Mtfg~ male to female general

This is going to be a good thread.

Squeak thread.

I am sure you guys regret everything. You're all in my prayers.

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>>8006779
Yes!

>>8006768
If anyone would like to be in a sushi roll with me we can arrange this okay

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>>8006781
Thanks, condescending anon. May God be with you!

>>8006781
I regret not being forceful with my parents over my identity as a girl when I was 7.

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>>8006787
hugg

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>>8006781
I regret not transitioning when I was younger, you got me.

>>8006781
I regret not starting earlier. But that's a sentence I could say about my life in general.

>>8006787
How's it hanging, dicky mama? Long and hairy, hard to carry?

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>>8006781
No regerts

>>8006799
I think that dog's sick :o

>>8006791
/bony hug

>>8006793
Sentence your mother probably says about her birth control pills.
>>8006789
And now you're a hon. Too bad!
>>8006792
Yes, I'm sure that was your biggest regret.

>>8006781
>prayer

way to accomplish less than nothing, thanks for not doing anything meaningful

>>8006789
same, although i would have ended up in some reparative/conversion therapy

>>8006793
same

although desu i regret allowing myself to have regrets. trying to learn to live in the moment

>>8006786
girlmode more and meet fellow sushi ingredients in your community pls

we don't want you to get hurt by some wackadoo chaser

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>>8006803
Haha yeah gnarly

>>8006807
She really doesn't show it, if that's the case.
>>8006808
Sameee.

>>8006807
I got on hormones when I was 16.

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>>8006810
I chuckled.

>>8006799
Is that a really tiny dog or a really big guinea pig?

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>>8006807
A couple years ago I was involved with two boys, I picked the wrong one and the right one moved away as a result. Thats probably my biggest regret, at the time it seemed like the logical choice- but now that that relationship didnt work out, I feel I made a horrid mistake. Hindsight is 20/20 I guess.

>>8006781
The only thing I regret is that my ancestors didn't kill all you Christian scum like you deserve

>>8006816
I wish I did that
:c

>>8006824
sleep tight doggo

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>>8006808
Girlmode is so scary tho

>>8006781
?
>>8006732 #
Idgi? What is this
>>8006730 #
Oh
You don't have medical insurance of any sort? Hmm
Would you be able to find some sort of free clinic?
I think that if you're at the point where you think you may have a problem it's worth investigating seriously


>>8006714 #
I'm okay, tired though! idk today was very very boring for me and I'm still tired, idgi
Your cats are so cute, looking at your snaps is gonna end up having me go to the animal shelter to get a cat lol
Also yea, the last filter u sent was very cute I think

>>8006808
>reparative/conversion therapy
happened to me when I was 20. fucked me up totally. nearly 3 decades of repression happened after.

>>8006827
Boy mode is scarier

Y'all know that prayer is pretty common amonsts all different religions, not just Christianity, rite?

>>8006830
Awwwww thank you! ^_^ yeah shelter cats esp are very loving because they want a home so bad and want to love you~

>>8006827
b-but you're a girl

you'll be fulltime before you know it and wonder why you were so scared, i'm sure

>>8006788
if you aren't willing to take the necessary steps to manage your disorder (which you may not even have!!) you will lose the support, pretty guaranteed

pls, you're concerned, get help so you can figure out what you really need to worry about and what you can do to manage it

>>8006832
sorry to hear it, glad you're still alive and in control of your life

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>me coming into the thread like

>>8006830
Nah my insurance ran out and I've been a NEET for a few months now

I doubt there's any free clinics in the area but I'll search I guess, probably worth it.

>>8006835
are you coming to your senses?

>>8006830
._____.

>>8006835
what's scary about boymode?

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>>8006835
I look more like a boy so~
Girl mode is scarier for me, maybe it'll be easier when my boobs are bigger
>>8006841
I kno but like, I gotta keep working so I look normal as a girl
Then I'll dress like an anime girl and be weird again ^~^

>>8006821
It's not the biggest mistake you've made. Undress in front of a mirror sometime.

>>8006842
Wtf? that pooch's naked!

>>8006843
Yeah if you can't find a free clinic, call the psychologists and psychiatrists in your area and see if any of them would be willing to work with you, or offer you a lower rate or just straight donate their time to you
>>8006842
based...
>>8006824
Based...
>>8006814
BASED....
>>8006810
BASED!!!

>>8006822
Take that bone out of your nose and joke on it, k? Thanks!

>>8006853
>when my boobs are bigger
boobs already bigger than mom's
no appreciable growth in the past year
tfw AA ;___;

>>8006821
there are no what ifs, all that is real is the present.

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>>8006827
In girlmode you get to wear dresses.
Dresses are pretty much the best.

Do you ever find it funny that male socialization makes your biggest fear the ridicule of your peers? I think it speaks to our innate need to have social validation. Lonely humans dont last long.

