Nekoboy edition
• Informed consent providers https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
Old: >>7937287
no bullying allowed
>>7938503
this
>>7938510
this
considering orchi over full SRS, am I less of a transgirl because of this?
pic totally unrelated
fuck off furshit
i finished undertale pacifist ending and seeing happy people be happy made me cry
>>7938525
those decisions dont make you more or less of transgirl
do what you gotta do
>>7938525
nah not every trans girl needs to get srs you're just as trans as any other
It'll be okay
Feels good to be a gay dude
>>7938537
everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok everything's gonna be ok
>>7938544
>ywn be a twink
snuggin a maeve
ada is my waifu cudds snugg
who else /overit/ here?
>>7938544
>tricking straight men
the BEST feeling
>>7938525
I was thinking about getting orchi but I'm not sure on it anymore since I kinda would like srs but I'm also terrified of it :\
>>7938553
Over what?
>>7938556
you and me both. The recovery and the risk of loss of sensation and all of that shit just does not sound worth it to me :/
>>7938550
no we arent
>>7938557
hugg
>>7938557
It
Like literally it
>>7938547
tfw permatwink
>>7938548
ily
>>7938550
Hmm
No
>>7938568
ily
>>7938526
hi :3
>>7938567
lass u are nothing twinkish
>>7938577
no don't that's mean
>Refused to take $14 an hour and shave my head
>get called by a second company
>$23 an hour, come in a suit and tie
>make sure you have a command presence
>radiate that you're in charge and you'll get the job
I got this I'm fucking alpha af
https://clyp.it/0yliailq
>>7938577
Pick me, pick me ^^
>>7938580
literally shaking
>>7938576
I must have missed the mark ;_;
>>7938580
I like alpha Faye
>>7938575
>tfw no marty bf
:/
>>7938551
cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd cudd
oh yay i didn't see this one.
pls stop bully threads
>>7938592
ikr
he's too cute!
>>7938588
Especially in bed
>>7938577
Crack it over me bb
>she's STILL a spherecuck
>>7938572
lauren do you think im bad
>>7938599
too true
all bran with a banana
>>7938606
no
why would I think that
hugg
>>7938605
What if you're standing inside the sphere?
how is your day going?
>>7938577
i wanna crack an egg over a tranny
>>7938608
Eat me I want to die
>>7938610
idk sometimes i feel like im bad and deserve pain
wugg
>>7938577
I've been waiting for someone to do this to me for a long time, but no one will
>>7938611
hnnggg!!
never change
>>7938620
gugg
>>7938618
but you're made of meat :<
>>7938620
iktf ;-;
>attracted only to cis guys
>dont consider self gay male
.dont consider self straight female
what am i
why cant these things just have a name for it
>>7938627
Meat is delicious.
>>7938630
delet
>>7938615
Same as most other days: I said some mean things, I said some lewd things. Now, I'm just sitting here wondering why I don't have my shit together yet.
>>7938630
but meat is murder
>>7938629
Just call yourself a faggot I think it gets the point across
>>7938636
Delicious murder.
my tummy hurts
I think I might be losing my abs
i miss my puddin ;_;
can't wait till tuesday for makeup sex
>tfw bf went to work
>tfw nobody is cuddling with me right now
>>7938623
angie plss
>>7938641
did you like that movie
>>7938641
You're back with your boyfriend?
this gay Jewish universe itself is a prison constructed by the shitskin demiurge (a Bengali nigger amongst gods)
>>7938639
don't you think thats a bit selfish
>>7938637
okay thank you
>>7938628
well you arent bad and you dont deserve pain
just ask your bf :3
i wish i had a proper mom
i hope my dad remarries
i
want a mom
>>7938643
I wanna be her like i would sell my soul for a trillion years mining coal in hell to look that fierce
>>7938642
Pls what?
I moved down to the south so I could be a hate crime but no one attacks me.
The south is filled with a bunch of fucking pussies
>>7938652
Get one of the thread mommies to adopt you.
Faye, Elanna, Joan, Hailee, etc.
>>7938659
i want a real mom
>>7938644
Well gonna get kinky in a few days, lets see if he addicted to my boi pucci. Think I wanna try and get choked this time
>>7938652
Same but the other way around
I bet a real dad would keep me in check
>>7938659
tfw mommie
>>7938647
It absolutely is.
>>7938627
Meat is tasty
>>7938653
Well you already have an unhealthy level of obsession about a guy that doesn't treat you right so put on some clown makeup and you'll be pretty close.
>tfw no gf to tie you up and hit you and make you bleed and cuddle
>>7938636
niku ha.... satsujin da
>>7938668
Hey I might just do that!
>>7938665
Rly good mommie
I need some sun in my eyes.
>>7938672
*twirls Cindy* <3
>>7938663
So
I want someone to bash my fucking head in.
It'll save me in the long run from not committing suicide.
>>7938673
Being obsessed with someone that treats you badly is. So is being obsessed enough to give up your own happiness because he told you so.
>>7938665
>>7938672
mine mine mine mine mine mine mine mine mine
>>7938665
I want you to be my mummy
I got paid today, maybe I should get a mesh bodysuit and a collar? If I'm gonna be a degenerate might as well go for broke
>>7938682
If you get a collar you might as well get a nice custom one.
>>7938679
You can both share her.
https://discord.gg/AVgzg
>>7938679
Yes yes~
Shsh, I'm yours, it's okay.
>>7938680
Why's that anon? :3
>>7938684
anything
>>7938683
Naw, something like a cheap one.
Do I get a loop, a bell, spikes? Never bought a choker before
>>7938687
idk
but I want
tfw crying
>>7938666
So why do it if you acknowledge it's awfulness? Are you an a-moral?
>>7938691
I personally like simple ones with a ring in the front for attaching a leash and that's it
>>7938684
I thought grindr was meant for gay cis males, am I mistaken?
>>7938691
get this
>>7938684
>grindr
Where's your self respect?
>>7938699
those are nice. i have one that the ring is a heart on it
>>7938703
Wew
Ughh what to do what to do
>>7938705
:3
thankyou
>>7938705
Really mixed feelings mostly, happiness, hope, fear, shame, and regret
>>7938711
i'm on bth amd ritalin if u wanna join me!
>>7938697
I'm not completely without morals, but I'm addicted to the taste and convenience that meat provides to the point that I'm willing to ignore the cruelty involved in making it.
today I was with my mom at the grocery store and the old guy by the front doors said "have a nice day ladies" when we were leaving
...idk if he has really bad eyesight or was deliberately making fun of me
>>7938711
Order hormones, it will be hilarious
>>7938719
maybe you look like a girl bro
>>7938711
yeah order hormones dude
it'll be so funny, ppl will think you're a chick
I want to get called miss irl
Have any of you girls ever removed skin tags at home before?
Would it be okay to just cut it off, or get someone else to cut it with a pair of sharp scissors if I can't do it myself?
>>7938719
Maybe he is a closet tranner at a dead end job badly scratching a making to live. Maybe he is repressed and doesn't want to be a hon. Picked up on social ques and spotted you. I used to see eggs all the time while I worked at a gas station
>>7938718
>I'm not completely without morals, but I'm addicted to the sweet, sweet rush and the bliss feelings of absolute power that serial killing provides to the point I'm willing to ignore the cruelty involved in doing it.
You know you've got your priorities straight if you can justify directly contributing to the mass injustice which is the slaughter of millions of innocent creatures on a daily basis with "I'm willing to ignore the cruel". Good for you! Remember, you are not evil !
>>7938735
you willll! you started young so it's like a matter of days! <3
>>7938717
Yea sure what streets? I'm on 5th and like flower.
Do I qt /mtfg/???
Plz tell beanboy he qts
>>7938744
UGH I NEED 4chanX ON HERE srry again
>>7938745
Spic
>>7938745
h, i'm not in la, i meant like over the internet.....
