live.
I never asked for this.
>>8085874
Sounds vaguely like you're repressing a lot of sadness or guilt or feelings pent up. And your subconscious which doesn't have your active conscious to block it from "feeling" anything acts it out while it has an open stage.
>>8085873
Or you can just eat a few eggs.
tfw i subconsciously picked all my scabs this past couple hours
>>8085881
none of us asked for this. We're the products of a sex determination system designed by mutation. It kinda works most of the time, we are just the outliers where it failed.
I wish I could cry.
Instead I have to do it in my dream which didn't help at all.
I hate this feeling.
>>8085889
>tfw switched to cypro 50mg
>tfw cry every fucking day now
>>8085890
I already cry a lot, but I hold back the tears. I worry I am going to be a mess on cypro.
>>8085894
mess is exactly the word for what you'll be
>what the fuck is that noise outside it sounds like a billion golf balls hitting the ground
Is that hail..?
>>8085892
No, why?
>>8085885
I already eat 3 large eggs a day, and my body fails to absorb enough b12 and other things.
>>8085892
I wouldn't say it is always selfish, but when one doesn't properly take care of them, it can be.
I wish my parents had interveined with the school and stopped the bullying. As is they sent me off to hell every day. I emotionally detached from them a some point. The mother child bond is broken on my side.
>>8085899
Sounds about right for hail. I had some a few nights ago.
>>8085892
>Having kids is awful and selfish
you're so fucking crazy
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4399076/China-deploys-150-000-troops-North-Korea-border.html
>>8085903
well i'd feel fucking guilty for bringing another me into the world
>>8085900
Because on HRT you'll probably cry a lot whether you want to or not.
Off HRT on testosterone it's really easy to repress and ignore feelings.
On HRT it is... not easy. In fact, it's impossible.
>>8085901
I think it's always selfish. By forcing children to live against their will, you are also forcing them to die. Having children is murder.
How do I stop being clingy?
>>8085907
Guy on HRT is the greatest life.
>>8085908
Spreading your clinginess thin works. Does whoever you're clingy with dislike it? Because personally I have a needy/clingy girl and it's pretty great.
>>8085909
Okay lass.
everything about me is boy
>>8085907
I will not come out to someone unless asked, but that should inevitably happen because I plan on trying to be very feminine in appearance and dress.
>>8085903
How is it anything but the epitome of selfishness?
You don't have kids because you want to give your potential child an amazing life.
You have kids because YOU want it, it's not about the child, it's about YOU. You want to satiate your stupid primitive desire to breed, to the point you're willing to force a human being to life and force it to endure the hell that is life.
That's not just selfishness, it's pure sadism.
>>8085912
everything about me is boy except tits
>>8085910
He likes it but I feel bad. All I do is want to cuddle and kiss.
>>8085912
everything about me is a girl
>>8085912
Lucky
>>8085918
Nice funnyjunk filename. Girls don't go on funnyjunk.
pandora was wondering if i'm intersex.
is my condition that serious?
i'm p sure my genitals are normal
>>8085906
what if you cry alot before hrt and barely can hold it back? will it just become more on hrt?
>>8085923
What if he gets annoyed by me, or bored?
>>8085925
Yes for a year at least, it settles down after a while
i read the word 'unwanted' and cried
>>8085925
Yeah, but you'll feel better when you're full of estrogen. So you'll have a little less to cry about.
>>8085922
Oh shit you found me out on going on a shitty website
>implying im a girl on an /mtfg/
>>8085932
no they don't
otherwise i wouldn't have cried
Do you ever just start crying without knowing why?
>>8085932
i'm thinking about getting some genetic testing done.
hopefully i can
I wish I was intersex
>>8085931
what board do you shitpost on?
>>8085939
When in doubt the reason is always because I'm a tranny
Other times it is also because I am a tranny
>>8085944
why not wish you were cis
>>8085947
Then I wouldnt be special
>>8085947
That's too detached from my life. I have no idea what being cis would be like. But I do know getting luckier with my genetics and transition would be nice.
>>8085945
What do you mean?
I dont do much but lurk there.
>>8085941
Good luck, what symptoms do you think you have?
>>8085955
It would make it easier for me. I've got awful genetics for a transition.
>>8085954
i definitely had high levels of t w/ relatively low levels of male success.
chronic weakness.
faggy appearance & mannerisms.
i mean for mais, or sbma
>>8085957
All life is suffering. No amount of positivity you get in life can negate that.
>>8085957
ovotestis?
>>8085959
>that
>high T
Yeah you definitely had some sort of androgen insensitivity syndrome, at the least.