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>>8006781
I regret not transitioning at 14 or 18
Can't change anything about it now I guess

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>>8006842
>me coming into the new thread like

>>8006840
Mmm yeah I really want a "pet" for my dog so I was thinking about getting a cat, but I'm still trying to figure out the logistics of that
It'd have to be an older cat, but that's all I've got so far lol

>>8006862
*choke, I'm assuming
half-assed troll is half-assed

>>8006841
I think I can manage it on my own
I really don't want the drugs
I really don't want to let someone hurt me

I might talk to somebody if I find them
but
it's scary

>>8006861
I don't know if I can call people
that sounds really hard and dangerous ahhh >~<

>>8006838
prays for you

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>>8006728
how do i look like u?

Hip growth isn't significant even for early transitioners so don't worry about missing the boat

>>8006781
I regret rationalizing my girl identity away by figuring I only wanted to be a girl because boys are inferior

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I have naturally low metabolism. Am I fucking myself further by taking cypro? Am I going to have to be extra vigilant in not becoming fat?

>>8006874
ty,ty,ty
>>8006872
It's not that hard
Just write a script for yourself and read it if you need to

tfw too scared to go into sephora x)

>>8006869
I just squeaked and hid.

>>8006879
why are my hips always sore then

Pence is gonna zap you all for being non cis white males, I suggest investing in a faraday suit.

>>8006879
i want just a fucking little bit of growth pls

>>8006882
i havent gotten fatter on cypro

>>8006879
tfw I had 32" hips with a 24" waist at 16.

>>8006880
i thought that i couldn't be trans because I wasn't gay for a long time
like I thought trans was double gay so obviously you have to be at least regular gay to be double gay

mercury when are we gonna kiss
and is Ash ok with it

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>>8006891
Do you have naturally low metabolism you little shit? Have you ever been fat?

>>8006883
I'm too anxious I think
I barely talk to people
Like I'm gonna panic
ugh

>>8006870
We'll I'm sure they could help you find a good match at the shelter if you asked the volunteers!

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>>8006866
Dresses scare me
I'd rather wear cute shirts and jeans for now >.>
Maybe skirts when I'm prettier
But dresses i dunno if I can wear u~u
I don't have the body for it
>>8006879
But I need it
I gotta have big hips or I'll never be able to wear cute clothes

i should go anon, that's the last logical step towards this positive disintegration.

then I will begin anew.

>>8006893
tfw 27" inch waist and 36" inch hips

>>8006897
no :(

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>>8006858
Ive genuinely never been happier with my body in my entire life, I love to look over myself in the mirror!
Soft pale skin on a slim frame is adorable, especially with no muscle tone and little breasts!

>>8006864
Sagelike advice that I should appreciate keep in mind. Being sagelike doesn't come naturally to a hedonist, though. You're right though, all I can do is press forward.

>>8006886
They're rotating

>>8006893
28 inch waist 37 inch hips ;~;

>>8006903
sass no
stay
you brighten my day

maybe I should move to holland.

>>8006878
But you don't need to look like me! You have your own individual beauty and if you can't see it then you just need to work on loving yourself more and you will!

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>try to sleep without melatonin
>laying around for half an hour
>masturbate because boredom and maintenece
>guilt and annoyance halfway through
>stop then keep going
>overwhelming sense of guilt and dysphoria when I finish
>feels like a rock on my chest and stinging feeling that i'm defective and this isn't right or how it should be
Hello darkness my old friend
I haven't seen you in 6 years
>can't sleep
>just pacing around trying to think about something else

>>8006908
i still dont know what this means

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>>8006903
May I choose your new name when you come back?

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>me looking for a long term relationship

>>8006904
Mom had the same measurements as me and didn't grow again until she had kids.

>>8006896
https://clyp.it/ivxskmig
Also
https://clyp.it/vzge2key

>>8006853
tbdesu i'm confident you're already girlier and cuter than plenty of cis girls at your school

don't give in to repression! you're so close to breaking through, but if you don't make the effort to do the scary stuff you'll just end up a 20-30 year old neet wishing you could girlmode

we believe in you! plenty of cis girls your age lack boobage, it's no big deal

>>8006872
if it's bipolar you really can't though. part of managing any mental health issue is understanding that you need external help sometimes and it doesn't lessen your ability to take care of yourself, it's essential if you actually want to maintain control

your county hospital system will assuredly have a mental health clinic where you can get evaluated for free/low cost, if you're usa

>>8006878
i think she's not xy, so i heard, so don't beat yourself up too much >>8006915
she's right you know!

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>>8006915
ash everyone says i have nice eyes and skin and hair but it all looks gross to me

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>>8006888
I think this was a much better anti-tyranny investment.

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>>8006917
/hug

I don't know what to say.