>>7938750
idk, he's nice tho imo
>>7938750
he's an enigma
>>7938740
Oh, I'm evil, just a very boring kind of evil.
>>7938749
Qt spic?
._.
,_,
Q-qt spic??
>>7938750
Things beanboy is:
beanboy
>>7938745
why are you holding your dick?
toob
>>7938755
also yeah youre a qt
>>7938760
hey, you don't even need to photoshop a tongue on to this one
https://youtu.be/lsoLYWTzqSY
>>7938767
do you think that one goat dude is hot
>>7938773
zhe?
>>7938753
But directly part of a great evil nonetheless!
Anyway, at least you admit to your moral dissonance, I guess ... But only really further proves the point of the vegan / perhaps anti-natalist philosophy
>tfw a 53 y/o trans women who never had any surgeries except for her breasts passes better than I ever will
https://unsee.
cc/gutosaze/
Feels bad
>>7938763
O-oh o-oni qwuan ~~
*blushes*
>>7938757
Lmao why not
Its my belt but yea you get the point it's like a power thing to show that like I'm aware the power my (Cock) holds and it's just kidna natural idk I think it looks cool
>>7938751
Laaaaaaaame
Out my face
>>7938752
MOAR LIEK ENEMA AMIRTE GUIZZ!!2!!1
>>7938773
Let me do this thing to you Zhe:
Lick under ur ______
That is all.
>>7938781
genetics > age
>>7938784
b-baka...
suguoi
>>7938785
Tfw shitty genetics
>>7938795
we WILL save you one day, angie
hang in there
>>7938790
Desu-chan I wish to be the little girl
That's all the Hebrew I know sorry
>>7938800
beanboy tranny confirmed?
>>7938784
under where?
>>7938774
hi
>>7938781
angie, she passes, but so do you and you look qt.
pls no be sad
:(
>>7938798
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=H4cWPKRhwIc
>>7938580
Good luck!
>>7938800
pica vyjebana
theres some arabic for you
theyre like the beaners of europe
>>7938803
everyone already knew bean baby is a tranny she just has some other issues too
>>7938813
poor girl is out dicking faggots for the price of a shitty meal
>>7938803
Always and for ever.
>=<
You want me to type it our again ur so lewd I swear~~~
Ok
*deep breath*
Right under ____________
And then with my Thick Fat Rough tounge I'd _________ _______ ______until ur _________________________
WOW
I need to take a walk sorry.
>>7938803
Where's your trip Zhe?
I feel conflicted
>>7938795
i'm gonna book our appts for next sunday, okay?
i promise you'll see how qt you look by the time i leave!
>>7938819
Int zhe
>>7938823
Good luck
They can't fix this face
>>7938807
>I have no eyes and I must cry
>>7938818
lmao beanboy, epic post.
thanks for the flattery
/beanboy/ is /ourguy/
>>7938819
idk whats the point in a trip if you'll recognize my posts anywho
>>7938832
you're right, because there's nothing they need to fix!
>>7938812
Jerble gerble duwa dinga owns fellow weekend dowojdowifuguci wk idk not
There's some beanboy 4u
It's a beautiful language
So unassuming.
So pure.
>>7938841
cyoot
>>7938832
iktf
skull autist was right
>>7938841
wtf you aren't ugly eitherrrr yr qttttt
how do make every poster here be happy for a bit, you all deserve to be happy for a few days at least because being happy forever isn't possible;-;
>>7938841
you should be one of those gamer girls on twitch
>>7938854
>>7938841
do you ever look at some of the girls in these threads and think if you had half their potential you'd be a 10/10, but because of a shitty starting point it not possible even with all the effort you put in? That's me every day.
>>7938854
You can't make everyone happy, but you can improve QOL.
>>7938841
meh, it's just your chin and maybe your nose that's a problem
at least you have a cute body
>>7938858
qt pupper
>>7938859
i used to a lot, and still do, buti'm okay with where i am now, and i just wish they could see how qt they are
>>7938865
i know
>>7938866
I'm not!
even my bf who clocks like a lot desu, since living next to a women's and gender studies ends up having hons abound your house, thinks you pass 100% in yr pics.
i promise you i am 100% honest with you sight now. i think you are qt.
>>7938849
Skull autist IS correct. I've chatted with her a lot. She knows her stuff and is definitely correct about the majority of things she says.
>>7938846
>>7938854
the hug box is that way >>>>>>>
:s
>>7938857
how? you have to actually look like a girl.
>>7938859
yes very often. I started HRT at age 24. I got lucky with many genetic things (body size, voice, etc) but that doesn't help my skull any.
>>7938866
ya
>>7938871
chin, jaw, brow.
I don't even really consider my nose a problem compared to those 3.
my nose looks okay from the side.
>>7938876
>Skull autist IS correct.
I know, that wasn't meant to be ironic
>I got lucky with many genetic things (body size, voice, etc) but that doesn't help my skull any.
all the girls here who got lucky with everything but cry about how they can't pass piss me off. they just need to put in the tiniest amount of effort
>>7938866
Happiness is something everyone needs to find individually. It's usually not something another person can just give to someone else.
As far as quality of life goes, anyone is capable of anything, if they really want it. You don't need to be Elon Musk or Bill Gates to make a difference in the world.
I assume you're Zheanna posting without a tripcode. You made a good difference in my life so far and many others'. I think times when you're at your lowest like now it's easy to forget just how big of a positive impact you leave on other people.
You can call or talk to me on skype or something since this thread is kind of hard to properly convey and express emotion and thought in.
>>7938876
i'm not those are my honest thoughts on how you look.
>>7938881
no the other anon is zheanna
>>7938886
disregard me i suck cocks
>>7938885
UGH EVEN ON OTHER BOARDS IT HAPPENS
>bdd
>>7938876
>you have to actually look like a girl.
actually you really don't
lots of them are into it for the asmr anyway so just talk a lot and you'll get free money
>>7938891
we won't.
i saw you irl and you just had the qt nerd girl look
>>7938876
You look like a girl, lass.
>>7938891
Surely your life means more than just looking like a girl.
>>7938889
>hugboxing
not all of us are like you with your 10 year old starting point and perfect bone structure genetics
sick of the it's just xd bddd meme
>>7938840
almost melodic
like choir boys being paddled
>>7938898
>10 year old
>perfect genetics
Ummm
>>7938889
>>7938905
How can you possibly hold yourself accountable for something you have no control over? Your birth and genetics, that is.
about how long does it generally take your family to notice you look different?
I'm back from school and my mom has made some comments on my face and asked me some weird questions, like if I think gender is more fluid in people my age...
>>7938924
Sounds like she knows something is up.
>tfw you were kidding about being alpha
Hey sass wtf do I get for this pic?
>>7938922
By killing myself
>>7938930
We know Faye, we know.
>>7938930
What are you going to do now?
Now.
You can call me retarded and that's fair bit I'm preeeeety sire this place blew up
>>7938933
Try and do something nice for other people before you go.
>>7938944
Right now I'm taking every police test right around the interview time, hope to land the job anyway
>>7938927
we were out shopping today and at TWO different stores an employee there referred to me and her as "ladies"
then later we were talking and she said it looked like I was wearing false eyelashes and that she was trying to figure out why people seemed to think I look like a girl
>>7938958
can we at least go for our makeovers and then a double date first?
>>7938964
How long have you been on HRT for, out of curiosity?
>>7938958
Anyone you can. Everyone if you can. If you hate yourself, sure, fine, but try and improve the world in some way if you can before you go.