>>8085957
It's not like being trans is all that great by itself.
All I know is I look awful, and all the intersex posters here look better than I ever will.
>>8085959
You kind of look like Lalalily.
:'(
>>8085980
What am I looking at?
>>8085980
hwut
>>8085980
i hate hospitals
everyone staring at the ill person like it's some sick form of entertainment
>>8085967
i just checked.
nevada medicaid does not cover genetic testing.
i hope there's some other way of finding out
>>8085979
who's lalalily?
>>8085982
Looks like they got stuck in a ward or something
>>8085989
Another trip.
>>8085965
Have you ever been in love with somebody? If not I can see whey you may say that. I have, and it is wonderful.
>>8085966
They are gonads that contain both ovarian and testicular tissues.
>>8085968
Intersex kids are often surgically modified to male or female. That leaves scars, and potential lack of sensation.
>>8085989
>>8085992
>>8085993
I thought I did. I was told that I was a monster incapable of love. It feels like love. Maybe just a white hot obsessive passion. I think they're right though, and I'm incapable of love. Certainly not receiving it back either.
Heartbreak is one of the worst things in life, probably the worst. I don't care to be fed lies on how life is amazing and wonderful because you can feel worthless and defeated and humiliated after being abandoned yet again.
I couldn't subject any person to that, especially not my own child. That's the real monstrosity in life.
>>8085995
She stills posts semi-regularly. According to the archive, she was last here 3 days ago.
Going to bed. Hope I don't wake up.
>>8085995
>"measure sex hormone levels–children with AIS tend to have high levels of testosterone (the male sex hormone) in their blood"
>nhs, uk
shit, how fucked am i?
>>8086004
Sleep well, I hope you do.
my mom is crazy and im afraid that if i kill myself she would too
do i pass mtfg
What was the link to that one website with that one student medical group?
>>8086033
you've entered uncanny valley.
so no, but you're getting there.
>>8086009
>>8086014
the nhs of the uk also says that there is a factor of risk in gender dysporia in ais patients.
yea, i should look @ it
>>8086033
Z U C C
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C
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well, i am sleppu, & i have a counseling appt. tomorrow.
nini
These days, if you say you're trans you'll be arrested and thrown in jail.
help i'm so tired and physically worn out but my brain is going haywire and all i want is to pretend i'm dead for a few hours
how is your night going?
>>8086068
lol
>tfw scared and alone
ha nigga just remove your ego and breathe lmao
Best date ever with bf, we cuddled, went midnight swimming, fugged, ate, drank, and cuddled some more
>>8086078
no you're not
you have the world wide web where you can talk to other trannies and log into icq and talk to your girlfriend
>>8086071
Lucky, she gets srs with the money her grandma is giving her. I wish my grandparents were alive so they could die and leave me money
>>8086085
But she's asleep :^)
>>8086086
kayla omfg
there was a troll impersonating you earlier and I made sure everyone knew it wasnt you
but that is just horrible
>>8086086
>Old people actually having money and haven't just spent it all while still recieving state pensions
>>8086091
>there was a troll impersonating you earlier
Jesus, wtf. This is like the 4th time this month
>>8086095
thats fine and everything but delete your post and apologise to beep
>>8086060
where do you live?
>>8086098
I wasn't mean to beep
>>8086089
sorry im here now :(
>spend lovely day with bf
>come here to boast and find out someone stealing my name
I just wanted to brag just a lil bit
daddy~<3 is coming over UwU to walk my dog and feed me antidepressants~!~
can you slit an artery just using a normal razor blade or do i need like a scalpel or something
>>8086111
Razors are plenty sharp enough you should probably use something to hold the blade with though or you might drop it part-way through
>>8086112
what can i use to hold it
>>8086109
My bf wants me to call him daddy, its feels a bit unnatural
>>8086118
hot
>>8086117
Just duct tape something onto one end of the blade so you aren't directly holding something sharp
>tfw still haven't shaved
>>8086121
alright
do i need to do it in like warm water to prevent clotting
>>8086123
become one with the spikes brah
>>8086124
drugs can help with that as well if you're taking your time
>>8086128
I feel like a repressor but there's this certain feeling of comfyness is not doing anything you set out to do
>>8086131
well i wanna do it out in the woods so my family doesnt find me
>>8086134
oh hey I remember this anon, we've been over this with you sweetie why are you asking the same questions?
>>8086135
? if i asked i dont remember the answers
is water necessary
>>8086132
does not shaving = repressor?