>>8006921
my mom has way bigger hips than me

she's hispanic though so im grateful she passed down a little my way

why do some many of you own guns wtf

>>8006923
qute

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>>8006924
Everyone at my school thinks I'm a boy tho :c
I wanna go to a new school next year and present female there
>>8006930
My mom has crazy big hips
>>8006933
Guns make u feel safe

>>8006924
You're right I am XXY, and yes they need to just be themselves!
>>8006927
That's because you're hyper judge mental of yourself, I'm sure the longer you on HRT it will help with your feelings of your appearance and you will also see your appearance change drastically !

>>8006917
deep breathing/meditation might could help

>>8006933
it's so agp >:p

>>8006903
???
>>8006920
I mean.....do u rly want that though
>>8006899
Oh
DUHHH
Why didn't that occur to me sooner??? geeze I'm dumb

What was the puppy workout thing btw?
>>8006898
Do u have someone that can help you and maybe do the phone calls for you?
If not you're just gonna have to conquer your anxiety for it, and sometimes the only way through that is to just force yourself to do it

>>8006929
The feeling is gone now

Like the wind

Just sitting in bed drinking water and waiting to feel sleepy

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>>8006901
Shirts and jeans are masculine though, youll never be gendered female wearing those....
I get where you're coming from though, I shouldnt push you, body confidence and the willingness to wear prettier clothing will increase. Even gigantic fat ladies can wear dresses though, there is a dress out there that will look good on you.

>>8006917
I can't masturbate by fapping anymore or I get overwhelming dysphoria, like I have to have something inside me. Try that.

>>8006940
No you aren't! Most people just don't know about being able to ask. And it was my trainers puppy! She stretches with us every time! ^^

>>8006938
it has made me feel a little better

i never used to look in the mirror but i do now

but now it's just to obsess over stuff lol

>>8006917
hugg
it's ok
you're ok
everything will be ok <3

>>8006924
I don't like that kind of absolute thing
Being told that I NEED somebody else's help
really doesn't sit well with me at all

I shouldn't have to give up control of my life to drugs and doctors for any reason
it's my life
not theirs
-upset-

>>8006940
My boyfriend could probably help
I dunno if he wants to though
I'll ask him
thanks for advice

>>8006940
Nothings better than holding someone that understands you ;_;

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>>8006933
Because people want to kill us in horrible ways.

>>8006944
But they're girly shirts and jeans :c
I got gendered female wearing them the other day

>Guilt over masturbating

>>8006928
Pls give nail polish color
>>8006936

https://clyp.it/iptmfbh4

>>8006946
That's not uncommon, even sis woman obsess over the littlest things. Trust me I know, I used to have lots of girls spend the night after parties all the time and the things they would complain about would just make me chuckle. So give it time and stay strong!<3

i dont really want to exist right now

>>8006949
>tfw no one to hold & understand you

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>>8006781
actually my life has gotten much better
I only regret not trying this sooner

I'm very happy and want to marry my bf

>>8006917
Hugg Nat.

>>8006930
I was surprised that mom and I had the same measurements when young. I was just 2 inches taller. Unfortunately the DNA from both sides produce large husky men, and I was pumped full of T & HGH.

>>8006939
Idk how to sleep anymore I never did I'm too anxious to meditate

>>8006944
It's just not the same

>>8006948
Kill me

>>8006957
SAME
but
your life is an important thing
and you should like
hold on to it
ok?

Even if it doesn't feel like it, I'm sure there's at least one person who cares about you
and they'd be sad if you died
so please live <3

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>>8006958
*holds and understands u*

>>8006955
yeah x(

everyone keeps telling me to wait and i know hrt takes a while

even though it's not a long time for hrt 5 months is still a long time to be waiting D:

>>8006937
If I could have switched schools, I likely would have transitioned earlier.

>>8006966
No I don't want to kill people that aren't doctors
be a good girl and stay alive ok?

>>8006964
i was one of the first kids in class to start going through puberty so i always the tallest kid in class for the most part

>>8006952
It sucks I hope you never experience it

>>8006963
Tonight and just tonight I'd let you sleep with me just because today was so shitty

>>8006888
Go grease lightning! Go greasy cunting

>>8006973
My gpa is like 2.7 and I'm asian and my papers say male I will never get into uni

Wasting my time

>>8006981
College is good
but it's also debt
you might be better off not going
and just taking a year to live and work and learn about yourself and what you want

>>8006977
it's so expensive! Dx

i got some cerave moisturizers and cleansers and they've been working good i think!

i actually went in today for a consult for micro-needling, it's for my enlarged pores due to my oily skin in puberty and i guess pre-hrt

the lady also said that she noticed some broken capillaries so that redness i talked about before was rosacea :(

people say it's not a big deal and it just looks like my cheeks glow a little bit but they don't see when it flares up!

>>8006974
I wasn't the tallest, a couple girls were taller. We had a girl who was 6'7" as a freshman in hs.