>tfw browsing users on an old forum I used to be active in
>found the first trans person I could remember meeting irl or online
>she hasn't been active in 3 years
Damn
The hack she made was p fun too
She's 5 years on hrt by now, I hope she's having a good life
>>7938924
If you're not around them as much then they'll notice you look different when you see them (my mom noticed I logged different around 6 months hrt but didn't know what it was at the time). If you're around them constantly it'll take them longer
>>7938807
:(
>>7938945
You've gone back in time beany
You can save them
>>7938973
not her but what do you think the best way to kill yourself is if you're trying to preserve your organs for donation
>>7938980
oh...
would he not be down for a double date then?
>>7938497
>tfw I look just like op's image
la la la
quiet tonight
>>7938985
Idk
Depends where you want to go.
Knoxville sucks
>>7938976
>tfw formerly active transgirl's last posts were about her thinking about death and religion a lot
>she was also an avid firearms enthusiast
i hope you're sleeping snug up there, raifu
tastu beans & rice:
goya black beans
long grain white rice
1 cube of chicken bouillon
enough sriracha mayo to cover the surface
>>7939000
It isn't
This world is basically fucked
We're behind in technology,still have religion calling the shots with laws. politicians who don't give a shit about anyone who isn't rich.
>>7939013
Then do something to change it
>ISP keeps steadily raising prices on bills
>They keep pretending I don't notice it
>Went from $40 to $68 over a year
wouldn't it be nice if all chasers died
brick me
my head is ready
do it
i need it
>no breasts
>no waist
>have a teenage boy body
>no vagina
>no one to put their dick in my butt
>no one to do more preferably sexual activities with
>people dont want to have real relationships they just want to casual sex
>all the women i really like are straight
>all the men i like are gay
>i am a genderless he-she blob
i h8 life
>>7939029
hi mergury
>>7939036
Why?
>>7939029
If only you actually got cancer.
>>7939029
I think I've seen you, and you looked like a girl to me.
>>7939036
Don't.
>>7939017
Like what?
I'm a filthy tranny. No one would a give a shit about what I have to say or do because of it.
>>7939036
See ya
>>7939054
>I'm a filthy tranny. No one would a give a shit about what I have to say or do because of it.
lol same
the only thing i hate more than being a tranny is being a man
how fucked up is that
>>7939038
hi how r u
new phone, who dis?
>>7939036
bye
>>7939042
i did have cancer you fucking autistic retard, i was just in the hospital for two motherfucking weeks because of it.
i hope you crawl in a ditch and die you prick
>>7939043
i look like a prepubescent girl, maybe
>>7939048
i'm kind of sort of taking care of it, 'cause i'm on my parents health insurance and my mom wouldn't let up, so
im probably going to be alive for a while, meh
>>7939053
pls dont hugbox me ok.
maybe i have a woman face on a man body then
>tfw my babysitter and her daughter when I was 9-13 was an anime fanatic who had the complete collection of ranma 1/2 manga
>tfw that shit shaped my mind and turned me into a woman by age 18
remove anime
>>7939064
>hello this is aaa-nonymous
hello
this is dog.
i'm on the other line, pick up your bananaphone
>>7939068
whoops
>>7939054
With that mindset you won't or can't. There's plenty of us that do lead lives to ease the suffering of others even if we're dying inside ourselves.
mah budd pleb
mah budd merc
>>7939077
what's wrong lil merc
>bought school girl outfit and a heart choker
>gonna wear pig tails
>date is mon night
Gonna get that dick
>>7939029
tbqh if I lived closer I'd gladly hang out with you and see where things went
You're a really nice, funny, intelligent person merc and I genuinely like you.
>>7939074
Let me try to help others while not being able to help myself.
I thought you Asians were smart. You disappoint my 1/5th Japanese side
mah budd olive
>>7939082
kill yourself ugly agp
>>7938969
only a little over 5 months
me pal, me matey, me ol' chum nimmy
>>7939089
I honestly don't consider myself agp and I'd probably have a boner wearing that.
I always get like that when I put on sex wear for my boyfriend
speaking of
I really want to suck a dick right now
>>7939086
I have a right to live, also I get called miss everywhere so fuck what you think.
>>7939093
Im glad i can't get boners anymore
>>7939083
;--------------------------------------------------------------------; why are you so nice to me i like you, ur cool
i should give you my real life skype desu
i appreciate you saying that btw
>>7939079
well, you see nim, i dont know if you knew this already or not, but, I'm a transsexual, which means I was born in the wrong body, and i'm not changing my gender, and i'm going to have the surgery pretty soon
>>7939090
let me bring out the rum me lad and we'll drink til morn'
>>7939093
idk I might too but I never wear stuff like that and I don't do sex so who knows
>>7939099
o-oh
are you nervous merc
>>7939099
which tumour are you getting removed first
>>7939084
I'm pretty much nonfunctional as an adult and human being overall but I still try.
This ramen is pretty good
I should buy it for lunch every day
Blue board
Blue board
>>7939109
good luck, you can do it!!!
Is helping friends with their computer problems trutrans?
>>7939109
it'll be okay
you're gonna be a reel gurl now!
>>7939112
>day 1 of her diet and she's gorging on ramen
BAD SNICKS
>tfw the dermatologist calls your eyes "the most beautiful thing she's ever seen" but i only know that because she told my mom that
why wouldn't she just compliment me herself :(
>>7939117
sure
>>7939082
agp as fug tbdesu
have fun though
>>7939107
>Seth Rollins will never be your bf
>>7939122
furfags leave reeEEE
>>7939117
definitely trutrans
>>7939121
t-that's bad?
it's not a lot of calories
>>7939117
like in a porno way or a regular way
>>7939124
its not polite to compliment a lady during an appointment
2/10
>>7939138
It's half carbs half sodium yeah
Look at the nutritional facts on the back it has like 70% of your daily sodium in it and like 80g of carbs
>tfw woman at the front desk of the doctor's office complimented my eyes and said they were beautiful
>tfw was kind of flustered because she called me by my girl name so I just sort of muttered "t-thanks"
Why does everyone compliment me about my eyes
>>7939138
very high sodium content, carb heavy
>>7939132
>agp as fug tbdesu
Im not doing it for me, where did anyone get that idea? You gotta dress slutty to keep shit fun in the bedroom
>>7939148
what if I just have vegetables for dinner?
Pic related: me going to an interview as a boy
>>7939151
Post eyes, beautiful.
>>7939152
Yah just have to have the right attitude.
>>7939152
jesus christ kayla you are so fucking dumb
Hi everyone, I'm new here.
I'm a misanthropic amoral egoist, to throw out some words. The greatest influences on me in terms of theory would be Max Stirner, Georges Palante and Renzo Novatorre. Nietzsche comes in there somewhere.
I am also pretty strongly convinced by Austrian school political economy, not that I give a shit.
I am an "anarchist" more by incident than design, even my laissez-faire capitalist leanings are more academic than relevant. I pretty much despise egalitarianism, socialism, statists of all sorts, whiners, social cowards, and stupid people.
tfw trying to raise calories
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
>>7939154
Still bad. You want to eat balanced meals. You can go low on carbs or cut it out entirely if you want to lose weight without exercising.
Not sure how the idea that eating only vegetables will sustain you in your head but we need to get it back out.
>>7939160
you sound like a fag jesus christ
>>7939160
....what's that have to do with anything?
>>7939160
Stirner was a self-described socialist and loathed capitalism you fucking spook.
>>7939117
hey elanna, can you help me with a computer problem i'm having?
every time i post in /mtfg/, there's a dumb canadian tranny that appears and i can't seem to get rid of it - any tips?
>>7939157
Why?
>>7939164
*throws calories at u*
>>7939165
I don't understand how eating works
shouldn't I just be fine if I eat the right amount of calories?
>>7939117
No it just means your friends are fucking stupid
>>7939173
what you wear doesn't mean much. It's all attitude.
>>7939179
oh yeah haha i know what you mean ;)
>2:53am
>come home from a party
>tfw mom and her new bf are naked on the couch listening to johnny cash
I guess I shouldn't read to far into why a bunch of agp transbians get on my case for dressing slutty around my bf. More straight girl shaming.