Yeah it is comfy not doing anything, but think of the smooth, do it for the cutes
>when you flush but your shit is so lightweight it doesn't flush down
UH OH
>>8086139
place a some toilet paper in the bowl sweetie
enough to smother it as it goes down.
>>8086139
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
can i just like
vanish
please
I really hope my ket arrives today
I need dis
So is there a word to describe envy and jealousy seeing a cute girl in cute clothes? I mean I don't really want to be a woman.
5:32 :/ rip grandma...end of an era...
>>8086154
did you have to pick the memest drug out there?
>>8086156
*HUGS*
My condolences.
>>8086158
Sounds fine to me desu I'm not planning on growing old anyway
>>8086156
sorry beep. stay strong qt
>>8086156
hugg
>>8086160
That isn't promethazine/codeine
>>8085742
So muslims don't kill and fuck your ass hard instead.
>>8086171
barron gotta get on them titty skittles soon
Be honest, could I be intersex?
>>8085320
How can i understand that i have androgen insensitivity syndrome?
There is no enough information about it just:
http://www.isna.org/faq/conditions/ais
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mild_androgen_insensitivity_syndrome
Why is mtfg always horrible?
>>8086215
Because successful happy people don't need to come to a tranny thread on 4chan
>>8086201
>>8086222
I missed a final class test today
So since I've failed all 3 modules this trimester I'll have to resit or retake them next year.
I don't think I'll ever get to be an adult
>>8086228
nah i missed a ton of classes this year cus i've been doing a lot of other shit and transition related stuff just bothers me a lot.
You'll feel better next year anyway
I don't care what heavens say
I'm waiting for your embrace
>>8086228
it'll be okay, you can just resit them when you can
do your best and everything will be fine
It's time to burn this shithole to the ground.
>Like guys.
>Then they open their mouth.
What is this hell.
>>8086242
Is this autism?
Somehow socialization feels unhealthy for me, it stresses me out and i have to weeks without it. But then I feel so alone and it hurts
> tfw man
> tfw dick in the way all the time
> tfw nose hair
> tfw shit voice
> tfw no hips
> tfw large feet
> tfw huge ribcage
Reee I am so annoyed
>>8086251
do you need help with trimming your nose hair? :^)
>>8086251
How big are your feet and rib cage?
>>8086237
The fuck is he talking about?
>>8086251
Know that feels. Starting HRT next month though so we'll see how that goes.
>>8086260
why not just tweezers?
>>8086260
are you serious
you know women have that
and that you can buy these special small scisors to trim it
>>8086248
>I know. It just feels bad
>But at least I passed the first trimester
pat
>>8086260
both of those sizes are unfortunate
>>8086257
full convo
>>8086275
To add to this, why would you transition with such masculine proportions?
>>8086277
lol guys are dumb
>>8086277
bloody hell, he is forward yet autistic at the same time. The attention must be nice though, still your time will be probably better spend with someone that isn't a dickhead
>>8086278
Because transition isnt primarily about becoming a cute anime girl :p
>>8086284
It isn't but you can't look like a girl with those proportions.
Maybe face wise (unless your head is huge) but never with your body
>send pics to confirm my identity to dumb bitcoin site
>still haven't accepted 'em after 20 minutes
wtf
>>8086260
I wish I had your sizes :(
>>8086285
first of all, you still transition anyway to alleviate dysphoria. Secondly, the definition of what a girl looks like is shifting as more trans people come out and are visible. Thirdly, franzi looks fine
>>8086277
Why did you take of your trip?
>>8086292
If I wasn't small, I wouldn't have transitioned but hey if you've want to be a hon, that's fine by me.
>>8086295
Your friend is most likely super tall, fat or just has really unfortunate genetics.
You should tell her to transition to male.
>>8086295
Because mine are even worse
>>8086296
you probably would have transitioned anyway and thanks for giving me your approval to be myself, chaser
>>8086301
I'm not a chaser lmao
>>8086303
you certainly seem ignorant enough of how dysphoria works dude
>tfw abusing the heck out of a stimulant
>>8086310
inb4 sheen
>>8086279
like how do you get nothing but ">_>" for 15 minutes and not get the hint that you're making someone uncomfortable
>>8086280
I don't like attention and I don't like what he was doing. I just want a normal friend/partner who doesn't make me feel sucky.
>>8086294
I want to vent.
Using trip would make it easier for him to find this and see and I don't like hate him or anything, he just gets a bit at times and I wanted to vent about it.
If you genuinely know who I am, please don't say.
>>8086313
well, not everyone is as fucked in the head as you are, so it would be polite not to project that on everyone you interact with.