>>8006981
go to community college and work hard for good grades.

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>>8006917
>when I'm told that I have a feminine penis, my mind gets over it
Life improves a lot as a result

Am I a degenerate for that?
I have no clue

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So I have a little extra time before bed, so if anyone needs any skin care product suggestions(list concerns) from Sephora I used to work there so AMA~

>>8006978
I dunno if I'd actually go that far, but I'd definitely cudd with you to make you feel better.

>>8006987
I've been doing that for 5 years

>>8006991
I don't want to be 30 when I apply that's when I was going to kill myself

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>>8006951
Well, thats good for you!
Don't me pressure you into doing anything you're not comfortable with, but be sure to make dresses the final goal!

>>8006966
I dunno like I said if Im playing with my bp before I orgasm I dont get dysphoria, its not the same as the real thing yeah but I just want to masturbate without being filled with disgust and self loathing afterwards.

>>8006954
aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAA MERC YOU ARE QUTE

>>8006966
do you work out? that helps too, but not at this point

i don't really know how to meditate well, i just close my eyes & focus my attention on one part of my body, usually my belly button, and then breathe deeply, holding for a few seconds. when i inhale i visualize the air having an essence of purity, maybe a little shimmer to it, and when i exhale i visualize all the negative energy and toxic feelings in my breath, a murky blackness

>>8006968
you're such a sweetheart

>>8006981
i don't think you have to be honest about your race or even disclose it.. you can get into university but you'll probably have to start at a lower tier than you like and transfer in

i need to return & finish school but.. i got into ut austin with <2 gpa graduating from an alternative high school. you don't have to fit the mold

>>8006991
oh gosh i remember we had a girl like that in middle school

she was taller than me

i guess that makes me feel a little better about being 6'1, i guess i have kind of a slender build too so it's not too bad

if only my shoulders would stop looking so broad..

>>8006996
Well? Is college what you want?

Don't kill yourself dummeh

>>8006995
Well sleeping in bed doesn't really imply lewdness to me if that's what you thought.

Someone to shake me out of the inevitable nightmare tonight and maybe hopefully smother me with a pillow

>>8006996
The community college credits will transfer over, then you'll have reduced time at the big U.

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Really wish Bloodborne wasn't a PS4 exclusive. I only own one for that fucking game and want to sell it. Fuck you, Sony. Fuck you.

>>8006990
The only qualms I have about Cerave is that their products have alcohol which is drying and sulfate which is irritating.

is it worth getting diagnosed with BPD
like i wanna know if i have it because it seems like a possibility but it doesn't seem like a therapist could help me

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>>8006997
I just don't like dresses that much desu
They're not really my style
Cute jackets and shirts is what I like

>>8007007
Oh, that first part sounds good~.

>>8006997
I'll give it a try maybe.

>>8007001
Yes I work out. It does nothing.

They'll notice what I am at the board interview so there's no point in lying.

>>8007004
I don't know what I want. I just want to get off this ride.

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>>8006993
Ah, perfect.
What do you recommend for most people to use daily for facial care?

Also is there any benefit to using lotion daily?

>>8007010
oh gosh well im not sure if they're contributing to the redness or not, it's hard to tell

gimme what you think would work ^^

>>8007003
Wear clothing that draws attention up and down, not crosswise. Long necklaces too.

PS broad shoulders are great for hanging clothes off of. I just wish I didn't have an even broader chest below mine. 8" off my chest and I'd be fine.

>>8007012
>>8007014
>>8007017
>>8007018
Man, I swear that every time I poke my head in here, the trip list is entirely different. So it goes, I suppose.

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>>8007017
You and I share a lot in common including where we live. Except I'm not asian.
Its weird.

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>tfw you have shitty skin covered in cysts and acne

>>8007017
>[x]native american/pacific islander

bet they wouldn't even notice

they aren't allowed to discriminate based on race, don't put up artificial barriers to your own happiness

you can achieve self-actualization but you have to believe in yourself & actually give yourself the opportunity to get there

>>8007027
I think I've met you ^~^

>>8007027
Yep. A few of the older trips are still around though, but they're mostly fixtures in here and will be around forever anyway.

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>>8007027
Ive always been here, since before the board started. But Im a secret trip.

>>8007025
i get told that mine isn't too broad but it feels like it

32"-33" ribcage at 6'1

my ribs flare out though so im looking to get a brace to try and fix it

i suppose that would potentially bring it down to 30"-31"

>>8007018
A sheer spf or bb/cc cream in the day and then a serum and moisturizer at night!
>>8007020
Well I know you can't do Sephora because your mom would notice the boxes, so for you I would recommend Neutrogena's Hydroboost line!

>>8007008
No lol. For the program I'm getting into you need the prequals at community college done. Cheap but time extensive.