>>7939183
1600 calories of sugar sweetened sod is a lot different nutritionally than 1600 calories of beef.
>>7939160
https://theconjurehouse.com/2016/11/18/the-stirner-wasnt-a-capitalist-you-fucking-idiot-cheat-sheet/
>>7939172
Are you sure it's plugged in?
>>7939185
To be fair, they did actually do everything right and the issue wasn't obvious to someone without experience building systems
>>7939192
is being biscum agp kayla
>>7939192
Dressing slutty can be fun. it just isn't needed if you have the right attitude.
>>7939190
trolled by mom
>>7939186
Its both. Like the best sex we had was when I was super comfy and high and into it. I was in a short black skirt and my boops over my bra and i was on my bed on my back and i had one leg over his shoulder and we were looking into eachothers eyes as i said fuck me daddy and then tounge kissed as he came in me, that shiy was memorable
>>7939189
wot
>>7939175
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
>>7939183
>I don't understand how eating works
>shouldn't I just be fine if I eat the right amount of calories?
i mean the answer is "yes and no"
if you eat fewer than calories than you expend on a daily basis, you'll lose weight - you should still aim to be healthy though, and eating the right balance of protein/fat/carbs will encourage your body to burn fat instead of muscle
ramen is nothing but carbs and salt, and it's pretty calorie dense
>>7939192
I'm a transbian
>>7939217
*throws bus full of bacon at u*
>>7939200
By right attitude you mean being extra ditsy right? I'm usually ditsy af but certain sexual moments are cause for being a smooth brained cockslut
>>7939220
Get in my bed then you stupid slut
>>7939219
well I need something else cheap to eat for lunch then
>>7939220
Be my gf please.
>>7939213
just be yourself
also how are you doing
>>7939183
There is a lot of science that goes into food. Your body requires an exact many amount of many different substances to survive and operate optimally.
In a nutshell..
Carbs is the easiest form of getting energy.
Protein is necessary for building and maintaining muscle.
Fat is necessary for storing energy and is needed for repairing and protecting your organs.
Fats aren't necessarily a bad thing. If you look at the nutritional value of an egg it looks terrible. A lot of fats. However it's probably one of the healthiest foods you can possible eat.
It's kind of hard to explain quickly. If you really care you could do your own research into knowing what you should put in your body to get out of it.
>>7939230
frozen vegetables and tuna
>>7939220
>transbian
Translated to "I failed at getting a man in my bed."
>>7939243
why tho
>>7939138
>it's not a lot of calories
We need to get you a thread mommy to help get you on a balanced diet
i feel so frustrated and alone
there is a big social event in my small hometown. I want to go so bad. Everyone I know is going. But I feel I don't belong.
im melting
>>7939239
oh i guess the lucidity you showed for like... two days. i guess its gone
>>7939230
Think in the long run and learn to meal prep. Do you have any bulk supermarkets around you like a Sams or Costco?
>>7939249
Why do you feel you don't belong? Why not go anyways?
>>7939228
>>7939232
H-haha I was just pretending
>>7939239
Hey, at least I've never settled for a chaser.
>>7939250
you could always have lentils and beaaaaaaaans
>>7939249
Make yourself belong.
>>7939250
A problem? I mean, well, no, not really. Even if you eat it every day if you can manage it, you'll be okay. I wouldn't recommend it since there's healthier and tastier options out there, but it'll cost a little bit more and take more effort to prepare.
>>7939257
because I'm the only tranny in the entire city and everyone knows. idk
i want to go so bad.
my ex dude who is my bff is gonna be there with his new girl tho...
So dysphoric today
I hate my bulge ;_;
>>7939248
but a bowl is 380 and an apple is like 95 which I usually have for breakfast
that's like 500 and that gives me like another 5 or 6 hundred for dinner
...right?
>>7939269
Tfw Brad Pitt looks more fem than me
>tfw sad on some holiday everyone is celebrating
>tfw remember I never do anything on said holiday anyway and try not to care
>tfw more sad after that
it's really heart-warming to see that everyone's synched their dysphoria cycles
>>7939259
I'm not pretending. IN.
>>7939258
why do you think you cannot enjoy life
maybe you need hrt and try antidepressants for a while
>>7939267
Oh, ouch. Well, you should still consider going, enjoy yourself, be yourself.
Why must the internet always trigger me.
>>7939279
>be yourself
I never really understood what this meant. When I go to any social gathering, whether it's voluntary or forced, I just sit or stand in a corner with a drink staring blankly at everything until I can go home because nothing and nobody there can interest me.
>>7939259
>Hey, at least I've never settled for a chaser.
Transbians are chasers infused with estrogen. Like sparkling water with cranberry flavor doesn't make it juice (if that analogy could make it into ur maple syrup soaked brain)
>>7939276
But my dysphoria is everyday
>>7939290
Does this mean you don't want to sleep with me anymore?
I tapped this to my wall
>>7939290
why are kaylas insults always so cute
>>7939294
>implying your goody two shoe ass would have anything to do with an ugly man like me
>>7939301
Could you clarify what you mean by this? I honestly can't parse the meaning
>>7939295
>>7939295
Good!
>>7939288
I assume you mean you do take hrt which is good
do you have a part time job or anything like that
its good to have something you need to wake up and get out of the house for once in a while
>>7939295
You have cute, grade schooler tier handwriting
>>7939319
Trip fell off.
>>7939311
It means I'm way below your physical and social status for us to even be peers
>>7939323
>>7939295
>my handwriting is much worse
>>7939317
I also have this in my room from when I was in the psych ward
>>7939267
I have gone to like 2 social gatherings since I started transition 3 years ago. I don't think they're worth
the first everyone bullied me for looking like a girl, back when I was still presenting maleish but on hrt a bit
the other I spent the night crying in a corner because my best friend who I have a crush on was there with his girlfriend and wouldn't talk to me
everyone post handwriting
>>7939331
But I'm not internet famous like you
>>7939336
it's difficult, but possible to recover from NEEThood, y'know
i was a neet for 22 months until i got back into work (it's terrible and i want to cry on a daily basis though, so there's no winning either way)
>>7939156
sorry for giving a serial killer stare here
>>7939343
:^)
>>7939336
I bet there is something you can do
it doesn't need to be some awful activity just something to give a bit of structure
>>7939356
>>7939343
my handwriting a shit
>>7939343
>>7939353
They kind of are, yeah. But eyes never look as pretty when they're in the shade.
>>7939336
>>7939352
It's possible. I've been easing my boyfriend out of it
Take it one step at a time. Make little micro goals, tiny things to just get done over the course of a week or month, and do them. Get outside once in a while, talk to another human being. Then just look for a small couple hour a week job if you can find one. You don't need to jump right from neet life to full time.
>>7939373
>
>>7939381
>>7939385
>>7939386
>>7939388
>Everyone has beautiful, scribe or cartographer level of handwriting
>I look like a doctor with Parkinson's trying to write prescriptions
>>7939393
okay why exactly do you say you are retarded?
>>7939398
Don't worry, mine's the same.
>>7939398
looks better than my handwriting senpai
>>7939398
I write and draw a lot, for work. Back in high school my handwriting was disgusting, it improved a lot as I went through college.
>>7939403
I know something useful that makes me a lot of money. This is just something I'm doing for fun on the side.
>>7939343
yep mine's bad
>>7939398
mine's terrible too, it's all good
>>7939403
Also, if you make your goals small enough to keep up with, it's just a small boost of self confidence every time you finish something. I know it sounds silly but surprisingly it works.
>>7939295
I put this on my phone awhile ago :)
>>7939385
>my handwriting a shit
Nah, it's pretty cute
>>7939412
do you have like brain damage or something? maybe it is just depression making you feel this way
>>7939249
consider suicide
>>7939398
Mine's so beautiful mortal eyes can't comprehend it.
tfw reading the list of symptoms of mercury poisoning you realize you have them all.