>tfw 175cm and 80kg pre HRT
>>8086313
Being tall isn't that bad desu although I didn't want to be taller.
It makes my ribcage look not as bad.
And I'd recommend to everyone to try transition before suicide. Even when you feel like the ugliest man there's a chance that you'll end up ok.
>>8086320
Are u taller too?
>>8086323
Wew im 69 kg and I feel fat. At least I got butt now
>>8086317
You seem pretty chill anon, did you want to chat?
>>8086320
not anyone from here, don't worry
they just know my trip and idk if they check these threads but better safe than sorry
>>8086329
I got reeeal fucking lazy for a while. I never used to be over 65 until this year.
>>8086348
Depends where it hits you
>>8086277
Man yall fuck with some real winners LMAO ... got me GAGGED over here.
xD xD xD
>>8086280
>forward yet autistic at the same time
Nah this is just autism. If a guy was being forward he would say "show me something girl", or to a tranny he would say "show me your titties girl", because trannies are autistic and will probably take a pic of their cat if you dont spell out exactly what you wanna see.
The little "herrr derr im a Doctor and I am gonna help you check for breast cancer" routine? That is just pure spergin virgin autism, nothing forward about it. That kid is supposed to be an adult male and he has literally never fucked a vagina, and now he wants a tranny gf..... nigga please.
Hahaha
(Hugg)
So trannies please tell me.... what happens when you date little sperg boys and then try dating a real man? Do you just freeze up from difficulty too high and "NOPE" out of there, and just start dating other trannies at that point? Is this the reason why there are so many "lesbian" trans girls?
Really gets the neurons oscillating
Hahaha
(Hugg)
Has anybody here -never- dreamt of themselves as a woman?
Still pre- anything here, not sure I'm really trans.
>>8086348
If runs over your neck it'll crush your neck and decapitate you which should kill you quick but not necessarily painlessly.
>>8086352
Go to AGPgen you transbian filth
>>8086352
Well I've wanted to be a girl since I was 6. So 21 years now and I only just got onto dping something about. See a psychologist and hash it out. See wherr shit goes from there.
>>8086356
What if I get aroused by fantasizing about foreplay with women, but never fantasize of myself as a woman?
>>8086333
I mean if you want, but I've got my venting out of the way for now.
Not gonna post my discord for obvious reasons, but if you want to post yours I'll hit you up.
>>8086340
I mean I got stabbed three times this morning by the nurse who was trying to take my blood but other than that things are pretty ok.
>>8086348
(hug)
Suicide really isn't good anon.
If you must do it though, don't pick train. It inconveniences and traumatises a bunch of strangers, and I'm guessing it'll hurt a fair bit.
If you want to kill yourself pick something like blood loss or exposure where you just kinda slip away.
That's what I'd do at least if I really wanted to die, but I'd really hope you get help first.
>>8086351
he browses /fit/ what more do you need to know
>>8086352
yeah i mean, i'm not even sure i have a gender in my dreams lol
i'm just me
>>8086363
>What if I get aroused by fantasizing about foreplay with women, but never fantasize of myself as a woman?
Forgot to say that in those fantasies I'm a man, and the more dominant I am the more it turns me on. So confused rn.
>>8086362
Yeah that's a good idea. I did that a few years ago (therapist for trans-related issues) but she sucked, never said anything during sessions except asking for my money at the end, and I could almost feel like she was only interested in my money. She took me in 10-15 minutes late when I came early, but she always took the patient after me right on time even if we'd only been talking for 35 min instead of the normal 1h. It was like she hated me specifically, not just all her patients. I'll try another one though.
>>8086372
yeah sure Tea Cup#1215
>>8086352
never
i'm always just who i am right now
a boy-looking babytrans
closest i've had in a dream was being recognized as a tranny by a former bully and getting thrown off a bike for it
>>8086375
I'm seeing a therapist that is trans friendly. So i guess that helps.
>>8086383
And you're pre-hrt?
I had hrt and Ffs with Bart and you look better then me
hurting myself doesn't even help anymore :(
>>8086377
I mean I'd much rather you didn't but if there really is no other way and you've made up your mind then godspeed anon.
>>8086387
Pre HRT. I should be starting in 2-3 weeks after my first blood test comes vack from the endo.
>>8086377
Listen you little pussy. If you have a death wish then just be ready to enlist once WWIII kicks off. Kill some fucking Commie scum before you go out, prove your not just begging for attention and DO something with your useless husk for once.
>>8086383
>tiny midface
>tiny skull in general
>tranny
Yea nah
>>8086394
Reversed the face app
>>8086396
Tiny? Look at those fat fucking cheeks coz I'm a fat cunt.