>>8007014
Smother me. Not with love, with a pillow.

>>8007028
I'll buy you dinner sometime.

I miss Elanna.

>>8007031
tfw hrt cleared you up

>>8007027
many name changes....squeek...

>>8007046
RIP

>>8007047
it is helping me but my skin was REALLY bad before

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I came out to my family.
Needless to say it didn't go very well My mother said that I'm disgusting and I have mental issues and its probably me from doing drugs my father said he doesn't approve and said to go out and do something with my life. my brother also called me a faggot. At least I dont feel anxious around them anymore. Kinda wanna die desu.

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>>8007040
Are you a ninjah?

>>8007043
that's well inside normal female. 44 isn't.

>>8007044
what's the difference :o

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>>8007033
Maybe. I show up here randomly and post Ranma photos if that tells you anything.

>>8007035
Sounds about right.

>>8007040
Neato. Assume you know who I am then.

>>8007048
Noted, desu.

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I miss when drugs made me feel happy instead of just really fucked up and kind of sad

>>8007054
im sorry :( thought it would've gone better

>>8007011
whoa hello

having a diagnosis might be good if it helps you understand you

it's really not that well understood so they can give you therapy and maybe experiment on you with meds

but other than that they can't help

>>8007052
after 19 my skin started clearing up anyway and hrt just kinda finished the job

>>8007054
*HUGS*

>>8007056
how tall are you?

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>>8007054
Gosh that's terrible I'm so sorry to hear that
Maybe they'll come around?
How did you come out?
Do you think there's a misunderstanding?

>>8007054
You may want to move out if you can.

>>8007054
i'm sorry it didn't go better

now you can move on and worry about more important things, at least

>>8007060
it's okay, just ride this thing out and get some tea and stuff ready for the morning

>>8007067
5'10"...

>>8007054
Don't die ok?
Don't repress either
Don't give in to bullying

>>8007045
The best I can do is smothering you with friendship.
>>8007054
That's fucking awful. :/ When's the soonest you can move out?

>>8006952
Iktf
>>8006949
I've never really experienced this idk
I don't really know that it's possible idk
>>8006945
Ohhh I hadn't thought of that
Wait, you have a trainer? But ur a trainer right?? Does that mean your trainer has a trainer...and your trainer's trainer has a trainer....

>>8006948
If your boyfriend isn't willing to help you he's a shitty bf
>>8006999
Nice trips
Idk
What is it about me that's cute
I wanna be like
Sexy
Or something
Idk

>>8007057
The hydroboost line is formulated for sensitive skin where as Cerave claims to be formulated for sensitive skin but it's actually more for normal skin. And the Hydro boost line has things in it to help calm redness.

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>>8007054
I am so sorry.

>>8007083
he's a very good bf wtf

>>8007083
I work for her as an intern so she is the top of the top ha ha! :3

>>8007027
There are a billion new trips day in and day out
Many don't stick around very long I've noticed

>>8007085
interesting!

any products in the line particularly :o

I'm lonely and sad and
EVERYTHING IS BORING ME
and i miss my friends
but they dont miss me
because im horrible
and should die

>>8007060
you've not been in the best place emotionally, have you? i've never used mdma, but i'd think if you're already pretty drained shocking your serotonin system will have limited effect

take care of yourself in the coming days please, maybe supplement your diet with helpful amino acids/etc. to help recover

>>8007095
Well what do you need? Like a face wash and moisturizer? :)

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>>8007027
Ive tripped for 7 years now
nobody ever notices me

>>8007081
What do you see in me I don't see in myself?

>>8007073
And then what
I'll still be depressed and have a life that's out of my control
I'll still have to watch the person I love giving up hope on living a happy, healthy and normal life. My heart's in pieces right now

>>8007060
Have you been doing drugs
>>8007088
That was an if/then conditional anon
So if he's a good bf I'm pretty sure he'll be happy to help you
>>8007090
OHHHHHHHH
I see I see I see
What is that like, being an intern?
Is personal training what you want to do when you're finished with school?

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>>8007102
Alicefag?

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>>8006781
you're all in my thoughts

my lewd thoughts, that is

>>8007076
im sure it'll be okay

everyone has stuff they really hate but they also have stuff that makes people jelly!

like how i am of your 5'10!

>>8007111
I Actually want to be a elementary school teacher .//.;

I kind of wanna buy a wristwatch I think the idea of a mechanical watch is really cool

>>8007054
i'm starting to think coming out is a bad meme

at best you mostly just make a fool of yourself, and in our culture the more likely outcome is abuse and ostracization

i think maybe just be out, and let people figure it out on their own

>>8007106
hugs elfanna

>>8007101
um i guess so!

i don't really know that much about skin care, i just use a cleanser and moisturizer for the most part

and sunscreen :)

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>>8007111
Yes, I am currently on drugs.