>>7939404
>>7939408
>>7939431
try me, I'm an immortal.
>>7939295
That's a good way to stay positive ^^ I write nice stuff on my mirror
Keep at it snicks!
>>7939436
Don't go after illiterate guys.
>>7939430
thank you
i have been.
>>7939447
consider going and having a good time
>>7939444
you're not hopeless and learning to drive is not that difficult you just need to practice a bit
also is this maki (or 'not maki' person I keep mistaking for maki)?
>>7939343
>tfw u have bars but can't read them
You can see the mental illness in my handwriting I'm sure of it.
>>7939444
I don't think you can be too dumb to drive. why not make that a micro goal, do you think you can get the drivers manual book and spend 20 minutes a day reading it? then next month you should know the whole thing
and if you've been fired from every job you've had are you trying to vary the type of work you try out? I admit I don't know what kind of advice to give there but it sounds like self confidence issues, idk. Nobody is hopeless anon, I have hope for everyone. You included.
>>7939459
>going over the red line
>>7939436
Confess in person!
>>7939463
That's my life
>>7939419
Proof
>tfw retard handwriting
>>7939471
It ain't worse than mine.
>>7939476
Hmmmm
>>7939483
That's pretty.
>>7939436
>>7939488
10/10
love the sick figures
>gf doesn't care about me anymore
why fucking go on
>>7939481
see you know there are some things you can work on that can help you so don't say dumb stuff about killing yourself okay
>>7939492
i was suicidal for the same reason three years ago
it takes a very very very long time but it gets better
Litterally takes me 10 minutes to write this neatly
>>7939466
>tfw fell back into the i look like a man feels pit and got too scared to get dinner
>>7939061
idk then. i'm not hug boxing
reminder that Ash is NOT ONE OF US.
She has a vagina and is essentially a cis-female. her family, her friends, and medical practitioners accept her as an actual female. she has bigger tanner V breasts than most women and her ass is fuller and fatter than the majority of cis women.
fuck ash and her stupid /soc/ whoring. shes quick to distance herself from transpeople too.
she just likes to come here because she is the prettiest
i hate that bitch
>>7939502
Oh you. I bet you'll find someone you enjoy touching one day.
>>7939496
Mines is worse ><
>>7939499
it doesn't get better
>>7939507
Ash's mom had to fight to even get her on HRT she needs to look like that, faggot. Fuck off.
>>7939515
why do you say so anon?
>>7939495
i guess. but why tho?
ill never be as good as i should and why even keep trying if you're retarded and a joke of a human being?
>>7939507
kys fag
I have neat handwriting I think idk
Where is olive
I need her
For.....reasons
>>7939508
no
my rules in a relationship
no talking unless necessary
no eye contact
no touching outside the bare minimum required in sex
here's a sample of my handwriting since everyone else is doing it
>>7939433
Idk what did I do to you?
>>7939524
no gay sex allowed
how do i go back to being positive
i feel like i look like a man in his last year of uni rn
>>7939481
baby steps.
>>7939530
oh hey look~
>>7939533
No, rules are not meant to be broken, that's why they're rules
>>7939533
I'm Sorry, it's supposed to be directed at my hypothetical bf >~<
>>7939519
there is literally not anything else in my life worth anything
and i am not even worth her time now
>>7939507
she's nice
what's the problem
>>7939521
you're not supposed to be anything you're just you
and keep trying because its the only thing you can do
I don't believe you're retarded and a joke I think you are selling yourself short because of depression
>>7939547
she was amab tho
>>7939507
Fuck off
I hate mine. I haven't used cursive in so long I couldn't even if I tried. Eventually I'll practice both in a journal or something.
>>7939550
>born with a vagina
>amab
ok
>>7939547
she's not afab she's amab and her mom had to fight the medical system to get hrt
>>7939552
reeeee dont tempt me you succubus
>>7939556
had to get srs
>>7939544
Maybe so right now, but that doesn't define what the future can be.
>>7939559
>this romantic narrative
>>7939556
seems you are extremely stupid and do not know what amab/afab means
How come we all have male brains when it comes to writing
>>7939565
i want no future without her
>tfw to intelligent to learn cursive
Repost
Hey girls.
As of tonight I've decided to ditch "home" and see how far I can get.
By myself.
I have 8.75
This phone
And the clothes on me.
The ide of march has past.
The Aztec new year is tommorow
I'm not looking back
It's easy to survive outside.
I don't know when's the next time I will post as I have no charger and my bill is due tomorrow
I will sleep in azuza tonight.
Thinking of hopping trains to like northern California and looking for bigfoot.
I'm almost goddam 21 it's about god dam time I started my life
at least im not the worst here
>>7939573
holy fuck bean boy
>>7939573
Good luck man
>>7939573
:/ I hope you will be okay
>>7939570
Don't you have to write that way in school?
>>7939573
You're fucking stupid and you're going to get raped riding around on trains - more likely arrested. That shit isn't a game anymore and people don't do it by choice to be edgy like the 90s. Homeland security replaced local bulls and they've got cameras everywhere that isn't haybail land. You'll likely dehydrate in the woods and get phenomena. Don't do it.
>>7939570
>learn cursive in second grade and start writing it
>get in trouble and get sent to the principal for "learning things I shouldn't"
>>7939573
You're fucking bizarre. Best of luck to you, either way.
>>7939573
Godspeed my dude
>>7939591
school is about teaching you to be an orderly citizen not about expanding knowledge
>tfw a year and a half out of college and I've forgotten how to draw triangles by hand
>>7939570
Same honestly. Print is god tier
>>7939591
God elementary schools are cancer
In third grade, I got my school's version of a B for a class because "An A is for students who go exceed expectations but I expected him to be perfect"
>>7939599
Ganbatte anon :)
I keep FUCKING FORGETTING to take my 2nd Spiro+estrogen
>>7939589
>and get phenomena
>tfw beanboy is going to contract northern lights
>>7939605
omg same
>>7939599
just like the other anon was saying baby steps
you don't have to do everything in one day just go slow and steady
>>7939605
I need to figure out what im going to eat for final meal before I take them
>>7939619
America just wants good workers :^)
I was spoiled, private high school was not too bad. We actually *learned* stuff.
>>7939624
and then your bf would dump you again lol
okay how tf do you not have frizzy homeless person hair
my ends are always curled, my hair is always frizzy with flyaways everywhere, it looks gross
help meeee
>>7939478
You just wish you could have had a taste
>>7939632
go to a hair salon and ask a stylist to help you
>>7939632
What shampoo/conditioner do you use? Do you use leave in?
Post a picture of your hair by itself. Frizzy hair often means poorly-cared-for-curly hair and I know a thing or two about curls
>>7939619
>drop out in 10th grade
>free year off
>enroll in local community College
>earn 24 credits = GED
>graduate 4 year college 2 years earlier than my high school class
>>7939633
w-wait
when did you get srs?
also congrats
>>7939632
Your ends are split
Get them trimmed
>tfw forgot to pick up my hrt refill
fuuuug
Guess I'll pick it up first thing tomorrow morning
I hope I don't forget to pick it up before my flight
>>7939573
Godspeed beany
don't die out there
>>7939633
I just wish I lived in a country like yours where srs is a freebie. By the time I can have mine, trump will have made estrogen pills illegal and had me shot. Your vagina is literally built on the shattered hopes and tears of less fortunate trans people (me included).
>>7939638
i can't
>>7939641
garnier whole blends honey treasures shampoo/conditioner/hair mask
john frieda anti-frizz serum, i also have the leave-in conditioner
my hair is straight
>>7939624
that feeling when SRS wont fill the hole in my life
that feeling when all SRS does is literally add another hole in my life
eternally dysphoric
i'm glad i get to sleep every night at least
>>7939647
every time i go they try to get me to take more off ;-;
im too nervous to go to a salon so i go to a barber lmao
>>7939569
neither did I, I took a literal walk into a tornado at the time. at the very least you should keep living because if she hears about your death she'll feel guilty or that you did it to spite her, and she doesn't deserve that.