>>8086400
It is. Ex-GF used me to test some makeup.
>>8086406
What have we done?
>>8086406
now run that through the female filter, then reverse it again
see how many cycles it takes for it to become the stuff of nightmares.
>>8086407
Sure thing bud I know what a female hairline and forehead look like. Steal all the Facebook pics you want tho, maybe RPing eases your dysphoria for a bit.
i'm gay and sleeping just made me more tired
found a pic of edie without makeup on
>>8086417
I'm tired and sleeping just makes me more gay
>>8086415
Yeah ok
>>8086423
I just wanted you to post a single pic that wasnt altered.
thx hon
>>8086422
this also happens to me a lot
>hi family i'm suicidally depressed again u told me to tell you
>hur dur b urself responsibility responsibility
>drags me to some dumb country park to walk around with dogs
>u feelin better
>>8086383
therapists!
have you tried being yourself or trying something new!
surround yourself with great friends who support you!
>>8086433
It's a prerequisite for a minimum of 6 months before you can get onto HRT in Australia. In orser to validatr your "treatment".
good morning
>>8086443
'STRAYA M8
>>8086443
self med on the dl
>>8086449
you also have to wait a long time for your first appointment
guess theres too many trannies for the system to handle
tranny virus is spreading rapidly through uk
>>8086464
Fucking oath mate, gonna go smoother that on a piece of bread with a slice of cheese.
Also, if you tell them you are self medding they will push you through pretty quickly because they get concerned. Loophole kinda
>>8086456
they need time to ask the important questions like
>Do you pleasure yourself in womens clothing?
And
>Do you feel dysphoric
>>8086464
Took me almost a year to get the first appointment then from then I got an appointment every 3 months.
>>8086470
:(
(hugg)
please change your mind
>>8086472
shit sounds kind of scary and gatekeepy as fuck to me. what should I expect?
>>8086464
>I'm not that crazy
?
let me guess
you went to lauras or susans before coming here
only hons fear self medding because they're 70 years old and already have failing livers
plus they're bitter about the current generation of trannies saying fuck it and just transitioning instead of repressing and becoming monsters
>>8086475
Them to ask a billion questions about your childhood that don't really matter and about your sexual preferences and your dreams and shit.
Standard useless therapy list writing
>>8086469
Funny you should say that
>>8086472
Wow that is a long ass time
>>8086476
Hahaha yes for a spot of tea. Nah I just firgured seeing as the endo is going to prescribe rhe treatment based on my blood test I being not at all medically trained should not make decisions about something this important without professional guidance.
>>8086482
>without professional guidance.
endos know fuck all
you're better off self medding
>>8086482
lol fuck, I am physic apparently.
also cute/10
>>8086482
I don't think you can do anything wrong when you go on a low dosage of hrt.
Like 2mg E and 25 mg Cypro
just took my last full dose of antidepressant now will start weaning myself off with lower dose hopefully it doesn't make me want to kms again
redpill me on getting my eyebrows done
how do i make sure they don't fuck it up
>>8086498
they wont fuck it up they get paid to do it decently.
>>8086503
You can do your research but you'll get to the same conclusion :p there are some links on hrtgen
>>8086492
Just take a regular dose
>>8086506
yeah my question is like how do i make sure they give me the right shape that makes me look better
my eyebrows are blurry straight lines basically, i'd like some curve on them
>>8086510
Nah you shouldn't start with a high dose. It's likely that starting high hinders breast development
>>8086509
I shall head on over and check that out.
>>8086520
i kinda wanna see some sources on that
i've heard it before but an explanation would be nice
>>8086520
>shouldn't start on high dose
>tfw got started on 6mg E
For those of you who have had their facial hair removed, how long did it take you from start to finish in months/years?
>>8086545
Depends on how much facial hair you have. I've got very little and it takes ~9 months (1 session a week) with electro
>>8086545
You base it on how many hours of electro/laser you get not time
>>8086556
1 hour = 100 €
>>8086553
True I was just wondering what people's averages were from start to finish
>>8086558
That's not as bad as I thought.
Nyaa~
>>8086564
I think someone lost their cat
everything is so loud today wtf
>>8086568
you cannot lose your cat
if you are the cat
>>8086568
m-my owner ;~~;
w-where are they? ;___;
>>8086581
>>8086581
New :3
>>8086574
*stabs u*
>>8086569
probably because spring started and people do more stuff outside. you don't hear anything in my room especially with music on my friends say it's like time stops here.