>>8007099
It's not really any of that, it just doesn't really do what it used to do for me anymore. I way overdid it when I was a raver kid and it's kind of just a run of the mill intoxicant now

>>8007113
I legit can't tell if you meant to respond to me or not.

>>8007111
I'll asssssk >~<

eventually

>>8007114
<3

>>8007119
get a cute swatch or something
mechanical watches are for MEN

>>8007119
>kind of wanna buy a wristwatch I think the idea of a mechanical watch is really cool

are you ftm

>>8007123
well we care about you and wish you were happier

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>>8007125
><3
more like <=3

eheuheuhe

>>8007122
Okie then
http://www.ulta.com/hydroboost-hydrating-cleansing-gel?productId=xlsImpprod15321217 For face wash
And
http://www.ulta.com/hydro-boost-water-gel?productId=xlsImpprod12041835
For moisturizer
I am pretty sure they carry these in big name drug stores~

>>8007129
let's kiss

lewd me

>>8007106
i know it's a tough time for you but it's at those moments in life where you have to keep going on instead of just letting yourself fall apart

things will get better, i know it, you just have to start believing that yourself

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>>8007124
O-oh... Of c-course I meant you, a-anon~

>>8007105
You're interesting. You have a surprisingly decent attitude on life, all things considered. Obviously it could be better in some respects. But, I dunno, I just like you as a person and would like to be friends with you.
>>8007106
Hugg Elanna. Try to find ways you can proactively better your life. But. Yeah, you'll have to go through that with your ex. It's awful and unfair, but that's life in general. You'll have to pick up the pieces and carry on because to not do so would be to fall into the void.

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I feel like crying

>>8007062
>>8007070
>>8007087
Yeah.

>>8007066
hug

>>8007068
I don't think my mother will come around
Maybe my father, I've decided that I really should focus on my school work as is right now my life is going no where.
>How did you come out?
I kinda didn't I was to shy so my brother said kinda came out for me
>Do you think there's a misunderstanding?
Probably not
>>8007069
I can't since I still need to go to school and such

>>8007078
I'm not gonna do any of those things

>>8007081
Probably at best maybe 2-3 years

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>>8007117
You're very much alice

But sometimes you're also very much snow white

>>8007137
I mean, I don't really care if you did. Just another Alice in the pile is all.

>>8007133
okei, ill try them

ill let you know how it goes ^^

thanks ash <3

>>8007125
I want to buy an old soviet made watch this girl I follow on twitter got one and it looks cute

>>8007128
I'm just a big fag I think

petroleum jelly snug as a bug on my lips desu

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>>8007139
I feel awful for encouraging you.

>>8007144
I abhor those people.

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hugg Tanya

do you have anyone else to support you?
Stay safe at least

>>8007138
I had to reinstall Discord since everyone keeps trying to chat me up, I don't know what's so appealing in talking to a cold, dead machine.
Natalie#3905

>>8007139
Maybe never mention it to them again and just do HRT and present after you move out?

>>8007156
wear koneko like a lil hat

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>>8007159
That's some serial killer shit.

>>8007134
but we're not even married

i don't even know what your dowry is

>>8007163
make gwen into a lil purse

>>8007153
If it makes you feel better, I go by "Allison", but yeah. Name is generally cancer.

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>>8007138
It's not the us I'm torn up about though. I'm scared for them.

They have a rare autoimmune disorder which effectively renders them couchbound when it flares up. We met when it was in remission, and she was all full of hope and optimism that she may have found a way to live a healthy and normal life.

Her health problems have returned, and she can't force a remission. She's giving up all hope now. She broke up with me because she didn't feel she could offer a normal relationship and didn't want me to grow to resent her.

I don't know what to do, every day I see a little bit of her slip away.

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>>8007165
BACK OFF OR I'LL SHOOT

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>>8007159
j-just don't look up okay!

i wish bad things didn't happen to good people

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Does anyone else have a completely fake personality when around people in person? I'm still in the closest to everyone in person. The few friends, including my boyfriend, that know I'm trans are all online. I can't use voice or show my face. It's just not even close to being possible yet.

But online I'm completely different. Even different to how I was online before coming out.

In real life I'm more irritable. I try to cut every social interaction cut short. I'm rude, and loud. I hate my real life self. But it's who I revert back to anytime I'm around someone I'm in the closet to.

How do I know which one is really me? How do I find away to put the self I'm morecomfortable with in my actual body, I still look and sound so masculine it feels like it's not possible to act natural in person.

>>8007169
o-okay

just wear pants ya goof!

>>8007174
Yes. Don't lose sight of who you really are.

>>8007168
wear gun like a lil hat

>>8007156
No, everyone I surely know will be against it.