>>7939646
Getting close to 4 years ago
Thanks though
>>7939663
Well you seem to know the solution already
Go to a salon
>>7939663
ever since seeing the jenner thing about him being sensitive about his hair pretrans, i feel like that outs me to most people :(
>>7939658
better than having a front tail like a mutated monkey
I straight up made an account on man mods asking for a cutter to see what he can do about a penectomy, im that desperate.
Fix frizz ;~;
>>7939661
I visit that same graveyard still. I trudged 2 miles through 4 and 5 foot snow drifts today. Shit was intense and made me wonder how the fuck natives lived and how people in the entirety of human history until smart phones and cars and other modern bullshit. Some cis girl from tinder went with me she was really cool and took a lot of pictures, but it wasn't a date and I wished it was. I miss dating. I ended up getting so winded I switched to a man voice lmao
>>7939669
Can't relate to that feeling. If you just woke up as a normal woman tomorrow would you be happy?
>>7939657
why not
>>7939624
>tfw waiting for your surgery approval
Remember that magic doesn't come from without, but from within. You control your own destiny, your own shackles.
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You can be so much more once you come to know yourself.
>>7939678
fix your handwriting first, then we can talk about hair
>>7939669
Why don't you just get insurance and get surgery
>>7939687
because salons are for girls
>>7939684
>Shit was intense and made me wonder how the fuck natives lived and how people in the entirety of human history until smart phones and cars and other modern bullshit.
I want to go on a long hike, like one of the big 3 trails in the United States. People say when you get back you don't trust anything that moves faster than 3mph.
>>7939692
Magicks real if you make it real
>>7939696
okay dumbass quit whining here you already know what you have to do to help your hair you just want attn here I guess
>>7939682
same :(
i cried a bunch and one time my dad pulled down my pants and spanked me in public when i was like 9 lol cuz i kept trying to escape
ugh
>>7939684
that sounds cool
post girl voice?
>>7939697
same
wanna go together so we don't get eaten by cougars alone?
>>7939696
iktf
>>7939703
>cath
Cathedral? Catheter?
>>7939684
they used snowshoes
>>7939695
4 year wait list
FOUR YEAR WAIT LIST
>>7939711
Oh fuck I'm mad stupid
>>7939712
Which doctors because I need to get on that fucking list. :(
>tfw gonna get bashed because i look like an obvi tranny in the se us
>>7939710
>Catheter
yes, tends to happen after major genital rearranging
Though waking up in a cathedral would mean my struggle lead me to sainthood so I could get srs out of piety so both are a win win
>>7939708
>same
>wanna go together so we don't get eaten by cougars alone?
Literally yes.
I don't know when would be able to go. I hate that normie jobs don't let you take 6-8 month vacations ;_; I guess I'll have to wait until I have my surgery money, I was gonna quit my job for them anyway.
>>7939645
I didn't get to get out of graduating form hs, but I was only a couple credits shy of jr standing by the end of hs. I started taking community college courses before hs.
>>7939715
you really are mini angie aren't you
>>7939714
Bowers is 4, Sinclair is immediate but I can't get a hold of his office and never heard of him before my endo suggested him.
>>7939708
My girl voice is at best male range androgynous. It's taken me awhile to raise pitch but it has like a lot of work I keep neglecting to do.... Truthfully, I'd be a "dike" lesbian anyway if I was cis so I don't much give a fuck about my voice. I wish I had a female one, but I'm not really upset as I am now. This'll probably change real quick once I'm back in school...
>>7939724
How many mini Angie's are there
>>7939704
You're looking for something bright and clear, but magic doesn't work like that, anon~ Like it said, it's from you.
Sleep well!
>>7939724
angie passes and is qt tho....
>>7939710
3 times now seeing yr trip makes me start the cranberries song
>>7939720
:3
yeah i get a few weeks of paid time off in late august
i'm excited for the part of my life when i can do that shit
do you hike a lot?
>>7939732
just practice right now yo
>>7939715
you'll be fine
>>7939739
>cranberries song
what
>>7939735
I love you
>>7939744
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yam5uK6e-bQ
>>7939705
im sorry i don't find the idea of going into a women's salon looking like a man an easy thing to do anon
>>7939725
I need to have a major discussion with my current practitioner. They're some of the best in the world, I hope they'll have advice. The pride center is fucking worthless.
>>7939739
Luckyyyyy what kind of job do you have where you get to do that?
I have a few weeks vacation but it's combined with sick days, and I've wasted a bunch of those on meme doctor's visits :\
>do you hike a lot?
lol no. I've wanted to get into it but I just always seem to have other priorities. I'm training for a marathon in August right now so that's kinda taking up all my energy, lol.
>surgery never ever
Snow shoes....
>>7939759
i'm an "aquatics specialist" at petko
i can't afford to take sick days
last time i did i was shocked by how much it affects my budget
thats p sick tho
have u done a marathon before?
that would make me nervous running around so many people
do u run a lot?
r u fulltime lady?
>>7939763
>
>>7939759
what kind of job do you have? sick days for me eat right in to vacation days and I get sick a lot ._.
why wont ppl realize i'm ugly and unpassable
>>7939573
uhh good luck
>>7939779
because you told me you can't remember the last time someone gendered you male
>>7939486
wew that's awful
if you pay attention to how you're righting, you can improve it pretty easily
>>7939756
in my 20 years living as male I went to a barber like 2 times I think. every other haircut was with a stylist at a salon. stop making excuses and just go it doesn't matter how you look.
Monkeys have transsexuals I wonder if other animals do too
>>7939752
I've always liked their son Linger.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6Kspj3OO0s
>>7939787
what should i ask for
>>7939786
>righting
>>7939786
>righting
>>7939737
Hahahahahahaha
Nooooooooo
Did you even see my new pic I posted in passgen?
I look like a monster
>>7939789
im pretty sure my dog is a fag
>>7939779
because you're cute and smol and don't get misgendered
>>7939790
linger is a good boy
he's almost like a son of my own desu
>>7939774
woah so like fish and turtles and stuff? My friend's family owns a pet store somewhere, he works with cats all day and I'm insanely jealous. But yeah I can see how you probably don't get a lot of vacations :\
>have u done a marathon before?
Nope, not even a half. I've competed in 10ks. My mom signed up herself, me, and my siblings and told us we're taking a family vacation for it :)
>that would make me nervous running around so many people
Yeah I get nervous around people too but idk, races tend to spread out pretty quick. Nobody really pays attention to other people at races anyway
>do u run a lot?
Nowadays yes. I used to be a swimmer, running I picked up very recently, since I can't swim anymore now that I'm on HRT, just to stay healthy and in shape, and because my mom is a runner too so it's kinda a bonding thing.
>r u fulltime lady?
not intentionally :^) my boymode generally doesn't pass as male though. I've got problems.
>>7939778
I'm an electronics engineer.
>>7939789
How'd they even determine that?
We won't proceed in this life
If we don't see what we need
>>7939789
rats and dogs.
they have even made transgender rats.
>>7939801
they asked them duh
>>7939786
I know it sux and I could fix it with just a little effort buuut
>righting
>>7939792
if you have an idea how you want it to look try to find a picture you can show them for reference. if you're not sure ask them to trim and shape it a bit
>>7939806
I mean, did they? Like, did they teach them sign language and ask them that way?
>>7939801
I have no idea. Some people in the 1800s recognized every so often monkeys and primeapes (which aren't very similar) both display the other gender and scratch and even mutilate themselves. So like 200 years of study idk
>>7939801
by teh way they act...