>>8007153
It's fine, at least they know that I'm trans

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>>8007139
Crying is a good idea
Cry a lot
It'll make you feel better
Just let it all out okay?
Maybe try to forget it happened, just go on like normal and you can bring it up again later in your transition if you feel like it
If you can I think that'd make things easier
I can't say I've experienced that, only my dad and friends rejected me
But if you wanna talk about it I'm here
Even if you just wanna vent I'll listen, that can help
If there's any way I can help just tell me

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>>8007139
I'm sorry for encouraging you.
>>8007157
Mine is Zna#0229.
>>8007167
That's legitimately awful. What are her odds? She may pull through.

>>8007143
Split personality! @w@
>>8007146
My pleasure imouto! Can't wait to hear the results!^0^

>>8007139
You shouldn't neglect your transition for school
The emotional effects of repression might be why school's going so bad

>>8007148
oh that sounds neat
hope you enjoy it

>>8007164
the sin makes it more fun

I have nothing to offer except mental illness and pain

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>>8007166
Are you on anekihou.se? I have not interacted with these cretins in years.

>>8007181
okay wat

>>8007183
/hug

Yeah. Good to get it out of the way now, I guess.

>>8007151
they made women's watches too you fag

>>8007193
wear self like a lil hat

>>8007117
AWWWW that's cute!!
Wow that's a really important job honestly
I like kids but more like preschool age
> .//.;
What is that face
>>8007123
Hmm
Ok
If you need to talk please let me know

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>>8007198
I'm stopping this madness HERE and NOW.

>>8007183
You don't know until you ask them?
This is why I ran away instead

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>>8007174
>Does anyone else have a completely fake personality when around people in person?
i feel like i don't have a personality around other people

i'm just silent, don't speak unless spoken to and try to keep the conversation as normal and succint as possible

>>8007201
I love kids like 5-10 age they are so much fun! They bring out my inner child and make me feel positive and happy! And oh it's the blushing shy face!

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okay goodnight!

>>8007179
I don't know who I really am. I don't look in the mirror and see myself. I don't talk to people and hear myself. The only times I feel like I'm acting something like myself are dependent on nobody hearing or seeing me, so I always feel like I'm deceiving people.

I just never feel comfortable.

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>>8007198

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>>8007211
Sleep soundly, dummy.

>>8007193
Don't even know what that is, so I'm going to say no. No I am not.

>>8007211
Goodnight imouto! Sweetest of dreams to you' <3

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>tfw made a discord server over time of friends and now its a comfy server that i enjoy talking in every day
good feel after the grind of building it

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>>8007207
This 100%

>>8007207
I can only speak to a few people. By that I mean my family and one friend I see maybe once a month. I just mimic him when I'm with the one friend, and with my family I'm just really trying to get them to stop talking to me, being rushed and rude.

>>8007211
>>8007211
Oyasumi Nimorin

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>>8007188
She has lupus, there is no cure
If she's lucky she may get a few months a year where she's not in chronic pain, too tired to read and basically unable to leave the house

>>8007201
Well I mean I basically said what the situation was here >>8007167

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>>8007216
It's in your best interest to remain ignorant.

>>8007212
I get that way too. Completely dissociated, to the point you don't know if you're really you. After lying to yourself and everyone your whole life there's just no cohesive way to stitch together the pieces?

I couldn't really help you, just empathize. It's something I struggle with myself. Names come and go, people come and go, and convenient lies are made up and forgotten on the spot to deal with the frivolities of dealing with people.

idk famalam.

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>>8007224

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>>8007223
>tfw made a discord server with all my friends but feel like i dont fit in

>>8006993
>>8006993

What cream do I use to become you?

>>8006993
They wanted me to pay 50 dollars minimum for a consult. Is it a meme?

>>8007208
Awww you are so sweet
Yeah I like, like 4~8 year olds they're still pure and not super jaded
I like having conversations with them, most kids are a lot smarter than people give them credit for; kids are very perceptive, a lot smarter in adults in someways imo
Idk if I can really imagine being a teacher though; I've been told I'd be good at it but it's not my passion I don't think

>>8007231
May I save this picture?
I really like it.

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>>8007186
I'm not even sure if I want to cry, I just feel empty.

>>8007206
I know from a political stand that they really hate gays and trans so if I come out then they'll probably just shun me

>>8007188
Its fine

>>8007227
Are there no good treatments, either? I genuinely don't know what to say that'd have any weight to it. It's just awful and I feel so sorry for both you and her.

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>>8007240
May I hugg this Myrthe?
I really like her.

>>8007233
>tfw I'm toxic garbage and my friends kicked me out of their server

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>>8007233
you just have to make sure everyone's there cause of you silly

>>8007239
Exactly! And I have no many nephews and nieces that I am very good with kids! I just think it would be a nice career to be around bright positive minds that just want to have fun and learn versus a bunch of cranky adults trying to get by in life.