>>7939814
Interesting. So it's only in animals with higher order brain functions, I suppose?
>>7939810
im not going to a salon to ask for a female haircut lol
ill just ask them to trim it
>>7939801
>How'd they even determine that?
they asked sass
>>7939820
okay that is a start I guess
>>7939812
I'm pretty sure monkeys are actually incapable of answering complicated questions
I don't think they're capable of deep :thinking:
>>7939819
Knowing what we know about transsexuality in human beans, it probably doesn't take much higher order brain function for gender mismatch to exist. I imagine it's just harder to study in other types of animals.
>>7939813
linger video reminds me of my time in nyc plus I just like the song.
>>7939819
likely just animals with enough of a concept of gender beyond simply biological function.
anyone else feel like they jumped the gun on their legal name and gender change?
>>7939819
I've seen a bull that acted like a cow.
>>7939800
funn
have u swam at all since hrt?
are u gonna this summer?
>>7939813
<3
>>7939836
what does that mean
>>7939800
you me and juniper should go hiking and have a threesome
>>7939835
Smart but like, they lack the same level of consciousness we have
They cant really answer deep questions and haven't shown the ability to ask questions by their own free will
most livestock are trans, they've all had orchi's
>>7939805
I always imagine dogs to be even worse than humans. Cuz you can mix em more to greater effect
Like imagine being a tiny little lapdog but LITERALLY having an aggressive pit bull or whatever brain type. Life would be hell. Plus dogs already have been bred into neurological disorders and all sorts of shit. The British were crazy with that shit.
>>7939827
Yeah this was my conclusion too but I'm also so retarded I forgot about snow shoes so we can't trust me.
>>7939832
No.
>>7939825
I watched this movie with donny yen or whatever called monkey king. It was the most schizophrenic movie I've seen besides Mr nobody
>>7939844
because you got bdd and low self esteem
>>7939835
Yeah but it's a behavior thing. And there's neurological basis for it, which I'm sure there's equivalent structures in other lower order animals
>>7939837
Nope. Not once :\ I miss it almost more than anything else in the world. The first summer I was on HRT, I considered quitting so I'd be able to still swim.
I don't think I can this summer. *Maybe* if I hang out with friends who are okay with me as a tranny and it's a private pool I'd consider it. I wouldn't go to a lap pool though
>>7939842
>should go hiking
YES please teach me
>have a threesome
lets..... not
>>7939846
stopped clock is right twice a day
>>7939832
no, it took me four years to find my name and now that I know what it is I can't wait to get it changed
I'm gay
>>7939846
>No
so then you are fulltime?
>>7939851
why not? it could be fun being in the mountains the three of us snuggle fucking til dawn
>>7939840
It basically acted as if it was a cow, not a bull. We set it off to be slaughtered.
>>7939824
what if they try to style it to make it look like a boys haircut
hair people are really autistic about hair, they always try to do something else to it even though you just want a freaking trimming!
>>7939857
You had me at snuggle then lost me at fucking.
>>7939854
yeah we know gayfer
>>7939844
I just can't convince you
>>7939849
maybe like super minor bdd. it's a srs illness i don't wanna co-opt....
>>7939845
Only steers. We even put them on hormones...
>>7939842
woah
lets just hike a bit and see how it goes from there ok?
>>7939829
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkxUpCdLDx8
this song reminds me of that one time
>>7939851
damn
i haven't swam in years because i hate my body
probably won't for a while longer too
you should do a solo hike to a secluded lake and swim during a weekday when no one is there
...need thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars for surgery
impossible
I like watching blood ooze out of my body. That part of having periods sounds pretty cool.
>>7939866
just gotta get more self-confident
>>7939862
you would snuggle a stranger but are completely turned off from fucking? interesting
>>7939872
ok chris chan
fuck i keep misplacing checks at work and it's the worst anxiety
why am i so fucking retarded
what the fuck
how am i that absent minded so often
>>7939869
>i haven't swam in years because i hate my body
aww ;_; I'm sure it's no worse than mine, you'll feel comfortable doing it again in no time
>you should do a solo hike to a secluded lake and swim during a weekday when no one is there
Wow. that's honestly an awesome idea. I hadn't really considered it, thank you.
Right now there's like a foot of snow outside though, this'll have to wait until summer for sure.
>>7939878
I'm monogamous and in a relationship but I think snuggling with another girl is not infidelity
>>7939657
>my hair is straight
that's the only part of you that is
>>7939885
oh you have a partner and are monogamous? what do they think about you wanting to snuggle other girls
[spoiler]you can snuggle me if you want [/spoiler]
>>7939872
>in electrolysis waiting room 2 days ago
>4 women start cackling about periods
>i'm siting there white knuckle anxiety wishing for the bombs to start falling
>one looked at me and started complementing my hair
>hair talk ensues
not really sure I wanna be a woman anymore
>>7939884
Recently I lost the folder filled with all the legal documents I needed to get my name changed at several different establishments. Luckily someone found it and contacted me about it, but I know the struggle.
>>7939855
Yeah, but I only pass maybe 60% of my days. I also don't do anything that it has mattered yet. I live in NY literally no one gives a shit I'm trans it's a popular meme here. Hung with a girl today I asked if she has trans friends she said her brother and cousin are both trans. Everyone in NY is secretly trans.
>>7939884
I hate this fucker because if you don't land earth quake it's going to out speed jump kick your entire squad.
>>7939872
a-are you feeling okay there?
>>7939872
bleeding does look cool desu
>pretending to be a cute little girl on the internet
>>7939891
I think he would be jealous buuuuuuuuut if we're out in the woods...
My conscience would never let me go past snuggling though.
>>7939894
How can you bring yourself to go fulltime when you don't think you fully pass? Like is it strength or madness? I fail boymode daily now but I still feel too inadequate to perma girlmode
>>7939884
People still use cheques to pay for stuff?
is getting surgery even realistic
>>7939901
Tomboymode
>>7939898
>retending to be yourself
>>7939898
Sometimes I think mtfg isn't real and I am in some nut house walking around drugged up.
>>7939894
Are people really that friendly to transfolk in NY? I've had to pull my gun out more times in NY than TX for being trans to stop murder.
>>7939900
wow you sound kind of slutty
so much for monogamous
>>7939913
WOW that's rude. I'm no slut, I love my boyfriend. I just think friend-cuddling is okay
>>7939889
why are you being rude
I really need to leave this place for good
>>7939885
>>7939888
solo hikes are more fun imo
>>7939888
our second date when we just drove around seattle and stuff
>>7939893
wew
thats stress
i am recently realizing how forgetful i am and its just another reason to hate me
>>7939894
i haven't played in forever :/
i don't even know what to put on a team
i kind of lost interest i guess since gen 10
>>7939904
yeah and we're supposed to staple a check shaped flyer to their receipt so i'm pretty positive that's what i've done :(
>>7939905
yes
even for you <3
>>7939918
why?
>>7939898
>tfw continue to lie to myself that I'm a girl
when everyone IRL needs to fuck the fuck off this happens
>>7939908
oh well yeah that isn't really girlmode. Girl jeans, a bra, some light eye makeup, earrings, lip gloss, are all part of my boymode, I just wear button down guy flannel shirts to hide my bewbs so that makes it boymode.
There was a time
When I could sing and I could dance
With a perfect mind
And I would always take a chance
But now I realize that today is different
It is so different than yesterday
>>7939916
lol look at the way you typed that first line
>I think he would be jealous buuuuuuuuut if we're out in the woods...
looks like a s l u t to me
>>7939901
>How can you bring yourself to go fulltime when you don't think you fully pass?
Because being seen as a tranny is better than being seen as a man. Even if people just think you're a turbofag at least they don't treat you like a dudebro.
>>7939918
i know that feeling
>>7939926
Hmmm I'm not very good at communicating, that's true
I'm not a slut though.....