>>8007246
Sure c:
Thank you btw

>>8007227
Lupus is hard as fuck to deal with
But I mean like
If you need to have a more personal conversation off board or something lol

I guess I can see her reasoning but breakups for that reason are very silly to me. I'm a very loyal ride or die type of girl, but I think even the average person would stay with their partner and support them through a hard time like that
Lupus is hard as fuck, but you seem like a strong enough person that you'd be able to support her emotionally and stuff just fine
Idk

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>>8007240
I appreciate the culture of asking (I don't follow such protocol but I also don't infringe on theme posters) but I hold no rights. It's months old I didn't make

>>8007235
use her virgin blood as a face mask

>>8007236
they didn't ask anything of me and she ended up doing.. like contouring and everything. i waited until they weren't busy and asked for help

i also ended up spending $160 but w/e

>>8006993
the silly bottle of water that the girl used, i forget what it was called, is that really useful beyond just like, deionized/pure or a nice mineral water or just another way to take money from women?

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>>8007255
/doesn't hug

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>>8007260
But I need my blood!

>>8007248
i like this picture

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>Almost 7 months of HRT and no noticable difference besides some extremely small man boobs

I'm losing hope

>>8007261
Water has an electrical charge which should dehydrate your skin. Deionized water shouldn't do that. I might be wrong.

>>8007167
that sounds like a really rough situation to be in

sorry for bullying you elanna, i didn't realise you had such large feels

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>>8007258
I think I'll download it, then.
Thank you very much.

It's just that I don't want to post one of your default images in like a month and make you feel bad.

>>8007265
pic

>>8007269
dosages?

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>>8007233
Tfw banned from 28 discord servers in the past 2 months.

Tfw banned on sight in any discord server belonging to /r9k/ /b/ /int/ .

Tfw being my friend is a ban-able offense

>>8007276
you get off to that

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>>8007243
Listening to sad music or something could help
If you can get yourself to cry you can release some of the emotions that are making you feel that way
From what you're saying I think it'd be a good idea not to come out to your friends
Feelings are gonna suck tho, you might just wanna go to sleep and see if it eases up a little in the morning
Stay strong

>>8007276
you have friends?

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>>8007276
We'll I don't use Discord so we can be friends!

>>8007260
omg I burst out laughing
That's a straight rediculous kek anon wow
Idr the name of the European serial killer lady that would murder children and bathe in their blood supposedly
The whole idea is pretty funny when you think about it cause if virgin/youthful/whatever adjective blood gave people life or clear skin or secret abilities I feel like we'd know about it
>>8007254
Ohh nieces and nephews that's cool
I don't have any of those yet idk if I will lol
Yeah imparting knowledge and understanding to people is really nice, the light on someone's face when they "get" something is really delightful

Even if I committed to being a grade school teacher I don't know if I could get very far on account of being a tranny and all, lol

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>>8007245
Often the treatments are as bad as the illness itself in different ways. Full immunosuppression can be necessary in severe cases but that leaves you open to a whole slew of other illnesses and cancers.

Right now my only suggestion is to push for medical cannabis for the pain but there's not much that can be done.

I know it will probably fall on deaf ears in a place like this where transition and just being seen as the correct gender is such a big deal, but please cherish your health. You have no idea how quickly it can all be taken away.

>>8007257
I'm ok with a more personal conversation, do you have discord? Idk I'm extremely high right now and kind a mess but I'm sure I could piece together something

>>8007282
hugg

wugg

snugg

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>>8007274
So DUMB and easily TRICKED.

/actual hug

>>8007282
/actual hugg

>>8007268
That girl looked like she had worse problems than me
I'll use a gun instead of a train

>>8007282
what's wrong cutie?

>>8007284
Oh yeah they did a bit a bout that in Hostel 2 about the lady that used virgin blood...crud gotta protect my blood now! xD
And well it's not 100% right now since I'm still in school, but I would hope I could someday teach!

>>8007261
When or if I ever figure out a smart way to get paid more than meme wages I'll probably have to do this. I've been considering emotional appealing copywriting. I also want a life style blog but I'm not passing yet so no passion for that dream yet.

>>8007269
Get your levels checked recently? How old when started? I'm 25 started HRT June of last year. No meaningful progress I don't see as not good enough. Unfortunately, half the time I was on HRT my levels were still too high for testosterone


>>8007274
I post ghost in the shell and psychedelic stuff as a default.

>>8007279
Just the thumb nail looked lewd on this

>>8007285
You can always talk about your feels here, lan lan.

>>8007285
Yeah I have a discord
Also skype I'd give you my real skype not my 4chab one

But let me get on my computer to figure out the discord thing, idr what it is

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>>8007278
Not really.

>>8007281
Matter of opinion i suppose.

>>8007282
good

>>8007283
Okay friendpal.

>>8007285
hugg elanna
i really hope she'll be okay
or at least have less pain
praying for you both