>>7939919
im scared to hike solo :<
and there's nowhere nearby that i could go to anyway.
and yea i get it now.
>>7939919
>>7939914
>>7939921
top artist/album/track?
>>7939901
Apathy maybe idk. Genuine apathy. Everyone has not once questioned it - and it doesn't bother me when someone misgenders me because the people I care about get it right 100% of the time. I am what I am and my face isn't pretty. I can either pretend I give a shit that I'm a guy or I can ignore it and be butthurt I don't have a vagina or a hot body to impress lesbians with. It's literally so common to be trans around here and there are a plethora of more overly distinguishable sexual archetypes like cross dressing sissy boys and huge transvestites and such. Women walk around topless. No one has time to 2nd look me.
>>7939905
It's a real option for many.
>>7939912
What psychotic part of town are you hanging out in? I've had a gun pulled on me once ever by some fucking faggot in a train yard and he was pulling it more on my friend, but it wasn't because I was trans. I've never had trouble.
I had a drunk guy in Albany call me an "annoying queer" and wanted to fight me that's about the most recent thing idk
>>7939919
I lost a lot of interest and only play on the weekends and in the random bracket idgaf about the current meta. I mostly just run writing workshops on showdown.
>>7939917
sorry :(
>>7939927
dude noooo way, being seen as a fag is my nightmare scenario. If i like let myself be openly flamboyant it has to be in full dress and flats and purse and stuff. I seriously force myself to act manly most the time in public not to draw attention. Weirdly enough I'm getting gendered based on how I use my voice.
>>7939935
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTQbiNvZqaY
>>7939911
I've been in one. Not the same. this plce is sane...
>>7939919
>solo hikes are more fun imo
I would want company at least the first time. Knowing me I'd end up eaten by a bear if I went by myself
>>7939931
but you just admitted to wanting to do something that would make your bf jealous
something that is behind his back
s
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just come over to the dark side
>>7939933
You'll make it.
>>7939946
I'm uncorruptable
>>7939895
Yeah. Just a thought kicking around in my head when I was thinking about how cis girls have gone their whole life without ever having a dick.
>>7939896
Last time I got a nosebleed I waited for the blood to run down onto my lips and then pressed them together like it was lipstick. Wouldn't recommend.
>>7939921
409 song listens in a week is supposed to be a lot?? i do that regularly
>>7939939
>Apathy maybe idk. Genuine apathy. Everyone has not once questioned it - and it doesn't bother me when someone misgenders me because the people I care about get it right 100% of the time. I am what I am and my face isn't pretty. I can either pretend I give a shit that I'm a guy or I can ignore it and be butthurt I don't have a vagina or a hot body to impress lesbians with. It's literally so common to be trans around here and there are a plethora of more overly distinguishable sexual archetypes like cross dressing sissy boys and huge transvestites and such. Women walk around topless. No one has time to 2nd look me.
this is why I need to live in a big city. I live near a bunch of stuck up rich white people and its so cal, no one walks so when people do interact outside of their car its always mean spirited. Though it could be paranoia because I have never actually been called anything mean since being more feminine strangely the fuck enough.
i hope i get killed soon
>>7939948
>I think he would be jealous buuuuuuuuut if we're out in the woods...
you are already corrupt my dear
now why don't you come over and snuggle and i will handle the rest
>>7939923
Switch to blouses...
Time to dive in and go all out.
>>7939957
me too
>>7939952
apparently my most per week was 821
lately i haven't really been enjoying music, it sucks
>>7939957
why so glum passer?
>>7939952
yeah idk why it's calling it a new record but it was funny to see how incredibly high it was compared to usual
probably just a new record from since it started doing that last.week thing, i used to do a lot more
getting back up there tho
>>7939939
Syracuse, Albany, outskirts of NYC, Buffalo, bordering into NJ.
I've never had to shoot any of them thankfully. Just the more tolerant a place preaches to be, the less so I find it to be true.
>>7939877
I know. It just is fleeting
>>7939879
>tfw cwc looks like you
>>7939894
Iktf like I think that's why I haven't been miagendered in quite a while.
It'll probably happen a lot down here.
>>7939901
When your environment is a hugbox, it's ez
>>7939912
Yes. They always gender me female despite my appearance
>>7939959
I'll snuggle but you're not handling anything else
>>7939962
Woah that's crazy, I feel the same. I stopped enjoying music after hitting the bottom of my depression before starting HRT. I hoped transition and not being so sad all the time would make me like it again but it weirdly hasn't. Makes me sad :\
>>7939941
I seriously don't get you, Kayla.
>>7939960
can't find any I like, I love tunic tops but I might as well wear a sign saying tranny then
>>7939919
Nothing good comes from here
>>7939953
guys are nice to girls. They never know when they'll be looking again. Also mom beats it into them.
>>7939953
People are at worst thinking "that man is strange" or "gross a tranny" or "that woman is gross". Most likely they're thinking "God damn it I wonder when I'll get that promotion fuck my taxes are due".
I have been privileged as fuck not to have to work until this year. I'm not looking forward to the grind you've had to endure already. You bitch a lot about undeserving trannies, I didn't get anything in the looks department but sure as shit money was never a thing until like last month.
I think you actually pass better than you assume and I base that on your tits.
>>7939974
yeah :(
i've been trying really hard to discover new stuff
>>7939973
>When your environment is a hugbox, it's ez
must be nice, I live in laguna hills, this place is like if you ain't a plastic barbie doll or a rich old jew then don't leave your room
>>7939964
Oh fuck off Kayla
>>7939962
i go through phases
some weeks i will listen to entire 200 song playlists in a day, just leaving it going all day.
other days i wont play maybe more than a a handful for a week.
>>7939966
Yea that looks like a pretty big spike lol
i need to seek out more stuff to listen to, i've been lax because im getting worn out on a lot of my go-to's
>>7939982
I'm going to see Sigur Ros this summer, it's the first concert I've been to in like 2 years. It's so sad thinking about it, I used to spend all day just listening to music and now I just sit in silence :\
Do you/did you browse /mu/ at all?
>>7939974
whatever you say~
i want to make this conversation go farther and see how naughty you really are
can i add you somewhere
>>7939976
So wear them. 99.99% of the population has much beter things to think about than wondering if you are trans.
>>7939957
if by "i" you mean your self-hating dysphoric false male identity then i agree.
>>7939964
I don't get how you complain about passers when you yourself pass
Makes me think desu
>>7939994
You can not. Sorry.
I'm not kidding when I say I love my boyfriend and I would never be lewd with anyone else. I just don't think of cuddling as lewd.
>>7939999
yeah maybe I should just get back in by listening to like /mu/ essentials charts again, idk. I always liked their emo recommendations, though I never got much deeper than that
>>7939999
Like what kind of emo stuff? Did you get to Cap'n Jazz yet?
>>7939984
LOL sounds like the Upper East Side...except it was wealth or artistic credits. I was considered the later.
>>7939988
when i have the motivation to find new music, i'll just find a critically acclaimed classic from a decade and genre that I like that I've never gotten around to listening to and give it a try, or find a really well received recent album in a genre I like and give it a try. i usually end up finding songs I like and every few albums i find an album i really really dig
>>7939973
>>7939996
Strange. New York is one of the absolute least safest places I've ever been to. Not just for being.. what I am, but overall.
Everyone is aggressive and rude, people make shit that isn't their problem into their problem, people try to make fights out of everything, no concept of politeness or courtesy..
>>7939975
Its hard to get people to understand my fears with being myself. Like if I can't be seen 100% as a woman all the time then I want to never leave my room or if I do leave I want to be perceived as male so I don't get thought of as a faggot.
>>7940016
if they consistently perceive you as female, then why worry. The fact you were male bodied at one point isn't known to them. It's a non issue. Just go with the flow.
>>7939989
You should listen to Red Sparowes or Balmorhea